#the preview show him look at side dish reminded him of sanpo... I can't do this

[eoharu]

gu always taking care the wild dogs and the last thing he did before leaving was making them some shelter only for them to be caged and taken away same day as he left back to his old life and that's so heartbreaking!!!! like all his effort to leave his past become meaningless because he know he doesnt belong there no matter how strong he wish to stay; he wish the dogs could at least have some protection but they're also taken awayㅡand both for same reason: they're too dangerous to people living there. I'm so sad because clearly gu doesnt want to leave, he could stay there forever staring at moon and stars, listen to mijeong's weird creepy thoughts, let changhee annoys him, work together with mr yeom honing his craftsmanship, but he has to leave eventually because if he's selfish enough he know he could make others in danger. and what's more sad that kind of life he has seem to have no way out, like he bound to stuck there, it's like he sold his soul to the devil and he could never get it back. I bet he wish mijeong at least mad at him and make him stay, he could use that as an excuse, but mijeong never did. his brimming tears!!! his shaky voice!!! him avoiding mijeong and find a hard time to face her oh god... i wish he could stay. i wish he could.

that scene where he laughs like a madman in a funeral, parallel to scene when the new liberation club member said she find a hard time attending a funeral because she just can't stop smiling though she feels opposite, is also heartbreaking. for me it's gu's realization hit, that his life is so fcked up and full of shitty mess and that's how it would always been, be it past or future. idk about you but i also tend to sarcastically laugh when unbelievable bad luck happen to me. i know he never intended to kill mr baek nor the girl he used to live with, but both die because of his words. he tried to live a decent life but people from his past keep drag him back. he has no choice but to be back managing a club full of people that make him sick and weary, and other business i don't know yet, in order to make sanpo untouched. he's helpless so he just can laugh it off wishing it would be less painful. and god, i wish mijeong could come and once again save him, and totally liberated him.