#the mental illness doesn't go away just bc i wish i was faking

[lost-in-the-planetarium]

some system cringe blog reblogged us and i'm giggling

[anastacialy]

y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'

[vtoriacore-rbs]

rant abt my mental illness don't mind me at all it's just more thoughts going into the void

why do i feel like im faking my mental illness my problems feel so trivial to everyone else's is it possible to like fake it and then get a diagnosis for it anyway bc what if im forcing symptoms like is that a thing?

ive read about imposter syndrome but im not fully convinced bc what if i genuinely am forcing symptoms of my mental illnesses onto myself and i gaslit myself into placebo effect like did i manipulate myself into believing it or something??? like is that a plausible situation ive tried searching for it but i didn't get any results other than "how to spot people who fake mental illness !1!1!1!" like bitch that's not what im asking !!

i honestly wish this is me faking it so that the symptoms go away. maybe i can like convince myself I don't have it and then placebo effect ??? could i do that? maybe i should get re-evaluated to see if i actually have bpd and bipolar disorder even tho i have statements proving both bc it doesn't feel real? like the doctor's could've maybe by some slim very slim chance evaluated me wrong and maybe i answered questions according to my previous research subconsciously or something? because maybe i wanted to be mentally ill??? could that happen subconsciously? l

like i know im mentally ill to some degree but it could just be me faking it for attention or just wanting to be different or something ?? do i just want people to care about me more when i do this ?? like i also don't want this to be the case bc faking mental illness is just fucked up and i don't think im that kind of person but what if i secretly am and just have been pretending all along until it felt somewhat real? im actually gonna cry LMFAO

im gonna need to think about this for a hot second or two because i feel like maybe my mental illness is just me forcing it on for some reason. conversely it could be imposter syndrome but i really don't know lmao. might take the easier option and just distract myself and not think at all. i HATE feeling this way and questioning who and what i am and what makes me.

[pinelesstree]

just a thing about adhd

i figure i probably have it but there’s the whole thing of thinking you’re faking too and i don’t want to ask to see anyone about it

bc i don’t ‘seem’ adhd to other people but when i look at posts by people with adhd they all seem a lot like what i do so

ye p

but then i could just be kidding myself into thinking i do those things

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(Long post ahead folks)

Ohhh boy, the famous question of "am I faking it?" Shows up in a lot of people with physical and/or mental illnesses. If you have access to a doctor and can get a diagnosis, you can get some relief, but sometimes you can't help but wonder. If you can't get access to a doctor, these concerns likely won't go away any time soon.

While I don't advise self-diagnosing, just for funsies, let's look at the symptoms of ADHD! The DSM-5 is what psychologists use to diagnose ADHD, so while this isn't a diagnosis, maybe this'll help you get a clearer picture of what symptoms come with ADHD!

TYPE 1: Inattentive. To fall under this category, you relate to at least six of the following symptoms and have been experiencing them for over 6 months: *failing to notice small details *difficulty maintaining attention *difficulty listening to others (mind is somewhere else) *easily distracted/sidetracked when trying to finish tasks *difficulty keeping organized, whether in belongings or deadlines *avoidance of work that requires a lot of mental effort *often losing things *difficulty keeping focused *forgetful in daily activities

TYPE 2: Hyperactivity-impulsivity. To fall under this category, you at least six of the following symptoms (or for 17 and older, at least five), and have been experiencing them for over 6 months: *fidgeting *can't sit still *feeling restless *difficulty keeping quiet in leisure activities *always “on the go,” as if driven by a motor. *Talking excessively *interrupting and blurting out in conversations *impatience *interrupts/intrudes on what others are doing, or taking over

(Btw, this is also assuming these symptoms aren't caused by another type of mental illness, like schizophrenia, anxiety, personality disorders, etc)

So, if you relate mostly to category one but not two, then it might be a sign of inattentive type ADHD (used to be referred to as ADD). If you relate mostly to category two but not one, it might be a sign of hyperactive-impulsive type ADHD. If you relate to both, it might be a sign of combined type ADHD.

Anon, don't be afraid to reach out to get help if you're able to! Just because you "don't seem" like you have ADHD to other people, it doesn't mean you don't have it. If you're unable to get a diagnosis now, just be nice to yourself and realize you're trying your best with what you have. I wish you luck!