#talking about aku's self-doubts is like my faaaaavorite thing

[jaku-the-askblog]

It's already been made clear Aku and Jack won't be having kids anytime soon, but when Aku explained why it's near impossible for him to carry a child to full term, he says it like he's seen it happen before. That begs my curiosity: Did Aku attempt to impregnate himself, wanting to create an army of his offspring (since he probably wouldn't want the company of a pregnant female), only to give up when he kept losing unborn children due to accidentally shapeshifting? Just asking ^^;

((warnings for talk of miscarriage & unhealthy relationship views))

to be completely truthful, there were a few panels originally intended for that ask that i cut out, primarily because i wasn’t (and am still not) entirely certain i want to make the idea of Aku trying to have children with Jack and failing canon. I’m leaning towards not because that’s a whole mess of issues on top of everything else he and Jack already have. IE, potentially from there I would have had Aku keep this a secret from Jack because one: he thinks it would be devastating for Jack to the point of breaking their relationship, and two: deep down he would consider it a personal failure due to his unique “biology.”

Aku knows Jack wanted a “normal” life, back with his parents and with a human partner, and in some ways he tries to replicate that in hopes Jack will stay with him. He doesn’t actually understand, despite Jack telling him in both absolutely clear and in other more subtle ways, that Jack truly wants to be with him now and isn’t going to leave him at the drop of a hat. Jack does have his own issues, one of the main ones being he never actually dealt with his grief over losing his parents and home, but his choice was still his own and he chose this path instead of the one he thought he had to follow. Aku understands he and Jack are together now and Jack is with him— Aku, the demon wizard— but his fears constantly threaten to overwhelm him, mostly because this is the first time he’s ever valued someone and it just so happens to be the one person he has such a personal history with.

…But in the meantime, it’s easier for myself and everyone to run with the canon that Aku has logically concluded that’s what his body would do, since his body absorbs everything else unless he is willfully forcing it not to

there’s some more biological/magical shit that really boils down to aku wanting the child to be his and jack’s rather than just his own clone, which is why he would need to do this through that method rather than just willing a child into existence, but anywayyyy))