#suicide tw //

[nyaslashthreat]

one time my parents were hanging out with this woman my mom used to be friends with and my dad suggested they listen to some leonard cohen and she said "and then why don't we all kill ourselves?"

so i know at least one person who would relate to this

[bubblebaath]

hiatus

[content warning: family death, suicide]

hey all, taking a small hiatus to recover from a family death. dad was reported missing last night and they found his body a few hours ago. circumstances basically rule it as self inflicted. sorry this isnt worded well i dont know how long the hiatus will be, i barely upload anyways so maybe it wont be noticeable thanks for reading, hope your days gone better

[loulovingho]

I feel that maybe if some of you larger blogs had called out this weird behaviour in the last two weeks you wouldn't now need to beg people not to be creeps on Instagram. Instead, you've all just continued to follow and reblog people who have said some fully deranged stuff with zero push back from anyone else.

I find it hilarious you think I'm a "larger blog" like absolutely hilarious. If I wasn't so lazy I would go back to the hundreds of times I've said "as always, be respectful" or something similar. I'd also go back to all the times I've said "don't @ me it's a joke" when I've said things that could be taken the wrong way and I didn't want them to be AND the times I was told about the hashtags on instagram and me saying that, while I didn't see anything wrong with it, it wasn't for me.

Also, please show me all the push back that "larger buddie blogs" gave when Lou was being sent death threats, when buddies were whining about jumpscares and telling Lou he was ugly or that he deserved to have a dad that hated him, or when many of us here on tumblr who have no say in anything were being told to kill ourselves and being sent csa fics to our inboxes.

[lesbiansforeddiediaz]

The bridge scene

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

Potential NPD + BPD culture is being kind and loving to people because you see them as children and beneath you. I have personally descended from my heavenly throne to teach you morons about the healing power of forgiveness patience and generosity.

And then like killing myself so everyone remembers me as the divine angel I am

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[sharkjumpers]

Imma flame your stupid ass too because what the fuck are you on about. Yeah let's tell suicidal people that "it does not get better" that's such a help. You know what stops people from ever getting to see things get better? Killing themselves. Saying that someone doesn't want their loved ones (or strangers!) to commit suicide because "death makes [them] uncomfy" is fucking asinine. What world do you live in? I don't want anyone to kill themselves because it means THEY'RE KILLING THEMSELF? Encouraging people to resort to suicide because they haven't got a "viable shot at life" is crazy. Saying people are against suicide because of Christianity is crazy. I don't know about you guys but I don't like suicide because it means someone is killing themself. They don't specify whatever "disorder" they're talking about but I don't care. As someone with lifelong disabilities that will never go away and greatly impact my quality of life in a negative way: the last thing I've ever needed to be told when suicidal as a result of those disorders was that I was dooming myself to suffer forever by staying alive. Go fuck yourself

[aropride]

i say this every year around my bday but more than all the other times i truly never really thought i would live this long. like i always figured i'd kill myself by 16 or 18 or 19 but i genuinely never really pictured myself being 22 ever unless it was bc of the taylor swift song or this dumb joke i made a lot when i was 14 that i was gonna die at age 22 of a drug addiction on the streets of new york. Bc it was kind of outlandish to imagine still being alive at that point like i truly thought i would not make it this far. so now i have to figure out all the shit i thought id never have to worry about

[quicktimeeventfull]

Explicit (Slowburn) Lawlight with background Beymane & Meronia Read on AO3 Contains: Depictions of mental illness, including suicide and self-harm; please see fic notes for more detail. Also this is set in Canada. Light has a discussion with his manager; the Wammy gang returns in the paratext. The only thing that makes life bearable for Light Yagami is the Kpop idol Beyond Birthday. His world has shrunk to the little glowing window of his phone, where he spends his days watching Beyond’s videos, re-reading his words, and defending him online from the legions of people who don’t understand that he’s the most important person on Earth. Perhaps his closest remaining relationship is with his anonymous Tumblr nemesis, L, who loves Beyond too, but loves him all wrong. Thank you so so much to Monica/@lightyaoigami for being with this fic from the start <3

[seth-whumps]

ah! no worries at all--this clarification is also for a handful of other asks which are much more explicitly suicide, not just you feather! don't worry, I had a ton of fun with these :)

"Whumpee! I've been looking for you for- oh my god, what are you doing all the way up there?!" + Whumpee

"Hiding. Bad things down there. Safe up here."

"Heard something. Just kinda... climbed from there, yknow? Didn't really think about it."

"Uh. I don't know. Do you... have a ladder, or something?"

"You asked me to keep watch? This is a vantage point."

"........nothing. Go back inside."

as a side note, I don't do suicide on this blog, so if this request was intended to go that way, I hope you don't mind me guiding it in a different direction :)

how to play

[deaths]

this straight up changed me as a person. killing myself in front of you to forever change your bond and the trajectory of your lives

[waspcup]

literally so fucking embarrassing to have a favorite character bc it will have you sitting there thinking things such as "omg he experiences the 5 senses" and "omg he wears clothes and feels the texture of them on his skin" and "omg he eats food and tastes it" and "omg he sleeps with his eyes closed in a bed with sheets" Like be honest should i just kill myself at this point

[wiisagi-maiingan]

Okay, I get people are angry and scared for a lot of extremely good reasons but those posts that are like "we survived one Trump presidency, we can survive another" are not trying to erase the people who DIDN'T survive, they're trying to keep people from fucking killing themselves right now.

A lot of very scared people are currently struggling through relapses, depressive episodes, breakdowns, and suicidal thoughts at the idea of another Trump presidency. If you can't say anything about that without making them feel more hopeless and terrified, then keep your mouth shut.

[imperishable-prayers]

"..." As soon as she saw Patchouli come out from the explosion unharmed, her smile dropped for once. She's realizing that nothing's working.

She thought that the strongest attack she knew would've done something to her but... "That... didn't work...?" It was hard to hear but her voice sounded pained. Strained. Breaking.

With power?

She's doing that though. She's been attacking her with power this whole time. Raw power. All thanks to this charm she adorned helping her. Yet... she was doing incredibly fine...?

"S-So you... You still weren't taking me seriously? I-Is that it?" A small magic circle transported her blown-away Mini-Hakkero back to her. At that same time, an enormous magic circle began forming behind her.

"IS THAT IT?! I'M JUST THAT MUCH OF A JOKE TO YOU?! TO THE POINT I CAN'T EVEN BRUISE YOU?!" She roared, her face growing more emotional. Tears flew out her eyes. "WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! IS IT THAT I'M SO FAR AWAY FROM BEING AS POWERFUL AS YOU THAT I WAS STUPID FOR EVEN TRYING TO BECOME A MAGICIAN IN THE FIRST PLACE?! IS THAT IT?!" She felt pretty cold, despite how much her burns hurt.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I BEEN DOING WITH MY LIFE IF I STILL CAN'T EVEN BRUISE SOMEONE LIKE YOU?! HAS IT ALL BEEN A WASTE OF TIME?!"

As soon as she summoned a new red crystal, the orbs that revolved around her would all be destroyed, bringing her defense back to normal.

She wildly cackled, choking on her own breath at a few moments. She continued preparing her last attack. "I-I can't take this anymore!! I can't, I CAN'T!! I-I'm so pathetic! I'm the most pathetic magician to ever exist!!"

The five crystals revolved around her entire body fast. She thrusted her arm outward towards the librarian, her Mini-Hakkero pointing at her. Her Mini-Hakkero, still feeling overworked from the last blast, is now being overcharged with even more energy than before! One blast of all that accumulated energy could most certainly shatter the entire thing!

"PLEASE!! I BEG YOU!!" With just one more casting of a regular barrier for herself, everything was set. She knows the barrier would shatter in mere seconds, but... she couldn't seem to care.

Koakuma seemed to be scared of what was about to happen, flying away from the likely place of impact. The Flandres rushed at her, ready to tackle her to the ground.

"JUST! LET! ME! WIIIIIN!!!"

Everything fired. It all combined with each other. It was as blinding as a flashlight being shined into your eyes in every angle but the middle, where it was dark. What was it?

A monstrous rainbow laser corkscrew, imbued with the elements of all five crystals, along with the demonic energy that spat out of her dying Mini-Hakkero as a last Master Spark. All while she was stuck within her own blast, her own body not influencing it in any way.

The closest thing that could be an equivalent to it would be... a solar eclipse that could bend light into rainbows taking the form of a beam.

The Flandres dodged it as quickly as they could, barely escaping the firing radius of it.

This seemed to be working! The high number of bullets, along with the golems acting as a disturbance, seemed to help keep the witch at bay. Focusing on dodging the hands of the golems, dodging the aimed bullets and navigating through a maze of bullets that expanded outward was too much to keep track of! Not to mention her lungs growing ever colder, her breathing getting heavy again.

Still not understanding why though, she just upped her fire resistance and upped the heat of the flames that were engulfing her, changing the flames from red to blue... and then to violet! She didn't up her fire resistance that high! She was burning herself now, wincing through the pain... and yet, she didn't care. She just laughed while firing back against the unrelenting onslaught of attacks with her own spells!

"Hahahahaha~!! Patchouliii~! This is such a fun final bout, Patchouliiii~~!!" She yelled in glee, her voice sounding strained... She does her best not to get hit by the bullets to no avail, a few smacking against her body. These bullets seemed to singe her more than usual.

Barrier Sign ~ "The Four Orbs of Hachiman's Soul"

Four orbs, red, purple, blue, and green respectively, came out from her body, attaching to each other by invisible string, creating a barrier that makes magical attacks and bullets deal an eighth of the damage they would've dealt unless the four orbs were destroyed.

"I only wish that it was just against the two of us!!" She shouted, almost sounding like a pained whine.

Fire Water Wood Metal Earth Sign ~ "Witch's Stone"

Stealing a page off of Patchouli's own attacks, she summoned five small crystals to spin around her, all five of them having different colors and different elements attributed to them. However, she wasn't going to use them in the same way Patchouli does.

She launched off of thin air, soaring up high until she was hovering over the encased bookshelves.

"I know you love learning, so you must know lots of magic spells, so~ much more than me!!"

The three Flandres went to fly up to the same vertical position Marisa was at. During the ascent, they'd see her launch her red crystal at one of them. The copy easily dodged it, letting it stab into the floor.

However, this was Marisa's plan.

"So, tell me, Patchers~!! What's your favorite part of--"

"--Prowling Flare?!"

Out from the red crystal came a grand BOOM, starting small, but slowly growing bigger and bigger, a black hole of an explosion. The protection given to the bookshelves couldn't reflect something like this, it could only hold its defense against it as it threatened to engulf whatever was around until it could reach Patchouli!

[nyancrimew]

reblogs off since im tired of the dumb fucking discourse happening here, go read this long post and reblog it instead please.

ok so tumblr also really needs this reminder based on some posts ive seen around lately, the "babygirlification" of JSTOR is bad. like Bad Bad. did you all just collectively forget history? did you alll just forget they have blood on their hands? just because they publish science stuff in an ever so slightly more ethical way than springer and are a little silly on social media sometimes? JSTOR killed aaron swartz (wikipedia). in his fight for freedom of information he downloaded papers off of jstor (with acedemic access from MIT) to share and make freely accessible (as all information should be), for this he was charged with wire fraud, computer fraud, unlawfully obtaining information from a protected computer, and recklessly damaging a protected computer. he was facing up to 50 years in prison and a 1 million USD fee for a simple act of downloading files he lawfully had access to. with this court case the US government drove one of the most important online activists and programmers (he is behind so much stuff you all take for granted) into suicide in the name of JSTOR.

JSTOR isn't the cool girl on the block. this isnt a call to boycott them (though please learn how to use things such as sci-hub and fight for open science and freedom of information in general please <3), but please dont glorify them as some sort of cutesy platform.

[bellamuertes]

CONSTANTINE (2005) dir. Francis Lawrence

[thefoolsprocession]

There is something deeply wrong with some of you I’m ngl