#that's such a neat character and he gets so little time with it djfhgdjfg

[cherubchoirs]

i'm fucking. whagshjqgdjshdb first of all i'm obsessed with ur supercomputer au it's SO sick!! but second, now that p5r has been ported to pc i've been able to play it again n i've been LAMENTING how little the actual game did with yaldabaoth? but it's inspired me to do as i do n create ocs to remedy lack of character exploration lmao n i've settled on this idea to create a kind of "daughter" for yaldabaoth? the gist of it is that he created her by separating part of himself into its own being, n she comes from the distorted desires of humans who essentially know things are wrong n have the desire to change them but are still afraid of rocking the status quo? she's essentially another variable in his "game," as well as a way for him to attempt to quell any feelings of regret or remorse within him (since. a being created from human desires shouldn't be able to separate himself from them, but). n ultimately, his plan for her is to reabsorb her into himself at the culmination of his power, to prove that humanity's desire for change is still too weak to challenge him, but she ends up defying him n their resolution is that he regrets the way everything played out n the ultimate culmination is that even though he is a "god", bc he is born from humanity he could never completely rid himself of things that make up human psyche. also i wanted to explore the possibility for him to genuinely care about humanity through her; since she's technically a piece of him, n it's just got me thinking about everything n the fact that like. in canon he pushed akira so hard n the ultimate conclusion of the game to be like. "well, anyways!" after everything was SOO frustrating bc there was literally no reason for him to orchestrate things the way he did if there wasn't also So Much More To It

HOOTIN AND HOLLERIN...YEA!!!! YOU GET IT!!

i totally also 100% believe there just...HAD to be more when it came to yaldabaoth and i think he was cheated out of getting his development, esp when you consider his relationship with akira as well as the similarities the two of them share. they develop a social link together that culminates in yaldabaoth offering a place by his side, and how they reflect one another is actually interesting: they're both of the fool arcana, they both have a shapeshifter and faceless motif, and akira's ultimate persona is yaldabaoth's son. generally speaking, the big bad god isn't so deeply connected to the main character so like. what happened!!! he's also built up as such a major presence in akira's life, he's his guiding adult figure, and they've created a bond as deep as the ones akira shares with his closest friends. it's such a fantastic setup, to have the protagonist so unwittingly close with the final antagonist and then????? THEY DO NOTHING WITH IT??????? it's honestly so bizarre that how personal this all is is NEVER addressed by the narrative whatsoever since what's the point otherwise???

BUT to get back on track, it really would have been SO nice for yaldabaoth to have more of a connection to the human consciousness. i’m bringing it up again i know, but that’s why i really loved how the anime had him refer to himself as “us” and “we” in his grail form - i think there’s a yaldabaoth that is individual (god) and a yaldabaoth that is collective (grail), with the collective sort of being his base form. he becomes something else with a sense of identity, but yal is ultimately forged from the desires of humanity and he responds to it. i really wish there would have been more acknowledgement of his situation, where he has grown into a god only because it was wished for - he is an amalgamation of desire and so many people were being crushed under the weight of societal pressure that he became a god to answer prayers. and yaldabaoth has disdain for humanity, but imo his solution isn’t meant to be a punishment, it’s just what he believes is the best way to solve the problem. ALL THAT TO SAY...i would love for him to be able to play off of a character that represents all of that for him skdfhdg like to acknowledge that he obviously has feelings about all of this and he’s not at all divorced from it would add a lot...and i esp like the idea for her character because yaldabaoth admits that there are good people out there, but so many of them do nothing or are otherwise looked over, and i just think that line isn’t talked about enough!!! ALSO also i just like thinking that she’d be a character throughout the game...and the reveal would be really good aaaa!!!