#the problem with Converge is that they're basically the AC/DC of mathcore

[gentleoverdrive]

(32/?) Kurt Ballou skanking fistfight lessons.

Writing unhealthy characters can sometimes be extremely unfun. Not because I dislike writing them or because what constitutes the core in said characters; quite the opposite: There's always something I find deeply fascinating in watching a fictitious individual who's not necessarily well put-together try to fight back against the well-worn asphalt they have dug their heels in, that I can seldom get captivated like that anywhere else on any sort of entertainment. ---- No, writing unhealthy characters is not fun sometimes because I have to write them. You know how screwed up it is to craft, spell-check, proofread and edit a voice that, more often than not, goes places that you've learned to regularly avoid in your everyday life? Someone who reminds you of instances that you've come to regret? Of your past vices? And sometimes, it starts getting way uglier. ---- Thanks to my psychiatrist, I've learned to let go of a lot of unhealthy things and habits one by one, but sometimes, mining the "places" you've previously been to for creative endeavors can be weird. Like, you're not that person anymore, but whenever you look back, you think "fuck, this is hard!". ---- Does this make sense? Sorta? Heck, I've been rambling a bit too much, haven't I? Well, let's bring it home for the night, then. See ya' tomorrow, whoever's still reading these!