#the current one I'm looking at is how she would've gotten into language learning and how that would've worked

[doedipus]

a large amount of time I've been spending on -untitled undefined scope original fiction project- since the last time I posted about it has been trying to develop the protagonist concept I came up with last summer or whatever into like, a character that would feel real and era appropriate.

it's fun research to do. naturally a lot of the details I assigned to her are things that I already think are cool, so it's been a lot of fun trying to trace her traits back through the relatively recent past, getting reminded of how much things have changed, or where the gaps in my intuition are, and then doing a flurry of reading to get a sense for exactly how someone like her and the people around her could have happened and what her life was probably like leading up to her present day. hopefully this results in some good good verisimilitude.

[moltensmusings]

Alright current thoughts after I spent 4 hours trying to figure things out last night/got a few issues into the 80s titan run.

The dynamic between Raven and kid flash is cute. It very well could be mind control since I feel like they keep bringing attention to him being confused for a reason, but I wish they'd bring back him and raven having a friendship

I definitely need to go back and fully read the 60s run, but the way Slade/deathstroke seems to be a more evil/morally gray Batman does interest me and knowing half the crazy stuff they write for him as the series go does make me a little disappointed. I would've loved if he took in teens and his hatred of the titans bled into them without things getting sexual or weird.

If they aren't going to put kori and Nightwing together they should've explored Kori and Donna. The fact that they haven't in spite of all the various other ships they've tried does make me side eye DC a bit.

Yeah things are a bit dated but there's a certain level of joy and camp in the older comics that I wish we could revisit. The costumes felt more experimental and fun. Specifically I love starfires design with my whole heart.

The writing can be a bit confusing at times. The way they start chapters often makes me feel like I missed something only for them to jump back to an earlier point and explain a page or 2 later. I'm guessing it was for hooking the audience but binge reading is a different story. It doesn't ruin my entire experience though. More just a note.

Starfire getting her name because she just kept blasting people for a solid week because no one could understand her and she didn't bother trying to learn the language is deeply funny to me. Go crazy girl. Like initially it seems like tamaranian powers were through basic skin contact with kissing being the fasts. All she had to do was hold someone's hand for a while to get a base understanding but she said "nah." Which is so fair.

Again: they are dated. But I'm having fun. I actually enjoy that I do have a starting point to work with and that we get scenes of the characters chilling together. I wish we got another run that didn't make me feel like I was missing a huge chunk of the story.

Let me go into som gripes I have with DC as a whole/some frustrations about the teen titans under the cut:

The writers of the more current stuff have completey forgotten that titans content should allow dick grayson to be his own entity. Him being tied to the batfamily so heavily at this point when him and Tim are the 2 to get proper real content beyond it is disappointing. Say what you will about the 03 show but at least batman was never a major part of the story

I don't know if the titans have ever properly been rebooted and that frustrates me. Every time I looked at a different run it would reference them already being a team, a new line up taking over, or in general just be written like the readers should know they've been doing this together for a minute. It makes it easy for them to trivialize what starfire meant to nightwing though so I guess it is what it is.

On that same subject, them completely retconning that starfire was a major reason for Dick choosing the name Nightwing, what if I commit arson.

I love the og kid flash design, but I much prefer them actually changing his race like they did pre rebirth because it makes him more distinct from flash. One of my biggest gripes with most of the teen titans is how much they looked like young versions/children of their respective mentors. I wish Donna (and maybe even dick a bit) had gotten a similar updated design rather than them backtracking.

[iheartchv]

Hi could I get a Bayverse 🐢matchup please?

I'm Macie, she/they! I'm 5'7, plus size. I have curly brown hair that reaches the base of my neck. I wear glasses, have pale skin, green eyes and freckles along my nose, cheeks and shoulders.

I was born and raised in Texas (unfortunately). I have an accent, and while it's not super thick, there are certain words that I say that make me sound like a bumpkin! I'm currently learning Spanish and ASL.

I'm shy at first but I tend to get more chaotic and loud as I get more comfortable around someone. I feel like I'm pretty witty and can mouth off some pretty funny remarks on the fly (thanks to the constant ribbing and chirping my 3 siblings and I gave each other throughout childhood and into adulthood).

I'm currently a laboratory technician but I'm working towards getting my BS in Mortuary Science, wanting to one day owe and operate my own funeral home.

I hate arguing but I'm definitely not a pushover. If I see something messed up, I'm gonna speak up. (I truly feel like I would've gotten up in Leo's face during the "The only opinion that matters is mine" scene. Bad move, my guy.)

While I have made strides over the years to love and accept my body for how it looks, I still have bad days when my confidence takes a hit. Especially when someone made a certain comment to me. Saying that I work in the medical field so I should know how unhealthy it is for me to be the weight that I am. So yeah that was fun 🙃

I love to read, write, sing, paint, sing, play drums, and tour historical cemeteries. I love sweets and just about any Italian or Asian cuisine. My favorite colors are black and purple, but my favorite shade of purple is lavender.

My love languages are physical touch and acts of service.

Thanks in advance 🐢💙❤️💜🧡

You're paired with... Donatello💜

Donnie would fall head over heels for you

Literally

He'd almost trip over his big feet if he sees you

He usually was calm cool and collected

But not around you

Your witty mind mixed with his sass is chaotic

Thats what your friendship started as

But as he got to know you more he started thinking more about you

Even dream about you

... even a spicy dream a time or 2🔥

It was probably when he tried to tell you and reassure you that you were perfect the way you were

He would feel ashamed feeling that way towards you because he didn't want to ruin your friendship

It'd kill him if he never got to see you or talk to you again

But he couldn't help these feelings

From your accent down to your personality he just thought you were perfect

And he wanted to show you how perfect you were... to him

When you two started dating he treats you like a queen

He will do things for you

He will give you plenty of hugs and kisses

He's very supportive and will do what he can to help

You're his world

Your happiness and well being is important to him

"Love you, turtle dove"

🐢💜💖👩

Hope you like your match 👉💜👈

[absideon-ephemeral]

II - Roommates, Commanders, and Generals.

A/N: And they were roommates - I'm sorry. The next chapter will be a lot more interesting as we finally get into the plot. And just as a heads up, THERE WILL BE NO SMUT AT ALL. Idk how to write it and I don't want to make a complete fool of myself if I do so. If I ever learn I may add some.

Warnings: mild language, curse words.

METANOIA Masterlist

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Who knew a ship could be so damn big.

     I had walked and walked, following the map on my datapad to my quarters, which seemed to be on the other side of the ship. It was nearly midnight and I still hadn't reached it.

     During the entire walk, I couldn't get the strange encounter with Kylo Ren out of my head. Why had he just stared at me? What was that prickling sensation? My mind was going so fast, asking so many questions, that I almost ran into a wall. I had stopped myself just short a couple of inches from slamming right into it. I stood there, recollecting myself, as a quiet, minuscule beeping came from my datapad.

     Looking down, the beeping was signifying that I had reached my destination. In front of me were my quarters and not some random wall.

"For kriffs sake, finally," I muttered.

     I shut off my pad and went to reach for the control panel next to me, but I stopped myself from hitting the door button. Are my roommates already inside? What if they're already asleep? I don't want to get on their bad side, who knows how long I'll be rooming with them.

"Hey!"

     My head whips to the side to be met with a stormtrooper.

"What are you doing here?" They asked. From the sounds of it, the stormtrooper was female.

"I asked you a question."

"I'm sorry, I'm supposed to be rooming here." My words flew out fast and uneasy.

"Whose orders?" The stormtrooper asked.

"Head technician Ademir. He said that there were no available rooms in the technicians' quarters and that this was the first available spot," I explained.

     The stormtrooper made a noise of understanding and hit the door button on the panel. It slid open with a slight whoosh and was pitch black inside. The stormtrooper went in, turning the lights on in the process. I stood there, awkwardly, almost waiting for an invitation.

"Well, are you just going to stand there, or are you going to come in?" The stormtrooper said.

"Uh, yeah right." I hurriedly walked in, the door closing behind me.

     The room was semi spacious. It had two dressers, three beds, each with its small nightstand; a refresher, and a window that outlooked the galaxy.

I made my way further in and sat on the bed that looked unoccupied. I sat rather stiffly as the stormtrooper began to take off her armor.

     Her helmet came off first, revealing dark skin, that almost seemed to have a honey glow to it, brown eyes, and a pretty face.

"So what's your name little technician?" She asked. Without the helmet on, I could hear an accent that was unfamiliar to me. I gave her my name and asked for hers.

"LN-7245." She answered as she continued to undress.

"LN-72- okay, that's a lot to call you by. Do you have a nickname or something I can use?" I asked.

She momentarily stopped her movements. "No. All we ever go by is our numbers." She then resumed, sitting down on the bed to take off her shin armor.

"Well, what about," I pondered for a second, "Leonora or Leo for short." She looked up at me.

"Leonora," she tested the name on her tongue, "I like it. Sounds nice. Where'd you come up with that?"

" Your number started with LN. I just took it from there and made something out of it that sounded pretty."

"Well, thank you for that." Leonora stood up, grabbed a case from under her bed, and began to pack away her armor for tomorrow.

When she finished, she grabbed some clothes, presumably sleep ones, out of the drawer on her nightstand. Before walking away to the refresher to change, she turned to the bed farthest away from me and smacked the person, who I honestly didn't even see, that was lying in it. They awoke with a start, cursing in Durese, a language known by space travelers.

"Why would you do that? I was sleeping so nicely!" They groaned. It was another female. This one had blond hair with brown streaks, blue eyes, and a pretty face as well.

"We have a new roommate. Be nice." Leonora smacked her again with her clothes and went to the refresher to change.

The girl grumbled something then turned to me, leaning back on her elbows, her head cocked to the side.

"So, what's your name?" She asked. I gave it to her. She peered at me curiously.

"You don't look like a stormtrooper." She pointed out.

I laughed. "What gave that away?"

She looked me up and down, "You don't have the body of a stormtrooper. And the way you seem to carry yourself, I'd assume you're a technician."

"Right you are." She laughed.

"I'm ZA-7283."

"Nice to meet you. Can I give you a nickname?" I asked.

"Nickname?" She asked. Leonora walked out of the refresher, dressed in comfy, all-black, nightclothes.

"She gave me one," Leo laid down on her cot, putting hands behind her head, "I'm Leonora, Leo for short." She had an air of pride around her.

The other girl gasped. "That sounds so cool! I want one too!"

"Okay, um, how about Zariah?" I suggested.

"Ooo, I like that. Makes me sound badass!" Zariah exclaimed. Leo and I laughed at her enthusiasm.

After we all calmed down, Zariah asked me a question.

"So why did they put a technician with two stormtroopers?"

I told her the same thing I told Leo.

"Ahhh okay. Well, at least you got two roommates who aren't sticks in the mud. That would've sucked." Zariah laid back down. I nodded in agreement.

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"Shit, shit, shit, shit."

     I hoped to maker that there were no higher-up officials around, because if so, I would've most likely faced punishment. I was currently running through the halls like a mad man with my jumpsuit half on and struggling to carry my small tool bag.

     I had completely forgotten to set an alarm last night, causing me to wake up 20 minutes late, which is by no means acceptable. Leo and Zari left way before me, as troopers have to get up earlier than the techs, and they didn't even bother to wake me up.

So now I had to resort to dashing my way through the metal halls, weaving in and out of other technicians and stormtroopers. As I slid around a corner, I suddenly ran straight into something. The force I hit it with was enough to send me sprawling backward onto the cold metal floor. I groaned in slight pain and made an effort to sit up. Regaining my bearings, my sight is immediately met with black boots.

My blood ran cold.

Trailing my eyes up, all I see is black. Black pants, a black shirt, a black cloak, and a black helmet.

The prickling sensation returns. This time it's sifting through my mind, weaving in and out of the crevices.

Kylo Ren.

I scramble to my feet as quickly as possible and bring my arm into a salute. Once again, the black soulless eyes of his mask stare into the very depths of me.

"Please forgive me, Commander, sir!" The wavering words flew out. He said nothing, and I feared that he would whip out his lightsaber and end me right then and there. But he simply stared for a few more moments then briskly walked away, the prickling fading with him.

I watched as he left, not dropping my salute until he disappeared completely and I could no longer hear his boots on the metal floor.

When I had deemed it safe, I dropped my arm and breathed a sigh of relief. Gathering myself together, zipping up my uniform properly, and grabbing my bag, I made my way to my task for the day.

I was assigned to fix some damage in a meeting room, presumably caused by Kylo Ren during a meeting that had gone sour.

But when I walked through the doors metal blast doors, I couldn't help but curse.

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

In front of me was one of the biggest messes I have ever seen. The poor innocent wallhad been slashed many times by a burning saber, leaving deep jagged lines. They crossed and weaved in and out of one another, forming some type of chaotic artwork. No matter the strange beauty, this was going to be a pain to fix.

Setting my bag down, I went closer to inspect the damage. The wiring underneath it had been damaged severely. Some areas are worse than others, but half of the underneath panels would need to be replaced.

Looking away from the wall, I took notice of a larger bag of tools and a welding cart set off of the side; free for me to use. I walk over to the bag, open it, and grab my first piece.

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Four hours and counting. That's how long I've been fixing this mess. And I haven't even gotten to re-welding the slashes yet.

For the last hour, I've been working in a tight space. Literally.

To fix some of the wires in one of the deeper slashes, I had to go inside the wall. It required me to remove the vent cover, which resided right below the slash near the floor, and crawl inside; upside down. It took me several tries and having to unzip my jumpsuit halfway, revealing my black under tank, and tie the sleeves around my waist to finally weasel in. My back was flat against the air vent as I worked and I could hardly hear anything. Honestly, it was a miracle I even fit. After removing the air duct lining, I was able to finally access the wires.

Which leads me up to now. I was in the process of attaching one of my last wires, peacefully working and oblivious to the outside world, when something unexpectedly nudged my foot.

The sensation made me jolt up, my head slamming into the roof of the duct.

"Kriff!" The word escaped as pain now radiated through my head. My foot was nudged again. "One moment please!" I shouted. I began to weasel my way back out, having slight difficulty due to not being able to see much.

Once I finally got my head and arms out, I sat on the ground, blinking my eyes to adjust to the harsh lighting, having been in a dark vent for the last hour.

"Did you hear me?"

My head whipped up, and I was met with someone you hoped to never meet; the infamous, General Hux.

I stood immediately, getting a slight head rush from the fast movement, and saluted. "General Hux, sir." I addressed him.

He looked at me with distaste; not pleased to see me without my uniform on properly. But there was no going back now. He looked me up and down, a frown forming on his face. He was just like I've heard him to be. Short, red-haired, and a not-so-pleasing face that was always screwed up in a face of displeasure.

He huffed and spoke again. "Did you hear me at all?" His voice was snobby and pitched.

"No sir, I couldn't hear anything in there." I curtly replied, taking notice of the men behind him. Other Generals and officers, I had never seen, but by the way they presented themselves, they were important.

"Well, I had asked what you are doing in here. This is a restricted area to those without permission." He sneered, obviously not liking me.

"I was tasked to fix this damage, sir. Some of the wirings needed to be replaced but I could only access it through the vent, sir." I remained still, keeping my salute.

"On whose orders?"

"Head technician Ademir, sir. I have the assignment on my data-pad if you wish to see, sir."

"That won't be necessary. Do you have any other tasks to do?" He was growing frustrated at my presence.

"No sir, I don't. This is my only one due to how much work it requires." I answered. He huffed and opened his mouth to say something, but was interrupted by the blast doors opening, and someone walking in. My view was blocked by the other men, but General Hux rolled his eyes, already knowing who had entered.

"Ah, Commander, how pleasant of you to join us."

[bearpillowmonster]

Katawa Shoujo

Now if you never heard of this game, it's a visual novel/dating sim. I even heard that it's one of the best, both free and paid for. It revolves around a school of kids with varying disabilities which is a touchy subject but we'll just roll with it.

My first run, I decided that I'd do it however I wanted, there were a few things I backtracked just to see what happened but I (mostly) just kept it my opinion and ended up with Emi. Why is her hair blonde in game but rosy in the animation? Other than that though, this is pretty well crafted for an indie, I'm convinced that it's as good as any AAA or something you'd pay for. But it didn't come without work, as I'll soon talk about. You'd think you'd get a more definitive choice for the end of Act 1, but my last one was just "Go for it" or "Take it easy" when you're racing her.

The whole game gives a vibe of a breezy summer day which I really enjoy. I think it might be the color palette. There are some character designs that I wish were better even with just minor tweaks but it emits what it's supposed to. And when it doesn't feel like summer, the going to school part feels like the fun part of school when you'd just play paper football and shoot rubberbands.

There's also some NSFW scenes, I can't really remember if I knew those were in there or not but they're there but it's not like you play them or anything. I mostly skimmed them anyway. MC can be a sort of clutz at times with simple stuff throwing him completely off game but there are some good points that the actual plot brings up. Especially the one about how to approach touchy subjects to help someone when they don't want to talk about them. I think that it's relevant to some situations I've been in but I think if I played this in those times, it would've just confused me even more. What do you push on, what do you leave alone?

Second run went to the other person I was after since I couldn't decide between Emi and Shizune. This one I actually followed a guide. I feel like each route lends itself nicely to another run because after that first chapter, you're on a specific road with that girl, and really only talk to that girl so the rest is sort of a mystery. With Emi, her exception was Rin because they were friends. But with Shizune, it's different because Misha is there and you get more insight to other characters through her (even if you don't make any choices with them).

In that first chapter, Shizune and Misha can be kind of annoying because of how they're not exactly friends with the others...however, I'd argue that the others are like that in their own way, you just don't see it as much, especially with Shizune's glowing persistence. In a way, I see it as a front, towards the beginning Hisao (mc) talks about how she's not like he expected but then she gets shy and serious almost like a different person. I think that's her way of opening up, just in reverse from everyone else. She's "territorial". And you can't chalk everything up as her when Misha is involved too, and they even bring that up. That's kind of the theme, that there's a fine line between smothering and helping, how do you truly communicate when you're deaf and don't want to live through your translator? They blend that in with shaping their future.

Hisao is basically the same as last run but I found that he kind of just invites himself to things (which I guess is ironic since they had to try so hard in the beginning to get him to go anywhere) and has some "hot takes" which come across as overzealous. Also Misha's "Bush Cheney 2004" shirt speaks volumes. In terms of age...ah, there are some things some players are gonna hate with this route. I myself don't like this route 'as much' but it's not really a bad route, just one that could be better. Especially with Shizune's past, they tease it with her family and even have a cover of her with her younger self in Ch.4 and while there are themes of that, I feel like we could've gotten it a bit more "clear". I like that it has that scene at the end about opening up, but that maybe should have happened a lot earlier as I don't think they tell each other nearly enough about each other and bringing that up is nice but it leaves more to be desired when selling this relationship.

There's not a 'Misha' route per say but there's a bad ending that has to do with Misha so I just watched it online, they follow the same basic path (which is annoying) but end differently and have different responses from her specifically. That focuses on a much different angle and actually has Hisao telling Misha some of the stuff I wish he'd told Shizune. I almost feel like they focus on Misha too much when it's considered a Shizune route but at the same time, it makes sense that they want to flesh out both.

There are also apparently some pre-release changes (which I only heard about) but I hear that it fits better with the rest of the game as well as giving you different feelings for both endings even in a sort of twisted way. It apparently makes less sense on that family thing though. The way it currently is, I feel like you don't get the full picture unless you get both endings which can be a chore, this is very different than Emi's. But the art is better than it used to be so I commend them for that.

Because it's quarantine, just for funsies, I decided to play along and learned the alphabet in sign language. It wasn't even all that hard, just a few days to get it down without looking at a few letters here and there.

Now, I know if anyone replies to this, they'll say to play a specific character or even all of them and that's fine, I still might, I see that doing that gives you a full picture (literally on the title screen as well) but these were the main two for me.

[gg-ladybug]

*Debating society breath in*

First off, a point I’ve made before, he hasn't crossed all the lines. We see in robustus just what he can do. His cane has a sword in it and he had the ability to fight off several rockets and self defence systems. Now I'd be rather obvious that missiles are quicker then people. Had he really been trying to hurt the heroes, believe me he could. He has years of experience in self defensive techniques. More then Adrien by far.

Along with this, he has a rapier in there. He would've unsheathed his cane long ago, or used the full extent of his training. As someone that knows the fencing and street fighting style he uses, he's holding back. He could've done a lot more damage, but he hasn't. He chooses no to.

Big starter here. The day old fan fiction trope of Gabriel being abusive. Now any miraculous fan, pro-Gabriel or no, can admit he's emotionally neglectful yes. In a nutshell, emotional neglect is when a parent fails to see, know, or understand their child as they really are, rather than through the lens of what the parent thinks they are or wants them to be. It sometimes means a lack of attention. This however, while not excused, can be explained in several ways.

One is as simple as Gabriel literally being none the wiser to his neglectful actions without someone such as Emilie and Nathalie pointing it out. This homaging to him having a type of personality disorder or being some degree of neurodivergent as the creator has hinted there being someone like this a few times before.

On the other hand, he may be completely neurotypical and the distance he has created between him and his son is clearly not intentional, nor what he wants. No matter how you view it, his sons continued safety and health is always ensured apart from the times he's been in the fire of an akuma. Which in defence, is often because he strayed away from his bodyguard and safety to be Chat Noir.

(Then again there's Riposte, but she was more misplacing her revenge that Gabriel expected to be directed at Lila)

Now for this next point I'm going to have to do a bit of exposition for it to make sense both logically and theoretically. Nathalie is, as far as I can tell, a type of Au Pair along with assistant.

An Au Pair is a cultural exchange programme in which a person from abroad moves to a different county for an unspecified amount of time without the usual requirements and are welcomed as a member of the family in both their home and life. More often then not, they're paid to do work of some kind in return.

A common of occurrence in 3D animation is how hard it is to animate hair. Let alone black hair too which light reflects little to none with, meaning it would look unnatural without lots of time, money and effort. This is more often then not attributed to characters with foreign origins. This can be bypassed by a bluer shade or a colour strip. The latter possibility is not to be confused with the trope, which is a problematic stereotype within Hollywood.

Note that Nathalie consistently has both midnight hair and a dyed red streak. Even with increased appearances, much of Nathalie's life is still a mystery. Very little is known about her outside the Agreste family and what she does outside of work if she leaves at all given the recent information she has a room in the Agreste mansion. It's not that hard to believe she may not be French.

To have gotten a job there, one can assume she had some knowledge of French. It's an official language in countries across five different continents and is also the second most studied language in the world. 120 million students are currently learning French. Atop the 220 million native speakers in the world, there are an estimated 72 million partial speakers, and these numbers are increasing.

According to possibility, she's most likely Spanish, Portuguese, or Romanian as they are all Latin languages and therefore similar to French and easier to learn. Many French words resemble theirs and have almost the same meaning. We can possibly even apply this to Gorilla too if we stake the chances of him speaking another language rather then being mutex

Now we have the logistics down for her being an Au Pair let me get into why this was important. She is, quite literally, also a baby sitter. He is by no means leaving Adrien alone constantly through out the day. Nathalie is literally meant by premise to take care of him along with her other duties in return for staying.

Now. All this Au Pair possibility could be wrong, right? Sure. I can agree on that. I'm probably more partial for the other option. The fact she's not exactly an 'executive' assistant, but a family one. Family assistants work for people with children who actually require more than just childcare.

They're a parent's personal assistant and the children's babysitter all in one. They help out the parents by doing whatever they need assistance with. Some need help running their business by scheduling, organising, filing and keeping the home running smoothly while they're busy, others wish for homes schooling or just someone to take care of the taxes if they can't.

A family assistant is similar to a personal assistant except that a large part of their job also involves childcare and household duties such as driving the children to school. Busy parents are able to delegate important familiar and business tasks to the assistant so that they can spend more time doing what they have to.

She is by all means, paid to be both an assistant and a nanny. Which means he isn't physically neglecting him either as he's provided someone  qualified to watch over his child. It's more like a too busy single parent situation (granted busy with villainy half the time he could be spending with Adrien of all things but we never said the guy was perfect) than active malice for the boy. He doesn't hate him. He just can't personally do most the things we think of when we imagine a good parent.

So let's pull back the imagination quickly. Leave all the expectations we hang on the man and our anger for him not doing them for half a minute. The greatest way to see this without any bias is in the aftermath of Style Queen. This is arguably Gabriel Agreste at his truest. No clouded judgment, no miraculous and no Emilie.

We learn a lot, especially from the point he has fully decided to renounce the miraculous. Gabriel says and I quote: "I don't want to break our promise, but... I can't keep putting our son in danger. Style Queen was supposed to be my masterpiece... but even she failed. I feel like I've done all I possibly could, you know? I'll never be able to fulfill my wish without Ladybug and Cat Noir's Miraculous. Forgive me, Emilie. I'm giving you up, Nooroo."

This shows that Gabriel can and will put Adrien over his wife. A goal that is now clear was something Emilie actually assigned to him. A "Promise me you'll bring me back." and "Of course I will." situation no doubt by his wording. When breaking a promise, it is a natural human response to then defend such a choice or even reason they technically had done it anyway.

"I feel like I've done all I possible could, you know?" We can conclude from this that Gabriel must of agreed to something along the lines of doing everything possible. He, at that point, seriously believed he had reached that. He'd put their son in danger, no accidentally or in a round about way, but willingly let Audrey be mad at himself which naturally roped Adrien into it.

He would've given up Hawkmoth indefinitely had Chloe not inadvertently rekindled the emotional draw to try again. Leaving the opportunity would be directly betraying Emilie's trust. (If not order but that's an entirely different subject matter/theory on whether or not Emilie was evil.)

He cares enough for Adrien to give up Hawkmoth. Had he truly despised him, he would've not cared for such a feet. Merely brushing it off with another sworn shout of revenge. This is shown again when Adrien jumps off a building at the instructions of Ladybug. I repeat, jumped in the instructions of Ladybug. The misconception Gabriel wanted such a result or through him off is large.

He intended for Adrien to just be held the entire time in the safety of Gorizilla's grip. If he transformed to get out, or Ladybug defeated the akuma and Chat Noir remained non existent in the battles he always showed up to, then the point would be proven that Adrien could actually be the hero, not just through coincidence of having a ring, but honest to god evidence.

He could've just let Adrien hit the ground too, because he would've been saved when Ladybug won. Gorilla was in no means meant to be a long term thing, instead a plan to figure out if he needed to talk to Adrien or not. He didn't intend for him to win. So a loss was inevitable. The cure would've reverted him back to normal on the ground as though nothing had gone wrong. Yet he let Ladybug to catch him after expressing concern any parent would feel. Hope even, that he would transform into his worst nemesis, just so he wouldn't needlessly die.

He loves his son, and his admitted so many times. Now however, we must trapeze into the biggest argument for anti-Gabriel posts and an understandable one at that. Chat Blanc. Given The Ladybug's powers, he can do whatever he wants or needs because in a few minutes it wouldn't of even mattered anyways. That, for example, is why I believe he just waved Techno Pirate to release the missiles without much care. The heroes had as good as won, so what damage would it do?

This same idea is why I believe as he gets further into his Hawkmoth career, the more reckless his decisions become. Psychology would peg it as desensitisation to consequences. This magical reset which happens every time he attacks means he never sees the fallout of his actions. It's like children that break things. Don't get them a new one immediately, because that installs a belief that all they have to do to get what they want is break it. There’s a canon time skip in Chat Blanc. Meaning he’s gone through that process a lot long then current Gabriel. Akumatising Adrien isn’t that bad when in concept he can reverse it via the wish or just curing it himself.

Along with that, the butterfly effect is super important with Chat Blanc. Although we followed Marinette and Adrien, we have no clue what the results were on the villains goals. What borders were set up and problems occluded that never arose in the current time line because of the disruption of events. It very possible something pushed them to the point they were reckless enough to ruin their relationships here with upmost confidence they would rewrite it perfectly later.

Psychologically, it's just as clear he's a desperate man who has no idea how to process his emotions. That's a serious flaw, but one that can be fixed over time. Besides that, Gabriel is all alone. Yes, there's Adrien, but they're emotionally distant as most families become for a while after loss, and Adrien doesn't fully understand what's going on.

We push this bad parent perspective on Gabriel, but it's not as though he can be there for Adrien and vice versus. Anything he says would be a lie, and anything Adrien says would be wrong. There’s nothing we can do now? To Adrien maybe but Gabriel has a possibility in his possession. Gabriel is, for lack of better phrasing, cursed with knowledge. I'm sure, had Adrien been aware of his mother's condition, things would have been different. He has no one to talk to about it and reach decisions on what to do.

While there's Nathalie, who clearly has the most information out of anyone since they according to him wouldn't of found the miraculous without her, but she is just as distant. When she's not, she's enabling him rather than trying to pull him away from villainous actions. Given her obvious unknown feelings to the man, she's compromised.

Gabriel Agreste, without a doubt, has no one to tell him he shouldn't do these things. No one that matters to him at least. What should he care about what some random girl in spandex and boy in leather says? He runs on the core belief that he is doing what's best for his family, not the public, but his family. Should someone in that bubble tell him that isn't the best, then he would come to his senses. He needs the chance to have an anchor.

Now the one that gets on my nerves the most as a designer. The trope that Gabriel Agreste doesn’t feed Adrien. I’m sure if he was able to hear that, he’d also throw a fit. This is in no way true. Both onscreen and physically. While as an AU it’s a a great premise to explore, integrating it into canon and believing it’s true just isn’t correct.

Adrien can ask for snacks at any moments notice for Plagg. An infinite amount straight from the chefs. Even unhealthy options like Ice Cream. See: Origins. He is fed three full square meals a day, and we’ve seen such on screen many times. See: The Bubbler. In fact, the only person depriving Adrien of food is Adrien himself whenever he leaves mid meal to fight an akuma.

Given these meals are healthy, we can assume he has a nutritionist, and being a model it’s a given he does. So they’d never allow such a thing as not eating. Model nutritionists are actually specifically trained to notice such things, both self induced and outer induced and try to fix such things by added more calories. #FeedAdrienSweets2k21 is more appropriate then #FeedAdrien2k21. When you’re fed such balanced diets, you get excited over any sugary product handed to you because you don’t get them often.

Legally, this would also be an impossibility. There’s model laws in France specifically over weight. He couldn’t be anything other then a healthy weight for a boy his height and still be working. They’re forbidden from any runway if their BMI isn’t up to standard. Employers breaking the law could face fines of up to 75,000 euros and up to six months in jail. Even more so for Adrien given he’s a minor.

Adrien is loved (definitely not as physically well as he could be but emotionally he’s there) and fed. While our resident cat deserves to have a perfectly nice life, explain his questionable one as worse then factually necessary for any reason but fan fiction is just plain incorrect. Gabriel wants to resurrect his wife. The reasons for this, while fully unknown, is for himself and Adrien. In trying to make things better, he’s making things ironically worse.

He's trying to be a line father with what he’s been dealt when it seems like his wife was the brains and brawn behind the last operation in the past. Adrien himself has said he was much different before she disappeared. He’s completely out of his depth. Just because he's not the perfect parent doesn't make him hate Adrien or broach into jail level treatment territory. The fact he's even trying should be means to give him just a bit of credit. Not all the credit, but some of it. He could’ve just mysteriously dipped himself too and better protected his identity this way. No one suspects a dead man.

*Breathes out in cropping 10 thousand words down to 2,600 so it isn’t too long*

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