#the kindness I've been shown genuinely has me in awe and I'm so grateful and thankful for all of it

[izzy-b-hands]

There was another very generous donation to my GoFundMe today, and I want to say thank you so much to whoever donated (if whoever donated is on here, and i hope they are so they can see this)🫂🫂🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Please know the money is going towards repaying on debts, towards food and other necessities, and it's been a huge help, and this is even more so, I can't thank u (and everyone who's donated/helped me in any way through all of this) enough, genuinely 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

U guys care me and I'm. not used to ppl actually caring about me and helping and just. thank u so much 🫂🫂❤️❤️!!!!

[luveline]

hi so I'm at risk of embarrassing myself here but I wanted to make a post saying how thankful I am at having reached 13k followers

there are so many of you and it doesn't ever feel real to me, and even though there have been some moments where having this blog has felt scary or daunting it's a real light in my life. knowing that there's people here reading and that like the things I've written is an endless comfort. transparently i am a someimes a very private person and i don't enjoy talking about my feelings a lot but this blog has helped me in curbing some of the more awful coping mechanisms. i also wanted to apologise for not always being able to answer your dms or asks or requests, i struggle a lot with the day to day, with mental and health issues, i struggle to leave the house and i find it so difficult and worrisome and genuinely plain scary to text people back and communicate with the people in my life and sometimes wonder if there's even a reason for me to be here when i find it so hard but this blog has kind of proven to be that reason. the endless patience and love shown to me here makes everything easier and i can't say thanks enough

this might be really silly i just wanted to say it so you know how grateful i am and that I don't understimate how lucky I am to be surrounded by so many kind people

[bangtan-gwenchana]

안녕하세요! ~

I wanted to share my first actual spending for BTS. First of all, I'm a new aRMy about 3 months old but I've always see BTS on my feeds before but I just recently put my effort into liking and actually have fallen in love with them. And I think I cannot turn my back now.

For the reason that adulting hits me so hard, I really can't spend on merchandise and physical albums 'cos Im broke and living to pay bills. So this is my first actual spent for our boys.

Well anyways, this movie actually gave me an opportunity to have a closer look to our lovely boys on stage and off stage. And also this is the closest that I can be with them. I wanted to attend to their concert and I hope I can. Pleaseeeeee! ~

I watched Burn The Stage The Movie on it's first day November 15 2018 together with my friend who is also a fan. We planned to watch it together because she's visiting the Philippines for a short time and we'd watched it together because we love them so much.

So basically, we watched the movie with no subtitles. We asked the staffs if the first screening also didn't have subtitles; they said yes and there was no info that it was released with subs. I was very disappointed. You can imagine how hard it is for non-korean people to watched the movie. I know we can enjoy bangtan bombs with no subs but after they'd post it, our kind-hearted translators translate it for us I-armys out of love. But no, this is not the case for the movie. No one knows if this will be released on dvd or Netflix and if ever yes it will surely take time.

As we watched the movie, I just looked at the screen with my eyes full of love and admiration for them. Everything was raw. I just felt every words of narration. I laughed as I see them laugh, sad when I see them tired and you can say that I really felt every emotions that they've shown through the length of this movie.

As the movie came to an end and how it shows their serious faces and with the tone of their voices I know that if I understand what they are saying I might be sobbing at the theatre.

To my dismay, as we leave the movie house I read some tweets and saw that there was subtitles for every language, most specifically in my country. And there was a released from the distributor that they provided subtitle and no dubbing for this movie. So I immediately talked to one of the staff and raised my concern. And she just said that there was really no subtitle for the said movie.

You can imagine how stressed I am because this is my first spending for bangtan and I will not allow to end it like this. So I talked to my cousin who works for the same company and told her my story.

The head office of the cinema was alarmed with my concern and immediately took action. And yes, I got to watch the movie again. This time for real. It is much sweeter the second time around. The amount of joy and laughter I felt from my first screening was twice when I understood every bit of what they are saying.

BTS are the most pure and genuine celebrity as far as I'm concern. They are the kind of talented artist that are so humble and humane. They are not afraid to show every bit of emotion they have on and off cam/stage. They cry when they are sad, they laugh their asses off when they are feeling euphoric. And lastly, they always say they will work harder and be better, where for us, ARMYs they are already the best.

⚠️ Spoiler alert ⚠️

One of my favorite part was their pool party. It clearly shows that they are still normal people who lives. They are just people who apparently are famous but still are young adults who wanted to enjoy their life at the moment. As narrated and through the screen we saw how they are having the time of their life: "Though we are always together, being together brings us greater joy." From that moment from hearing loud laughters came in silence. I bet my 2 cents everybody inside the theatre watching felt that pinch in their heart.

They can't be separated, not at this time. It was clearly seen at BV3 how they are used to have 7 people around and BV2 when Seokjin said that he feels anxious when they are not around and compared BTS members as cellphone that you always have.

Bangtan Sonyeondan are brothers binded by bond. They are meant to meet one another. I know they have their respective red strings tangled with each other.

Another favorite of mine was when Taehyung dedicates 4'o'clock to Hansung. As he talks and relay his message to Hansung, with him inside the moving van and with 4'o'clock as the bgm it touched my heart. Hansung will forever be special, his first character, someone very close to his heart.

/pcto/

And yes, the song somehow fits them. He also said that Hansung was his inspiration. I personally love that song that it makes me feel at ease. It helps me sleep at night. Tae's voice is my tranquilizer.

And my most favorite part was when they had a talked with Bang PDnim. It was as if they were having a conversation with their father. A father who is scared that his sons might lose their happiness in exchange for their dreams. He wanted them to loosen up, he also wanted them to be happy. I actually cried on that part. 😭

I also saw the screen for Wings Tour Manila. I'm in awe as I saw Fly high Philippine ARMY on the screen. I'm proud and it motivates me to watch their concert in my country. Patiently waiting for LY Tour PH 2019.

/pcto/

And Yeontan with Uncle Hobi really swept all my tears away. What a show stealer!

Who will not love these boys when they are these grateful to their fans, ARMYs. No one has been these grateful.

I am so scared how they relay their message in this documentary. It's as if they are ready to whatever will happen. They know they are flying high today but they know that eventually they will fall. But what's good about falling is that they know that ARMYs are always there to catch them. They surely know how to treasure every moment because they know that everything is temporary. That's how humble my stan group is. Years may pass as they see this movie my boys will keep ballin' ballin' still bangtan!

I love bangtan so much. I can't explain where this love is coming from but I am always praying for them.

I know that they are already living their dreams. My only wish and blessing for Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, and Jeon Jungkook that may they always find happiness in what they are doing. To always seek and look out for each other. To always find the light and not to lose their smile. I love them so much that I always pray that their hearts will feel peace.

I will fight for you, for your music, for your talent, for your passion, and for these 7 young wonderful boys that I still have to meet. I can't wait for that to happen. Wait for me. 알았지?!

Always keep things bright my bangtan! ~

Anyeong! ~

Mahal na mahal ko kayo! ~💜

I love you so much! ~💙

방탄소년단 사랑합니다! ♥