#technically it's nessian fanfiction except for a few chapters here and there

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Sneak Peak of some chapter in Queen of Queens in the future:

Y’all I have such a problem, because I write random scenes to avoid the one I’m suppose to be writing.... But it’s such a good scene. I love it! SO here is sneak peak of Queen of Queens chapter like.... 35. Lol. Which I may or may never get to so... I figure I post now. It’s Elain’s POV, because eventually this story will have all of them. Because obvi it’s just a post-acosf fic. 

Context: I cannot give you. Because then I would be giving away the plot. But Lucien and Elain are in a brothel, because of.... something I cannot tell you... but they discuss their bond sort of. Anyways read if you want. 

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“Why didn’t you try to talk me out of my relationship with Azriel?”

“Because it wasn’t my decision.” Lucien said, shrugging as they listened to the moans singing from the brothel. On other occasions, Elain might have felt it indecent to be seen in this hall, but after every indecent thing she’d done in abandoned hallways and hastily found closets, Elain thought that might have made her a bigger hypocrite than she already was.

Lucien took a sip of his drink and Elain watched the knot of his throat move as he swallowed.  

“It was always you’re choice… To choose me. To not choose me. I wasn’t going to stand in your way if you felt was the right decision.”

Elain looked out into the open space, quickly looking towards the ceiling instead of the females grinding on each other, and the male grabbing one of the worker’s waist, the female going to sit on his lap. She frowned, wondering briefly if she’d ever looked like that too. Two large fish eating at each other’s faces.  

“Choosing you didn’t feel like a choice,” She said at last.

Lucien shook his head. “But that wasn’t because of me.”

Elain scrunched her brows at the tone. That know-it-all indignation.

“It felt like I was being pushed to you,” She explained, “because you’re my…mate or whatever.”

The male beside her only scoffed, leaning forward, the drink in his hand dangling between his open thighs. “Have I ever pushed you?”

Elain shrugged a shoulder. “No.”  

“Did I kidnap you? Threaten to take you away? Rage that you were sleeping with another male while you still have an active bond with me? Because you did do that.”

“I’m aware!” Elain enunciated, the words coming out more annoyed than she wished. She didn’t know where her old, polite self had gone. Every time she was near him she only felt the urge to punch and kick.

“Did I treat you with anything less than respect?” He probed, his own voice growing louder as she began to grind her teeth. Elain could only shake her head, thoroughly irritated.

“There you go then.”

“I don’t understand why you’re mad.”

“I’m mad Elain, because you seem to think of me as some villain when I haven’t done anything wrong. I can’t control how you interpret every move I make, I just figured you’d be a little bit more understanding considering you are in the exact same position as me.”

Elain crossed her arms, thinking of what Nesta had said. Why can’t you understand?

“I can understand just fine thank you!” Elain could feel her face growing warm, her nostrils flaring as she took deep breaths. “I don’t need you telling me what you feel I should think.”  

She clenched her fists, and Lucien followed her gaze to her hands.

He chuckled lightly and something about the sound made her want to claw at his skin.  

“Why are you laughing?” She asked, irritated.

 His eyes shined as he laughed fully this time. The sound quieting the desperate groaning. “I’ve just never seen you angry.” A piece of long, red hair fell to his face. Elain felt the urge to tuck it behind his ear, but she dug her nails into her palm instead. “You get this funny look on your face.”

“You think my face looks funny?”

He smiled, nodding as her breath hitched quietly, “I do.”

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Wink Wink Wink. This was like a huge spoiler about plot, so I probably could have told you context. But.... that context is bigger then learning that in this story Azriel and Elain have a thing for a hot second. Because I’ve already said in a previous post that I love that concept. 

This story is a bit above me right now. So I’m trying to plan where it’s going. But to do that I usually write backwards. Which means randomness all around. Also, Elain was easy to write actually. I thought it would be hard. But she just came out like that. Like this annoyed princess-y type whose a bit spoiled in some cases, but is actually kind of more just learning who the hell she is. I loved making Lucien irritating to her! I’m excited now to write this more. 

Anyways, chapter 1 hasn’t even been posted. I need to get back to that.