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donttouchtheneednoggle · 1 year ago

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realising you're trans is like realising you've been driving in a clown car all your life and infinite clowns of misery and uncomfortableness and dysphoria have been squished into what looks like a completely normal car and once they start coming out they don't stop

#me rereading a vent fic about chest dysphoria i started in 2021 #the same me who didin't accept i had chest dysphoria til this year 💀#'oh yeah that was just a phase' no bestie you repressed it to hell #and once again i WAS trans in 2021 i was nonbinary i was just also blocking EVERYTHING out #mine #gender adventures with neednoggle #i need to be nicer to myself ive only properly known for coming up to 4 months #vs 21 years of not knowing #im doing ok #i think im still enby now as well #jus in different way #some of it is hilarious anyway #i mean how much transmasc fic can i both read and write over several years #feeling incredibly comforted by and connected to #in a way nonbinary fic did not make me feel #and not have something click?#just feeling like a bad enby™#yeah all my transmasc fic? none of it was written with a jot of self awareness except half my bill and frank one #honeslty i think they were what tipped the scale 🤣#ok enough outing myself for today lmao

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