#that i can't tell anyone because all my platforms I use pixel art. I cant post my digital paintings and it's making me sad

[pleasurenerd]

I don't have anyone to talk to about this in my life but I cannot stop thinking about Our Flag Means Death.

I didn't know how much I needed a story about an ensemble of queer pirates in my life until Our Flag Means Death. I fully stopped watching a lot of popular shows because they frequently queer baited or killed their queers. It just really hurt to feel like my value is to develop someone else's story.

Then I watched Our Flag Means Death and I could feel pieces of my heart come together again. To see a happy queer ensemble, living their best pirate lives made me feel so happy inside! Albeit until Stede was a noodle and broke my heart again.

<There be Spoilers below>

I know that in reality Stede and Ed don't get back together, but for my broken bisexual heart I desperately want these two fictional middle aged men to be together and live a happy (albeit probably short due to being pirates) lives.

I want this to divert from reality so badly because I want to believe that there's more happy endings for queer folk in TV. Also if HBO don't renew this, they're so incredibly stupid.

That being said... I do want:

A scene where Ed is in Stede's secret closet and is just touching and admiring the fine clothes maybe even wearing a few under his leather (it didn't seem like he'd thrown them away with the books)

Red silk square is found and eventually returned to Ed (or Stede wears it as he's still carrying a torch for Ed).

Fang saved Lucien (you can't hurt his little fingies!) - ultimately Lucien still being alive.

Ideally a scene on the deck where Blackbeard is trying to angrily kill Stede and Stede (back with more confidence) is aptly defending himself leading to a heartfelt apology

Alternatively, Ed is in his quarters having a moment alone (more crying let's be honest) and Stede and the old crew come aboard. There's a rematch with Stede and Izzy where Izzy is trying to protect his captain's pride/honour and hide the fact the fearless and ferocious Blackbeard is pining for an effeminate rich boy who dares to call himself a pirate.

Happy reunions between the separated couples, although I think I would love/hate if Jim had changed and become a darker version of themselves.

An apology that involves "You came back?" "I never left"

More scenes with Ivan and Fang. I thought they were fun characters and I'd love to see more of them and their softer sides.

More relationship building within the crews - I literally want to see more of all the crew.

Frenchie interacting with a cat (like one is snuck onboard when they go ashore)

Buttons obtaining a seagull army and setting about everyone who wronged the crew with a hex on ye

More bedtime stories being read to the crew