#the annoyance is 100% real at first and then after a while he's sorta lying to himself but is still tired by the others
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Okay I'm kinda talking out my ass/projecting my own autism onto Saiki here but:
Though Saiki is an unreliable narrator and truly loves his friends, I think some of his resentment over hanging out with them is real, and I can understand it.
I am a person who can readily admit I love my friends, and I do like to socialise, but I need plenty of warning beforehand and time to recuperate afterwards, because socialising takes effort. When I'm invited to do something or hang out with friends, I almost always feel a shadow of resentment about it - even if it's a thing I want to do and with people I like. It still feels like I'm losing out on a day of doing jack-shit. Cancelling on doing jack-shit is still cancelling on plans, even if those plans were just "wake up, write fanfiction, draw pictures, etc." and it throws me off. I feel like I can't enjoy spending time with my friends unless I give myself time to get excited about it, and if it happens too suddenly I find myself shutting down or floating away a bit.
Now, if we look at Saiki, who's friendship with all these people was pretty much built on these kinds of interactions, and add those to his deep-rooted belief that he doesn't deserve friends, that resentment and anxiety must be even more strong. I think the fact that Saiki obviously grows to care for his friends really shows his deep desire for connection, even more so if we go with the interpretation that some of his negative feelings about them are real.
My point with this ramble isn't to say "Saiki really does find the others annoying and therefore doesn't like them" but rather the opposite. On some level, Saiki is "tolerating" being out of his comfort zone, but the fact that he's willing to do this for his friends shows that he really does care about them.
#I fucking FELT that episode where Saiki's friends kept inviting him to do stuff over the holidays until he had no time to himself#I like people and hanging out and stuff but I would still HATE that#“oh no my beautiful summer vacation is being filled up with horrible activities!” I know what u are#this long-ass ramble was inspired by the fact that I just spent a day with my friends after only a day's warning#I love them very much but felt kinda awful the whole time and my brain was like extra slow#and was like “man does Saiki feel like this every time he hangs out with his friends? I'm surprised he isn't even MORE of a grump”#but yeah I think it probably gets a bit easier for him once walking home with the others and getting ramen becomes a routine#the annoyance is 100% real at first and then after a while he's sorta lying to himself but is still tired by the others#that's my headcanon#pendragon theories#does that count as a theory?#saiki k#saiki kusuo
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