#tbh though i do live kind of near the ocean now and it sucks

[isayoldbean]

light blue cause i know youd only be at peace near a body of water

thank you it's true i hope one day to live in a lighthouse or maybe at the bottom of the ocean. not in a bioshock kinda way though.

[missxmolotov]

Injuries

So, this post never really left my mind, and then this happened.  I’ve never written anything for AH before, but hey, here we are.  I hammered this out late last night to the sounds of MST3K and my husband snoring.  Enjoy and feel free to let me know if you do. (Please forgive my terrible title.  I know.)

FAHC, canon-typical violence, mentions of blood loss and bullet wounds, a smidge of Ryan/Jeremy at the end, and more plot than I planned on, but that’s my brand, tbh. SFW  Word count: 2481  Or read here on AO3.

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“Look, it’s going to shit in here, but don’t come back.  Do you hear me?  I’ve got it handled.”  Ryan curses as his comm bursts to life with the voices of his team immediately making plans to return to the factory crawling with goons who work for the guy they just robbed.  He takes cover behind some shipping crates on the south side of the building and tries to ignore the blood soaking into his shirt from the bullet holes in his shoulder and abdomen.

The gut shot didn’t seem to be that bad, surprisingly.  It was still oozing blood, but not alarmingly.  His shoulder, however, was a different story.  People liked to think that getting hit in the shoulder would hurt but not kill, but that wasn’t exactly true.  Lots of blood vessels running from the arms and neck to the chest meet in and around the shoulder area, and unlucky for him, one of the bullets must have nicked one of his.  Or two.  Or more, really.  It’s hard to tell now that his vision is going hazy.

Footsteps near him zap his waning focus back to life momentarily, only to see him level his gun between Lindsay’s eyes as she rounds the crate where he is, half-crouching and limping.

“It’s just me, jesus, Ryan,” she whispers, wincing a bit as she settles next to him.  He relaxes, peeking around the other side of the crate and counting at least ten guys moving quickly and methodically around the other shipping crates in the warehouse.  He closes his eyes for a few seconds, letting his head rest against the cold metal at his back and listening to the footsteps, quiet murmurs of their enemies as they call each area clear, and beyond that, the ocean outside lapping at the docks. Unexpected reinforcements had cut off the section of the building that he and Lindsay had been in, making escape impossible.  He had told them so, but Lindsay had stayed quiet until this moment.  Michael’s yells break through the din of voices in his ear, tinged with more fear than anger.  Lindsay shushes him and tosses an, “I’m fine, Michael,” before reaching up and turning the volume down.

Eyes still closed, he breathes out, “There’s at least ten of them, probably more on the second floor.”  When he opens his eyes and glances at Lindsay, she’s smirking, a dangerous glint in her gaze that showcases what caused Michael to fall in love with her.

“So, we stay under the catwalk to take these fuckers down.  Michael and Jeremy blew out the dock on the southeast side, so they can’t get in from that way.”  Ryan nods, taking a deep breath and trying to anchor his equilibrium as the room sways.

“Can’t flank us from there, then.  I like it.”  Once his vision clears, he looks at her leg, tries to discern what kind of injury lies beneath her blood-splattered jeans.

“It’s just a graze on my calf.  Hurts like a bitch to walk, though.  You?”  She lightly pulls his jacket away from his abdomen and hisses at the sight of his saturated shirt.  “Shit, no wonder you look so fucking pale.”  She sucks on her bottom lip as she thinks, worried eyes scanning the floor in front of them but not seeing it.  “New plan, you cover me from here, and I’ll run for one of the cars parked out the side door.  We gotta get you out of here.”

“No, I’m fine.  My gut has almost stopped bleeding already.  We gotta move, though.  They’ll be here soon.”  The footsteps are echoing in the row behind them.  Ryan wobbles to his feet, Lindsay’s free hand shooting out to steady him, but once he’s there, he takes some deep breaths and allows the adrenaline to do its job.  He looks at Lindsay, and watches that dangerous excitement reignite behind her eyes.  He nods and moves first, feet silent as they zigzag between the crates to the other side of the factory.  His shoulder screams with every movement, but luckily it’s his left, leaving his dominant right free to shoot as usual.

Somehow Lindsay follows him just as silently and smoothly, her injured leg not seeming to hinder her beyond a slight limp.  Once they reach the area under the catwalk, they part without a word, splitting to take cover behind separate crates to split the gunfire they’re about to draw in more than one direction.  They both take a moment, Lindsay nodding to herself and Ryan huffing deep breaths, pushing the pain in his shoulder and abdomen down, down, down until he can think past it.  It’s a useful trick, however short-lived it happens to be.  Then, with a nod, they both lean out and choose a target, pulling their triggers almost simultaneously, Ryan’s a clean throat shot, through and through.  Lindsay’s target’s head explodes and she lets out a ‘whoop’, high and clear and delighted.  Both bodies fall, one choking and one already greeting the hereafter.

One long second stretches out with no new targets in their field of view, only yells and panicked coordination of the other goons.  Then, three men run into view near the bodies of their coworkers, and Ryan takes two down quickly, the other turning toward Lindsay and catching two in the chest and a third in the face.  He swallows down the ‘conserve your ammo,’ comment, knowing that in the middle of this firefight, Lindsay is intending to have as much fun as possible, and said comment would only garner a ‘shut the fuck up.’

Also, he tries not to be a hypocrite when he can help it.  He’s got more blood on his hands than Lindsay will likely ever have, so, glass houses and rocks and all that.

“Hey, are you going to help me or stare into space some more?!” Lindsay yells, shooting twice and hitting only one target this time.  Time seems to speed up for him, and suddenly there are about fifteen people bearing down on them, gaining ground and making it nearly impossible to peek out to aim.  He wildfires around the corner with no indication that he hit anyone.  Lindsay cries out, and he looks over, sees a line of blood bloom across her cheek.  Another graze.

The split-second of fear that Lindsay had been taken down was all it took for a spike of adrenaline to clear his mind and help him focus.  Lindsay’s face was thunderous, anger turning her into someone unrecognizable.

“Okay?” he calls out to her, not sure he’s ever seen her look like this.  She swipes at the blood now running down her face and nods.  Ryan tilts his head toward the other side of the crate, indicating that he’s going to attempt to move back and flank a few of them.  Another nod and she turns, getting ready for the break in fire that Ryan will hopefully give her.

He turns and crouch-walks to the left, peeking around the corner of the crate and finding no one in his immediate sightline.  He can see two people still watching the spot from where his previous gunfire had come, and he easily dispatches them, moving quickly to the next row back as bullets erupt toward him.  He hears Lindsay returning fire followed by a couple thuds and then nothing as everyone reevaluates where to shift their focus.  Ryan takes a couple potshots, not able to get a clear shot without fully exposing himself and hopes that Lindsay will be able to keep taking advantage of his distractions.  There must be more than he thought, counting nine people down and still having more than a few goons to deal with.

“Lindsay, Ryan, if you can hear me, move toward the back of the building.  We’re crashing the party in the front,” Geoff says.  In the excitement, and possibly the blood loss, Ryan had tuned out the chatter in his ear of the rest of the crew.  Apparently, they did not heed his warning, and he didn’t know which emotion he felt more--exasperation or appreciation.

“Copy.  Lindsay, let’s go loud then.”

“Copy.”  Her reply is equal parts anger and glee.  His mouth twists into a smile as he mirrors her sentiments.  Maybe his reputation was a bit exaggerated, but he didn’t earn it without reason.

One breath, in and out, two breaths, in and out, three breaths.  The front of the factory, explodes inward, throwing debris and shrapnel all the way through the back windows and redirecting all of their enemies’ attentions to the front of the building.  Those not taken down by the explosion, that is.

Ryan doesn’t hesitate, striding forward and shooting two men in the back of the head seconds apart.  The guy closest to him turns and tries to level his gun, but Ryan kicks him in the side of the knee and he goes down, catching a bullet to the eye before he can even finish his pained shout.  Two more shots, and he’s feeling more himself, enjoying the automatic feeling of move-shoot-breathe as bodies fall in his wake.

He catches a glimpse of Lindsay, barely even limping, a knife in one hand and her gun in the other as she effortlessly rips through a line of enemies in seconds.  A headshot, a sliced carotid, an elbow to the face followed by a bullet.  She’s screaming and laughing as she rampages through the remaining men, delighted by their downfalls.

He turns and dodges a fist, but his injuries make him stagger and he almost goes down, catching himself at the last minute and aiming up and tagging the guy in the chin.  Blood and bits hit him in the face, and he forgets Lindsay again, moving through targets and cutting them down with precision and efficiency.  It feels like it takes an hour but realistically is only a few minutes before the others reach them, having to wait for the fallout of the explosion to clear enough to safely enter the building.  The explosion they used wasn’t a breaching charge but what seemed to be one of Michael’s ‘special’ creations.

Ryan dispatches one last target and turns in time to see Jeremy punch a guy in the jaw, dropping him and then double tapping him in the head.  The silence catches him off-guard, and he looks back to Lindsay.  She’s splattered with blood, much like him, but her grin is feral, chest heaving from exertion as she scans the area for more threats.  Finding none, her eyes find first his, and then Michael’s, not dropping her defensive stance until Michael slowly walks toward her, hands out and palms up.

He can hear more of their crew moving through the upper level, clearing stragglers.  By the time Michael has made it to Lindsay and has her wrapped in his arms, Gavin gives the all-clear through their comms.  Relief floods his system, and he drops his gun, hand suddenly too weak to hold it.  All of them turn to him, Jeremy moving toward him swiftly.  Ryan’s left hand is very wet for some reason, and when he raises it, it’s covered in blood.  Oh, right.  His shoulder.

As if his brain was waiting for him to remember, he is suddenly overcome with weakness and the pain grows until it’s unbearable.  The next thing he knows, he’s on the ground, and Jeremy is yelling in his face to “Stay awake, you dumb fuck!  Look at me!”  Ryan tries, but Jeremy is pressing on his shoulder, and it hurts like fire, and that makes it hard to do anything but press his eyes closed and remember how to breathe.

The next time he opens his eyes, he’s in a spare room at the penthouse.  It’s dim, the blankets are warm, and the body next to him is even warmer.  He’s been given painkillers, and if the soft, dancing glow of the lamp in the corner of the room is anything to go by, it’s the good ones.  Even still, when he tries to move his left arm, dull pain lances through his shoulder and into his chest, and a small, hoarse noise escapes his mouth.  Tensing up also shoots tendrils of pain through his abdomen and into his back, and this time, the noise he makes is louder and more pitiful, but all the medication keeps him from being ashamed.

“Ry?”  Jeremy sits up with a start and hovers his hand over Ryan’s chest, not knowing where to touch.  “What’s wrong?”

When he can attempt to speak, he tries to be funny and say “Just remembering all the places I got shot,” but all he can get out of his dry throat is a coarse grunt.

“Oh, hold on a sec,” Jeremy murmurs, softly like Ryan is a spooked horse, and grabs a bottle of water from the bedside table.  He gets a few small sips down before having to take a break to catch his breath, but those sips feel like heaven on his sore, dry throat.  He would like to reassure Jeremy, who is clearly shaken, but all he can do is breathe shallowly at the ceiling and try not to cough.  He can’t imagine how much it would hurt to cough right now.

“Steffy had to put you on the ventilator to do your surgeries, and it took a few days to get you off of it.  She said your throat would be sore for a while, and it might hurt to talk.”  Ryan nods and continues to breathe as the discomfort in his lungs eases a bit and the urge to cough fades.

“How long,” he rasps out.

“A week yesterday. You’ve been waking a little the last couple days, but never for this long.  You might remember this one.”  Jeremy is drawing little circles on Ryan’s good arm with shaking fingertips.  Ryan turns his head to look at him, takes in the bags under his eyes and the gauntness of his face.

This thing between them was still very new before this, but they had been close since Jeremy joined the crew all those years ago.  Jeremy’s chaotic streak and Ryan’s violent tendencies matching perfectly.  And then apparently, Ryan had tried to die, and now Jeremy was fixing him with a gaze so intense that it made his chest ache for a different reason.

They both know that this life doesn’t end in old age.  One day it’ll end, hopefully in a blaze of glory and not a ditch, but it will end and likely be violent.  They both know that.  Ryan won’t lie to him and say that he’s not going anywhere, but as another wave of pain medication washes through his body from the IV pump next to the bed, the best he can do is take Jeremy’s hand with his good one and close his eyes.

“I’ll remember.”

[scigebabadook]

cisfemale — ever hear people say SAIGE BORDEAUX looks a lot like LIANA LIBERATO? I think SHE is about 20, so it doesn’t really work. The LINGUISTICS + CRIMINAL PSYCHOLOGY major is a SOPHOMORE that is from ALL OVER THE PLACE. They can be BLITHE, but they can also be EVASIVE. I think SAIGE might be a SHEEP. They are living in BALTA. ( snot goblin. 20. EST. she/they. )

hello ,,, it seems i am a sheep and Refuse to leave the herd. aka i love u all so frickin’ much ,,, and w/o further ado, here is saige !! pleathe LIKE this so i can shimmy into yr ims !!

TW: drug use, alcoholism, implied abuse ? shitty parents at the very least, addiction

a e s t h e t i c s

stick n’ pokes at 2am – when your drunk and giggling too much in between purposeful stabs, avoiding the cracks in the sidewalk because they’re bad luck and they’ll break your mother’s back – even if your mother doesn’t love you, because you love her, the familiar riff in an old song – one that’s got you strumming along silently; there is no guitar, only empty air lit by the christmas lights you haven’t taken down. it’s may. swallowing down shots, and by default, swallowing down problems. laughing quick, easily, constantly. skinned knees from skateboarding, despite being rubbish at it. wishes on eyelashes stuck to your cheekbones, glitter sticking, running into the ocean at sunrise; feeling at home. excuses, and the many forms they come in. telling people you love them through hand squeezes and fresh muffins, sideways glances and soft, eager grins.

general info !!

full name: saige alouette bordeaux

nickname(s): n/a so give her some uwu

b.o.d. - july 7th, 20 whole yrs old.

label(s): the hedonist, the icarcian, the reveler, etc. etc.

height: 5′7″ !!

hometown: thibodaux, louisiana

sexuality: firstly when aren’t my babies bi as FUCK but she also prefers masc-presenting folks

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biography !!

the fallible daughter of two very infallible people: robert bordeaux, US lieutenant general, and manon levesque, world renown fashion designer. both calculating, cold, and purposeful.

saige never believed she was created out of love. it was an action with a purpose, intentions to create the perfect child. the hybrid of both military genius and fashion extraordinaire, molded to their will.

it took them no more than six months after her birth for her parents to up and move, thus beginning the cycle of packing and unpacking, flying and driving, state-to-state and country-to-country. the longest saige had ever stayed in one place was two years.

kept on a short leash, homeschooled, and learning skills she had no interest in – she was more like a pet, a project, than a child. the world moved all around her, but she felt restrictively tethered to her parents.

she had always felt this way. a bird in a cage of thorns.

it was hard to keep and maintain friends – saige would be there one day, and gone the next. a ghost, a very visible ghost. even so, she tried her hardest.

running from bodyguards (nannies, in a sense. her father is a paranoid man) into festival crowds and climbing out of windows in the dark of night to swim in lakes with locals she’d meet only a few hours earlier – she absorbed as much of what she could get; this intense, undying love for a world she had always craved to see.

it was the start of something near dangerous – a phase that seemed to never end, rebellion coursing through her veins. a wild child in the making, unknowing of limits. the bad sort of crowd was the crowd she found herself landing, more often than not – introducing the sheltered girl to a world she hadn’t quite known existed

she ran away, briefly, at age fifteen with a man three years older than her – which nearly ended up in a tabloid magazine if it hadn’t been for her parents’ money. though the guilt of her parents’ disappointed weighed on her, the thrill fueled something much worse

from that point on, she became a problem child. from public intoxication to vandalism – it was clear their daughter was unraveling and nothing could contain her.

boarding school was a small attempt to stop it – she got expelled.

she hadn’t intended to go to university, either – but, by some chance – and after a mysterious year-long disappearance from public eye during her eighteenth year of living, next thing she knew, she was a student at gifford university in a town she’d never been to before.

personality !!

bubbly. so fucking bubbly. she’s got so much fucking energy on her – she goes running every morning and every night and swims like every afternoon and she’s n e v e r tired ?? the personality of a coke bottle shaken up but like if the bottle could laugh.

tries her hardest to be the Happy Fun friend, y’know, the one who can hook you up w/ some sicccc shit b/c she befriended/possibly slept with her drug dealer and now she gets discounts.

like, generally, comes off as very confident of herself and fearless and, like, yes–reckless, but like a fun reckless, y’know ??

talks a l o t, could ramble for days, hand gestures and all.

if she wants to do something, she will do it and there’s not much you can do to stop her tbh. she’s very easy-going, very go-go-go, very…mischievous, y’know? even if she’s trying to do something stupid you kinda just have to let her do it or otherwise she’ll mope for three hours and pout at you and you’ll feel ?? this weird sense of guilt ?? which isn’t the Best thing but she’s not the best person either so dfghjh

a vegetarian !! meat makes her sick, like, physically.

uuuhh her vocabulary consists of a lot of ‘likes’ and ‘ums’ and ‘y’knows’, y’know ??

i am like 99% sure she’s got adhd but she’s never been diagnosed with it b/c her parents suck with that stuff. her parents sort of suck in general.

like…she’s currently not on speaking terms with them. she’s not disowned…like, yet, but they haven’t said more than like five words to each other since saige was eighteen and it k i l l s her but they also send her a shit ton of money every month so.

owns like…four cars…..she has them all on campus…..she prolly isn’t suppose to…but she does…one of them’s a real sleek sports car, one is a jacked up pick-up truck that’s decked out in like LED lights n shit, one is the same exact fucking car from the princess diaries b/c saige is obsessed w/ the movie. the other is like. a mini cooper probably.

a photographer, her walls are covered in photographs and art and taped-down plants and in general her room is very ?? cluttered ?? like it’s very home-y but god. she’s a mess. clothes everywhere. she’s probably got a pile of instruments and other miscellaneous hobbies on a chair in the corner that she hasn’t touched in a while

speaking of !! she has a bunch of random, like, skills ?? like knitting and sewing and cooking and three different forms of ballroom dancing, and she can definitely work a gun and a car engine except she goes thru interests so rapidly and is disinterested in most of the other ones b/c her parents forced like half of them onto her.

she plays bass guitar. she loves her bass guitar. she knows other instruments but the only ones she’ll really fidget with are her bass guitar and like, her violin. everything else she’s like ~okay~ at

got really obsessed with languages at a young age and started learning them ?? her mother is like. super french, like genuinely from france, so she already grew up speaking both english and french but she’s learnt others for the hell of it and she’s still learning like three other at the same time which is a MESS but she’s a mess so like can u blame her sdfghj

but like i said, she’s v e r y reckless. very much a party girl. she uses like…quite a few drugs, both socially and alone and frankly – she’s rarely sober.

a budding alcoholic because she’s convinced that without it she’ll be Miserable and Horrible to everybody because she’s a Horrible, Awful person who is the absolute Worse and if drinking vodka mixed in with 23 crystal lite packets helps with not thinking like that then she’ll do it no questions asked

its a problem she’s been developing since she was younger, only amplified by … the situation, that happened when she was eighteen.

is essentially wearing this mask of confidence and giddiness and flirtatiousness b/c she doesnt want people to think she’s doing Not Okay.

she loves so much. she loves everything, everybody. falls in love like five times a day but nothing really sticks to her either. if ur a shitty person/come off as an asshole then she’ll be more likely to be attracted to her b/c shes Always been like this. finds them super interesting which is ?? questionable ?? sometimes i want to just. knock some sense into her but y’know what…it’s fine we’re Fine

she gets around p frequently but is also the type of person who’ll like, try n maintain a positive, good friendship with whoever she sleeps with b/c the idea of having regrettable encounters is smth that Bothers her and she just pretty much refuses.

it’s honestly a bit of a problem ?? she blurs the lines between friendship and Something, Anything More too often and with too many people b/c she just. wants to be loved. but there is never enough !

she does stick n pokes !! a whole bunch !! let her give you one !! she can’t draw for shit but i mean, who cares, right ??

uuuhh her mom sends her like…prototypes of things she designs n shit that isn’t out yet and saige 100% always gives it away or it sits in her closet and essentially that is her go-to gift for birthdays or christmas or whenever she feels like it

there’s literally sm i could say about her but i’ll stop Here b/c it’s getting too long sksksksk

wanted connections !!

give me. a best friend. just somebody who sticks by her side even though she’s a Mess

like, a ride or die ?? is that the same as a best friend ?? idc i want both :)

and just in general, like, people she’s p close to ?? she’s really friendly and is the kind of girl who’d be really popular in high school but doesn’t care abt popularity n talks to literally Everybody like she’s known them all her life.

ESP if ur muse is a lil grumpier !! she will fuck their shit up, but like, in a friendship way.

party pals, where they don’t talk that much outside of parties but inside them ?? super close. glued to the hip. hold-your-hair-back kinda tight.

frenemies ?? fake friends ?? toxic pals ?? ppl using her for her money or like, sex, or something ?? anything ??

bad influences ?? who just encourage all of saige’s shit ??

good influences ?? who are like YOINK stop being an idiot.

a tutor b/c she’s like…she’s smart, okay, but she’s also really stupid LMAO. she’s rly bad at math and science. somebody help her.

hook ups ?? fwbs ?? that one, rare one-night-stand that went weird ??

exes ?? she’s sorta noncommittal so idk how long they would’ve dated but like sjdfkbo yolo ?? ex hook-ups too ??

…somebody who just. hates her. but she doesn’t realize bc she’s a big ol’ idiot. she thinks theyre pals !!

let her b a thorn in someone’s side, just like, an absolute annoyance LMAO

gimme an enemy, or like an ex-best friend where something happened between them n it ruined their friendship

i will take literally anything i dont know

she steals ur character’s mail ?? ur cat keeps escaping and she keeps letting them inside even tho she’s allergic ??

one of those friendships where theyre always bickering like an old married couple ?? but it’s Purely Platonic (or is it ??)

an off-and-on again that just. it’s not good for either of them b/c they keep enabling each other and then getting pissed off and it’s a Mess but ?? it’s so hard to stop.

the drug dealer she keeps sleeping with even though she can just ... pay for her shit. b/c it’s funner this way !

just ... people where their like ... relationship status is Blurred and it’s like, are they a thing? are they not? b/c she’s a mess and gets involved with too many people without intending to !

please. take her. give me connections.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #144

“the kingdom of fear needs compliance to succeed.”

Do you live near the ocean?  Like about two hours away. Where did you go on your last date?  A breakfast place I don't remember the name of. Is the area you live in more liberal or conservative?  Conservative. Are you tan?  I'm pale as fuck. Your opinion on capital punishment?  I'm for it in extreme cases. Generally, are you more likely to blame others or yourself for problems you experience? Uhhh idk?  I'd say I'm pretty reasonable with who I blame. What is one thing about your life that you don’t ever see changing, even if you might wish it would?  Anxiety to at least some degree, especially socially. At what point in your life have you been the most social or had the most friendships? And at which point have you been the least social? Elementary school, maybe?  Least social, now. Have you ever been somewhere and REALLY didn't like a food that you were expected to eat? How did you deal with this? Are you someone who is likely to suck it up and be polite or refuse and save your taste buds? Uh yeah, and it depends on who I'm with.  Although I have a VERY hard time hiding if I don't like something. What is something you’ve been particularly grateful for lately? Sara. What kind of change or opportunity would be the biggest help in your life right now?  A suitable job. When was the last time you believed there might be something seriously medically wrong with you? What was the ultimate diagnosis? Umm maybe... oh yeah, when my extreme dizziness showed up.  Turns out I just have vertigo. What is one illness you are afraid of having? Do you know anyone who has faced this illness? ALZEIMERS.  And yes. How do you tend to behave when you’re sick? What kinds of things do you like people to do for you, if anything, to help you feel better?  I can be crabby for sure.  I also sleep more.  I really appreciate people helping me just stay in bed, ex. getting something for me. When was the last time you did something you were proud of? Were other people proud of you as well? Does it matter to you whether or not other people care about your accomplishments, or is your own satisfaction enough?  I decided to return to school, and Mom, Sara, Colleen, and my therapist were really proud, at least.  And tbh I'm pretty seriously offended if people I actually care about aren't. What is your least favorite thing about the season you’re currently experiencing? Are you okay with most types of weather, or are you only happy under certain conditions?  The fucking heat.  I'm picky with weather. When was the last time you tried something you’ve never tried before? How likely are you to break from your routine and try new things?  I tried blue cheese while out to eat and I actually wanted to die.  I really don't try new things a lot. What are some ways your childhood differed from those of others around you? Do you think this difference was harmful or advantageous in the long run?  My parents fought way too much, and it was indisputably harmful. When was the last time you did something out in nature? Do you notice a dip in your mood when you don’t get enough of the Great Outdoors? Good question?  It's too hot for that shit.  To the latter question, no. Do you think people who are fighting should revert to gun duels?  Um no? Ever passed noted in class?  Do you wish you could do that at work?  Yeah, but only if someone else prompted it.  I was too afraid of being caught.  I don't go to work, so. Are you allergic to anything unusual?  If so, what?  No. What was the last lengthy packet you filled out?  Something for vocational rehab. When was the last time you changed your opinion on a relatively big or serious issue? Overall, do you feel your opinions on things have changed a lot since you were younger or do you still feel the same about many things? What is one opinion you never see yourself changing?  Abortion.  It didn't entirely change, but I nevertheless had an adjustment to it.  My opinions have changed a looot when I was younger.  One opinion that will never, ever change is my support of gay rights. Are you good at getting along with other people even if they have vastly different views from yours? When was the last time you had to interact with someone like this, and how did it go?  Yup, pretty damn good at that.  And Colleen, which goes just fine most of the time. When was the last time you congratulated someone? Were you happy for them, indifferent, jealous?  Sara, and of course I was happy. What was the last milestone you reached in your life (graduating, buying a car, starting a family, etc)? What milestone are you going for next, if any? Recovery.  Getting a job will probs be the next (believe me, milestone for me). When are you most likely to scream (either out of fright, anger, or whatever)? Do you scream or yell often? When was the last time someone screamed at you (or in your presence)?  When I'm in pain.  I don't yell often.  Don't remember for the last question. Have you ever been in a building that was on fire?  No. How many calendars are in your house?  Four, but three are mine of meerkats just to collect. What is one song you feel as though you sing particularly well, if any? I dunno. Besides money, what is something you would like to have more of in your life? Social life. How many people have you seen naked (not including family members)?  One. Do you own any jerseys? No. Have you ever been in an unconventional relationship (long distance, polyamorous, same gender, age gap, etc)? if so, what challenges did this relationship present, and were they worth overcoming?  Long distance same-sex one.  The biggest challenge above all is not being able to physically be there if one of us needs help or just want each other's company.  The second is homophobia where I live; I didn't worry about it almost at all up there with her, but while she was here, even holding her hand made me a tad bit nervous, only because I'm afraid of me or her being attacked in some way.  Now the fear doesn't hold me back from acting like she's my gf, but it's still a concern.  Both things though are 100% worth going through. Would you ever consider something like a poly relationship, assuming everyone involved was alright with it? What are some things you think you would or wouldn’t like about it?  NOPE. What is the most unhealthy relationship (whether friendship or romantic) you’ve ever had? What made it so unhealthy? Do you still talk to each other? Ummm I dunno.  I haven't really had unhealthy ones. Have you ever remained good friends with an ex?  Yeah. Do you have an addictive personality?  Very. Do you own any snowglobes?  No but I want. Will you eat burnt popcorn?  Slightly burnt, barely. Have you ever been called a tease?  I'm perfectly aware I define that oops. What is your all-time favorite romance movie? The Notebook don't @ me. Name something random in the same room as you: Uhhhh I have this shipwreck light beside my bed that's just for decoration.  Came from a flea market and it's seriously cool.  It's never on tho. What were the last plans you made? How about cancelled?  Colleen and her sister invited me over for a little girl's night.  Turned into me being a pussy with strong alcohol and thus becoming the subject of ridicule lmao.  It was fun.  Cancelled plans, uhhhh.  Idk. What was the last big decision you made?  Go back to school. What was the subject of your last phone conversation?  The iguana I'm getting tOMORROW. Do you like watermelons more or cherries?  Not a big fan of either, but watermelon. Have you seen any of the seven wonders of the world in person?  Don't even remember them all, but I can pretty much guarantee no.

[woah-homo]

1-99? 🤔

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

too high by moon taxi, sleepyhead by passion pit, girls like girls by hayley kiyoko, stay a while by cemetery sun,i feel like im drowning by two feet, three-thirty by AJR

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Jennifer lawrence

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

I don’t have a book near me

4: What do you think about most?

Dogs probably

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

I am at the patio furniture

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with

7: What’s your strangest talent?

I can put all my fingers on top of each other

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Girls are hot as shit and boys suck

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

no

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Oh jeez idk a long time ago

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

elevators

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

no

13: What’s your religion?

Im not religious

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Playing with my dog

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

coldplay

17: What was the last lie you told?

Im not leaving the house tonight (I got chipotle oops)

18: Do you believe in karma?

yes

19: What does your URL mean?

Uhhh idk im gay as shit

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

Greatest weakness is my anxiety and strength is ability to listen to others

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

Jennifer Lawrence or ruby rose

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

no

23: How do you vent your anger?

Over text or call to my girlfriend or best friend

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

no

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Depends. Most of the time video

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Im starting to be more happy

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

I hate teeth scraping on silverware and I love my girlfriends voice

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if I don’t succeed in school

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Yes and no

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

Right arm is my dog left arm Is my couch cushion

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

Uh idk my house smell

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

My high school lmao

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

west

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Justin timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

To be happy

36: Define Art.                

Whatever can make you smile on a bad day. People, paintings, photos. anything

37: Do you believe in luck?

yes

38: What’s the weather like right now?

sleeting

39: What time is it?

8:36pm

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Yes and last Sunday I hit a deer

41: What was the last book you read?

Theres something I want you to do by Charles baxter

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

yes

43: Do you have any nicknames?

mack

44: What was the last film you saw?

Red sparrow

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

Fractured growth plate in my left wrist

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

yes

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

My girlfriend

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

Not that I know of

50: Do you believe in magic?

Yes I do

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

yep

52: What is your astrological sign?

Pisces

53: Do you save money or spend it?

Mostly save, but spend on my girlfriend and food

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

chipotle

55: Love or lust?

love

56: In a relationship?

yes

57: How many relationships have you had?

3

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nope

59: Where were you yesterday?

Work and school

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes my blanket

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

Yes, theyre dog socks

62: What’s your favourite animal?

dogs

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

Idk I don’t have one

64: Where is your best friend?

At softball

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

@svpremely-gay

@lesbicasentimental

Idk I don’t really pay as close attention to other blogs

66: What is your heritage?

german

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

sleeping

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Uh idk

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

yep

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

yes

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the dog

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I would tell my close family, my best friends and my girlfriend. I would spend them with my dog, family, friends and girlfriend

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Love. You would gain trust through love

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Oceans by coldplay

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

Uh no thanks

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Trust and open mindedness. Humor. Reliability.

77: How can I win your heart?

You cant my girlfriend already has it

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Yes

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

To care about school

80: What size shoes do you wear?

9

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Idk I don’t like to think about it

82: What is your favourite word?

dog

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

april

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

What the fuck

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

Human by the killers

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Idk changes a lot tbh

87: What is your current desktop picture?

Chris martin from the coldplay concert in minneapolis

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

My dad lmao

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

My sexuality (to my family)

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Probably cry

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

invisibility

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

A half hour at the coldplay concert in Minneapolis

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

Id prefer not to post it on here

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Uhhh idk im good with my girlfriend

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Berlin

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

Yeah lmao

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

yes

98: Ever been on a plane?

yes

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

Please, please. Stop fighting. Work together. Love one another.

[promisedyouforever]

10 things about me meme thingy!

I was tagged by @goingtothetardis - thank you!! ♥

Now what do I say? Ha....

My MBTI type is a strong, unwavering INFP. I think in metaphors and see connections everywhere, connections no one else sees, between all kinds of completely different things. I hate conflict and cruelty. And @fleurdeneuf put the rest so well I’m just going to quote her here: “It means I’m an introvert, loyal, creative, daydream a lot, have deeply held values, and am too damn sensitive for my own good.” I can’t count the number of times in my childhood I was called “too sensitive.” Usually because someone teased me until I cried. >:(

I have a few tattoos - paw prints on my inner forearm, a water dragon on my lower leg (elementally, I’m definitely water), and a personally meaningful one on my chest out of sight.

I’m a teacher at a local uni. I say "teacher," not "professor" or any of that, because I concentrate on my teaching and don’t publish much. Teaching is what I love.

I was run over by a riding lawn mower when I was a child. (Yes, a driver was involved, but it really was just a freak accident.) I only have one scar, but it’s a doozy - about 51cm (20 inches) long and a bit wide, since it grew right along with me. But weirdly, I’ve never been the least bit self-conscious about it. I forget it's there, TBH. When we lived near the ocean and I swam just about every day, I often wore a two-piece or bikini.

Amongst my many talents are chronic drug-resistant depression, ADHD, a (formerly) eidetic memory (this ability is often lost when one reaches adulthood, which sucks, because it made things SO easy), some very mild information processing issues that loosely cluster under a learning disability “NOS” (I’m just slow, a quarter-second behind in processing sensory info. I love to read and write, but I do both at a speed equivalent to the sound of one hand clapping). And of course, what do I do for a living? (Loud, insane background giggles!)

Having ADHD means I’m erratic, and I know that. Sigh. BUT, I absolutely ADORE philosophy, my discipline.  BECAUSE IT’S ABOUT EVERYTHING!  ALL AT ONCE!!

I love non-humans. I’ve shared my home with everything from spiders and snakes to dogs, cats, ferrets... I want them all to have good lives, however they would define them. (File this under the “deepy held values” category.)

I am what one would call a “classically trained” musician. Don't be too impressed. It’s only an extremely pretentious way of saying classical music and technique are primarily what I was taught. I started very young (I don’t exactly remember when - 5, maybe?). I also compose music, though most of the time it’s honestly not that great, and usually no one hears it but me. I play piano and most woodwind and brass, but I have little talent for stringed instruments. I'm in awe of cellists.

I have really eclectic musical tastes, but one of my favourite genres is symphonic metal.  Erm, yes, you read that correctly.  Bands: Nightwish, Within Temptation, and so on...  The best of everything. :)

I’m running out of things to say...  Okay, I love programming.  It’s magic when I can get a computer to do something I told it to do!

Let’s see.  Who to tag??!?  This is the part I don’t like, ‘cause I wanna just say EVERYONE!  And thinking of people off the top of my head is not easy.  Ummmm..... okay.  Of course, feel free to ignore or whatever. :)  No obligation.  No purchase required. Please keep hands and feet inside the ride at all times. Not recommended for children under six. Please read package insert carefully prior to application.  (I’ll stop now...)

@lvslie , @kelkat9 , @chocolatequeennk , @pipertennant , @acreasy1 , @captaingrahamcr , @chiaroscuroverse , @skyler10fic , @hellostarlight20 ... and anyone else who wishes to do this! ♥

[lil-loucifer]

ONE OF US MUST CHANGE AND IT AINT GONNA BE ME YOU FOOL. Ps 1-100 on the ask away tumblr asks

Hayden you f u c k

1. What have you eaten today?

A shit ton of pizza

2. Who was your last kiss with? Was it pleasant?

The most intimate touch I have ever felt was a hug

3. What color shoes did you last wear?

Black. Boots :P

4. Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week?

Probably my sister??

5. What is your favorite scent?

Freshly baked stuff

6. What is your favorite season? Why?

Winter, because most if not all of my clothes are fucking winter sweaters and coats

And also because I like the cold

7. Can you do a handstand or cartwheel?

Nope!!

8. What color are your nails?

Natural?

9. If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be?

A tiny star near the corner of my right eye, behind the mole so I could just hide it under my hair if I had to

10. What is something you find romantic?

Fucking flowers??? I dunno dude pretty much anything you devote some time and/or effort into doing for someone else in the name of affection?

11. Are you happy?

I dunno tbh

12. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad?

For one thing, I did a fucking bomb-ass job on a presentation I had to do in front of a class, even though I couldn’t log into google drive and couldn’t access my fucking notes for the presentation and had to improvise it

13. Dogs or Cats?

Both!!!

15. Which do you prefer:a museum, a night club, the forest or a library?

A tie between a library and museum, but it depends on the museum. 

15. What is your style?

Scruffy as fuck, with some degree of hipster/punk, but mostly just slobbish.

16. If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be?

Affording material possessions I want to buy

17. Are you in a relationship or single?

“It’s complicated”

18. What makes you attracted to the person you like right now?

Emotional dependence???

Also probably mutual trust and care

19. If you could replace your partner/best friend with a celebrity of your choice, would you? Who with?

I don’t think I would??

20. Are you holding on to something you need to let go of? If so then what? 

Certain text conversations and shit my last ex and I had. It didn’t end well between us.

21. How did you celebrate last Halloween?

I stayed home and handed out fuckin candy

22. Have you recently made any big decisions? 

I dunno.

23. Were you ever in a school play?

Nahhh, I’m not a good actor

24. What movie would you use to describe your life?

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

25. Is there something you have dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?

HAVING FRIENDS BUT I CAN’T BECAUSE I HABITUALLY ACT LIKE A HUGE BITCH ALL THE TIME AND AM INTIMIDATED WHENEVER I’M INTRODUCED INTO GROUPS AND YET I’M STILL CLINGY AS SHIT

26. Complete this sentence, “I wish I had someone with whom I could share…”

Video games. I dunno man I just like playing games with people

27. What are two things that irritate you about the same sex?

A lot of guys are really gross and shit, and also sexist or alpha male-like. I catch myself exhibiting similar behavior sometimes and hate it

28. What are two things that irritate you about the opposite sex?

I’m too immature to understand anything

29. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week?

Pretty much reached a lvl 2 friendship with someone after we both let it slip that we were bi within three minutes of each other

30. What is something that makes you sad when you think about it?

Sad friends

31. How long was your longest relationship?

One business week

32. Have you ever been in love?

You know? I dunno 

33. Are you currently in love?

I think so?

34. Why did your last relationship end?

We were both in really bad mental places and decided to break up so we wouldn’t hurt each other

35. What jewelry are you wearing right now, and where did you get it

I’m not wearing any???

36. When was the last time you cried and why?

I don’t remember when, but it was definitely over feeling super alone

37. Name someone pretty.

Deborah Ann Woll??

38. What did you receive last Valentines Day?

I didn’t do shit last valentine’s day

39. Do you get jealous easily?

Kinda, but I don’t let it fuck up my relationships

40. Have you ever been cheated on?

Maybe?

41. Do you trust your partner/best friend?

Yeah!!

42. Ever had detention?

Kinda? I don’t remember it well but I think I talked my way out of it

43. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city?

I don’t know to be honest, probably the city if I could afford it

44. What do people call you? 

LUCIFER, THE DARK LORD OF THE NINE HELLS

45. What was the last book you read? 

The Ship of the Dead, by Rick Riordan

46. How big of a nerd/dork are you? 

Huge, but I don’t look the part. Someone once asked me “Hey, do you watch One Punch Man?” and his other annoying friend hastily whispered “Does he look like he watches One Punch Man?? Don’t annoy him bro” and they never asked again

I was, in fact, fully caught up with the anime at that point

47. What kind of music do you listen to?

All fuckin kinds bruh, mostly punk rock, metal and hip-hop tho

48. How tall are you?

5′10′’ I think??

49. Do you like kids?

Not really

50. Favorite fruits?

Grapes, apple and watermelon

51. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

I haven’t owned a pair of sweatpants since I was ten

52. What’s your earliest memory?

I was still really young, maybe two-ish?? Either my sister or my mother--she was female--put me down on the floor in what would become my sister’s room, long before we moved most of her new furniture in and repainted her walls, next to a belt she would keep for the next ten years and an old comb she still has now. It was mid-day. 

53. Ever had a poem or song written about you or to you?

Nope!

54. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind! Photography is fun~

55. Do you have a collection of anything? 

Video games?

56. Do you save money or spend it? 

I suck at saving money ffs

57. What would your dream house be like?

Simple and clean, full of my stuff

58. What top 5 things make you the angriest?

1: Maliciousness

2: Oppression

3: Bothering my crew

4: Bothering me

5: Losing repeatedly in video games

59. What top 5 things always brings a smile to your face?

1: Things that make me laugh

2: Writing a story easily

3: Pretty much anything to do with you ngl

4: Friends!!

5: Seeing an asshole get what’s coming

60. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Y o u r e g o n n a h a t e m e i f I a n s w e r e d h o n e s t l y

61: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

Honestly I’d probably tell everyone I’m dying and face it with open arms

62. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Beat

63. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

I dunno???

64. Do you like the beach?

I like the aesthetic appeal of the beach?? But I hate water and heat and sand, so... 

65. Ever sleep on the couch or a bed with someone special?

Never had a chance

66. Do you have a middle name? If so what is it!

Mayor

67. Do you talk to yourself?

I think out loud sometimes, but otherwise, no

68. Describe your hair.

Floofy

69. What is the meaning of life.

To find one

70. What is your ideal partner like?

You ;)

But for realsies, someone I can trust and feel comfortable around

71. Do you want to get married?

Not really??

72. Do you want to have kids?

NOT REALLY???

73. Like or dislike your family?

Neutral

74. Are you Chunky or Slim?

Chunky?

75. Would you consider yourself smart? 

No

76. What would you change about your life? 

My drive do do literally anything

77. Religious or Not?

Kinda?

78. You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

The cop that pulls me over for drunk driving

79. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

I dunno man depends on how long I’m alone there

80. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

You

81. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

Either cuddling or legitimately fighting each other over who changes outfits in Animal Crossing

82. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

They are already here

83. Do you like when people play with your hair? 

Yeah, if I let them.

84. Do you like bubble baths?

I dunno, I haven’t ever had one.

85. Have you ever been pulled over by a cop?

Nope!

86. Have you ever danced in the rain?

Yeeeaaaah! And I didn’t get sick!

87. Do you trust anyone with your life?

Not really

88. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

As usual, “whhhaat fucking time is it??”

89. If money wasn’t an issue, what top 10 places would you travel to? (You get to stay at each place for a week) 

I’m not really into travelling???

90. How was your day today?

Average

91. Play an instrument? 

I suck at anything musical

92. Describe the what you think of the ocean.

Boundless, infinite. Terror beneath. 

93. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts?

Both!!

94. Honestly, are things how you wanted them to be? 

I can’t really say. I had a goal in mind, and just planned to improvise until I got there, so...

95. Do you have a mean bitchy scary side?

Yes and it is my default demeanor for most of the time

96. When are you vulnerable?

...All the time

97. How much free time do you have?

Too much, honestly

98. Do you like to go hiking? 

Hell no

99. Odd or Even Numbers?

Even?

100. Would you ever go sky diving, bungee jumping , cliff diving, wing suit gliding, parasailing, snorkeling, or other extreme activities? 

The most extreme thing I’ve done is knife fighting, does that count?

[gurguliare]

I would love your thoughts on Dirhavel, vocaroo or text? Just because you were recently blogging about Hurin and I suppose this is kind of related. :)

A lot of my interest in Dirhavel is in his sources. The most detailed description we get of who he consulted in composing the Narn is from a pretty early stage of Tolkien’s legendarium-composition, which, let me just paste that here:

…this lay was the work of a Mannish poet, Dirhavel, who lived at the Havens in the days of Earendel and theregathered all the tidings and lore that he could of the House ofHador, whether among Men or Elves, remnants and fugitivesof Dorlomin, of Nargothrond, or of Doriath. From Mablung he learned much; and by fortune also he found a man namedAndvir, and he was very old, but was the son of that Androgwho was in the outlaw-band of Turin, and alone survived thebattle on the summit of Amon Rudh.(2) Otherwise all that timebetween the flight of Turin from Doriath and his coming toNargothrond, and Turin’s deeds in those days, would haveremained hidden, save the little that was remembered amongthe people of Nargothrond concerning such matters as Gwindoror Turin ever revealed. In this way also the matter of Mim andhis later dealings with Hurin were made clear. This lay was allthat Dirhavel ever made, but it was prized by the Elves andremembered by them. Dirhavel they say perished in the last raidof the sons of Feanor upon the Havens. His lay was composedin that mode of verse which was called Minlamad thent / estent.

Okay. So the first glaring Problem is Mablung: we know Mablung didn’t escape Doriath in the final timeline. But of course Mablung is in all other ways the ideal source for the Narn poet—we need that Mablung’s eye view on Nienor and Morwen on the trip to Nargothrond, Turin as he was that final morning in Brethil, etc. There’s another possibility, I suppose, which is that Dirhavel talks to one of the unnamed riders who form the rest of Morwen’s escort and (perhaps?) escape the clusterfuck at Nargothrond to ride out with Mablung again when he goes seeking Nienor and Turin in Brethil—but that’s not super satisfying, unless we can come up with anything else about the rider. We could also think in terms of people Mablung might choose as a confidante. Beleg’s out. Melian’s out, unfortunately. Hmm. Well, let me not string you along, I obviously have an idea here, although it’s a stupid one: NELLAS. Maybe a) Mablung started talking to Nellas after the trial/Beleg’s disappearance, since no one else was going to keep her updated and she was not going to stop creepily staring at him from a tree until he gave her an answer … b) it developed into a genuine friendship?? … c) Nellas took inspiration from Nienor and disguised herself as one of the riders who go with Mablung to Brethil? Or just legitimately went as a volunteer, who cares. Or like, everyone knew she was going along as a volunteer, but she still went in disguise, because it made her feel better.

…Hmm. Anyway, my point is, I like the idea of Nellas among the refugees in Sirion, and I like the idea of her making Dirhavel promise that he’ll list “Mablung” as his source, not “Nellas, who hates publicity.” I think it fits well in a few other ways—we know she spoke (and passed on to Turin) the beautiful ancient Doriath dialect or whatever, and one of the few pieces of information we’re given about Dirhavel is that he “has great skill in” Sindarin, which suggests to me not just fluency but mastery of multiple registers and a linguistic interest in Sindarin’s character as a language: maybe he got some material from Nellas, or it was what allowed him to talk to Nellas in the first place, or ideally both. Also, I have no basis for this actually, but Nellas seems like the kind of person who would be a really good mimic, A+ impressions—I hope this played a role in her teaching Turin about animals—and again I think it would be cool if there really was this feeling of Nellas like, channeling Mablung for the purposes of getting his testimony, in kind of the flip of Beleg summoning her for Turin’s trial.

Downsides to this theory: CoH specifically says that “Nellas of Doriath never saw [Túrin] again, and his shadow passed from her.” I don’t want to take this from Nellas!! I want to let his shadow pass from her! Still, I feel like ‘burning voyeuristic curiosity’ is distinct from ‘helpless loyalty to a memory,’ so maybe I can fudge it.

Moving on, I’m also suuuuuuuper interested in what “the people of Nargothrond” means here tbh. GWINDOR SURVIVED AND WENT TO THE HAVENS jk I love the freaking jab about “the little that… Gwindor or Turin ever revealed” too much to tamper with his post-mortem reticence, at least for the duration of this theory post. But, so, people from Nargothrond… I mean, I guess what puzzles me is the idea that it’s specifically Nargothrond’s survivors who know what happened to Mim, for example. Does that mean there were survivors in the area up to 5 years after the sack?? I guess that makes sense, now I think about it—people living off the land/going from part-time woodelf back to full-time woodelf, people who were left for dead in the battle—but I had never considered it before and it’s kind of weirding me out. Or do we imagine that Glaurung reserved a subset of the prisoners for his own slaves? That’s. Uhhh. Weird. I really don’t know what to picture for “witnesses to Mim’s death,” although I guess they could just have found the body after Hurin left. That’s a little more reasonable. That said what would make way MORE sense would be for Mim to have been one of the sources, given how many private Turin-Mim conversations are recorded. I realize Androg is supposed to have been eavesdropping but did he REALLY relay ALL of his eavesdropping to his adult son. Also, if you were Mim, would you not take this golden opportunity to pointedly enter your own “death” into the historical record

“I actually just camouflaged with the hoard because I was wearing so much shiny shit at that point. But listen, I saw his face, he WOULD have killed me if he hadn’t been busy playing hackey-sack with the Nauglamir. What do you mean he threw himself into the ocean somewhere near here, why would the ocean kill him, this isn’t safe”

…As for Dirhavel himself, I don’t know if I have a ton of headcanons. I guess I was thinking of him (??) as the kid of refugees from Brodda’s house, although man, now that I say that that feels like the kind of thing that would absolutely be mentioned if ‘true.’ Okay, here’s my thinking: I imagine him growing up in the Havens, not having ever been himself enslaved by the Easterlings, even as a child, and I also assume he was at least late 30s/40 when he died, so it would make SENSE if his parent(s) escaped in the 490s, and… hm. I guess that’s not super strong evidence. Because he’s listed as a man of the House of Hador and not, say, a man with a Hadorian mother and a Haladin father or something, I was thinking it would make sense if both his parents came from Dor-lomin and knew each other before Sirion, which was much more of a melting pot, but there’s really a bunch of unjustified assumptions I’m making there that don’t stand up to close examination, so, eh. On the other hand it’s kind of cute. Look. Whatever. I’m going to arbitrarily say I also picture him being related to Asgon. OH the other reason I was thinking about Brodda-refugees was because I was like, “where would the special affinity for Sindarin have come from,” and we know Brodda specifically seized most of Hurin’s holdings/people, and like sure everyone spoke Sindarin by then but I imagine nowhere moreso than in Hurin and Morwen’s service? To be polite to all the elf ambassadors constantly tramping through the garden if nothing else? So, that is my still deeply shaky basis. Thanks.

I was going to throw in some bullshit meta at the end here about blah blah the longest lay from those days not because more stuff HAPPENS in the Narn but because of the human preference for some granular description in the language whereas elves save the details for the telepathic music video, and also about the elves prizing the Narn because elf musicians never INTERVIEW people, the survivors of Nargothrond have never been INTERVIEWED before, no one ever talks to us!! It’s so enlivening. Then I decided I wouldn’t type it out. Then apparently I typed it out anyway. I do love the Narn being composed in Sirion because it really captures something about Sirion’s feeling of ill-defined urgency, like, we know we have to do SOMETHING… it’s all down to us… but what…… and in what timeframe… oh god, are we going to have to talk it out. I like the mechanical constraints—it can’t be a Numenorean reconstruction or whatever because it’s too immediate and living a piece of history, and he wants it to be history, and yet the Narn is in some senses about the end of history for Beleriand, or the end of its great bastions, so how do you get it written? Well, by engineering one more pause for breath. Okay. Sirion. And Dirhavel running around in the middle of that is someone I FEEL like I have a very clear image of, even if I haven’t actually talked about hypothetical personality at all here, nor would I because I suck at textual ghosts. Cute, though.

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✩ (for shits and giggles)

The Ultimate Relationship Tag

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Emma Who threatens to leave but never actually does? Moana probablyWho actually keeps their word and leaves? NeitherWho trashes the house? Neither. I imagine if one does, the other would bitchDo either of them get physical? Both. But playful wrestle fights and tickle matchesHow often do they argue/disagree? Yeah probably, but it gets resolved quicklyWho is the first to apologise? They probably both apologize in the end lets be real

Sex:

Who is on top? EmmaWho is on the bottom? MoanaWho has the strangest desires? Emma for sure lol. Any kinks? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA you want a list? Who’s dominant in bed? I imagine they’d kind of switch back and forthIs head ever in the equation? Well considering they’re both chicks… no. But oral? You bet your assIf so, who is better at performing it? Emma probablyEver had sex in public? If Emma had her way, yesWho moans the most? ……MoanaWho leaves the most marks? Emma LOLWho screams the loudest? For some odd reason I see them both just feeding off one another’s vocalizations? So if Moana gets louder, so would EmmaWho is the more experienced of the two? Emma I think? Even though she’s never been with another woman. Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? A healthy dose of both. Rough or soft? Probably both.How long do they usually last? LMFAO depends on when Moana makes Emma stopIs protection used? Nah. Does it ever get boring? LOL oh god no.Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? I can’t really think of anything, quite honestly. A pool maybe

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? Oh god yeahIf so, how many children do your muses want/have? They’d probably adopt a couple of themWho is the favorite parent? Probably EmmaWho is the authoritative parent? Definitely both on this one. Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? EmmaWho lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Emma lolWho turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? BothWho goes to parent teacher interviews? BothWho changes the diapers? MoanaWho gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? BothWho spends the most time with the children? Both. They would both have special ‘days’ where they spend the whole day with one child to do whatever the child would like. Who packs their lunch boxes? MoanaWho gives their children ‘the talk’? LOLOL oh god. Uhm. Moana probablyWho cleans up after the kids? MoanaWho worries the most? Emma tbh. She worries a lot, despite the fact she’s a “learn from mistakes” type parentWho are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Emma

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? BothWho is the little spoon? EmmaWho gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? EMMAWho struggles to keep their hands to themself?  BothHow long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? I can’t imagine either of them getting uncomfortable tbh.Who gives the most kisses? MoanaWhat is their favourite non-sexual activity? Probably making a nest in the living room, sipping cocoa as they cuddle and watch movies. Or going camping and cuddling in a sleeping bag by the water with a fire goingWhere is their favourite place to cuddle? Anywhere XDWho is more likely to playfully grope the other?  Emma LOLOL she’s handsyHow often do they get time to themselves? Fairly often, I imagine. 

Sleeping:

Who snores? Moana :P If both do, who snores the loudest? Do they share a bed or sleep separately? Oh god, they would 100% share a bedIf they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? Cozy up for sure. You aren’t getting away from her Moana, she’s a cuddler. Who talks in their sleep? Emma actually does, from time to time. What do they wear to bed? Emma wears nothing but underwear.. I imagine Moana wearing really thin stuff. Are either of your muses insomniacs? No, not reallyCan sleeping pills be found by the bedside? I seriously doubt it. Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? Oh they are both probably holding one another as they sleepWho wakes up with bed hair? Both.Who wakes up first? MoanaWho prepares breakfast in bed for the other? MoanaWhat is their favourite sleeping position? On their stomachs? Or on their sides.Who hogs the sheets? Moana probablyDo they set an alarm each night? AbsolutelyCan a television be found in their bedroom? Emma would prefer not, but she doesn’t mind if Moana wants oneWho has nightmares? MoanaWho has ridiculous dreams? MoanaWho sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?  EmmaWho makes the bed? Probably MoanaWhat time is bed time?  I have a feeling they’d probably fight about this from time to time cuz Emma is a night owlAny routines/rituals before bed? Lots of walking around one another with obvious familiarity. Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Emma. 

Work:

Who is the busiest? Emma, but only by her own doing. Who rakes in the highest income? Mmmmmm Emma maybe? She’ll eventually own/run the parlor she works at nowAre any of your muses unemployed? No.Who takes the most sick days? Neither. They’re both equally stubborn assesWho is more likely to turn up late to work? NeitherWho sucks up to their boss? NeitherWhat are their jobs? Emma works as a receptionist at the tattoo parlor, Moana is an Marine Biologist maybe? Who stresses the most? Moana probablyDo your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Yes, 100%Are your muses financially stable? Both of them are very stable, yes

Home:

Who does the washing? BothWho takes out the trash? BothWho does the ironing? BothWho does the cooking? Both, but Moana moreWho is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Emma, depending on what she’s trying to cookWho is messier? EmmaWho leaves the toilet roll empty? NeitherWho leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? EmmaWho forgets to flush the toilet? NeitherWho is the prankster around the house? BothWho loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? MoanaWho mows the lawn? Both take turnsWho answers the telephone? Depends who’s closerWho does the vacuuming? BothWho does the groceries? BothWho takes the longest to shower? Mmmmmm…. EmmaWho spends the most time in the bathroom? Moana

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? Nope!How many cars do they own? Just 2 Do they own their home or do they rent? Probably rent at firstDo they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? That’s a good question… because Emma would want to stay close to her family, but knows Moana loves the ocean too so that’s a toss upDo they live in the city or in the country? Outskirts of the cityDo they enjoy their surroundings? YesWhat’s their song? Say You Won’t Let Go by James ArthurWhat do they do when they’re away from each other? Go about their daily lives Where did they first meet? In the parkHow did they first meet? Emma stumbled across Moana chucking shit angrily Who spends the most money when out shopping? Mmmmm… Moana? Who’s more likely to flash their assets? Neither Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? BOTHAny mental issues? If you count Emma’s alcohol addiction as a mental issue, then yes. Abandonment issues probably too. Who’s terrified of bugs? Depends if they fly. If they fly? MoanaWho kills the spiders around the house? MoanaTheir favourite place? By the water. Who pays the bills? BothDo they have any fears for their future? Oh god yeah, that’s natural for any relationship. I think the biggest thing would be fear if they will be accepted to be able to adoptWho’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Moana probablyWho uses up all of the hot water? EmmaWho’s the tallest? Moana I think. Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? Emma hopping in with MoanaWho wanders around in their underwear? BothWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? Both sing obnoxiously loudWhat do they tease each other about? Fucking everything lets be real for a secondWho is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Moana because Emma is doing another ridiculous thing where she just throws shit togetherDo they have mutual friends? Oh probably, yeah. Emma would want to be able to be friendly/friends with Moana’s friends. Who crushed first? Emma probablyAny alcohol or substance related problems? Alcohol for EmmaWho is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? NeitherWho swears the most? Emma

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Winston/Garren ✩

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Def Winston.Who threatens to leave but never actually does? Garren, I think. Like when he feels like he can’t handle how difficult Winston can be he just wants out. In the end, I think he loves Winston too much to follow through. Who actually keeps their word and leaves? I think Winston would.Who trashes the house? If anyone, I’d say Winston, though he’d clean it up not too long after. Do either of them get physical? No. Even though Winston is a criminal, he’s not a violent criminal. How often do they argue/disagree? I think quite a bit in the beginning, but as time goes on they have a better understanding of each other, so the fighting becomes less often. Who is the first to apologise? Garren. Winston has a hard time saying he’s wrong. 

Sex:

Who is on top? WINSTON Who is on the bottom? Garren Who has the strangest desires? Winston?Any kinks? I think Winston is experimental and Garren is open to just about anything. Who’s dominant in bed? Winston.Is head ever in the equation? Very much so. If so, who is better at performing it? Garren. Ever had sex in public? Probably in like Winston’s office, tbh. Who moans the most? Garren. Who leaves the most marks? Winston.Who screams the loudest? Garren. Who is the more experienced of the two? Winston is. Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? It def started as just fucking, but there is some love making later on in their relationship. Rough or soft? Mostly rough. How long do they usually last? I’d say Winston is always looking for ways to make them last longer. Is protection used? Yes, for sure. Does it ever get boring? I doubt it. Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? I could see them maybe having sex in the classroom. 

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? I’m not sure, tbh. If so, how many children do your muses want/have? ^^^Who is the favorite parent? Garren would be. Who is the authoritative parent? Probs Garren, Winston would just let the kids run amok. Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Winston for sure.Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Uh...I think they’d both be okay with the kids having sweets? Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? More Garren, Winston is sometimes there tho.Who goes to parent teacher interviews? Garren would probably drag Winston to them. Who changes the diapers? Garren.Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Winston, he’s probably up anyway. Who spends the most time with the children? Garren.Who packs their lunch boxes? Garren. Who gives their children ‘the talk’? Winston.Who cleans up after the kids? They’re both kind of neat-freaks. Who worries the most? Def Garren. Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Winston for sure. 

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? Garren is p cuddly and Winston just lets it happen. Who is the little spoon? Garren, Winston wouldn’t let Garren be the big spoon even if he wanted to lolWho gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? Winston.Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?  I think that kind of depends on the situation. How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? Winston probably shifts around a lot when cuddling. Who gives the most kisses? Garren. What is their favourite non-sexual activity? Something crime related.Where is their favourite place to cuddle? Winston’s bed? Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? I think Winston, he’s always trying rattle Garren. How often do they get time to themselves? I think the majority of their time is spent alone. 

Sleeping:

Who snores? I think Winston snores, but very lightly. If both do, who snores the loudest? ^^^Do they share a bed or sleep separately? Share a bed.If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? They start cozied up, but sometimes Winston rolls away in his sleep. Who talks in their sleep? Neither? If any, I’d say Garren. What do they wear to bed? Winston just wears his underwear, I think Garren would wear no shirt and pajama pants? I’m not sure. Are either of your muses insomniacs? Winston is sometimes. Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? No. Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? I think Garren gets his limbs all tangled in Winston’s in his sleep. Who wakes up with bed hair? Both. Who wakes up first? Probably Garren. Winston is a night owl. Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? I don’t think this happens often, but I think maybe Winston would sometimes if he happens to get up first. As a reward for dealing with him. What is their favourite sleeping position? I think spooning. Who hogs the sheets? Winston, he’s a natural thief. Do they set an alarm each night? Yes, if they have somewhere to be. If not, Winston doesn’t set it. Garren probably sets it every night, tho. Can a television be found in their bedroom? I don’t think Winston would have one, I think Garren might tho. Who has nightmares? Neither? Who has ridiculous dreams? Probably Garren. Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? I’d say Winston, he’s used to being alone in a big bed. Who makes the bed? Probs Garren. What time is bed time? Depends on if there’s school/work the next day, but Garren’s bed time is earlier than Winston’s. Any routines/rituals before bed? Not that I can think of.Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? I’d say Winston. 

Work:

Who is the busiest? That’s a hard one...right now, with Winston just teaching, I’d say Garren. Who rakes in the highest income? Winston doesn’t get paid a lot for teaching since he’s getting time off his sentence, but I don’t know if Garren has a job or is just focusing on school.Are any of your muses unemployed? I don’t know if Garren has a job, I think he’d just be focusing on his studies. Who takes the most sick days? I’d say Winston, but even he doesn’t take days off often, since he needs the time. And Garren is just a stickler for attendance. Who is more likely to turn up late to work? Winston. He likes to always have coffee for class, so sometimes he’s late. Who sucks up to their boss? Garren sucks up to Winston. Literally. If that counts.What are their jobs? Garren is a student and Winston is currently teaching criminal law. Who stresses the most? Garren for sure. Winston is as cool as a fair number of cucumbers. Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Garren enjoys what he’s majoring in, Winston doesn’t hate nor love teaching. Are your muses financially stable? Winston? Garren might be too? 

Home:

Who does the washing? Both. Neither like messy areas.Who takes out the trash? Whoever is there when the trash is full.Who does the ironing? Garren.Who does the cooking? Mostly Winston, who is  a p good cook. Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? I honestly don’t know what Garren’s cooking skills are like.Who is messier? They’re both very clean.Who leaves the toilet roll empty? Neither. Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Neither.Who forgets to flush the toilet? Neither.Who is the prankster around the house? Winston enjoys the occasional prank. Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? Neither.Who mows the lawn? I don’t think either of them really have a lawn?Who answers the telephone? They answer their own cellphones lolWho does the vacuuming? Garren?Who does the groceries? Winston. Who takes the longest to shower? Winston--he’s got all that hair to maintain. Who spends the most time in the bathroom? Garren, I think?

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? Not really, I think they’re doing alright for themselves.How many cars do they own? Winston has a motorcycle and I think Garren has his own car. Do they own their home or do they rent? Rent. Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? Probably near the ocean. I don’t think either of them would much like the countryside. Do they live in the city or in the country? City. Do they enjoy their surroundings? Winston doesn’t care either way--it’s better than prison. Garren probably likes it alright. What’s their song? Hot for Teacher lol jk I have no idea. What do they do when they’re away from each other? They do their respective things. They’re both p independant of each other. Where did they first meet? The classroom. How did they first meet? Winston basically called Garren a sniveling neard. Who spends the most money when out shopping? Winston used to, but that was back when he was thieving.  Who’s more likely to flash their assets? Winston. Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? Probably Winston, but he makes sure that Garren is okay afterwards. Any mental issues? I don’t think so. Who’s terrified of bugs? Neither. Who kills the spiders around the house? Whoever sees it. Their favourite place? Winston’s apartment. Who pays the bills? They pay their own bills? Do they have any fears for their future? I think Garren has a lot of worries about where they’re going and how things are going to work out, if they work out. Winston is just kind of going with the moment. Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Winston, I think. Again, kind of as a reward to Garren for putting up with him. Who uses up all of the hot water? Winston probably. Selfish bastard. Who’s the tallest? Winston. Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? Winston for sure. Who wanders around in their underwear? WINSTON AFWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? I don’t think either of them. Maybe Winston does once in a small while. What do they tease each other about? Winston teases Garren A LOT. Sexually, about him being a goody-goody even though he’s screwing the teacher. Garren learns to hold his own p well tho. Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Winston. He think Garren dresses too pristine. Do they have mutual friends? Definitely not. Who crushed first? Garren. Winston was just in it for the sex. Any alcohol or substance related problems? Winston drinks regularly and has experimented, but he finds them mostly unappealing, plus he has to stay clean anyway. Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? Winston. Who swears the most? Winston. 

[emeraldbroam]

do all 100 questions

I’m so pissed I started this and got through 25 ish questions and then closed the tab so here we go again

6 of the songs you listen to most?

Praying, Ke$ha

Eraser, Ed Sheeran

Play That Song, Train

Here, Alessia Cara

We Didn’t Start the Fire, Bon Jovi

Something Just Like This, Chainsmokers and Coldplay

If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

TBH I don’t know

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

“He infused them with Stormlight, Lashing them to a point behind the king.”

What do you think about most?

Figuring out who I am and what I want

What does your latest text message from someone else say?

“I think I cab sleeo NoeThank u for the kittiesThey wer v niceIlyyyyy ❤❤❤❤❤”

(spelling errors left intact)

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

depends on the day

What’s your strangest talent?

My ability to be very awkward

Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Both are great?

Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Yes! several actually!

When is the last time you played the air guitar?

....not in my memory

Do you have any strange phobias?

nah, not that I can think of

Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Absolutely

What’s your religion?

Atheist/Agnostic

If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Reading/Biking/Hiking/just chilling

Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

both but generally behind

Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

.....whichever one of those in Q1 counts as a band?

What was the last lie you told?

Something decently sized and sorta important but overall unimportant

Do you believe in karma?

Yes

What does your URL mean?

I was 15 and really liked the Stormlight Archives

What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

Greatest weakness is probably the fact that I assume everything is directed at me and I have trouble telling people when things bother me (lmao closely interacted), and my greatest strength is my ability to befriend some really weird people

Who is your celebrity crush?

N/A

Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

Yes! several times 

How do you vent your anger?

I write

Do you have a collection of anything?

Yes!

Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

depends on the person and topic

Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Mostly? I’ve got a long way to go till I’m the person I want to be tho

What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

I cannot stand the sound of people eating, some peoples voices are truly fantastic though.

What’s your biggest “what if”?

What if my dad had known earlier?

Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Maybe? Absolutely

Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

A wall (complete with Ace flag), and my water Bottle

Smell the air. What do you smell?

Surprisingly nothing?

What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

It depends a lot on the definition of worst TBH? cause like...worst for my mental health is probably high school?

Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

East. all the way

Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

I don’t know if there is anyone with an opposite gender to me? I mean how do you invert Nonbinary?

To you, what is the meaning of life?

42

Define Art.

Something that makes someone happy/feel things

Do you believe in luck?

In small amounts

What’s the weather like right now?

Cloudy and humid as fuck (if it would storm at any point that would be fucking fantastic)

What time is it?

2:20 am

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Yes and no!

What was the last book you read?

I’m in the middle of Way of Kings

Do you like the smell of gasoline?

Somewhat actually?

Do you have any nicknames?

Harpe diem, Ralph, that nickname my mom gave me that I’m not telling y’all.

What was the last film you saw?

The Matrix

What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

definitely a tie between breaking a chip off my foot and cutting a gash in my thigh that (at the time) was like half the length of my thigh (please note I didn’t get medical assistance for this and instead just applied a lot of bandaids)

Have you ever caught a butterfly?

Yes! 

Do you have any obsessions right now?

The TV show leverage and Cosmere are a few!

What’s your sexual orientation?

Ace!

Ever had a rumour spread about you?

Maybe? not in a bad way tho

Do you believe in magic?

Small magics

Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

That depends a Lot on what they’ve done

What is your astrological sign?

Cancer

Do you save money or spend it?

Save, definitely save

What’s the last thing you purchased?

Tomatoes

Love or lust?

Love

In a relationship?

Nope

How many relationships have you had?

3

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Nah

Where were you yesterday?

Generally near my school, more specifically I did a lot of walking and visited the farmers market

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yeah, my roommate loves pink

Are you wearing socks right now?

Nope

What’s your favourite animal?

Dragons!

What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

Being myself? idk?

Where is your best friend?

They’re all a little scattered, within a mile of me, this city, another state, two other cities in my state

Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

Oh shoot I’m bad at this idk, it’s 2:30 in the morning don’t ask me to make decisions

What is your heritage?

All of those Scandinavian countries? yes

What were you doing last night at 12AM?

something on my computer

What do you think is Satan’s last name?

something that starts with LeC-

Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

I’m ignoring this one cause I don’t wanna

Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

I hope so

You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Call my boss as I fish the dog out and run to work

You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I definitely tell people

I don’t know what I’d do honestly, cry a lot probably? 

definitely 

You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Trust

What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Yellow Submarine

What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

Why do you want this information?

In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Trust and communication

How can I win your heart?

Be kind, listen, don’t ask for more than you can give, enjoy things I enjoy

Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Yeah I suppose so

What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

Switching high schools to the one I graduated from

What size shoes do you wear?

8 or 11

What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Fuck man I don’t know

What is your favourite word?

I don’t really have one?

Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Muscle

What is a saying you say a lot?

“We’re just going to ignore me doing that stupid ass thing that I just did”

What’s the last song you listened to?

Eraser, Ed Sheeran

Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Blue/Green

What is your current desktop picture?

This stock photo of an ocean

If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

How big is the blast radius?

What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

here’s the thing, I would say but then people would ask and I don’t wanna answer it so nah

One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

My heart rate would spike and then I’d probably just....leave

You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Invisibility

You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

A time when I was 12 or so and I could just hike on the eno with my dad and cookout

You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

As shitty as some points of my life have been I would keep them because they’ve shaped who I am and my understanding of myself

You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

No one

You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

To a mountain range

Do you have any relatives in jail?

ummmmmm

I don’t actually know how they’re related to me but my great aunt’s grandchildren’s boyfriend maybe??? is/was in jail????

Have you ever thrown up in the car?

yes. it fucken sucked

Ever been on a plane?

Yeah! I enjoy it!

If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

can we all collectively take one deep breath and then think this through? Okay thanks, now exactly what is the issue with everyone?

[1000liveslived-aa]

✩ BITCH U KNEW ID BE UP IN THIS SHIT

The Ultimate Relationship Tag

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Emma, lets be real. But only if she gets really upset? Who threatens to leave but never actually does? NeitherWho actually keeps their word and leaves? HAHAHAHAH nope neitherWho trashes the house? Neither? Caspian likes his home clean, and Emma is of the same mindsetDo either of them get physical? Oh jesus no. Never. How often do they argue/disagree? Argue? Rarely. Disagree I’m sure they do fairly often like any couple. Who is the first to apologise? Caspian, probably, and then Emma would apologize too. Depends on the situation

Sex:

Who is on top? Depends on the situation. Emma more often probablyWho is on the bottom? CaspianWho has the strangest desires? Emma LOLAny kinks? Lolololol yuuuuup. Who’s dominant in bed? Emma 100%Is head ever in the equation? Yup! Once Emma knows he likes it, she absolutely wouldIf so, who is better at performing it? Uhm? Ever had sex in public? .....Yup! Who moans the most? CaspianWho leaves the most marks? EmmaWho screams the loudest? EmmaWho is the more experienced of the two? CaspianDo they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? Make love, for sure. THough there are times its kind of in between? Rough or soft? Depends on the time. Definitely some of bothHow long do they usually last? Fairly long I would say. Is protection used? LOL NODoes it ever get boring? Not if Emma has anything to say about it, it doesn’tWhere is the strangest place they’d have sex? Probably.... the closet of the fucking club LOL

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? Yup!!!!!If so, how many children do your muses want/have? Emma wants just one more, but they wind up having twinsWho is the favorite parent? Probably CaspianWho is the authoritative parent? EmmaWho is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? NeitherWho lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Caspian from time to time, I’m sure but he wouldn’t let them gorge themselves either. Emma probably would too, tbh. Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Oh god, both, but Emma probably makes it to more activities than Caspian can. Who goes to parent teacher interviews? Same as above. They both would, but Emma would probably make it to more than CasWho changes the diapers? BothWho gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Caspian probably unless he finds a way to wake Emma up faster than he can nowWho spends the most time with the children? Emma, considering Caspian’s job and lifestyle, but Caspian would make damn sure he gets his night/day with his children. Who packs their lunch boxes? Caspian probablyWho gives their children ‘the talk’? LOL Emma Who cleans up after the kids? Both, but Caspian is probably more anal about itWho worries the most? CASPIAN HAHAHHAWho are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Emma 100%

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? Both are cuddle bugsWho is the little spoon? EmmaWho gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? EMMA LOLWho struggles to keep their hands to themself?   Emma lol. But Caspian too, when they’re aloneHow long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? I can’t ever, EVER see either of them getting uncomfortable. Who gives the most kisses? Caspian. He does a lot of shoulder kissing and whatnotWhat is their favourite non-sexual activity? Cuddles, for sure. Or dancingWhere is their favourite place to cuddle? Literally anywhere they can cuddle in their home lolWho is more likely to playfully grope the other? Emma probably. How often do they get time to themselves? Not as often as either would probably like, but they make it work

Sleeping:

Who snores? Caspian maybe? If both do, who snores the loudest? N/aDo they share a bed or sleep separately? Share a bed 100% If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? Oh Emma acts as a second fucking blanketWho talks in their sleep? Emma actually talks a little in her sleep at first, but its all nonsense. What do they wear to bed? Caspian wears a shirt and sweatpants. Emma generally wears a tanktop and shorts, unless the kids are at the grandparents.. then she’s in nothing but her underwear. Are either of your muses insomniacs? Nope!Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? Nope!Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? Definitely cuddles in bed without a doubt. Who wakes up with bed hair? Both, but Caspian’s is cuter. Who wakes up first? Caspian by a LONG shotWho prepares breakfast in bed for the other? 100% CaspianWhat is their favourite sleeping position? Caspian’s is on his stomach, and Emma’s is draped over himWho hogs the sheets? Who needs sheets when you have an Emma?Do they set an alarm each night? Oh absolutely Can a television be found in their bedroom? Yes! But only because it was there when she got there lolWho has nightmares? CaspianWho has ridiculous dreams? EmmaWho sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? CaspianWho makes the bed? Caspian probablyWhat time is bed time? Mmmm probably closer to 10? Any routines/rituals before bed? Yeah, for sure. Brushing teeth, letting hair down, just kind of roaming around as they get dressed and unwind before cuddling in bedWho’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Emma for sure

Work:

Who is the busiest? LMFAO CaspianWho rakes in the highest income? CaspianAre any of your muses unemployed? God noWho takes the most sick days? ....Probably Emma, but its a close oneWho is more likely to turn up late to work? Caspian, if a meeting or something ran late. Who sucks up to their boss? NeitherWhat are their jobs? Caspian’s list is endless and Emma works at a tattoo parlorWho stresses the most? Caspian Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Oh yeah, for sureAre your muses financially stable? LOL oh yeah. 

Home:

Who does the washing? EmmaWho takes out the trash? BothWho does the ironing? Caspian mostlyWho does the cooking? Caspian mostly Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Neither Who is messier? Emma is a bit messierWho leaves the toilet roll empty? THE CHILDRENWho leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Emma Who forgets to flush the toilet? Neither? Who is the prankster around the house? Emma!Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? LOL Caspian more than likelyWho mows the lawn? EmmaWho answers the telephone? Emma mostlyWho does the vacuuming? Emma Who does the groceries? EmmaWho takes the longest to shower? EmmaWho spends the most time in the bathroom? Caspian (boy takes 2 showers a day, that’s why!) 

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? Lmfao you’re kidding me right? How many cars do they own? 2 Do they own their home or do they rent? OwnDo they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? CountrysideDo they live in the city or in the country? CityDo they enjoy their surroundings? Caspian enjoys it more than Emma. She doesn’t mind either way. What’s their song? Fire and Fury by SkilletWhat do they do when they’re away from each other? Continue on like normal, calling one another when its needed, and just generally continuing about their lives despite how much they miss the other. Where did they first meet? Crystal’s barHow did they first meet? Caspian brought colleagues over to Crystal’s to treat them to a meal, and Emma was the one that served them. Who spends the most money when out shopping? CaspianWho’s more likely to flash their assets? NeitherWho finds it amusing when the other trips over? Probably Emma lolAny mental issues? Yuuuuuuup. Who’s terrified of bugs? NeitherWho kills the spiders around the house? BothTheir favourite place? Caspian’s is either at home or around his big cats, and Emma is home or at the ocean. Who pays the bills? BothDo they have any fears for their future? Oh yeah, naturally they do. Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Caspian because he can actually cook a fancy dinnerWho uses up all of the hot water? Caspian probablyWho’s the tallest? CaspianWho’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? EmmaWho wanders around in their underwear? Neither, unless the kids aren’t home. Then its probably EmmaWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? CaspianWhat do they tease each other about? Silly goofy things.. probably Emma being clumsyWho is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Neither honestlyDo they have mutual friends? Oh god yeah. Kato and Emma are brotp dude.Who crushed first? Caspian crushed first.Any alcohol or substance related problems? Emma had an issue with alcohol. Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? NeitherWho swears the most? Emma