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[runnning-outof-time]

Hi K! I have a request if you fancy it... 👀

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜ with Tommy or John. 🙏🏻🫶🏻

Thanks so much for sending this in, Daisy! I’m sorry it took me a little bit to get it written — I decided to write this for John. I hope you like what I did with the prompt! ☺️

People Know Better | John Shelby x Reader

Pairing: John Shelby x fem!Reader

Summary: (Y/N) meets a rather charming man at a party who seems to have no worries towards dealing with the group of men who were giving her a hard time.

Warnings: drinking

Word Count: 1089

COMMENTS, REBLOGS & ANONS ARE APPRECIATED — I’D LOVE TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF THE STORY!

A smile formed on (Y/N)’s as she looked around the club. She was happy she decided to come to this place. The energy coming off of the clubgoers was so poignant that she could practically feel it.

She had been sitting at the bar, occupying a single seat in hopes that she could have a drink or two and do some people watching. She was able to get that wish for most of the evening…but then two men showed up.

They sat in the two open seats next to (Y/N). Those seats had been previously occupied by an older couple, and they’d been a lovely pair to conversate with. (Y/N) had the immediate feeling that this new pair wasn’t going to follow suit in that same manner.

At first they kept to themselves, ordering a few drinks and then talking with each other. But then she caught their eye.

It started with a few glances coming from the man that was facing her direction. She was able to see him grinning at her from the corner of her eye, and she tried her best to ignore and keep her eyes trained on the dance floor. But then the first guy nudged the second; the man that was sitting closer to her. The hand that brushed her arm made her finally look in their direction.

“Not gonna give us anything attention, sweetheart?” the first man questioned, a grin on his face.

“Why should I?” she asked in a curt tone, raising her eyebrows at them. She hoped that her uninterested nature would make the conversation short and sweet. Both men looked at each other upon hearing her response. They seemed surprised that she offered push back instead of going along with with they’d said. “That’s what I thought,” she said, more so to herself then anything, before turning back to look out at the sea of people again.

That wasn’t the end of the interaction though. “Who do you think you are speaking to us like that?” one of them quipped, incredulousness present in his tone.

(Y/N) kept her eyes trained straight ahead. Maybe if I ignore them, they’ll stop, she thought to herself, silently hoping for that to be the truth.

“Hey, we’re talking to you, doll,” the other man chimed in, his tone holding more frustration than anything.

(Y/N)’s head didn’t turn.

They still didn’t get the message. Thinking of a new plan, they both stood from their stools and moved so that they were now standing in front of her. “Whatcha gonna do now, huh?” one of them questioned her, a grin forming on his face.

“The lady doesn’t want to speak to the two of you,” another voice entered the conversation before (Y/N) could say anything. “Give it up before either of you do something stupid,” the new man then gave a suggestion.

“We’re in the middle of some…”

“Let’s get outta here, mate,” the second man stopped the first before he could finish his sentence. His eyes were trained on the new man, and the smirk he was previously wearing was nowhere to be seen now.

This interjection made the first man turn and look to see who this new person was. His demeanor flipped on a dime. “Let’s go,” he muttered to his friend, tugging on the lapels of his suit jacket in attempts to save face before he nodded his head to his friend, a silent gesture for them to leave the bar.

(Y/N) finally got to look at the man who’d made the others leave. He was tall, wearing a long, black coat and a peaked cap covered his head. He watched the two men leave before finally turning and meeting (Y/N)’s gaze. A grin formed on his features as his blue eyes met hers.

“Thank you,” (Y/N) smiled at him, appreciative of his sudden company, “those two were insufferable.”

“It’s my pleasure,” the man grinned at her. He motioned to one of the empty barstools and (Y/N) nodded her head, knowing that he was asking if her could join her.

“You’re not planning on trying the same thing, are you?” she questioned him, a light-hearted tone laced into her words.

“No,” the man shook his head. “I could keep you safe though. They’re all afraid of me.”

His second statement made (Y/N)’s eyebrows furrow. “How can you be sure of that?” She didn’t quite need help being kept ‘safe’, but she’d happily accept his offer of keeping those men, and any others like them for that matter, away from her.

“People know better than to speak against a Shelby, love,” he responded in a confident manner.

“Ahh, and you’d be a Shelby?” she questioned, tilting her head slightly to show her intrigue.

“John Shelby,” he introduced himself, holding his hand out between them to extend a formal greeting.

“It’s nice to meet you, John,” she smiled at him, “my name’s (Y/N).”

She then accepted his hand, her eyes widening and lips curving upwards slightly in surprise as he suavely lifted it to his lips and kissed the top of it. Not a single thing about him was making her feel like she should be cautious around him. If anything, his confidence was making her more intrigued by him. It was refreshing, and a complete 180 from how the other two men had attempted to get her attention.

He winked at her as he lowered her hand, and all she could do was grin as she tried not to let her cheeks heat up too much. The last thing she wanted to do was freeze up in this moment. So she put on a confident face and maintained eye contact with him until he looked away to call the bartender over.

John asked for another round for the two of them, waiting until the man left to begin making their drinks before he turned to look at (Y/N) again. He didn’t expect doing a routine check of one of the Shelby-owned clubs would turn into this, but he wasn’t complaining in the slightest.

(Y/N) also didn’t expect to meet this handsome stranger when she entered the club to do some people watching. But as John handed her a glass and flashed one of the grins that she was so quickly falling for, she realized that her night had turned into something that was ten times better than anything she could have planned out.

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[cerithess]

👋 hi language learner! yes, you! have a favor to ask of you :)

for my graduation, i’m researching ways that technology can enhance the language learning process through visual media (series, movies, but also news etc.). for this, i need to speak to learners (of any language, genuinely, no matter your rate of fluency or how long you’ve been studying for) to interview and possibly test my prototype a few times through a link i’ll share with you. it’s also perfectly okay if you haven’t had experience with tools that help you learn through shows and such, but instead have worked with other things such as duolingo.

anything we discuss can be entirely anonymous and can be done via chat here or discord or whatever you prefer, that’s up for discussion. i don’t need to record your voice, provide your real name or show your face, so typing is also fine.

i’d love to hear your input on your wishes for language learning programs and your experiences if you have any so i can design something we may be able to use in the future to learn, that’s hopefully an improvement upon currently existing methods.

as i’ve mentioned, the language you learn is unimportant to me as any feedback is great feedback; but as i need to pick a language to prototype with to keep the scope of my project doable for the period of my graduation (even though i’d *love* to do it for all languages right off the bat ☹️), korean and arabic learners are somewhat preferable as these are languages that i’m familiar with. please don’t let yourself be deterred by this if you’re learning any other language though!

on top of that; i’ll be taking accessibility into account, so if you’re able to give me input on that front, i’d be eternally thankful as well.

if you wanna help me out (thank you so much), please react with a ❤️ to this post or shoot me a message and i’ll get back to you soon. if not, i’d appreciate if you would spread around the message by reposting.

thank you for your attention!

UPDATE: oh my god, this got so much attention 🥺 thank you to those who shared and those who want to help me with this, it means the world. i will be reaching out in the near future :) if anyone else wants to join still feel free to react.

[intubatedangel]

Pageant Fever : Chapter 4

Been away for a while, life stuff I won't dump on here, other writing projects that I want to keep seperate, and a substantial amount of wasted time. I hadn't realised it had been almost two years though.

But I am alive, and a bit of good news, I have actually fully finished this whole story, there's two more chapters after this one which just need some editing, so I'll be dropping those over the next couple of days.

I just wanted to say a big thank you to all of the people who dropped DM's asking about progress and checking on me. I didn't reply at the time, mostly because I was only checking tumblr rarely so they were often a week or more old, and my head wasn't in the right space for some of that time. But anybody that hasn't been replied, just know I do appreciate the messages, and the drip of activity on my blog has kept it in my mind, even if I struggled to put things onto the page.

I hope you enjoy :)

Story Index    

Pageant Fever: Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3

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Chapter 4

Lucy frowned at the young woman on the gurney. Sweat continued to roll off Zara's body, and her temperature was still rising, despite the large chemical cold packs that had been slapped around her body. Her muscles continued to twitch randomly, but Lucy wasn't sure if it was the sheer internal heat, an electrolyte imbalance from the sweating, an active infection attacking the nerves, or something Zara had ingested. Or even a combination. It wasn't just Zara's peripheral muscles that were affected. The monitor alarmed, showing her rapid chaotic heart rate, letting out an additional warning noise each time Zara's heart threw off a PVC. They were becoming more frequent. On top of that Zara's breathing was plainly ineffective. Every so often she would give a gasp or grunt, but she couldn't support her own oxygen levels, forcing Lucy to continue breathing for her with the ambu bag.

Lucy knew there was little more she and Dave could do in the ambulance. Without knowing what was happening inside Zara, the best they could do was fight to keep her alive, until they could get to the hospital, where Lucy hoped the team there would be able to figure out the cause of Zara's current state. She watched Dave as he finished inserting an assortment of drugs intended to reduce the fever. There had been no effect so far, Zara's rising temperature ticking up to 41C. If it got much higher, or lasted a long time, there was a risk for severe, permanent damage to Zara's organs and brain.

Dave knew it too. "Steve, what's our ETA?" He shouted to the front.

"3 minutes." Was the reply.

"Make it 2 if you can!"

* * *

Anna had trailed Carl as he continued preparing for his incoming patient, alerting facilities staff that they would need an ice bath in Resus 3, then gathering the team of nurses, Trish was there and Kirstie, along with two Anna hadn't worked with before, a short but powerfully built man called Jamie, and an older agency nurse whose name tag identified her as Marie. Lastly was Tilly. She stood back and watched as they donned their protective gear, green plastic gowns with long sleeves, sealed by gloves, along with close fitting masks and full face visors, their names quickly scrawled in marker along the head band.

They all assembled outside the ambulance entrance, Carl quickly going over a few points and procedures he wanted done as soon as possible. Anna stayed back just a little, she didn't want to distract him as he got his plans together. She watched Tilly instead. The student nurse was no longer practically vibrating with eagerness. She was almost totally still, but not in a tension clenched way. She was simply focused, alert and prepared. Ready to do whatever she was asked. As she had told Anna earlier, she was in the zone.

The sound of sirens started to cut through the background noise of the city, rapidly growing louder as the ambulance raced towards them along the road parallel to the river. It reached a near ear splitting volume as the ambulance came out of the shadow of a nearby building, its lights flashing brightly despite the dazzling midday sun. The ambulance shot past the front of the hospital, turning tightly into the access road and pulling around in front of them.

Anna lingered back as the team stepped forward and pulled open the rear doors of the ambulance. As the gurney was pulled out, she heard Carl's commanding voice take charge.

"What have we got?" He asked. They already had many of the details, but it was always wise to double check anything that might have been missed in the relay of radio calls. Out the corner of her eye, Anna noticed an older woman climb out of the front of the ambulance, evidently their patients mother.

"Zara Chamarthi, 21. Initial instance of syncope followed by a seizure. Post seizure she presented with an SVT rhythm, converted to sinus tach after 2 shocks. She's pyrexic with a temperature of 41.2 and still rising. Resps are diminished and being supported by BVM. Heart rate of 170 with multifocal PVC's. No reported history of seizures, no prior signs of illness or reports of drug use and no reported medications either." Lucy replied as the team started moving towards the entrance Standing back, Anna couldn't help but feel like that was very little to go on. It would make the team's job even harder, leaving them managing symptoms until they could discover the cause and treat the actual problem.

Clearly Carl thought so too. "Okay then let’s get her inside, prepare for an RSI before we put her in the ice bath. I want a central line in to monitor her core temperature and get some blood off to the labs, put a rush on the full blood count and basic tox screen. In the meantime, let's start her on..." As the team accelerated away from her Carl's voice dwindled as he rattled off a range of drugs. Anna had hung back, opting to make herself useful.

She stepped towards the older woman, who seemed to be shambling after her daughter with slow, stunned footsteps. Anna intercepted her with a gentle touch on her shoulder. "Are you her mother?" She asked quietly.

The older woman nodded, looking at Anna with widened eyes, but said nothing.

"Come with me." Anna told her softly. "I'll show you through."

* * *

Tilly kept a few paces ahead of the gurney as the team rushed towards the resus bays, pushing a set of doors open with another student nurse, then leapfrogging the rattling gurney to get the doors into Bay 3. As they entered she took note of the ice bath set up a short distance from the bed. A technician was there just finishing up laying out a set of straps on the bed, which could be connected to the integrated hoist on the ice bath. The bath itself was already full, a layer of ice cubes floating on the surface as the water churned slightly, a pump circulating the water through a refrigeration unit.

As the rest of the team moved the ambulances gurney to the trauma bed, Tilly circled around to the crash cart, extracting a laryngoscope and, with a quick glance back at the girl being lifted over, a 6.5mm ET tube. She then opened a different drawer, her hands moving straight to the drugs she had checked just a handful of minutes ago. She placed everything onto a tray and moved over to the head of the bed as the others finished arranging Zara on the bed.

Trish was already readying the central line, while Carl came around, glanced at the tray and gave Tilly a quick nod. He turned to Lucy. "Pre oxygenate her please. Tilly?" He asked, turning to the student nurse. She looked up attentively. "Have you assisted on an intubation before?"

"Only in a surgical setting practically. I know the theory on emergency RSI's though." She told him.

"Good, can you apply cricoid pressure when I ask you?"

Tilly nodded, flexing her fingers in preparation.

Carl flashed her a quick, comforting smile. "On my mark then." He turned to Lucy and gave her a quick nod.

The paramedic nodded in reply and backed off, bringing the ambu bag with her, holding it ready in case there were complications. Carl drifted around to the right angle and slid the laryngoscope into Zara's mouth, pushing the blade in and pulling back to open the young woman's airway and give him a view of her vocal cords.

"Cricoid on." He said, his eyes still focused on Zara's trachea.

Tilly placed her fingers on the hard ring of cartilage around Zara's trachea and pushed it down, blocking the oesophagus to prevent aspiration.

"Good." Carl muttered, as he eased the lubricated tube down until only a few inches stuck out of Zara's mouth. "Very good. Check the placement for me." He told her, as he held out a hand towards Lucy for the bag.

Tilly had the briefest moment of looking around, before realising she had a stethoscope around her neck. She pulled it off and plugged it into her ears, before grabbing the bell and lowering it Zara's naked chest.

Carl squeezed the bag steadily, his hand clenching firmly, but gradually.

"Left air entry." Tilly said, before moving the head of the scope to the right side of Zara's chest. Carl squeezed the bag again. "Right air entry. Placement seems good."

"Excellent. Let's get her on the vent and prepare her for the ice bath. Until we know what's going on, our first priority is bringing her temperature down."

* * *

Anna gently guided Jaya through the emergency entrance and towards the Resus room. They proceeded slowly, Jaya's steps shambling and slow, as if walking through treacle. Anna felt a keen wave of sympathy as she imagined what the woman must be feeling. It was one thing to understand it conceptually, but now that she was a mother herself, Anna felt it in a way she hadn't before.

They reached Resus 3 as Tilly was securing the ET tube with a blue holder and Carl was attaching the ventilator. At the same time Trish finished with the central line, the large double port catheter inserted just below the left side of Zara's collarbone. She attached a bag of chilled saline to one port and grabbed one of the small wires dangling from the ports, connecting it to a lead attached to the monitor, the young woman's core temperature appearing on the screen.

Another nurse, one of Tilly's fellow students judging by the fact that Anna didn't recognise the name written on the visor, was drawing a blood sample from the IV in Zara's arm. She quickly capped it and handed the sample to a tech who was waiting just inside the door. The young man hurried out, rushing towards the elevator and the labs.

Anna watched him go, then looked to the monitor. From this distance she couldn't make out much in the way of detail, but the flashing portions were more than enough to tell her that the young woman was in a critical condition. Temperature, heart rate, BP, o2 sat and pulse readings, all were flashing in alarm. The team was bustling around her body, pushing ordered drugs into the various IV's, inserting a foley catheter or readying the straps of the hoist.

With a minute they were ready, drawing the young woman up into the air. They proceeded carefully, making sure no lines, leads or hoses got disconnected as they swung her over the small distance to the tub. The nurses steadied her as the hoist lowered her down into the gently churning water, then they quickly arranged her, keeping her face above the surface but otherwise submerging as much of Zara's overheating body as they could. Not that there was much danger of her drowning in the tub, with the ventilator forcing air into her lungs regularly.

Despite all the efforts the team were making, Anna had a bad feeling. She turned to Jaya, who seemed to be clutching her handbag tight to her chest as she stared through the window. "Let me show you to the relatives room." She said, easing the older woman back from the glass and shepherding her down the corridor to a door with just a narrow window in it. Inside were a number of comfortable chairs and couches, arrayed around small coffee tables. Anna showed Jaya to a couch, noting how she never let up her grip on the handbag. It was common for relatives to hold onto their belongings in such circumstances, seeking comfort. But the way Jaya held the handbag seemed far more defensive, almost as if her overriding concern was protecting it.

Anna settled into an adjacent chair, waiting patiently, ready to answer any questions or to offer comfort, but Jaya remained in stony silence, staring at the floor. Between that and her strange behaviour with the bag, Anna started to feel unsettled. She couldn't be totally sure, people responded to these situations in a myriad of different ways, but this... It felt wrong to Anna.

"Would you like some coffee? Or tea or water?" Anna asked, breaking the subdued quiet.

Jaya remained silent, simply shaking her head once.

"Okay. I'll go and see if there is any news." Anna said, pushing herself up from the chair and heading to the door, unable to shake her unease.

* * *

After the frantic activity of those first minutes, Resus 3 had become almost still. They'd administered the ordered drugs and gotten Zara situated in the ice bath, now there was very little for the team to do but wait, for the results to come back from the blood test, or for Zara's condition to change in some way. Which so far hadn't happened. Even with the ice bath Zara's core temperature was 41.7, beyond a normal high-grade fever. She was well into the range of irreparable organ damage if her temperature didn't fall soon. The fact that the young beauties temperature hadn't changed despite the icy water circulating around her was a bad sign.

Tilly knelt beside the ice bath, one hand reaching into the water to cradle Zara's head. An inflated pillow kept her face above the surface, but it was always sensible to be extra careful. Even with an ET tube ostensibly occluding Zara's airway, there was no benefit in risking aspiration. It was uncomfortable for Tilly, the ice cold water turned her hand numb within a minute, forcing her to change hands every couple of minutes. She did her best to recover by clamping her free hand into her armpit, not even noticing the large damp patches forming on her scrubs under her arms as the fabric wicked away the water.

Around her, other nurses kept eye's on the monitors, pumps and ventilator, while Carl stood by the computer, fingers drumming on the desk as he scrolled through a database after inputting Zara's symptoms, while he waited on the results of the quick tox screen and full blood counts. There was an alerting chime as the results arrived in the inbox. Tilly glanced over to see Carl frowning as he looked through the results.

That was the moment the door clattered, drawing Tilly's attention. She watched Anna step into the room, the senior nurse quickly taking in the readings on the monitors, before she headed over to Carl. Tilly rearranged her hands again, keeping an ear out for the conversation.

"Any results yet?" Anna asked.

"They just came through," Carl shook his head, "no signs of infection, nothing on the quick tox panel, she's clean for every party drug and common pharmaceutical."  He started pulling off the PPE. Despite the decent climate control in the trauma rooms, the extra gear was still stifling. The nurses followed suit, Marie quietly helping Tilly as she kept one hand in the water.

"What could it be then?" Anna asked.

Carl turned back to the computer, refining the database search. "If we eliminate street drugs, and viral or bacterial causes it narrows it down." There was still plenty of results, more than they could possibly test for. "At this point the two most likely causes are a brain tumour affecting the hypothalamus, though I doubt we can get her through CT in her current condition to confirm." He looked over at the beauty pageant contestant in the tub and sighed. "But I'm leaning towards this." He said, pointing at the second result on the screen.

Tilly watched Anna lean close as she read the entry. "2,4-dinitrophenol poisoning?"

"It's supposed to be an industrial chemical, but," Carl grimaced, "it's also sold on black markets as a weight loss drug. Exactly what a beauty pageant entrant wants to give them the perfect figure. In simplified terms, it burns away fat, quite literally." He said, indicating the temperature readout on the monitor. It was now wavering between 41.7 and 41.8, the cooling bath having no effect.

"Is there any treatment?" Anna asked him, looking sadly over at Zara.

"There's no antidote. It's not a common occurrence and there isn't much research on it. Even mild exposure can be fatal." Carl tapped away on the keyboard, inputting orders. "There's some treatments that we can try, but they carry risks that might make things worse if we're wrong."

Anna stood there, frowning. "Her mother..."

Carl glanced at her, raising an eyebrow questioningly.

"She seemed very protective of her handbag. I'm worried you're right, but worse, I'm scared it wasn't even her idea." Anna murmured, nodding at the young woman in the tub.

Carl stood up slowly, leaning closer to Anna, speaking in a low voice that Tilly could only just make out. "I can talk to her if you want, you aren't on the clock." There was something he didn't put into words but was clear between them.

Anna touched his arm appreciatively but gave a small shake of her head. "I'll do it. I'm a mother too, maybe I can get through to her. Get the treatments ready." She said her fingers lingering on his arm as she turned away and headed for the door. Carl returned to typing away furiously, while Tilly watched Anna go.

There was a small splash, Tilly jerking in surprise, worried she'd let her mind wander off, but it wasn't her doing. The splashing grew more vigorous as Zara's body began to convulse. "She's seizing!" Tilly shouted, reaching into the water with both arms to support the trembling figure in the bath.

[bronx-bomber87]

Hello and happy Wednesday Fandom and wonderful readers :) This was another solid episode. The hitman SL could be interpreted in a few ways I think. Which is kind of fun. I'll be real honest I'm not 100 percent sure what the endgame is and such. This doesn't feel done. But that is the fun part of these 'First' impressions. Those first initials thoughts. Would I like to be spot on and right all the time? Sure who wouldn't be? haha

But I'm also ok being off or wrong about this as well. I'm sure my outlook will be wildly different when this ep gets added to my master list this summer. I was entertained though I will say that. We got to have Tim/Angela on a case too. What's not to love there? Bestie time is always appreciated.

Second LOVED The Lucy/Celina SL. I'm very close to my sister so it struck an emotional chord with me. Just like her sister SL did the first time. As a all around episode I really enjoyed it. Not gonna say it was 7x08, 7x09, 7x11 or 7x12 caliber but I liked it all around like last ep. That is the theme of this season. Plus I'll never say no to another hug. Ever. Hard to believe we're in the home stretch. The final 5 are left including this one. This has gone way too fast. Only 4 left after this one. Better to not dwell on that too long. Let us begin.

7x14 Mad About Murder

We start off in what has become my happy place this season. Tim's house. Just makes me giddy to be there. No matter the occupants with him. Obviously the most enjoyable is when Lucy is there ha. But I'm getting such joy out of the use of it. I'm sure Eric was thrilled considering he fought so hard to get it back. Love that man. Oh Captain, my Captain.

Tim invited Miles over to strong arm him into the touch football game. Which is beyond precious by the way. I love seeing Tim so passionate about it. We know how much he loves football. What it means to him. Also how competitive he is. Was giving 1x05 vibes. Their convo is interrupted by a knock. The minute Tim opened the door and that man said his rank and name I was anxious.

Now I will say the way he cocked his gun and reopened the door. Have mercy. I was here for it. Tim in streets plus that? Thank you writers for this morsel. The dude's face when Tim reappears with the gun is priceless. Not what he signed up for. But what did he expect showing up to a cop's house with a message like that? Tim doesn't have time for this and has Miles cuff the guy.

This is where all my questions and anxiety stem from for this SL. Questions like. Who is this person? Why are they wanting to take down this site? But mostly WHY Tim? Why deliver it to him? This is where my nerves kick in. This unknown voice saying they will destroy him if he tries to find out. They could mean 'You.' as the collective LAPD 'You.' But they could also not.

Now would I be reacting this way if this was delivered to Nolan? No. Not even a little bit. Sorry John. lol But I am over protective over him and Lucy. More so than anyone else on this show. Something I'm sure is obvious af to you all. The fact that this landed on Tim's doorstep put me on edge from the moment it happened.

Just didn't sit right with me. Them finding Tim at his house and presenting it the way they did. I could be overreacting but my initial gut reaction to this was anxiety and questions. That is the fun of going through these the first time though and seeing how it unfolds. Was quite the start to the ep.

Poor Celina I can't even imagine what she was feeling. To take the darkest moment of your life and hear people talk and comment on it? What a violation. I feel dirty just writing about it. Let alone living it. I do love that Lucy love's true crime. That has always made me chuckle. She lives and breathes it and craves more in her off time.

Lucy's face when she hears Celina's name. Ugh. I would've reacted the same way. Taken off like a bat out of hell. Ready to destroy this podcaster. Lucy is barely able to keep up with Celina as she all but bolts towards this woman's place. Trying to be supportive of how she feels but wanting to keep her anger contained. Since she is a a public servant and all.

We can see the concern written all over her face as she chases Celina. She's such a good friend. I love her. We all need a Lucy in our lives friend wise. Luckily she is able to contain it best she can with Celina pulling her mom out. They run into another woman in the hall. One desperately looking for her pregnant sister who has been missing for weeks. Celina's mom volunteering them to help her. Their SL begins.

What I loved about this SL was we got to have Tim and Angela on a case together. Bestie's unite on this one. This may be random af but made me think of a thing on New Girl. 'A Classic Winston and Cece mess around.' LOL A classic Tim and Angela case. This scene above being why. The looks shared between them while they investigate these clueless people haha Didn't have the space to get third guy in but their shared looks are top notch.

That first lady is clearly checking Tim out. No shame in her game. Saying as long as his arm as she checked out his arm lmao I mean, I was checking out his arms too, but I always do that when they’re in plain view like that. The way he turns around to Angela had me cackling. Man never knows how to take being hit on. Never has. Never will.

Eric is so effortlessly funny it’s subtle, but it lands so well. And Alyssa? Her reaction in kind is absolute perfection. They're so good together. The second one hitting on Angela is too funny. I was laughing so hard. "Not this shorty.' Ha I really do love when they're paired together. Only other person Tim has this good of chemistry with on a case, besides Lucy, is Angela. Their banter and teamwork is *chef's kiss* So you'll never see me complain about them tackling a case together.

They find out hitman and clients alike are being wiped out due to website being hacked. Which is horrifying with how quickly they found that out tbh. I mean clearly the person who let Tim know and the person wiping out these people are not the same.

Makes me wonder who the hell it is.... I'm assuming that's the idea. That we aren't supposed to know. What they do know is they have a list of people to stop from being killed.

Nolan tries to make a dad joke and fails HARD. The look between them had me cracking up. I did love their in-sync turn to face John. Only other person I would be comfortable Tim having this much case chemistry with is her. Bestie magic at it's finest. They're so over Nolan's BS and I'm laughing so very hard. Thinking he has something important to say and it's that....Swing and a miss good sir. I love them.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the authority Lucy exudes in this scene. Takes control of the situation immediately. Telling Heather she needs to leave. Not in a minute. Not after they talk. NOW. Of course she tries to contest it and that doesn't fly with Lucy. Not one bit. 'She's not in charge. I am.' *mic drop* Like hot damn girl. You're every bit the badass you don’t give yourself credit for. Look at you. I'm so proud.

Forever in awe of the confident BAMF of a woman she has become. It floors me just like Tim's growth. Makes me so happy to see. I adore Lucy taking on this leader/protector role for Celina in this episode. Knowing these waters are going to be choppy emotionally for her with this one. Celina has come a long way but this is a trigger for her. One she wouldn't be able to handle on her own.

Now I totally understand why Taylor did this. I'm very close to my sister. She's basically one of my best friends. I cannot imagine having a fallout like that and then have her go missing. I would be sick with worry and guilt. Needing to do SOMETHING to fix it. To alleviate the anxiety and worry eating me alive. I would be insane with stress and reaching out to anyone to help me. As I said earlier this SL struck a personal chord with me. They wrote this very well.

We get to the scene (other than the hug) I was most excited to get to. Some bestie time at Tim's house. Which I am more than happy they are at once again. They take a break from work and Tim asks if she wants a drink? They shift from work to personal life pretty quickly. Thank you Angela. You are a Queen and we all adore you for it. Doesn’t hold back on giving him shit in the slightest. No matter the subject. We are not worthy madam. But forever grateful.

She starts out slow. Asking about the game. If he convinced Miles to join yet or not? I love her easing him into it. She knows this man well. Tim jokes he threatened a blue page. Angela poking and prodding in a way only she can. Tim saying this game is important to him. Angela knows exactly what that is code for. All his issues with his father and what football represented for him. Doesn't waste a second calling him out for it. Tim asking if she always has to poke at his feelings? Uh duh.

Of course she wants to talk feelings. What else do you expect Timothy? Sure it's a convo she's been wanting to have for awhile with him. Especially with Tim and Lucy in a seemingly better place, a confusing, messy place, but still better. One where no one, including them, fully knows what that means. Clearly that is coming across to everyone in the station Angela included. Also love her saying he's one of the girls and girls gossip LOL Fantastic but true. What happens you have a girl-bestie my love. They wanna talk feelings.

Angela doesn't beat around the bush. Telling him to just spill it. He's not going to win this battle and he knows it. Asking Tim what's going on with him and Lucy? I will say this scene gave me 6x06 vibes. That scene in the car at the dock while they're tailing Ray. Angela giving him her advise whether he wants it or not. He isn't nearly as obstinate now as he was then. He is just a smidge this time around haha. It feels mostly banter based though. Tim replying honestly he doesn't know. It's a fair assessment.

They're in a better space but they're not fully healed. She just used his body like a jungle gym not long ago. One he was more than happy to be, but it did make things messier.... So this is a fair reply from him. Following it up with her taking the Sergeants exam. Which is his way of saying he hopes that gives him another crack at winning her back. Angela picks up on this of course. Implying as such in her reply.

Being our on screen shipper saying 'So you two can get back together?' I love her so much. Tim denies it at first. Saying it's good for her career. I mean it is but it is also good for you two and this bloody chain of command issue. Tim letting her know it has come up though.....Angela ask if she can offer a little advice? I was so excited about this for couple reasons. One another square down for my bingo card haha Two. I just really wanted a scene like this. Angela telling him like it is about Lucy. He is far more receptive than he's ever been. Even if he is sassy in his reply above.

The giving season continues on with Angela's spot on advice. Crushing it on all fronts in her guidance. Putting everything on the table since they're talking about it. Starting off with Lucy was (and still is) the best thing that's ever happened to him. FACTS. Just straight FACTS to begin with. The advice is to come. But I love her saying this to start with. We've known this for a very long time. But it is nice to hear it on screen. Just like everything else this season. It's so very satisfying to watch that become cannon. Angela watched over the years the positive impact Lucy has had on her friend. The amazing woman she's become. How happy she made him when they were together. Watched the change in Tim due to her. It had to be said.

She kicked this speech off strong and I was cheering her on. Angela soldiers forward letting him know if he is lucky enough to win her back after ALL he put her though. And as we all know far too painfully well, what he put her through was nothing short of hell. God it was hell on earth for us as well. Idk even with my previous ship I adored I felt as much agony as 6x06 made me feel. I love Angela recognizing that. I really do .She may have no idea the details but she knows the turmoil he thrust upon her with their breakup. The magnitude of it wasn't lost on her. I adore Tim nodding along with all of this. The Tim he is now, the more healed, more grounded one, knows exactly what Angela’s throwing down right now. I love that this is something that is brought up a lot. The severity of what he did doesn't fade. It's ever present.

He isn't shying away from it though. Post-therapy, there’s no one more aware of the damage he inflicted on her than Tim. I love Angela calling him on it and he is in absolute agreeance. No fight whatsoever. Her follow up to that is utter perfection. That he should be on his knees every night, praying in gratitude if he’s lucky enough to get her back. Yes he should be. GOD I LOVE THIS WOMAN. Ain't no one gonna tell him straight like his bestie will. Tim understands the assignment. You can see it when he says 'Understood.' All that’s left is the convo and Lucy's forgiveness at this point. Feel like everything else is in place IMO. We are so close I can feel it.

I admire Lucy apologizing here. I would do the same thing. The guilt would be eating me up. I would want to address the elephant in the room as well. I can't sit on things. I have to talk about them or they'll suffocate me. Lucy doing this is for Celina is just the best.

It's like this episode was trying to remind me why I love Lucy Chen so much. I already knew but I don't hate the reminders. I just adore her having the foresight to know it probably upset Celina. To nip that in the bud before they really dig into this investigation. Adore this woman. Safe to say I might be a little in love with Lucy Chen too haha

I was kinda hoping they’d have a case like this living together I will say. So having them team up like this was exciting to watch. Celina thanking her is everything. She knows what balls it took for Lucy to own up to listening to that podcast. To be vulnerable and confront it like she did. I love their bond it's so sweet. I'm sure it's something Celina NEEDED to hear but would've never asked of Lucy. That's what makes the moment so impactful and special IMO. I love their friendship so very much.

This entire sequence put me on edge in the best way. It was so good. The way they teamed up and saved this girl and child. Also Lucy Chen you are an absolute BAMF. That almost doesn't seem like enough of a word for her. Holy Hell. Do you see how she flew through that window and was immediately ready to negotiate?

Gun drawn ready to talk this unstable person down? I am in awe of her Fandom. Doesn't hesitate to pull that trigger when its warranted. To save that little babies life. To think you doubted you were a bad ass in 7x11 Lucy. SMH. Bailey should be the one metaphorically holding the beer now LOL If only she could see herself the way we all saw her. Goodness she is impressive.

Look at Lucy comforting Celina. Knowing right away this must be upsetting for her. How could it not be? They got to have the ending she was robbed of. I’m sure this is striking a deep chord within her. Lucy is making sure she is ok. Letting her know it's ok if she isn't ok.

I love that so much. When you don’t get any validation growing up, it’s such a blessing to find people who do that for you. Validate your feelings. Not only that but letting you know sometimes it's ok not to be ok. I can't explain how this hit just right.

I loved Lucy being that friend in this moment for her. Something very healing about receiving it. You can see Celina wants to cry after she say this. She've given her the space to not be ok with this. It's lovely. This scene got me square in the heart I will say. What a good episode for them both. Holy cow. Lucy spots her person waiting for her and feels the siren call of him. Letting Celina know she is going to be right back. That when she is she'll take her home.

Have to get some Feral Caitlin out before we start on this hug. Mmmm god Tim showing up looking like a god damn snack. Just look at him above when he arrives. Badge showing, tight red shirt, and jeans. Lord have mercy. This man will be the death of me in the best way.... I love him coming to check on her right away. Clearly hearing she had to shoot that crazy woman. His first priority is her. She’s the first thing on his mind and the first place he runs to.

I cannot with how much I love this. Adore that Tim is the one to initiate this hug. Transparent Tim continues to make me happy beyond belief. Doesn't ask if she needs a hug. Just engulfs her in his arms, the moment she is close enough for him to scoop her up. Lucy easily folds into him. Like the perfect puzzle piece she always is in their hugs. Just locking into place like it's where she should always be. Look at her above It's the first time she's been allowed to fall apart a little.

The little happy grunt she does once she's in his arms. *screams* The look of absolute relief that he is there is getting me emotional af. Like she can breathe a little knowing he’s there. Tim happy to be the one to hold her up if only for a brief moment. Also can we talk about where her hands are and where she slowly withdraws them? So intimately placed…my goodness. Tim trying to make a joke to get her to smile. It doesn't land like he wants with her defeated reply. So he just nods being whatever she needs in this moment.

I adore Lucy being open with him about how she’s feeling. That logically she can understand how someone could be that broken. But emotionally? She is wrecked and upset. Hell I am too. That whole scene was disturbing to watch unfold. I love that she leans into him emotionally when something is upsetting and hurts. Just like old times. We all know It’s how she makes sense of things by talking them out. Lucy knows he’s steady enough of a pillar to work it out with her.

That she feels safe enough to do that with him constantly now. Look at how we started this season. She wouldn't talk to him about Seth and her initials issues. Now look at her. It’s been a slow, steady kind of healing and there’s something so beautiful in that. How naturally it's come without being rushed. I commend the writers so much this year for it's pace. The maturity of it all has blown me away.

Now Tim just screaming his feelings once again in his reply. Concern pouring out of him. The relief in his eyes knowing she’s ok is glorious. To him at the end of the day Lucy being ok is more important to him than anything else. He conveys as much to her. This man isn’t going to waste a single moment with her without making sure she knows how much she matters to him. Keep showing up for her Tim. I know I have said that a lot but it's working. His consistency in moments like this are paramount to building toward their reconciliation and that talk.

It's sweet she is leaning on him a second time here. Asking if it was ok if she didn't come to the game later? Needing his reassurance to take care of herself. He gladly gives her it. The way he builds her up before saying he’s got her back I cannot. That is his speciality this year. Building his girl up when she needs him the most. Love me some s7 Tim fandom. I loved this man before; but God almighty, he has leveled up this year and I love him even more, if that’s possible.

I adore him listing all the ways she's earned her break. The reverence in his tone as he explains all the reasons she deserves to go rest. The man doesn’t need extra reasons to be so gone for her, but she just keeps stacking them up with badass moments like this. Also we got to see a little protective Tim coming out in his reply. He wouldn’t hesitate to destroy anyone who tried to give him crap about her missing it. Little bit of feral Tim comes out and he stops himself. And just says he’ll fill them in.

You watch him take a beat before he says it. Then finishes with 'I'll fill them in.' When really he’s wants to rip them a new asshole if they say anything. But refrains from saying as such ha Like to note the way Lucy looks at him adoringly as he answers the phone. The heart eyes are real. She didn’t decompress until her person arrived. Just being strong for Celina then he showed up and she could fall apart a little. *happy sigh* His sweet touch before he has to go has my shipper heart all happy. Gah I love them.

There is literally no purpose to this gif other than the sinfully delicious man above. Just flexing those sexy forearms as they prep. Tim Bradford is a full-blown thirst trap, and I’ve never been so dehydrated. The thirst is very real. Something about Field Tim and street clothes has me extra feral. haha *fans self*

I will say I loved Angela being the one to take Malvado down. Just like Lucy doesn't hesitate to do what must be done. After he kicked Tim and Nolan's ass....

Before she leaves she mentions the thing that's been bugging me this entire SL. Who is the person that contacted Tim? Is there any significance in him being chosen? Or was it just random? My gut just isn't sitting well with Tim being the chosen one to receive the news. So who this is? I guess that’s still TBD.... For now. I might be overreacting like I stated earlier. Simply because it's Tim who was the target to start the case. Like I said if it was Nolan I wouldn't bat an eye.

Could be mean nothing but we're headed toward the end of season.... So I'm a little on edge bout finale implications. I could be completely wrong and this has zero to do with Tim. Could have no connection to him at all. This could be another Monica fueled plan to get more players off the board.

And while that might not be him directly. If true doesn't mean he wouldn't be collateral damage in it all. Especially if this person wants revenge for being revealed and told him as much. My anxiety was cranked for this and I can't explain why. All I do know is we are not done with this whatever it is. And that's what makes me nervous. I don't have answers lol and that's ok shall see how this ends up playing out.

Tis Entire game was adorable and I loved it. As Giants fan And Eli Manning being the brother I love more I adored Cooper Manning being in this ep. That was amazing haha Also Angela trying to bribe Wes was everything LOL Nolan's face was funny in reply. Also it was pot shot at the refs from last season in the NFL I'm dying. IFYYK. Won't say no to Sports Tim in my fav color rocking a black eye. Idk why that does it for me. But honestly anything about this man does it for me let's be honest. haha Was a light and fun way to end the ep.

Next week looks GOOOOOD. I know the documentary eps aren't always well received. But I always have a soft spot for them. They're usually hilarious and more importantly produce excellent Chenford content. They're being interviewed together for it too. So I am ready for whatever goodies we get in this episode. May even get a more open Tim than we've ever seen with these. Especially if the topic of Lucy is brought up and or their relationship. It's a bummer about Abagail. I do love all the s2 tie backs this season. Rachel and Now her.

Thank you forever and always to my readers. Your likes, comments ( love chatting bout the season come chat) and reblogs fuel me. These are a fun thing I get to do for my happy place and you all make that possible so thank you. Shall see you all 7x15 :)

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Side notes-Non Chenford

Idk why hearing Eric’s voice say “previously on the rookie.” Brings me so much joy but it does LOL

Poor Nyla…I hope their meetings gain more traction in the future. Nice to see her and James in a better place it seems.

Omg these videos….I can't believe thats what they watched lol

Same day delivery for the win. Gah I miss same day delivery. Where I am now does not have it LOL I was very spoiled where I was before. Lived near a hub No where near one now...

God John’s view is stunning always blows me away when we're at his house. Legit distracts me in his house haha

Didn’t mind the FBI insert this ep. Maybe it’s the others I can’t stand LOL she’s pretty solid addition if we’re gonna have them.

So proud of Miles and his video. Love this kid. I love him using the game to get Tim to do the videos. I love him hahah well done sir. Also we better see dem videos.

[newfoundstateof]

an imagined s1 kingdon goodbye

The buzz of Mel’s phone jolts her awake. Elf plays on the TV and Becca’s to her left, happily quoting the movie line for line. Somehow, Becca doesn’t mind when Mel falls asleep to a movie, but she does mind when she’s on her phone. Slowly, Mel slides a pillow on her lap to shied the screen away from her sister.

A message from an unknown number reads, Mel? This is Langdon. I looked your number up in the system. I hope that’s okay.

Mel’s brows furrow. There shouldn’t be any reason for a coworker she just met today to text her at… 11:21. 

Mel: Is everything okay, Dr. Langdon?

Langdon: Yeah, I just wanted to make sure I said goodbye.

Mel: Oh, well I’ll see you tomorrow. 

She thinks for a moment. It doesn’t make sense for him to text her if he’ll be at the next day shift.

Mel: Unless you don’t work this weekend, then I’ll see you next week.

Langdon: I can’t really explain it all right now, but for personal reasons I won’t be back for a while I think. 

You were great today though. I know you’re gonna continue to do great at the Pitt. I really enjoyed working with you. Just wanted to let you know before I see you again.

Mel doesn’t know if she deserves to know when she’ll see him next. But, her stomach drops at the thought of not seeing him again for a long time. It's a weird sensation. One shift doesn't warrant her being owed his continued presence, but as she left today, Mel imagined a whole career at PTMH. With Langdon. But never one to pry, she simply sends back a quick:

Mel: Thank you, Dr. Langdon. I appreciate that, it was great working with you, too. I hope all is well, and I’ll see you later.

His messages are vague and concerning, and Mel wants to know more in case she can help at all. But she reminds herself that she just met Langdon. Whatever he’s going through, he certainly has a better support system elsewhere.

“Are you on your phone?” Becca whines, pausing the movie.

“Nope, nope,” Mel says. “Just needed to message someone, but I’m done now. You can press play.”

“Who?”

“Oh… a coworker. Really, it’s nothing. Please press play,” Mel sighs. The sooner Elf is over, the better.

“Is he cute?” she teases.

“Objectively…?” Mel says. “Yes, probably. Just press play.”

Becca yawns. “I think I’m too tired. We can finish it tomorrow! Let’s talk more about this coworker tomorrow, too!”

Wrapping her blanket around herself, she shuffles off to her room without another word. Once her door is fully closed, Mel throws herself back onto the couch and almost cries. 

“No more Elf!” Hands clasped to her chest, she falls asleep right there.

[cillianmurphysdimples]

You probs won't want to but is there any way you can do a little fic where either yn or Cill pass later in life and what the other experiences at the time? Thxx

I can do that. But I'm going to alter it, if that's okay, and if that's not okay (if you're still around) let me know. I haven't lost a lover, and I don't think I'd do that justice, but I can do the loss of a parent and so instead, I'll write that loss from Clíodhna's POV if you're okay with that.

I've been sitting on this ask for about a month. Today, after a tearful half an hour, I actually felt ready to write it. Forgive me while I, for catharsis, use a story I know.

WARNINGS for death of a loved one. Please don't read if you don't want to.

Go raibh mile maith agat - thank you very much

Story under the cut

From Clíodhna's perspective, told in the form of her speech at the funeral.

I can't say goodbye to the best part of my life. But even if I could, even if we would, what would I say? We know that love is stronger than hate, harder than suffering, hurts more than pain, and if this is the end, well darling it's been everything.

......Like both Aran and Malachy had already said, it was a shock. It came so suddenly, nobody expected it. Mam and Dad had been slowly getting older, of course, but it didn't really hit me until I watched Dad at his seventieth birthday dinner. Seventy isn't old, like, but something about Dad that night felt different and I know that Mal and Aran saw it too. By seventy one, as so many of you know, Dad was diagnosed with cancer. We knew by the time that it was all confirmed, it wasn't a good prognosis and time was...short. But Dad, y'know, he smiled and he said:

"Ah, sure...don't we all have to go some time, leanbh?"

He was right, of course. But that smile didn't last too long, and when he had Mal and Aran over that night to tell them he cried for the first time. Dad was emotional at times, but I only ever remember him really crying when Granny and Granddad died. But it hurt him to tell my big brothers that he was sick, and he'd be leaving us behind when he so badly wanted to be here. He sat with us, and Mam, and Auntie Von, and he said:

"Promise me something? Look out for one another - you three. You five."

Mam told him he was maudlin, and she was right - but she was too. He had so many more plans, so much more work, another meeting with Enda! He wasn't ready. He wasn't ready as he went to his appointments, as he took the medication, as he sat for the scans and x-rays, as he slept... You all know Dad liked his sleep, but this was...all he could do.

So many of you have reached out to Mam and me, and we are so grateful. The house rattles, now, when we walk around it - small though he always was, he was everything. So many of you have sent cards and messages, there's been calls and visits, and youse are all so kind for that. You tried, we know, to visit while he was sick and he wouldn't allow it. But please know that he appreciated every one who reached out.

One thing I know that nobody knows is that we were all there, when he went. Mam, Yvonne, Malachy, Aoife, Aran and me. Holding his hands, talking about the good times, playing music we know he loved because he tortured us with it all the while! And, y'know, while he didn't talk back, and he didn't open his eyes, I know he knew we were all there and I know he heard every word. I know he felt us, and heard us, and I know he knew that, to us, he was....everything.

He was my Magic Daddy - and I learned only too recently that that wasn't the sentimental thing I always believed it to be! But he was. Mam swears he's the reason I survived as a thirty-week preemie. He treated me like royalty, and he honoured Mam like she was.... everything. He told me, every day of my life, that I had two of the best big brothers anyone could have, and he was so fucking right. Of course he was - my Magic Daddy.

Mam's been falling apart slowly since Dad got sick, but I've seen her sparkle disappear entirely since he passed. She hasn't smiled, or laughed, or spoken more than the words she's had to. Dad saved her, you know? He took my Mam from someone who wanted to be better than her past, and loved her enough to love herself enough to do that. He fought battles alongside her, and jays did they fight like cat and dog?! But fuck it, to each other, they were.... everything.

To quote a film that Dad would absolutely hate me for quoting, because he'd see it as celebrating him and we all know how modest he was.... But, to quote my Dad.. "I didn't want him to die." And I know by the sheer amount of faces here today, that that sentiment is shared by many, many people. We're a family broken, but family is still everything and he always was, and always will be everything.

I'm so happy you've all come to share your love of him with us. I can't thank you enough but, in the words of my Dad, when accepted his Oscar in 2024... "Go raibh mile maith agat."

[thecutestgrotto]

Hi! Skyrim/ACOTAR anon again.

I'd love to see some Labyrinth themed dividers, if you're comfortable with it. If not... I'm going to say dealer's choice on either The Princess Bride or The Neverending Story as an alternative. I grew up watching all 3 movies on a regular basis, so I'll be happy with any of them!

Thank you so much!

-🌻💜☕🥞

Ah Labyrinth, I too grew up watching it as my mom had it on vhs. Screw David Bowie but he was so good in that movie and fit the role of Jareth perfectly. Maybe his history is why he did, actually, now that I think about it; since the story can be interpreted as not love but obsession and manipulation. Excellent movie, 10/10.

Labyrinth (1986)

Also: I got your other message but I didn’t want to answer publicly because it’s a private thing, even though you’re anonymous- but I’m sensitive for the same exact reasons and I appreciate you understanding and sharing that with me. 💗

[scary-grace]

Hi, two questions if it's not too much trouble.

I love Designated Villain, and I noticed something in the second chapter that has me scratching my head. Reader doesn't notice that Magne needs or is on Estrogen, but in canon we have no clue she's Big SIS until she's dead, because the story itself misgenders her and she isn't really what I could call passing. Is she visibly different here, or is Reader just more oblivious than me (who failed to even realize Magne was trans until reading the wiki a week after the manga chapter)?

Could I get some insight on your opinion of Gran Torino? You seem distinctly unfond of him and I'm curious as to why. I don't particularly care for him myself, so please feel free to rant if you want.

Thank you!

Hi! Thank you for the ask — I always appreciate questions about the fics + headcanons in general!

1) Regarding Magne in Designated Villain, there are two things. The first is that I really didn’t like the way Magne was drawn in canon. I feel like she was something of a stereotype or caricature of a trans woman and I wanted to remedy that a little bit if I could. I also think there’s a chance she’d have more regular access to estrogen/better quality estrogen in the system than outside of it. The second thing is that the reader in Designated Villain is particularly unobservant at this point in the story. She’s really wrapped up in herself and coping with her predicament, and she’s not good at noticing what’s going on around her. All of that combines to her not picking up on Magne being trans until it’s actively pointed out to her.

2) Regarding Gran Torino in general, I feel like he’s a perfect representative of the old/current system in BNHA society — myopic, unable to recognize a need for change, unable to see humanity in people who are different from him. But my main problem with him is the influence he exerts over people like All Might and Midoriya. Both All Might and Midoriya have a natural instinct to save everyone, and as we see from All Might’s initial response to learning about Shigaraki’s true origins, everyone includes villains. All Might correctly identifies the problem in Shigaraki’s situation, as well as the reasons for Shigaraki’s grievance — he and Gran Torino left the Shimuras vulnerable in spite of knowing what All For One was like (note: Shigaraki is taken by AFO well before All Might’s first fight with AFO). His impulse is to seek Shigaraki out and try to help him. Gran Torino instantly quashes it, and dehumanizes Shigaraki in the process, essentially stating that Shigaraki is not a person, just a villain. This trend continues with Midoriya, who also identifies Shigaraki as someone who needs to be rescued. Once again, Gran Torino steps in to check this impulse, stating that killing Shigaraki is the best way to save him. While Midoriya is initially resistant to that viewpoint, it’s the one he ultimately follows — copping out by “saving Tenko’s heart” rather than taking on the more complex and important task of saving Shigaraki as the person he’s become. To me, though, the final nail in what should have been Gran Torino’s coffin is during the PLF War and his brief one-on-one fight with Shigaraki, when he states that Shigaraki’s existence pains All Might and that therefore he needs to die. Not Shigaraki’s actions, not his mission or plans — his mere existence is the problem. Which, naturally, reinforces everything All For One’s groomed Shigaraki to think about himself: He exists to cause suffering to others, and doing so is his natural state. TL;DR, Gran Torino’s a relic of a time BNHA needs to leave behind, and his influence on other characters is a big problem as far as the message BNHA initially presented itself as sending.

Thanks for the ask! This was fun to answer, and I hope you’re having a good day 😌

[the-squeege]

I’ve been a huge fan of Glass Scientists for… what’s it been like… 7 years? Something like that.. anyway I’m super happy to see it getting more recognition AND EVEN GETTING PUBLISHED??? I got volume 2 the other day and in reading the after words about Jasper I figured I HAD to draw him and talk about why he is SO important to me and why I’m so thankful he exists the way he does. There’s so much else I could say about this series and how much I adore it and how important it is to me but for here I’m just gonna focus on Jasper and why he is so incredibly important to me.

also please go read the glass scientists if you haven’t already it’s SO GOOD

It’s.. not something I talk a lot about but to anybody who pays attention to me on here, it’s probably pretty obvious that I’m trans. Or maybe not. My best friends didn’t know for like 2 years until I made a joke about taking my t shots lol.

When I first started reading glass scientists I didn’t know I was trans. And ultimately this isn’t really a story of how I found out, to be completely blunt it kinda just happened and I’m like yeah, I’m way more comfortable this way, this is just who I am.

After coming to terms with being trans, I found a lot of comfort in many of the characters in Glass Scientists. Over the years something really resonated with me more and more about Jasper.. I always appreciated how yeah, he’s a guy and he’s also soft! And sweet! And I know how much of a walking talking trans man stereotype I am but it felt so nice to see a male character acting and feeling the way I do, bad posture and all.

A few years later and the pages where Jasper talks about being trans drop and HOOH BOY

Everything in these few pages just felt so real and personal to me. Like I had lived this experience of coming out before, as it’s something I and many other trans folk have had to do over and over again. The way Jasper talks about his journey, the way Rachel sees him and the way that the story just continues on with Jasper just.. being who he is. Especially in a world with almost no transmasc representation in media???? This was MONUMENTAL for me. I didn’t really know it was possible to be so seen and so understood in a piece of media.

The real kicker was Rachel’s line about how Jasper must have been so uncomfortable. As someone who’s been lucky enough to have a lot of support, and a loving partner who has been nothing short of incredibly kind and patient and understanding, that line just. I dunno it makes me tear up a little (a lot) every time I read it. That understanding and acknowledgment in those few little words means the world to me.

I wanted to write this out and be a lil vulnerable here after reading how Sage was worried about their portrayal of Jasper. Idk if they’d ever see this, but I wanted to get it out there that as a trans man myself, Jasper is perfect. I’m so thankful that Jasper exists in the story as he does, and that so much love and care went into portraying him. I get the same feeling reading that scene with Rachel and Jasper as I’ve had being comforted by friends and family. It’s so personal and touching. Thank you for writing Jasper the way he is <3

[weirdphilosopher]

me when i accidentally accept a gift in the crossroads before i thank the other person in the little chatbox

[wellfine]

Hey I found ur art uncredited on tik Tok

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMreQSnaw/

They said they "found it on Reddit" so they just decided to steal it and post it ig?? Ugh!!

Wow, that's a whole other repost to the one I thought it was going to be, lol. It's been reposted to TikTok once before, and I'm also not surprised this person got it from Reddit, where I doubt I was credited either.

At the end of the day I appreciate the heads up but there's nothing I can really do about it. The most helpful thing anyone can do is to leave comments on the reposts to provide credit,* because if artists ever try and comment then we pretty invariably get attacked. Don't be mean or aggressive, that just builds their animosity towards the artists, but I do think people respond positively to outside pressure to do the right thing 🤷

*Remember to make sure there's enough context - eg. something like "art by @ landegart on Twitter" is more searchable/useful than "artist is Landeg" to someone on TikTok who has no idea who I am haha

[cottoncandylesbo]

Hello Candy Candyson. Can I call you that? I'm just wanted to let you know that I think you're really cool and attractive and like. Every time I see you on my dash, and hear your voice on stream I just think about how effortlessly funny you are. You do a lot of cool stuff, and you keep really good company too. I think your partner is super lucky. I'm sorta new to this whole being gay thing, but I just wanted to say that I think you're really neat.

my loyal fan,

thank you for your message. youre right- i am hot and funny, and i'm glad to be recognized as such.

maybe one day you'll pick up a mean bitch like myself for your own. maybe. if you're lucky.

regards,

candy sapphos

[saetiate]

...what tiger hybrid reader au...... wym u cant just drop that in tags and be silent PLEASE T-T

HAHA it's not as cool as it sounds it's a little depressing but it's this and i wrote a very short sae x reader thing for it too and it's also tangentially related to this

but essentially yes tiger hybrid reader who tries to fit into the world only to be seen as a predator + character who adopts them and takes them in anyways. tiger hybrid reader who bites and scratches and is so so dangerous and how different characters react to that. whether they try to tame you or let you run wild, whether and how you eventually give into them... much to think about

[harvestmoth]

more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw

[loderlied]

sharing some thoughts about deactivating here because it’s been difficult pondering idk.

[alienhunteranonymous]

Kys

Kill me yourself