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blitz0hno · 8 months ago

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No but like would I have made a chart of who does what if I didn't think this is how my brain works? Is not knowing "why" I made it now proof enough? 😭 I do a lot of things that I look back and just.... Don't identify with yeah I've been Over This but it's feeling unreal again. Ig not rlly knowing who I am or what I want rn, and having conflicting thoughts about it, says something at least. Idk I'm not sure if I'm freaking out bc I know what is happening but come onnnnnn if we really be "splitting" and stuff do I have to feel like this every time??

listen full disclosure I am NOT quite dx'd w DID so there is hope that I DON'T have it

However

Idk maybe I just understand systems cuz I'm really empathetic? No guarantees

We??stay silly

#local man conplains of symptoms of disorder he totally doesn't have #more at 10 #no but like if i would just let myself believe it enough to try to heal more #but i always just end up wanting “less” parts #and that's not.... exactly fair i know #byt what if I'm just “indulging” something that isn't there??#symptoms or not it's better to not deal w the stigma in my scenario i think #idk tho i really feel like i “should” be able to live as a singlet and “get over” the trauma #but I WOULD NEVER RECOMMEND THAT FOR ANYONE W A DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER #that's not how it works #unless you “don't have it” but by god would i even be questioning it if I didn't #bc i identify w our collective name “Weed” but I'm not “host Weed” (chez)#....and if Chez “exists” that makes me an alter different from him #like ugh we don't want to have to do all this we wanna “live normally” ion think it's gonna happen pal lol #all this cuz we disrupted our routine huh lmao just yapping #yapping helps #ik there's probably stuff we need to reply to I'll see if i can figure out who i am cuz i don't think #i don't think I've been here before but the alters thing doesn't even feel real to me rn #should i even be posting this?? not my blog but like it also Is

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