#that's why i so very dearly love do hyun soo who got demonized so much throughout his youth he started to believe he wasn't capable of love | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

tardis--dreams · 2 years ago

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I think it says nothing about me that 98% of my favorite characters are the ones who absolutely do not trust anyone, always consider how bad people can be, rather than how good they can be. The ones who cannot read social cues well, and for whom intimacy, trust, and being comfortable around people is a foreign concept. The ones with childhood trauma who learned to adapt to a world where nothing could be considered to be save and no one could be considered to be trustworthy. The ones who never show their true emotions but if they do they do so violently breaking down. The ones who get treated as outcasts and have accepted this role.

But like i said. That says nothing about me as a person

#not all my faves combine all of these characteristics. but it's a theme. i relate to them. and i love them‚ which is funny #because i really don't like myself at all.#but it explains why i got imprinted on juwon and not dongsik. because i find myself in him #(do Not understand this as 'i like juwon more than dongsik'. i would die for dongsik. it's not about liking him more or anything #can't quite explain it)#and it explains why kang yohan is so very dear to me. despite me really not liking him the first few episodes the first time i watched #how he puts on a show in public and gets awkward around the people he loves and how he expresses his love by letting people hate him #(i love how we have a similar dynamic between gaon and yohan and juwon and dongsik but vice versa. but that's a different topic)#that's why i so very dearly love do hyun soo who got demonized so much throughout his youth he started to believe he wasn't capable of love #who put so much effort into trying to seem normal without realizing he Actually felt So much love the entire time #lee ji-an who doesn't even try to act friendly. who thinks she's a terrible person and cries when told she's actually good #mijeong who feels uncomfortable all the time who doesn't like anyone completely who's exhausted all the time #i have more but I'll leave it at this. i really want to point out every single thing i love about all of them (especially juwon and yohan #)#my heart beats a little faster whenever someone shows interest in me or implies/actively expresses they like me somehow #despite my very obvious lack of social skills. and i feel like I'm tricking them even though i don't usually approach people #but I'm not myself when I'm around people. I've recently started to try to be more me but i know i wouldn't be very likeable #(yeah idk where this is supposed to be going so i better stop. i just. Love these kinds of characters So much okay?!)#shut up amy

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