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Crimson blossom, verdant forest
Part 20 of Lure
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jounouchi Katsuya/Kaiba Seto Tags: Alternate Universe - Yakuza, Crossdressing, Jealousy, Explicit Sexual Content, Master/Pet, Degradation, Feminization, Sex Toys, Minor Exhibitionism, Humiliation Kink, Praise Kink, Clothed Sex, Cock Warming, Anal Sex, Barebacking, Year 2
Kaiba finally makes good on his threat to dress Jounouchi up as his personal courtesan. 万緑一紅 (ばんりょくいっこう) [banryokuikkou] (n) one red flower standing out in a sea of green vegetation; one item of quality standing out among many; one woman among many men
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A fic for art exchange with the lovely @inamax. Check out the beautiful art of the Lure boys. Since one of the prompts I received was "Lure Jou in drag," I decided to take this chance to write an idea that had been percolating in the back of my brain last year. I hope you enjoy it!
#series: Lure#yugioh#puppyshipping#violetshipping#kaijou#my fanfiction#i tried not to be too wordy but ended up with a 5k fic anyway lol#trying to do my best to get myself under control for these other exchange fics#that's 1 out of 5 done now#I'm going to keep plugging away at these when I can#thank you to the people who are doing these exchanges with me for their patience! <3
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HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!! To this elderly bapy boye!!! he...!!!
#cats#ghhbbb this is the first time I've genuinely considered tumblr blazing a post lol but no.. i shant.. I feel too weird putting financial#information into tumblr or whatever unless I made like a seperate bank account or something not associated with anyhting else lol#but I gave it serious contemplation which is really sayng something (the evil magical spell that all cats cast over u by their perfection)#ANYWAY.................... old man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it's technically like march 8th but I did his party a little early. I have other pictures to post later maybe too..hrmm#The '1' candle is actually a '4' candle with the side part cut off because they didn't have any 1s#I went all out (like under $15 still lol) and got new birthday decorations for him instead of using the same old#ones from the past like 5 birthdays that I've done for the cats lol..#His theme was rainbows mostly in as light of colors as I could find#The legal age to drive a car in the US is 16 so.... honk honk beep beep.. I shall go out and buy him the most expensive car on the market#as soon as March 8th comes. then he can run little errands (probably mostly getting kibbles or chicken somewhere)#stealing the rotisserie chickens from walmart or something lol#AND they would let him have them. He would drive up and walk inside and they'd call the manager to come over#and they would be so moved by his presence and his big goofy stare that they would just be like..... okey.. have all the chicken in the#entire store. Actually. have the store. it's yours now. And This would continue all the way up the chain until he was handed#the entire walmart company. And every other company. a boy who owns everything. probably wouldnt use it for evil. he'd just abolish#everything and then focus on eating chickens.. ........ chibken son...
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Quick Haru that was supposed to be a doodle
#sorry for dropping off the map I got into ffxiv and now whenever I pick up a pen I black out and there’s a hot elezen woman on the canvas#I cannot control myself I am sorry#p5#persona 5#persona#haru okumura#I thought maybe I was done with persona and then I saw one (1) post about her and it all came back… Haru ily sm#my art
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The way I immediately plopped onto bed for a power nap after getting home from work 🥱😴
#ore no kao#i held it together well for 5-5.5 hours i think--productive with my documentation email follow-ups and getting a few doc updates started#but was yawning on the train home even as i got some translating done and well 😴#least i had a nice package coming in 😌#now if i can sleep before 1 tnght given another office day--ft cleaning out more of our space for a moved-up move upstairs--thatd be great
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tbh the fact that i ended up shipping carageta is really funny because i didn't even want to go see the movie. And now I'm halfway through typing up a second fic and it's been. a week. what happened.
#I haven't been this productive in at least half a year#my pipeline to shipping them went:#1. not even interested in seeing the movie#2. oh i guess it's kinda interesting#3. oh my god look at their designs they're so pretty#4. oh their relationship is fascinating. people are gonna ship them aren't they. oh well not my business i guess.#5. oh no i'm obsessed with them now. guess it's time to check ao3#6. Why is almost every single fic shipping them#7. guess I might as well check this one out and see what's up with people#8. oh. oh no it's compelling. i'm convinced#9. dig out notebook and write like 3 pages of drabbles before settling on an idea#10. it's been less than 36 hours and I'm hitting publish on an incest fic that is currently my favourite fanfic i've ever written#11. it's been a week and I'm ⅔'s done another fic. and I drew people kissing for the first time like ever#oh and also a playlist was made in this time#shattered rambles#personal#carageta#gladiator ii
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How do y’all deal with a neighbor that hates your dog? I’ve lived in a double for a few years and one of the newest people that moved in hates Honey with a passion. Honey barked once in the backyard this morning around six when someone she’s never met went into a neighboring backyard to smoke a cigarette. I brought her in as soon as she started barking but this new neighbor texted me vitriol about how she can never sleep because Honey barks occasionally and that I shouldn’t use our shared backyard (the reason I moved to this place). I’ve never had a single neighbor complain about her before and the most she barks is like three separate barks throughout the night but l can almost always get her back in and quiet before she barks twice in a row. Leia can’t sleep through the night without going out but this neighbor expects them not to go out at all between 10pm and 10am.
#I’m at such a loss#advice#like I’ve been sitting outside with them when I take them out at night so she has less opportunities to bark but she’s a guard dog breed#it’s in her nature to bark#like I have no idea how to cater any more to this neighbor#she’s like why can’t you walk them instead of letting them in the yard#which 1. I’m in a house with a backyard for this reason and#2. honey has arthritis and her PT only wants her to go for one 5 minute walk a day right now and we have no front yard#3. is that walks give them the zoomies so they’ll wake her up that way#I feel like I’ve done a lot to try to keep them quiet at night but I have no idea how to deal with this chick#again everyone else who’s lived in that side of the double including her roommates have no problems with the dogs
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McStareface Part 3 - NO JEWELRY!
Trequel to McStareface Part 1
Sequel to McStareface Part 2 - Smack Talk
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No Jewelry
Was the purpose of this entire mini comic series (Especially part 3) because of panel 9?
YES***
Like Eda Mode's "NO CAPES!", growing up when I used to play sports in school we were not allowed to wear jewelry while playing.
And in my mind, magical dueling is as much of a sport just like any other individual 1-v-1 muggle sport.
When I first saw that duel between MC and Sebastian in which Prof. Hecat pits the two students against each other, I couldn't help but think that if that was me, out of habit, I would jump off the piste (in fencing terms, that is the fencing strip play area you would duel on and I would like to imagine that's also the magical name of the dueling strip play area since to me dueling is just the magical version of fencing) and immediately take my jewelry off because I have no wishes to become the next horror story of how wearing jewelry during sports caused an injury.
And hence why part 1, 2 and 3 of McStareface was born - all because of panel 9.
That's it.
That's the whole reason.
***That and to give a reason for Iñaki to call Sebastian "Stare-y McStareface" since she doesn't know his name yet. She essentially gave him the Boaty McBoatface type of nickname as a stand in until she learned his real name 😂. I needed to make part one in order to get part 2 and 3 where I wanted to be and for that nickname she picked for him to make sense. 🤣 This was more than 3 months in the making 😂🤣😂
You won't be catching Iñaki getting a dumb injury because of her jewelry, but unfortunately (or fortunately I guess in this case -depending which scenario you're looking at due to my MC coming from NY) most people (muggleborns and half-bloods who know muggle culture and seen American media) will probably see her taking her earrings as a sign she's going to get in a serious fight and she's not someone to not play around with. Especially since she's Latina and when you tell people that you're from New York, everyone automatically think's you're from the city lol. Ahh, stereotypes. I didn't mean to accidentally stumble upon it with Iñaki 😅😂.
(I mean she used to be from NYC before she moved to the 'burbs and turned to a suburban kid, but that's not the point XD)
While Iñaki isn't someone to play around, (she has ancient magic - not that anybody knows about it) she REALLY just doesn't want to get injured wearing jewelry while playing magical sports. Heck getting your earrings caught in either clothing, your comb or hair is painful (speaking from experience), I REALLY don't want to imagine how painful it will be in a sports injury. 😬
So she gives it to Natty to hold since she finds her new friendly classmate trustworthy enough to hold it. And Natty is all too pleased to help her new friend.
After all, Natty wants for her new friend, Iñaki, to destroy sweep Sebastian off his feet seeing how Natty couldn't defeat her number one nemesis in Crossed Wands yet. 🤗
Just a girl who wants to support another girl to destroy her dueling rival -just girly things, you know? 🤗🤭😁
Not that Natty is the only one who wants to see the undefeatable Sebastian Sallow go down.
Even if Iñaki doesn't know anything about his dueling record -heck, she doesn't even know who McStareface is- one thing she does know is that she's SOOOOO looking forward to returning the favor of his smack talk in a duel 🤗😁🤗
After all, it's “Perro que ladra no muerde”/ (A dog that barks doesn't bite) talk to her right now. And after her rough entrance to Hogwarts, Iñaki knows how to bite between the dragon, knights and everything not nice she had to face so far up to this point.
So a duel with McStareface should be fun. 🤗
✨🌺💅🌺✨Just girly things, you know? ✨🌺💅🌺✨
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#hogwarts legacy#Iñaki Martinez Cariaga#Iñaki “MC” Martinez Cariaga#Inaki Martinez Cariaga#sebastian sallow#Natty#natsai onai#hogwarts legacy au#hogwarts legacy mc#modern au...sort of#kay9leo drawings#And with this I finally FINALLY finished all of my art projects I had on hold because of work#This would've been up sooner as just line art but then I had to listen that voice#that was curious on how these would look if I colored it in#I spent over 5 hours coloring it in on Friday night! I didn't even realize how much time went by since it was rather meditative#and before I knew it - it was 1 AM!#And I finished up the last two panels tonight#I hate art - actually no i don't. I just hate how long it takes to make it lol#Panel 10 is my favorite since I decided to draw the background we would be seeing behind Sebastian in game from our POV#I honestly didn't expect it to come out that nice! :D#but heck if you think I would make the rest of the other backgrounds just as nice#I have a bridge in Brooklyn I can sell you#I'm trying to get this done and posted before my break ends#No but seriously this makes me have even higher respect for anyone who draws/paint/creates any medium of art#at any level more since it's all becomes a work of love#So to all artists here no matter your level hats off to you! You're all amazing!#So that's my ted talk. Bye! ^U^#But seriously now I do want to fight Sebastian now for how much work went to his hair#Avenge me Iñaki. Avenge me girl!#But seriously don't wear jewelry while playing sports for safety reasons
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i would've loved zayne's card 64729x times more if he wasn't drunk
#look drunk confessions and decisions can add so much fun to a story when done right imo#personally i just think it's SO much hotter if an always composed character like zayne snaps out of it from sheer despair#like. chiping away from his composure painfully slow. over the span of months years lifetimes you get it.#really grinding him down with the littlest things. making him twist in agony from barely contained desire#idk i'm not a zayne girlie so ignore me if you are. not trying to shit talk your mans here 🤚#the scene was very hot alright. the glasses okay yeah. i giggled and gasped. maybe i rewatched it 5 times so what#just think it would've been one thousand times hotter if he snapped while sober and not from eating one (1) liquor chocolate lmao#but again. not a zayne girlie. have mercy with me. just had a little “huh” moment today while playing#gonna go back to rafayel and sylus now. don't come after me 👁️👁️#-`♡´- tulip mail
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I drew all of my historical AU Sebs!!!!
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In order they are(with relevant links to lore info if you are curious!!): Napoleonic Hussar Seb(x), Renaissance Muse Seb(x) and Boy King/Emperor Seb(x)
Let me know which you like best!!!
#oh my fucking god this was truly the endurance race of drawing sessions#i just drew for four hours straight or so......FUN!#and it is now almost 5 am on a school night so pls wish me luck in school haha#basically this spawned from me seeing if i could sketch all 3 of my Sebs easily and then whoops 4 hours later they are finished!#i think now i can draw the hussar uniform with my eyes closed. it was so comforting to draw honestly ;;;;#this is actually the first time ive drawn boy king seb with colors!! so i think it turned out pretty well?#hey guys do you notice what all of the Sebs have in common...? they all have a gold motif...GOLDEN BOY CODED!!!#anyways i think the most developed of these AUs is boy king seb which is funny bcs its the one ive created most recently#but gaahhhhhh ive done so much research and im literally brainrotting over it constantly#now i need to draw fernando in his 3 AUs hahaha but drwing Seb is sooooo much more easy/comfy for me#did you guys also notice i have a fondness for a specific seb hairstyle? malaysia 2010 my truly beloved youve served me so well#i mentioned this already but like i dont get how drawing these kinds of clothing is far more preferable to me than drawing racesuits#well anyways i have so much fun researching into these different eras!! and then very fun to mix it with the drivers#im very surprised i was able to draw this. im not usually able to draw good chibi anatomy#but like seriously i think i was posessed by my thoughts of boy king seb and i just couldnt stop drawing#in didnt really have any mental roadblocks which is surprising#but then again these drawings are me mixing my two major interests atm so ofc it'll come to me easily and make me passionate!!#anyways time to go sleep pwease dont let this flop my hands literally are overheated from drawing LMFAO#catie.art.#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#f1 fanart#formula 1 art#formula 1 fanart#f1 art#boy king au#renaissance muse au#hussar au
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top 10 sentai blacks yes its important that Junichi Haruta is here twice
#sentai#top 10 out of 16 lmao sorry @ the fellas left out#(i know for certain what my top 3 seasons are but i wanna work out the top 5)#(and these top 10s are helping me visualise. helping me decide. helping me make hard decisions)#(also i like making lists fight me with rocks about it)#LIST TIME#NUMBER 10 jou boonboomger he has captured my very heart and soul. what a lil guy (will probably end up higher once the show is over)#NUMBER 9 kaguragi kingohger he's so slimey. complete bastard. absolute snake in the grass 🥰🥰🥰🥰#NUMBER 8 masumi boukenger brat <3 <3 <3 would you like to see him kiss go on gold? you can see him kiss go on gold if you wanna#NUMBER 7 ryu dynaman the best kind of ninja is a body dupe ninja 😌#NUMBER 6 gunpei go onger i am spraying him with a hose (the g in g6 stands for gunpei)#NUMBER 5 misao zyuohger used to bully my friend with pictures of sulky misao. shes a girl now. with mine and gunpeis help you too ca#NUMBER 4 jiraiyaaaaaaaaa kakuranger cowboy. you get it. you understand.#NUMBER 3 kuroda goggle v normal about him i promise#NUMBER 2 hayate changeman pretty privilege i forgive him for everything he's ever done in fact i would pay to see him do it again#(if you watch metalder you can in fact see him do it again all be it a little less kickable and a whole lot more useless ❤️❤️❤️)#NUMBER 1 HYUUGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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Spoilers for Thousand Autumns/Qian Qiu English Volumes 1-3
Reading Volume 1 of Thousand Autumns: hmm I can see the potential for romance, but Yan Wushi is too much of an asshole for me, but maybe later on he’ll grow to like Shen Qiao
Reading Volume 2: Yan Wushi sucks! You betrayed him?? After Shen Qiao called you a friend??? I hate omg WHYYY???
Reading Volume 3: NO WHAT??? YAN WUSHI COME BACK!! Shen Qiao tried to save you after everything wtf don’t go! You would turn yourself in??? BITCH COME BACK DONT GET HURT AGAIN PLEASE
My emotions regarding Yan Wushi have been all over the place I cannot put a name to my emotions regarding him help me
please tell me he is ok I need to read volume 4
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recent things and such~
#photo diary#image 1 - kind of interesting lacy looking clouds. Image 2 - pinky purple sunset stuff#image 3 - These REALLY cool flowers I saw in a field ? growing wild so like.. weeds I guess. but I like the color of them and how the#petals are small and layered. Image 4 & 5 - More recent hair growth progress. I still think it will never get much longer because#it's been basically the same lenght for multiple years now BUT I do feel like maybe it's getting like... just the tiniest bit longer?? Just#not as obvious of progress as the first few years. Like now if I take it out of the braids and actually hold it so it goes straight down th#very tips of the hair on one side goes down to the tip of my pointer finger. and on the other side goes a little past my thumb. and I#remember maybe last year or two years ago it was only to my knuckles or like midway down my thumb. so.. perhaps it's not reached a#maximum genetic possible length just YET as I'd thought it had maybe lol.. perhaps I could slowly gain a cenitmeter or two#here and there gjbjh.. Unfortunately incredibly doubtful it will ever be down to my knees though as I had wished. oh well.#image 6 - writing again... as always... Slowly chipping away... And looking for ways to make it go faster lol. The original premise was 8#main characters with 6 quests for each. Then it was 5 with 6 quests. Now it's 4 with 4 quests each. And even that I'm like hmm... what#about having only 3... so it could be done faster... lol.. I think mostly just because I have no gaurantee of investment. So it's like#I could spend years and years doing 500.000+ words of writing and then have about 3 people total actually play the game and nobody cares#and nothing ever comes of it. You know? So I have to balance that somehow. And rather that put out the 100% complete version#be putting out like 'here's ENOUGH of it for you to see what the concept is and what it's like. and IF theres any investment then I#can put in the effort to finish the few bits that I left in more of a preview form'' type of thing. And then it's like.. well if I'm#limiting the initial scope anyway - how much is enough to cut away? and how much would be TOO much? etc. etc. I'm pretty sure I#already have it down to a balanced minimum but some days when I'm very stressed over my ability to actually finish anything I'm like..#ehhhh..maybe I could make another main character into a side character.. as a treat lol..#image 7 - cabbage noodle beef stir fry sort of thing. As usual I kind of cook the beef too long because I'm afraid of getting sick if it's#underdone despite preferring medium rare steak lol.. Funnily because usually making something at home has the advantage of you#being able to do it Exactly The Way You Like It whereas me cooking meat is often like.. ah yes.. the worse way that I dont even like. love#to make a tough chewy anxiously overcooked protein puck for myself. :3 Images 8 - 10 -- various plants from the deck. though#some of these pictures are old and they're no longer alive lol.. Most of my plants actually do live through the winter because I#painstakingly move them inside and outside and inside and outside depending on the temperatures. But sometimes.. one cannot#help but be lost. Especially the temperature change sometimes can make them more prone to mold and stuff. and humidity is#hard to control indoors. There's always one or two that deteriorate despite my best efforts. But that's better than every single one of the#dying because they alll freeze when it gets to 20F one night and I left them outside or something lol#ANYWAY.. hrm.. still working on friend quiz thing... and sculptures.. and videos maybe?? costumes... rghhhghhrrr.. (< to do list angst)
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small update
ok so um I got my number theory paper today, and the TA had cut marks for me because i left the answer at 66^2 and not 4356 (fermat's little theorem) 😔 I even wrote the full proof
my friend told me I should mail the TA about this, I got 14/20 and should be getting 17or18/20 😔
scores aside, number theory is so much fun, so much fun. the only good thing here is that I know the concepts well, and I fully knew the paper (still fucked it up, because I'm so frickin slow while writing and time). and it hurts worse because there's not enough proof that validates my knowledge. which in turn makes me question if i actually do have any.
I am, in general, a person who does well in concepts but screws up the exams (70% of the time) and I'm trying, I'm trying to get myself out of this "exam paniK" that I often spiral into, just minutes before the exam. I hope I change and grow; I hope, I hope.
#im so sorry for this meltdown once again#so sorry#and for the paper - many people got 20#it was actually a very easy paper and yes 20 was doable#even i could've gotten a 20 had i not screwed up the way i did#and i feel so bad to even say “had i not screwed up...” the excuse sounds horrible to my ears#well what is done is done#i can only try better next time#this course might just end up being the easiest to get an A#let's hope that I don't fuck up this one too#after seeing my paper i just returned it and came back#and my friend was like “ok. why did u not ask them why you've lost so much when the concepts are all right there on your paper?”#and i was like “um so should i ask them?” she went “YES.”#but by the time i went back to the hall the TAs had left so i have to mail mine now#and im very worried that she wouldn't change the current grading#last time i missed an A in math by 1/2 marks and i don't want the same thing to happen this time 😔😔#oh god ONE good thing can help me right now please#ru's trying#JUST 1 good thing#just give me ONE#i was so out of sorts today i slept for ~5 hours during the day and missed my calc class#i deliberately missed it though bc i wasn't feeling up to mark#i regret not going but my brain simply said no we're not there atm so maybe it was for the better#once again im so so SO sorry for the meltdowns lately#it's been bad rains and cloudy days in my head for a while now#i hope for the sun soon
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my five surviving braincells when something remotely good happens:
#in other news… wORK IS OVER PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#man. i’m s o tired. i can’t believe i survived almost 2 whole years at this job…#huh. come to think of it… i started tling idol sengen before i even got this job lol. and i’m only 3/5 of the way through it…#can’t believe the idol sengen grind->hiatus->grind(?) outlives my time at [withheld] company…#i did end up spending a cool 20 mins cleaning out my work locker though. i found so many treasures i didn’t even know i had in there#like. there was an unopened 3-pack of wet tissues a n d an unopened box of pens that i don’t recall buying#and ofc the 3 random sponges i ‘liberated’ from the lab. don’t tell my boss lmao#w a i t now that i think about it i should’ve taken at least 1 vial of (allegedly) carcinogenic sand for the memories. dammit.#oh well. what’s done is done i suppose. i did receive way more chocolate than i could ever eat though…#y. yeah. i guess i’ll miss my coworkers (a little). they were fun to annoy every day. except for the new guy bc i don’t like him at all lol#i have never met someone who lacked as much common sense as he. i think he’s gonna get canned before he’s able to resign on his own terms#dude could be spoonfed through every single step of the testing process and *still* mess up somewhere smh#but no. this isn’t about him. even though he is the final straw that led to my decision to resign#hm. looking back on it now. i think i was pretty good at my job for the most part when it came to the things i could do#or maybe i was too good at it. like. to the point where even more experienced analysts were coming to me in search of help#prolly gonna miss being one of the very best (out of like a grand total of 10 people at the lab) at doing ftir-related tests#ehehehehehehe i wonder if that workstation will continue to stay as organised as it is now that i’m gone#a n d i wonder what my coworkers will do now that they can’t ask me for ms excel help for the smallest of things lol#sometimes i just wanna tell them to g o g o o g l e i t ! ! ! when they call me over for it. but alas.#can’t believe these guys know how to use c h a t g p t and not ms excel (despite having it on their resume) smh#omg wow this got long and incoherent sorry guys i think i need some sleep lol. idol sengen next week..#…maybe…? no promises though!!!!!
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aughhoug h h .. . .. i've been SOO sick since wednesday.. . .
#my flatmates have been sick a lot so i was honestly just counting down until it was my turn.. .orz#i hate that i rarely get sick but whenever i DO get sick it's like... Time To Die i guess? ?#f.ex. like last may when i got an ear infection So Bad i was hospitalised for a week haha#man i've literally done nothign but lie in bed and sleep since wednesday#like i've been up a coupla hours here and there to inhale some water and both ibuprofen and paracetamol#and whatever nurishment i could scrape by while scrolling tumblr and watching some yt#before going back to bed and passing out again#i also haven't showered since i got sick cause i've been afraid of blacking out while IN the shower#cause like yesterday and friday it was so bad i couldn't stand for more than like 5 mins without starting trembling and getting dizzy.. .#the same ear i had an infection in last year also closed completely up so now i can't hear Anythign on that side#both my flatmates where like !!?!?!? when they heard and kept asking me if i needed to go to the ER again :'^)#but luckily i think it's just a symptom this time and not the cause#live love laugh or whatever#worst part this time around was that i hadn't been grocery shopping At All since the friday Before! so i had like No food#luckily one of my flatmates got me something yesterday 💙#wait actually the worst part is that i missed 1. an appointment 2. work 3. a birthday dinner#and 4. a birthday party where they ended up going to see a drag show 😭😭#anyways i Think (🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞) that i might be feeling a bit better today so hopefully it'll clear up in not Too Long#does fish make noise??
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( so uh. if you're wondering where i've been the past few days. )
#( this has been such a fun project to work on but so energy draining & soul sucking at the same time skdjfhsdf )#( i'm on skein 3 of my 5.25 total so i'm about 1-2/5 of the way done give or take )#( should make a small throw ~48x56in )#( maybe gonna add a different color if i wanna do something bigger but we'll see on what i want it to be for )#( if it's more decorative for my bed maybe i'll keep it at that size )#( but also part of me wants to make like a REALLY BIG blanket )#( esp since it's made out of such nice material but it's sO EXPENSIVE )#( my last purchase was just under $50 )#( anyways i could probably ramble about this super exciting project but imma shut up now lol )#( my 3 other things are more or less being put on hold while i focus on this )#.♥︎* — ˗ˏˋ out of character ⦅ ⁿᵒᵃʰ ʳᵃᵐᵇˡᵉˢ ⦆
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