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questioningdragons · 4 days ago

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Every therapist I've ever had: You need to be less hard on yourself! Learn to take pride in your accomplishments!

Me: What accomplishments?*

Them: Literally anything that was hard for you! Was it hard to get out of bed this morning? That's an accomplishment. Did you have a shower today? Did you brush your teeth before bed? Those are accomplishments!

Me: Sounds fake but okay.

#notes from the word page #anxious spirals #*I literally have two degrees #I have things to be proud of #but it's just so hard to not focus on how I could have done better #getting my first degree didn't feel like an accomplishment because I was barely scraping good enough grades to graduate #getting my second degree somewhat felt like an accomplishment #but more in that I put a lot of work into my practicums #the degree itself and the coursework didn't always feel like things I should be proud of #sometimes they did #but then I went into the job market sending out a ton of applications and getting no responses #one of the best pieces of positive feedback I got from my last principal was that I gave very good feedback to my students #but that didn't really feel like an accomplishment #because when I started he said the teacher I was replacing did well with the school's feedback model #so I just based what I was doing on what she had done #it did feel like acknowledgement of what had often felt like pointlessly hard work #and maybe I need to tease out the fact that acknowledgement and accomplishment have such different definitions in my mind #but anyways #to get back to the celebrating tiny wins thing #I just find it so hard to celebrate something that other people do easily!#(this may be where I have to come to terms that yes adhd is a disability and yes that means things are harder than they are for other peopl #oops)

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