#that reminds me of the thing kirsten doesn't remember saying

[templeofshame]

I'm all for romantic gestures in fic and I'm not complaining (esp. if this amazing author ever saw this!) But I am just too cynical for spending over $1k and 4 flights to stop someone's wedding when like... are they meeting you even slightly halfway? I know it's gonna have a happy ending but still reading I'm like Don't Do It

[eighthday]

Review first season "Vigil"

I can't get rid of some thoughts when watching season one. Ep 1. Let's continue that what is shown to us on the screen has a second bottom. I know how the story ends, so I can rethink its beginning a little. When Amy runs away, is it not only a system of physical and mental support, but also a way to get away from problems? She has all the time in the world for reconciliation, but she is busy with the usual. Her work brings her back to reality. She needs an event that will stop her usual course of action.

It seems that the boss knows something about the two of them. Just look at his upset look)

And then Amy shows hope, fear, and uncertainty for a few seconds. And it's so layered. I hope none of the pens were damaged during the filming of these seconds)

I'd like to see Kirsten's reaction when the boss hands over Amy's request. Pain? Anger? Hope? Definitely love. For her, it's not only a duty, but also a desire to help and protect, so when Kirsten asks to give up the assignment, he still cares about Amy. She saw different sides of Amy. And she didn't refuse, harboring feelings for Amy months after the breakup.

I won't say that Amy is a bad hostess for Cat, but what would have happened if Kirsten hadn't agreed to stay in Amy's apartment? I'm worried about cat) And we find out that this is not the first time Kirsten has stayed like this with a cat. It's happened before.

They went somewhere together, they were somewhere, maybe someone knows about them, or it's just a reference to colleagues. They just didn't show us.

How good is this scene. Looking around, they look at each other. They look at each other as equals. After a stressful trip, Kirsten says something that can be interpreted ambiguously. This is a phrase not only for Amy's assignment, but also to describe their relationship. And maybe that's all for Amy to try.

Kirsten says "not now", but not later. Kirsten knows how to wait. Let's skip the moment when Amy is wearing a red suit, when she begins her journey deep into not only the depths of the sea, but also herself, and Kirsten has a green color that goes so well with red hair. It doesn't remind me of anything, I swear)

(Added)

Diving into the past begins not only for Amy, but also for Kirsten. Even the color palette of the scene is painted blue. Blue is the color of loss, loss, grief and loneliness. For Kirsten, this is a chance to reevaluate what happened, go through this path again and maybe come to another exit. Because blue is also wisdom, trust and loyalty. For me, their memories that will be shown to us work for the two of them. One lives this past when he writes, the other remembers when he reads, and vice versa. The life and investigation of one and the other depend on each other, on their common past, trust and attention to each other. And it's also interesting that Kirsten came home to Amy without a bag. Either she gets it out of the car after she looks around the house, or she left some things with Amy after they broke up.

We see the past coming back. And this past affects not only mental health, but also the course of the investigation. I like the idea that Amy's return to life is about creating a common language with Kirsten. Jokes, music, books, tea on the roof, cat, morse code and much more. And this is what will help her cope, only in the first episode she doesn't know about it yet)

Amy's knees are on Kristen's legs, and Kirsten is holding Amy's ankle.❤️ _____________________

English is not my first language, so any mistakes are mine) I love Amy and Kirsten and I'm looking forward to the season 2.

[cowes]

Yeah Saturdays usually mean no breaks because we're so busy and I'm the only one on shift so yearning for Thursday and Friday when I have my off days except for my part time other job.

But! Excited to rewatch on those days and see everything I missed the first time.

So right about Kirsten being parental and motherly - and god yes that kitchen scene! So fucking painful. "(not really!! not really jack !! don't leave, she just got nervous!)" Exactly, exactly! Like that line about how he asks her how she did it and then she says 'I just did', break my damn heart why don't you. Because you can tell how much they both want to reach out. Like Jack has been this outward cocky clearly hurting kid this whole time, and that's really the first time you see him really, actually vulnerable and it's clear that she's just not ready/so caught off guard and so used to bottling everything up, she doesn't know how to handle it, god.

Also crazy that the bunker is where they trap Leo and also! the catharsis of Kirsten saying "there there, shhh" to Leo when he said that when she was screaming after spending her last moments with Rachel...wild

I agree probably the cheating is meant to be vague and yeah that also makes sense that that night was just domino after domino.

ELLAAAA come chat, psychoanalyze your character with us. "She loves her mother, they all do in some way, but it's a weird kind of love when you love someone who doesn't give you anything back" like goddamn you get her, you really do.

And yeah I do agree she is more herself, like she'll smoke or drink or ask them honestly about things, but I still think she feels so alone. Like that scene with her and Tina in the graveyard is so so interesting, because she's saying like anyone could have snapped, I definitely could have ! After what she did! Like there's just. so much in this girl, she makes me crazy. She's the one that physically pushes Mary, she's the one who wants them all to be honest. She's also the one that's holding so much. Like that she even worried that she could have killed their mother and hypothetically doesn't remember it and Mickey and Tina who are so quick to reassure her and remind her that they were worried she was going to die too...

Anyways, I'm insane about them

im a student atm and do not manage my time well. not looking forward to employment hours next year. sending my best to you.

i feel like i need to rewatch like nine times, focusing on a different character each time. i need to become the leading scholar of ordeal by innocence (2018).

ah, jack. what to say about jack. i cant tell if he enjoys being a troublemaker and riling people up and getting under their skin. but he does it anyway - satisfying, maybe, if not fun. but he also doesn't know why he likes it and wonders if there's something deeply wrong with him. vulnerable is a good way to describe it.

the bunker is just such a cool addition as the manifestation of rachel's anxieties. its also very 1950s. and maybe not just rachel's anxieties, i might be wrong but it feels like every time someone's down there, they're not having a very good time.

i have another thought about the bunker that im gonna put in a separate post... inspired by you again....

Yeah, Hester is definitely trying to get them to engage with what's happened because they sometimes really blank her and leave her out. she was the youngest and the baby after all. and they view her as a baby even though they also see past that picture-perfect-image of her. probably all of the kids had the motive to kill rachel that night, but hester actually thinking that she might of done really says something about how she sees herself....