#the emotional whiplash of Ed leaving him then coming back then confessing to Nigel's muder then taking the act of grace and then kissing hi

[ismellpestilence]

Anyway if I was Stede and I was having doubts about the person I cared about most giving up everything to save me from a death I think I deserve, and my childhood bully made me walk into the woods at gunpoint, and that bully listed off the horrible things I'd done and I agreed with him completely, and when he was just about to kill me he tripped and died, then I too would walk all the way home barefoot and try to reinsert myself into my old life as if the last five-ish months had never happened.