#stop saying he wants you invested. he OBVIOUSLY does not. it's ABOUT bellarke and the blakes

[sometimesrosy]

I just found out that there would be no Spacekru flashbacks in season 6 and I'm quite bummed. Not that I like BE (I don't) but it would have been cool to understand how they went from Bellamy trying to kill her to "we found each other in a cage". It's hard to get invested in a ship with little to no development, even more so when you already ship BC. I don't know if it's a deliberate choice and we're not supposed to care about BE or they had to cut those scenes for budget reasons but it sucks.

We found that out months ago. The no spacekru flashbacks. So this doesn’t count as a spoiler.

It doesn’t bother me at all. Why you guys think we’re supposed to be invested in a relationship that the narrative has spent no time on is beyond me.

I have heard so many people say JR FAILED to get us invested in B/E, as if that was some sort of ERROR or accident, when he commits ALL this screen time to Bellarke and the Bellarke reunion and the Blake siblings, and their falling out, and then y’all are like, but he wants us to be invested in B/E so he failed to do that.

And I’m just like.

WHERE?

Where does he want us to be invested? In that intro to B/E contrasted with 30 minutes of Clarke suffering alone and LONGING for Bellamy to come back, and then 1 minute of b/e and Echo immediately questioning if they were going to last on the ground?

Or was it their love scene, which was, honestly, HALF a love scene, with a direct fade to CLARKE, again feeling alone and wanting to leave. And THEN we see her grief and sadness at seeing them together before E leaves and they team up again to save Madi and everyone?

Oh was our supposed investment in B/E supposed to happen when they separated and he barely mentioned her again more than as family and a dependable spy??? 

I suppose our investment was supposed to come when Bellamy poisoned his sister after she mocked him for loving both Clarke and Echo? Even though he didn’t mention saving Echo, only saving Clarke when he did it.

Is our investment supposed to come when Echo confronts Clarke about not caring for Bellamy, Clarke says she always cared, and then the back from the dead L tells her not to sacrifice her true love the way she did, and Clarke immediately gives up her antagonism, and basically GIVES Bellamy to Echo telling her to go save him. Something I just noticed? Lxa might very well have betrayed Clarke because Bellamy WAS in the mountain, and he DID do what he promised and PROVED himself to be a hero and worthy of her care and trust, and was IMPLIED to be part of the reason why Clarke rejected lxa in her overtures. AKA, Lxa might have taken her enemy’s offer because she was freaking jealous of Bellamy, while Clarke, relinquishes her hold on Bellamy because she loves him more than she believe she deserves his love. She’d rather have him alive and victorious in the arms of someone else. Oh but you know, that Clarke and Echo’s moment about Bellamy opens up much wider and reflects upon all sorts of narrative points really means that ITS ABOUT B/E and that’s who they want us to care about.

Maybe our investment was supposed to come when they reunited, awkwardly in the rover with octavia? Or with the hug that was pretty close to how he hugged Harper? So romantic! So touching! What a connection— not. 

Oh our investment should be when the three of them finally interact, and Clarke looks at him with heart eyes for saving Eligius, and he looks guiltily at Echo as if he’s done something wrong. That’s definitely a sign that B/E is endgame. When just existing with his soulmate makes him feel like he’s cheating although he’s done NOTHING wrong. 

There is actually NO EVIDENCE that the writers want us to be invested in B/E. I think you’re making that up. I think you’re listening to antis, who don’t care what happens in the story, because all they care about is that Bellarke is blocked and their ship is alive. They never seem to notice if it is being built up as strong and endgame in the narrative, if they make the characters better, or what/who the narrative is about.

If you are taking evidence from people who think the hero is NOT Clarke and/or Bellamy, then you are taking evidence from people who are misreading the canon. CAN you imagine a story from Echo or Lxa’s pov? You sure can. Is that the story being told on screen? It sure isn’t.

They are telling the story of Clarke, of Bellamy and of BELLARKE. Also of the Blake siblings. And there is not one b/e scene that is not ALSO telling the story of Bellarke or the Blake siblings. OR is completely a spacekru scene and depicts them as family. ALL romantic scenes between B/E are Blake or Bellarke related.

HOWEVER. Not all Blake or Bellarke scenes have a thing to do with B/E. In fact, almost none of the Bellarke scenes have to do with B/E and about idk 10% of the Blake scenes have to do with B/E. 

What part of that tells you that JR wants us to be invested in B/E? 

WHY do you think they’re just failing to get you invested, instead of setting B/E up as a conflict for the MAIN relationships of Bellarke and the Blakes? I mean. She is LITERALLY the character that is in the way of both of Bellamy’s most meaningful relationships?

I don’t understand why you think it’s NOT a deliberate choice when it’s actually in the damn dialogue as well as the narrative and cinematography and editing. How many people do you think are ACCIDENTALLY focusing on Clarke and Octavia INSTEAD of B/E? 

Here’s what I think is the problem. Fandom tells us that shippers understand the story better than the professionals writing the story and the writers are “doing it wrong,” because it doesn’t conform to our theories, headcanons and fanon. Fandom has convinced us that fandom’s hot takes are more true than canon. Canon tells you Bellarke is the center of the story. But shippers tell you B/E is. 

Dude. The shippers are wrong. 

This story is ABOUT Bellarke, not B/E. We saw 30 minutes of Clarke alone and NO minutes of B/E development because the story is about Clarke being separated from everyone ESPECIALLY Bellamy. And the season was about reuniting Bellarke, not being invested in b/e.

They HAD time. If thy wanted to invest us in B/E they had 30 minutes of a dead girl’s story to erase. If it was about how much Bellamy had grown to love Echo instead of how Clarke was lonely and lost and talking to Bellamy every day, WE WOULD HAVE SEEN B/E. We did not. 

Because THAT IS NOT THE STORY.

Sorry if I’m ranting. I’ve heard this from the beginning of s5. “If he wants us to be invested in  B/E and Echo he failed.” Somehow people translate this into “He wants us to love B/E and he failed, he’s a bad writer,” instead of the other possibility in that statement. “He DIDN’T want us to be invested in B/E and Echo and he succeeded.” 

Like, y’all would rather believe that the people who wrote this story/characters you love are completely incompetent rather than them telling a different story than your first impression led you to believe. 

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hi there!! are there any fics you’re reading right now that you would recommend? i need something good after the season we’ve been given so far 😣

hello there!

I agree, this season has been disappointing - especially considering it’s the last one. but thankfully, our fandom is full of amazing writers that serve us goods regularly. I have so much to recommend, it’s a joke. so prepare for a long fic rec. In no particular order, let’s begin:

1. Chasin’ You - @burninghoneyatdusk

okay. you’re gonna see a bit of a theme with me in these fic recs because the authors I mention are some of my favourites in the world - sam being one of the TOP TIER ones. this fic is a modern au, written about clarke and bellamy as exes (a favourite trope of mine) that have went their separate ways. clarke has moved away and hasn’t kept tabs on bellamy but he's soared to the top as a country star, his hit single being about her and what they had. if there’s any fic from this list you need to start reading, it’s this one.

2. Voices in the Water - @burninghoneyatdusk

It’s the canon version we all wanted. set on earth, clarke’s aunt (nia) forces her into an arranged marriage with king bellamy to unite the clans. but under it all, nia has tasked her to kill him. obviously, as clarke falls in love with bellamy, it’s the one task wanheda probably can’t complete. I'm in love with the imagery and descriptions in this fic. there are honestly some lines that sam writes that I want to frame and put up in my house. absolute brilliance.

3. All Because of You - @burninghoneyatdusk

*sheepishly raises hand* - hi, it’s me again, fangirling over another one of sam’s fics. if you have followed me for a while, either here or on twitter, you’ll have seen me screaming about this fic. I've pulled over while driving to read an update that came through to my email. no lie. I don’t say this lightly but it is definitely in my top 3 favourite bellarke fics of all time. sam DELIVERS with this one. bellamy knocks up his sister’s best friend when they’re both young and they grow together in raising their daughter. this fic flashes between present and future in the most seamless way and we see how in love they were back then but too scared to admit it, combined with how in love they are now that they are mature and older - but yet can’t seem to take the leap. I can’t tell you enough how good this fic is. I'm in love and it’s one of those fics that I would happily have as a book on my bookshelf, the pages worn and falling out from the amount of times that I re-read it.

*I just want to note that sam is doing a fantastic job at running @bellarkefic-for-blm. This is an opportunity for the bellarke community to directly support the Black Lives Matter cause through reading and writing fanfiction. For every fanfiction prompt a participating writer receives, they ask that you donate to an organization that supports the BLM cause. This initiative includes non-bellarke the 100 ships and requests for other content (e.g. gif sets, icons, moodboards, fanart). please check them out and request a prompt (this also includes updates for the above mentioned fics)*

4. Count Your Teeth - @icantloseyou-too

let me tell you, you guys will be well fed after reading this fic. It’s one of the most original idea’s and we get so much bellarke and the blake siblings in this one. bellamy is a treasure hunter and married to clarke, after leaving his thieving days behind him. that is until his past comes knocking and drags him back into that world again - and clarke along with him. absolute chefs kiss!

5. Cups and Sorcerers - @icantloseyou-too

again, such a unique plot with just the right amount of fluff. clarke is a witch who owns a coffee shop and she ends up meeting someone just as unique as her. I’m invested in this to an embarrassing degree and it always puts me in a good mood when this fic is updated. such a light and heart filling read and ciara does a fantastic job of world building in this fic.

6. Paint me in Trust - @pawprinterfanfic

I'm sure this fic needs no introduction. everyone and their mother has heard of it and if you haven’t read it yet, believe me, you’re missing out. a harry potter au that runs alongside the last few movies without being involved with the main characters. essie manages to make an already existing world so different, thrilling and gripping. it emotionally upends you and takes you along for the ride without any intention of letting you off. I'm just in love with it and rightly so!

7. When the Wolves Come Home - @pawprinterfanfic

I don’t know how people aren’t RAVING about this fic more because I certainly am. it’s massive for me to even say this because I love all of essie’s work but it’s my favourite fic that she’s written. I can’t describe the feeling I get when I read how she’s written bellarke in this. it’s a percy jackson au but you don’t need to have knowledge of that world to enjoy this. I actually started reading the books because of this fic. essie writes it so well and incorporates a lot of fantastic elements from greek mythology while also keeping me on the edge of my seat with bellarke’s journey. HERE FOR IT ALL THE WAY.

8. I’ll Find You in the Morning Sun - @cominguproses13x

I’ve never seen a fic talked about as much as this one. with 60 chapters, it’s bound to satisfy any hunger you have for bellarke. it’s set in a post apocalyptic world and it is beyond a shadow of a doubt, my favourite setting to read bellarke in. I've actually stopped reading this fic on chapter 5 because im currently writing my own post apocalyptic au as it was a trope on my bingo card and I don’t want any subconscious spill over, but I fully intend on reading the rest of the fic in one go once my fic is published and done. it deserves all the praise and hype.

9. For Blue Skies - @kombellarke

kayla’s fics make me actually weep. her writing style is just unbelievable and she sucks me into stories so fast. this one is no different. I live and breathe for bellarke as exes and this fic is one of my favourites. it’s a modern au with clarke as a mother and she cascades back into bellamy’s life without warning. perfect angst and anticipation. in love.

10. Love Like Fools - @talistheintrovert

the way I love talis with my whole heart. I'm always obsessed with her fics and the way this one was written was just magnificent. enemies to friends to lovers, roommates, angst, emotional comforting? SIGN ME UP. the perfect mix of all of those and I felt so good after reading this. always a fan.

11. It Had To Be You - @useyourtelescope

I had the honour of pre-reading some of this fic before it was published and I felt so privileged. a regency au with a prank war sprinkled in? perfection. hana honestly writes this so beautifully and I can’t recommend this enough. it’s so unique and we are all so incredibly lucky that there’s something in the bellarke fic world for everyone.

12. Veni, Vidi, Vinci - @carrieeve

Again, proof of the pudding that there’s something in fic for everyone. I’ve never read one like this before and it THRILLED me. murphy and bellamy working together to steal a Vinci? it was the fic I never knew I needed. the bellarke interaction in this was beautifully written and I am just completely obsessed. we really struck gold with the bellarke big bang works this year.

13. A Twist of Fate - @queenemori

let’s be honest, soulmate au’s are always wanted and needed in this fandom and kara does an excellent job of serving us this one. we got some team cockroach in here along with some top tier quality bellarke. what more could you ask for? if you haven’t read this fic yet, you need to. so thankful for kara being the absolute gifted babe that she is.

14. Power Over Me - @sparklyfairymira

okay, if you recently watched the witcher on netflix like I did, believe me, you NEED to read this fic. if you haven’t watched the witcher, this fic will make you want to watch it. the smut in this, the plot, the WRITING. absolutely phenomenal. have I mentioned how lucky we are to have such fantastic writers in this fandom?

15. There’s a Serpent Lying Deep Down in These Still Waters - @shaeheda

post apocalyptic au? SIGN ME UP. bellarke thrown together in unkind circumstances? SIGN ME UP. this magnificent human writing a fic? SIGN ME THE FUCK UP. I'm so in love with this fic already and I haven’t even finished it yet. as I've said, I've stopped reading fics in this genre until my own is completed but I’ve read enough to tell you that this needs to be on your next to read list. forever in awe of the talent here and this fic makes me feel so lucky to be part of something so great.

I hope this satisfies you for a while and that you enjoy all the bellarkey goodness that comes from these fics. I'm gonna drop some of mine below because why not? just in case you’re in need of something more.

1. I Found Peace in Your Violence

clarke griffin has it all. she’s popular, an artistic prodigy and has a wealthy family to boot. so when her perfect world comes crashing down around her, it’s time to sink or swim. she tests positive for the Homicidal Tendency Syndrome gene, also known as the kill gene. clarke is plucked from her comfortable life and placed into a school with people just like her - carriers, delinquents. when she meets bellamy blake there, he looks like everything they say HTS carriers are. a monster, a criminal. yet, he’s the one who protects her.

2. I Am Lost This Time

a void!bellamy fic that we all deserved to have happen in canon. an au where bellamy hears clarke’s radio calls from earth, sees her memories in m-cap and where she really is the key: the one that unlocks his memories and brings him back to her.

3. Purple, Blue, Orange, Red

bellarke are childhood friends and teenage lovers, reuniting in the midst of the same grief that tore them apart.

4. Devil Side

post apocalyptic setting and my favourite fic to have ever written. both of them coming together to survive and protect those in their family, including two small children. bellarke started out as strangers, who would have thought that they’d end up co-parenting in the middle of a world that is too dangerous to survive out in the open?

5. Waste It on Me

a soulmate/reincarnation au that I wrote based off my own breakup and feelings. probably my most popular fic and should keep you going in terms of bellarke feels.

[ship-obsessions]

The 100 Season 6 Speculations

Okay, so first of all I want to say I’m loving season 6 so far. Give me all of the delinquent interactions. I’m also obsessed with the Bellarke crumbs they are ALREADY GIVING US and how their repressed feelings for each other were shown (although not directly) in 6x02. A while ago I saw on Twitter that a reviewer compared The 100′s 6x02 episode to Motel California in Teen Wolf and now I totally see it. The way the plant toxin affects the delinquents parallels the werewolves being affected by the wolf’s bane... and the focus on the main group of delinquents (specifically Clarke, Bellamy, and Murphy) parallels the focus on the original core 4 in TW (Scott, Stiles, Allison, Lydia). I absolutely LOVED the core 4 dynamic in TW and I’m already loving this trio dynamic between Clarke, Bellamy, and Murphy. Give me more episodes like this! (and maybe add Raven after her and Clarke make up).

That said, I watched the first two episodes when they were leaked, so I’ve been DYING for the next episode 6x03. (Note: I’ve also been streaming them again since they’ve officially aired, so I’ve watched each one like 4 times). Since new content is finally coming next week, I wanted to get out some of my random speculations for what’s coming up later this season even though we literally know so little about this new planet, these new people, the creepy children, etc.. Of course, being curious (like a psychopath), I went through all of the season 6 episodes on IMDb to see what (if anything) it could tell me. I’m sure someone else has probably already done this, but I found some interesting things I needed to put out there...

6x03 

We already have a name “The Children of Gabriel” as well as a description (Clarke tries to win over the leaders of Sanctum in order to let her people stay. Meanwhile, Bellamy, Octavia, and Echo discover a new threat while on a mission to retrieve the transport ship.), so we have somewhat of a gist of what is coming next week. I don’t think they will fully go into the backstory of these “children of Gabriel” but we obviously know the geneticist from the flashback was named Gabriel and the actor, Ian Pala, is only listed for 2 episodes on his personal page and one of those is Sanctum (uncredited). So I’d assume this means we won’t get another flashback of him specifically or the origins of his “children”. But I do think when Clarke meets Russell and the other people somehow this backstory/history (at least a shortened version) will be explained. We know that the episode titles are all explicitly mentioned or referred to in the episodes themselves somewhere, so that’s my reasoning there.

However, I noticed one other small thing in the cast list that stuck out as strange/interesting. Sarah-Jane Redmond’s character (aka the Sanctum hostage that tried to hijack the mothership) is named Taylee in 6x02 but Tilly in 6x03. At first I thought it could have been some kind of error (idk) but it’s listed the same way on her personal IMDb actor page. Is she playing twins?? Is there validity to this clone theory I saw floating around and read about in the Hypable review?? Either way, I’m definitely interested in whatever that’s about. 

Also, I’m excited to meet JR Bourne’s character this episode! We obviously know he is Russell Lightbourne but after all my research (lol I’m taking this WAY more serious than I ever took school), I’m wondering if he’s not just a descendant of the Lightbourne’s but is actually a clone or somehow has the same consciousness from Mr. Lightbourne (Josephine’s dad) in 6x02 (again saw this in the Hypable article around a similar flame storyline theory since Becca created Eligius tech as well). It’s worth noting that we don’t actually know the character’s real name and Sean Maguire is just credited as Mr. Lightbourne -- no first name. Hmmmmm

6x04

Again we have a name “The Face Behind the Glass” and a short description (Clarke embraces the traditions of Sanctum and tries to make amends for her past actions.), but not much else... (or do we??) This episode is probably where we will see Clarke dancing in the room painting and maybe even the lanterns floating in the sky (ie. Sanctum tradition?) -- I’m thinking several “happy” moments with her. I also have a theory -- going out on a limb here -- that it is where we could see the whole “flashback” scene of Clarke in Mount Weather from the trailer. It’s probably not an actual flashback but some kind of hallucination or psychosis thing again, (or maybe even a dream?) but maybe that is where the title comes from -- she’s literally looking at herself from behind the broken glass in MW’s contamination rooms. OR we’re not quite there yet and it’s referring to the stained glass-looking red window/door thing that Emori was trying to open before going crazy in 6x01. 

The kicker for me in this episode’s listing was Jordan Bolger’s credit as Shaw, who we all saw die in 6x01. In what capacity is he coming back? Maybe it’s Raven’s hallucination or even a dream? I could see them showing us her full reaction once she knows what really happened to him, but I’m not sure how or in what way he would come back at some point in the episode (I say “come back” because the actor will actually appear). It will be super interesting how the sci-fi elements work on this new planet. We’ve already seen the eclipse-induced psychosis but what other strange things will occur or happen to our characters? If they are all facing their demons (ie. Clarke with Mount Weather and Octavia with Blodreina) I wonder how those scenes will be played out.

6x05

Again Jordan Bolger is credited... is Miles Ezekiel Shaw back again??? What is going on? 

6x06 - 6x07

I didn’t really notice anything super strange in episode 6, but GUESS WHO IS CREDITED FOR EPISODE 7: none other than Chris Browning as Jake fucking Griffin. Maybe this is another flashback or memory or hallucination -- assuming by Clarke.

Note: Madi is not credited to appear in 6x06 or 6x08 so I’m thinking her “kidnapping” or whatever happens with the creepy person who is holding her captive in the woods happens in 6x07. Or maybe it’s even earlier in 6x05?

6x08

In episode 8, the cast list introduces 2 notable new characters: Josephine VII and Hope. Okay, so with Josephine VII it could be some descendant of the original Josephine Lightbourne in the 6x02 flashback, but it could ALSO be another hint at this clone and/or flame consciousness theory. But Hope... where have we heard that name before? Oh yeah, Diyoza’s unborn child. But Diyoza hasn’t even had her baby yet and in the promo trailers it looked like she was shot (and possibly killed?). Also, this actress who plays Hope is like 6 years old, not a newborn baby. It’s still weird to me though because what are the chances there is another character -- another child, no less -- with that same name Diyoza mentioned she was planning to give her baby. Just seems a little too coincidental to me.

6x09

Okay, I’m going out on a limb here, but THIS MIGHT BE THE ICONIC RAVE SCENE FROM THE TRAILER. Stay with me... I was originally thinking this would happen earlier in the series when I saw this in the trailer, probably like everyone else, but in the IMDb cast list there are 5 “dancers” credited. I mean it is more logical for a rave scene to happen early in the season (because usually all the good things or happy stuff comes in the first half of the season and NEVER this late), but what else would “dancers” be credited for??? The 100 doesn’t do dance numbers LOL. Anyway this idea has me shook because if it is this late in the season, there is a better chance that Bellamy and Echo have ended things by this point and that super short blurry speck in the bottom right corner of the rave dance scene could be Bellamy (you know what I’m talking about). Will they actually make my LIFE and have Bellamy and Clarke dancing at that rave together? Seems way too good to be true, but I had to throw the possibility out there. I mean who knows, my Bellarke-owned ass can always hope for the best. 

After the slim possibility of that amazing possibility, here’s a scary thought to consider (sounds kind of like the show itself), this is the last episode of the season that credits Lola Flanery as Madi... WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO HER. Does whatever experiment being done on her in the promo trailer kill her? Pls don’t hurt Clarke’s smol child.

6x10

So here is where I started low key freaking out because the cast list dwindles DRAMATICALLY for credits this episode. We only have Eliza as Clarke, Shannon as Jordan, and Luisa as Emori out of ALL of the main characters we know and love. Something major has to happen for everyone else to suddenly become absent from this episode. And I’m a little scared to know what that is.

6x11

Okay thank god, the main characters are all back on the credits list for this episode. ALSO there is a new actor credited as young Echo. OMG an Echo flashback?! Will we finally understand who she was and why she is the way she is? Will I even care to get invested in her this late in the game?

Also, IMDb lists that this is the episode Bob Morley directs!

6x12 - 6x13

Our other mains are gone AGAIN from the cast list. It’s back to only listing Clarke and Jordan among the characters we already know. WTF is going on. I need answers NOW. To reiterate, I’m saying that IMDb doesn’t list Abby, Bellamy, Octavia, Raven, Murphy, Echo, Kane, Madi, Miller, or Jackson in episode 10, 12, or 13 (+ Emori in 12 or 13).

I’m honest to god just hoping that IMDb isn’t fully updated with the entire cast list in these last episodes yet -- is that a thing? pls tell me it is -- because if we don’t have a finale that includes Murphy, Raven, or most of all, BELLAMY... I swear to God I will riot. Of course, I’m hoping no one dies (obvi), but now that we know there is a season 7, could J Roth be trying to kill us with some dramatic cliffhanger where Clarke and Jordan are separated from the rest of the group? (PSA: STOP SEPARATING CLARKE FROM EVERYONE). But if so, why would this absence of all of those other characters be TWO WHOLE EPISODES? And during the two part finale of all things. UGHHH my mind is spiraling, someone pls calm me down.

On the plus side, 6x12 lists Antonio Negret as the director for the episode and we all know he brought us the brilliant (yet angsty AF) episode 5x08 last season where Bellamy poisoned Octavia to save Clarke. But if Bellamy isn’t even in this episode WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER CARING.

What’s left that I missed? Probably a lot LOL. I tried going back to watch what I might have missed from the extended trailer but I couldn’t find the video ANYWHERE. It’s like disappeared from YouTube (says it is “unavailable”). What is that about?

Anyways, the scene with everyone together in the house (standing at the bar, shot looking at us) has to be in one of the episodes where all main cast members are credited -- I don’t think it will be the next one so maybe 6x04 or 6x05? Same thought for the Madi/Clarke reunion, I feel like that is in the same episode. I also have no idea when in the season Bellamy is going to strangle Russell with Clarke and Murphy in the room (again my favorite new trio!). And that being said I’m confused on JR Bourne because he was all hyped up as a new character this season but he’s only credited in the next episode 6x03. Does the strangling take place next week? It can’t right? Because Bellamy is off with Echo and Octavia on the other mission and Clarke is the only one in the castle. Also if 6x04 is Clarke trying to embrace the traditions of Sanctum and make amends, there is no way she could do that the episode after Russell (the leader of Sanctum) is killed. 

Sorry for the crazy rambling and this long AF post, but I have so much on my mind after this speculation deep dive. I need to just go to bed.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

5x03 - Sleeping Giants

This whole thing is under the cut, because of spoilers and how long it is! This touches briefly on the following subjects: Eligius, Zeke and Charmaine, Clarke, Spacekru, Raven, Memori, Madi and Bellamy, and Bellarke.

This currently clocks in at 2743 words. Pretty sure half of that is me flailing and the other half is actual content. I mean, that might be a little generous, but yeah. GOOD LUCK!

I didn’t even notice until the preview for the next episode that we didn’t get ANY bunker content this episode. I feel a little guilty for not missing it, but it’s partially Clarke-related, Bellamy-related, and Bellarke-related. I’m more invested in Spacekru and Clarke in general, even though I want to see what the hell is going on with Kane in the gladiator ring. I want to know what’s up with Miller in Octavia’s honor guard (working theory is that he’s defending her on Bellamy’s behalf and because he knows how to survive, I love my Slytherin babe). I want to know what’s going on with Niylah and whether or not Abby is okay. But I couldn’t bring myself to think about any of that, because 5x03 was a fucking ride from start to finish.

Eligius

It came out that Eligius 3 is the one who had the nightblood solution. Not Eligius 4, but they all knew what it meant. Like, can we get a spinoff of the Eligius story? Because this whole thing sounds interesting as hell.

Zeke and Charmaine

I was really intrigued by the captain’s log. I wasn’t entirely sold on the idea of Zeke being a guard, but I’m glad I was wrong. He’s clearly a bleeding heart and felt guilty about whatever “the solution” was. I’m assuming it had something to do with killing the prisoners and he felt like they had earned forgiveness. Which is a little surprising, because he clearly still has reservations about it. This, of course, leaves him open to flip sides and join Spacekru, so I’m just going with it. I have been super paranoid that the writers are going to pull the rug out from under me with him and make him evil or kill him heroically. Let’s just… let’s just not.

I’m in awe with how similar Zeke is to season one Clarke. He’s pushing for peace, a reluctant bystander to torture, and I’m in love, okay? It’s reminding me of that scene in the trailer where he’s pulling a gun on someone and now I want to see a gif of that face next to Clarke pulling the gun and saying “There are no good guys” in episode one. It’s possible that we’re supposed to see more of Clarke in Charmaine, and I definitely do, but I also see a lot of Bellamy in her. Charmaine seems really interesting, too. I do see a lot of Wanheda-Clarke in her, but I see more season one Bellamy than anything. Maybe Zeke and Charmaine are the platonic co-leaders this show has been wanting us to believe in all along. With McCreary as a potentially unredeemable Murphy – which could function as a mirror for Murphy that he might not like.

Anyway, I’m SO EXCITED for Zeke and Raven to meet. He’s fucking smart, has a sense of humor (“Non-violent offenders with me” was clearly a slightly morbid joke), AND appears to be a decent dude? I’m already shipping Zaven harder and they haven’t even met. If the writers take Zeke away from me (literally or figuratively), I’m not going to handle it well.

Clarke

Mama Clarke is going to kill me. And Clarke taking a page out of Lincoln’s book had me freaking out. Not only with the silent treatment and torture, but also in the attempt at peacemaking. I’m not sure how she keeps expecting Madi to sit still, though. She KNOWS how she met her daughter and she’s the only thing Madi has, so OF COURSE Madi is going to risk her life to try to kill as many of these people as possible. I’m sure Clarke has a lot more sympathy for season two Abby when Clarke was taking charge of everything.

Spacekru

I’m bummed that we only got a brief glimpse into the Bellamy and Raven friendship. But I love that she knew that she had to lie to get him to go. And he believes her because he trusts her. Their banter this episode was really great. Also, BELLAMY AND RAVEN FOUGHT A DUDE TOGETHER! And ECHO HELPED! I’m so glad that she taught them how to fight. It was heartbreaking, too, how the idea of leaving another loved one behind to die is such trauma for Bellamy. He’s felt SO guilty.

I really love the idea of Murphy and Raven’s friendship now. Six years is a long time and I’m impressed by Raven forgiving him for her leg (because tbh, I still haven’t). I know he only stayed behind because he thought she had a secondary way out, but it was still pretty great. Bellamy told Murphy in 5x01 that he misses being a hero and check it out, Murphy gets a chance to try to be a hero again.

Everyone in Spacekru was amazing this episode. Monty, Murphy, Emori, Harper, Echo. I’m stupid in love with the dynamic they have. I was already liking Echo way more after 5x01, but this episode truly sold me. Her loyalty has always been intense and I like it a lot more when it’s projected at characters I love. (I loved Roan, but she was anti-Skaikru at the time and I was mad about that)

Raven

So, can we just talk about how she ONCE AGAIN is willing to sacrifice her life for her friends. It’s at the point where I need to do a rewatch of this show and quantify how I feel about each character in every episode so I can definitively know where Raven ranks. My heart tells me that Clarke and Bellamy are tied for number 1 and Raven comes in at 1.5, but I can get some math involved here guys.

I don’t feel a ton of room for speculation about her right now. I feel guilty that I’m invested in Zaven, because I don’t want to tie her and my love for her into a ship. I’m ready to see her be happy for a while, whether that’s in a relationship or not. I know that’s a farfetched dream with this show, but still. We saw in 4x12 and 4x13 that Bellamy and Clarke are canonically willing to risk their lives for her, too, but I want to see more of that. She keeps on doing this shit and throwing herself into trouble’s way and I’m worried for the next few episodes.

Memori

God, Emori landing that spaceship was EVERYTHING for me. I knew she would thrive in space, but this was more than I expected. It does bum me out that Murphy reacted so poorly to Emori “becoming useful” (in Monty’s words), but it makes sense. I hope that she stays “useful” on the ground. I’m sure she will. It seems like she’s integrated really well with Spacekru. I’m just waiting for Murphy to tell her that he’s proud of her, because you know he is.

I liked her moment with Murphy before the group separates. She recognized his callback to their LOVE (“survivor’s move”) and wanted to think it was funny, but she’s also terrified that she’s never going to see him again. I’m serious. No way do we not get some kind of reconciliation before the season ends. I’m a little worried that one of them might die, but they’re lower on my “death watch” list than some of the others.

Madi and Bellamy

I mean, holy shit? This is everything? That I ever wanted? THE NAME THE HAND GRAB THE CLARKE’S ALIVE?! It’s all huge. At this point that I’m writing this sentence, I’ve been on a plane for an hour and a half and I can’t stop thinking about this moment. I thought I wanted Bellamy to find out that Clarke was alive by seeing her, but this was literally so perfect.

“She’s just a kid.” “Bellamy? Clarke knew you would come.” “Clarke’s alive?”

Now, we all knew that Bellamy was going to adopt Madi immediately and that Madi was going to be excited to meet her dad. But this is still making my heart burst. Madi RECOGNIZES Bellamy and when he’s stuck and basically can’t move because of information overload about Clarke and the Bunker, she GRABS HIS HAND and pulls him into action. AND HE FOLLOWS HER! She immediately trusts him because Clarke trusts him and has been telling stories about him for six whole years. I was a little worried that we’d see some resentment from Madi toward Spacekru for leaving Clarke behind… which I guess is still a possibility… but at least at this point, she was more concerned with saving Clarke’s life than she was anything else.

I LOVE ONE FAMILY AND IT IS THE GRIFFIN-BLAKES

My biggest concern here is that, as I mentioned in the first one of these that I did, Bellamy’s been overly romanticized in her mind. I was worried about Bellamy having Clarke up on a pedestal and having to readjust to the actual concept of her being alive again, but I also should have been worried about that with Madi and Bellamy. Clarke’s clearly been selling him hard over the six years. I mean, the girl instantly trusted him. It’s the same thing I’m worried about with her and Octavia, but almost more so. I feel like she’s going to end up empathizing with O more at first and then something will probably happen near the end of the season to make her realize that yeah, Bellamy IS amazing and deserves respect and love.

Um, quick side note: HOW FUCKING BADASS IS MADI?! SHE THREW THAT SPEAR AND THEN SHOT ANOTHER DUDE AND OMG! That may be ranked #1 Character Entrance in this show for me.

Bellarke

Where do I even start? This is just… I’m still… I haven’t recovered. WILL I EVER?! How are we supposed to survive next week when we get an actual hug?!?!?! I’m just… fuck. There better be forehead touching, hands on faces and shoulders, and a minor emotional breakdown. You know he’s going to end up touching her side where she’s injured. It’s gonna happen. I’m finding some way to watch live and I don’t care how.

Okay, let’s try some coherent thoughts. Or semi-coherent at least.

First of all, let me talk about Bob/Bellamy. You can see pretty much every possible emotion when Madi says “Clarke”. He’s relieved that she’s alive. He feels guilty because he doesn’t know how long she was alone. There’s this kid who knows his name, so Clarke’s obviously been talking about him. His voice even breaks a little over her name. You can literally watch everything change for him in this moment. And then, the way they had his body silhouetted in the lights of the rover so you can’t really see his face was beautiful, because as the realization of who it is hits Clarke, Bellamy comes into focus. “She must be important to you.” “She is.” It’s just such a moment. (Add in the measure from the Bellarke theme last season playing in the background when he says “She is” and you have me dead) Actually, I take it back. Things START to change for him when he meets Madi and realizes that Clarke is alive, but it’s not until he FINALLY looks at her on the ground, at her staring up at him, and says out loud that she’s important to him that it looks like it clicks. There’s a little bit of an “Oh fuck everything’s changing” expression going on there. Bob’s acting: 101/10

Now, Clarke/Eliza. I wonder who she thinks it is when they hear about the extra people on the ground. She mostly just looks confused, because she doesn’t even know if anyone is alive in space or the bunker. But hey, MAJOR PARELLEL TO THEIR REUNION IN 3X02! Clarke is in distress and Bellamy & co. come up. I love that she thinks this is just Madi first. Watching her face when she hears Bellamy’s voice (um, I’m trying not to cry on the plane, this is hard) is the best kind of torture. It’s like she thinks she’s dreaming at first, because not only is he there to save her, but he included sending Madi away again in his plan. Best Dad Ever. There’s this relief and awe and the way she’s so overwhelmed by his arrival is just beautiful. Eliza’s acting: 101/10

I honestly can’t wait until next week to see them alone for a minute or two. They left so much unsaid at the end of 4x13 and both clearly thought they would never see each other again. I’m just… I really don’t have any coherent thoughts about them. I’m trying to get something out, anything out, but shit. IT’S BEEN SIX YEARS AND THEY’RE BACK TOGETHER!

Ooh, I guess I can talk about how it’s supposedly going to be a rough road for them, per JRoth. I know he’s saying that, but is he just saying that to fuck with everyone? To try to throw everyone off the scent? I get the logic behind it, but Spacekru has spent six years knowing that Clarke died for them to get them to safety. How the fuck are they not going to accept her and Madi now that she’s alive? That doesn’t register as a possibility for me. My fiction instincts aren’t pinging/blaring at me in some weird form of an alarm. I’ve been wrong before, but I’m not usually this wrong. I mean, come on. Bellamy, Harper, and Monty were on the ground with Clarke from day one. They’ve all saved each other so many times and they loved her before any of this happened. Echo and Emori owe Clarke their lives. Echo got to keep a suit purely because Clarke gave up her helmet to save Emori. We already know from 4x13 how much Emori appreciated it. Echo doesn’t emote as much, but she saw Clarke in a new light in that moment. I mean, she’d killed Clarke’s people, actively tried to stop Skaikru’s integration into the coalition, etc. and there Clarke was saving her life. It’s not just Bellamy who has been living for Clarke (although we all know our boy and Raven felt the guiltiest for the situation). This isn’t even addressing Raven and Murphy, because they don’t know she’s alive yet.

Shit, I’m all emotional on the airplane. Deep breaths.

Anyway, I’m reiterating again, I don’t buy Spacekru not taking Clarke’s priorities into account. Sure, one of them isn’t going to get along with Madi? But she’s a KID. My bet is on Echo, honestly. This isn’t trying to slam her. I just think that she feels like she has the most to lose by taking in Clarke, and Madi by proxy. I need to rewatch the episode, but this is my first instinct. I think that she’s going to be worried that by taking Clarke in, she’s going to lose her place in the family and this is probably what she and Clarke are talking about in that screenshot we got a while ago of them crying. I’m sure Clarke is going to be what ends B.echo, which bums me out, because I HATE the love triangle trope. It’s handled well less than 1% of the time and it just… for a show that doesn’t care about romances, it sure likes to throw love triangles at us. Bellamy’s probably going to be forced to choose a side and it’s going to be such a shitty moment, because how is he supposed to do that? That’s a fucking awful position to be in. I don’t know… I’m dreading this subplot and I hope it’s minor and goes by quickly.

Other

I know that the next episode will probably be a bunker-focused episode again, but I think that now that we’re here, they have to start integrating the storylines. I’m sure it will be at least 2/3 Bunker, but hopefully it’s 1/3 of the rest. We already know we’re getting a Bellarke hug at the very least, so maybe we’ll get some Bellarke co-leader negotiation along with Murphy and Raven getting captured up on the Eligius ship. And by the way, I’m INCREDIBLY suspicious of the way JRoth says ‘hug’ in that TV Guide interview. VERY SUSPICIOUS.

The End

This got long. There’s so much rambling, but how am I even forming full sentences after last night’s episode? It’s a miracle, tbh. I LOVE YOU ALL! Come chat or yell at me in my inbox!

[marvelthismarvelthat]

D- A- I- S-Y

omfg i love that you used the letters in daisy’s name lmao

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.

hmmm, i can’t really think of one? most of the pairings i don’t like are pairings that i have genuine reasons to dislike–i don’t tend to hate or dislike pairings for no reason, so i can’t say that i want to like any of them. 

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

so. many. obviously philindaisy is my jam. i’m super invested in all the relationships on aos, esp the platonic ones. put something that involves a friendship between two of the main characters and i’m SO DOWN. it’s the same for most of my shows tbh, i tend to be a lot more invested in platonic relationships than ships. my fave platonic relationships rn are philindaisy, madi and clarke, and dutch and johnny. i’m missing so many of these but whatevs. my list of romantic ships has grown a bit but rn of the shows that are airing rn/that i’m binging i’m super invested wayhaught, cassie/cole and bellarke. 

I - Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?

t100 is def the one. i can’t handle the ship wars. i think it’s so petty, esp bc they often twist the characters’ actions or fabricate meaning to make their ship seem like the stronger one. the way i see it both lexa and bellamy are extremely important to clarke’s story, and i think arguing over who clarke cares about most and degrading the character you don’t want with her does a disservice to all three of them. 

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged) ((@whistlingwindtree asked for this one to be philinda in tahiti related!)

in the midst of all that wild, adventurous *ahem* parasailing they’re doing, i like to think philinda are reminiscing about their lives. the good, the bad, the ugly, the silly. they’ve got some 30 years of shared history between them to unpack. they’ve lived, loved, and lost more than most. that’s worth looking back on in phil’s final days. i also like to think they probably talk about the team a lot, about what the future looks like for them–a lot of it is wishful thinking on phil’s part, but may doesn’t have the heart to dissuade him from imagining a better future for them. they don’t talk about it regularly, but coulson’s probably asked may to do a few things after he’s gone. funeral plans, favors owed, people to take care of, letters to deliver to daisy on special ocassions. it was all discussed soon after they got to tahiti, just to be safe. but mostly, they bask in the sun and enjoy the feel of each others’ beating hearts. 

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?

t100, wynonna earp, killjoys, 12 monkeys, and DCTV are the most prominent ones on my dash :D

[textsfromumbridge]

Inge, love, please write bellarke + ‘my current partner is a huge asshole and i need a reason to break up with them so will you pretend to be my possessive and violent ex’ au

Look, normally Clarke would just break up with a person if they turned out to be an asshole. But in this case… It would be best not to make too much of a scene - her mother’s career depended on it. 

Why ever did she decide to go on the date with Cage Wallace in the first place? He’d left her no choice but to agree to the second and the third one, and because his father was some kind of big deal in local politics, she now had to extract herself without costing her mother the support she’d worked so hard to gain from Dante Wallace. 

She just… She couldn’t hear him talk down to the waitress, and to everyone who wasn’t of the proper breeding. 

Which is why she’s currently literally on her knees in front of Bellamy Blake, begging him to be her ex-boyfriend. 

Wait, what? Yes, ex-boyfriend. 

If her fake ex shows up on her date with Cage (ugh, at least it’s the last date), and if he’s still super in love with her, and also super possessive and violent, Cage might actually back off. 

She hopes. 

And she knows that Bellamy could nail the possessive part, and that he is surprisingly intimidating for his height - Cage is at least six feet tall. It’s the acting super in love with her that she thinks he might have trouble with. 

“I’ve been a fake boyfriend before,” Bellamy is almost grinning, “but a fake ex-boyfriend? That’s a new one.” 

Sounds like he is actually considering it, which is more than she had expected, to be honest. He is her first choice, but not the person she thinks is most likely to say yes. Murphy would be - but he’s a fucking asshole and she doesn’t want anyone to think she’d ever hit that. 

Bellamy, however. She’d hit that. She’d bang him like a screen door in a hurricane. She thinks he knows, but since he’s never acted on it, she figures he’s just not that into her. 

“I’m all for giving you new experiences,” Clarke just lets him decide on his own. 

He is too stubborn to be so obviously persuaded by any of her usual tricks. He’s seen her in a bikini, he knows what she’s working with and has so far yet to seem impressed. Which is stupid, because she’s got a great rack, okay?! And Bellamy is pan, so she knows that breasts can be his thing. 

“So, how much of an asshole should I be?” Bellamy is basically in. 

“You’ll have to walk a fine line,” she advises, “between plain old bad boy and Murphy levels of asshole. Obviously I broke up with you for a reason, but there has to be a reason I might be tempted to get back with you.” 

She doesn’t care about making this sound hypothetical. He’ll know what she means - he always does somehow. He even speaks drunk!Clarke. 

“Jess Mariano it is,” he is grinning now. “Misunderstood bad boy who can’t seem to communicate. I might even ask you to run away with me. I’m going for more of the one that got away vibe than psycho.” 

This is probably not the time to mention that she’s got a team Jess sweater in her closet at home. Right? 

She can’t stop herself from checking the time. Bellamy said he’d drop by between 8 o’clock and 8.30, and it’s 8.13 now. She is sure that Cage has noticed her anxiety, but then she actually looks at her date for once. 

Nope, he’s still too busy staring at her cleavage while talking about himself. She should have expected that. He’s been doing that since he met her. 

8.17

Maybe she shouldn’t have mocked Bellamy for his acting choices. He is taking this so seriously. And he’s doing her a huge favor. He’s just enough of a dick to make her wait because of all the teasing. 

8.21

A commotion near the hostess stand. This is it, it has to be. 

“Sir, you can’t just waltz in here,” a loud voice sounds. 

Clarke is trying her hardest not to giggle when Bellamy reaches their table. He has borrowed someone’s leather jacket - for the full bad boy experience - and his dark curls are slicked back in a misguided attempt to look tough. 

“Clarke,” he reaches for her, a rose in his hand. “Raven told me you’d be here. I showed up at the apartment first, but... Are you on a date?” 

The rose is real and beautiful and more than she’s ever gotten from a date, but she has to try not to look impressed. She has to pull out all the stops, and all of her almost non-existent acting skills. 

“Yes, she is,” Cage finally pays attention to the situation. 

“What are you doing here, Bell?” the nickname slips out without her thinking too much about it. “I didn’t even know you were back in town.” 

Oh God, Bellamy is a much better actor than she’d anticipated, because he is still looking at her with those soulful eyes, seemingly incapable of looking away for just a second. Plus, he’s still holding her hand. 

“I missed you,” he comes out with the statement quickly. “I know you said you needed space, but I miss you. I’m doing better now. I’m taking classes at the college. I’m done slacking off, I promise.” 

He’s actually almost finished with his graduate degree, but in context... Bellamy really is pulling out all the stops. 

“Bell,” she is getting a little too sucked in. “Please don’t...” 

Cage? Cage who? She can barely remember where she is right now, and it isn’t even real. None of this is real. And yet... It moves her. 

“I know I didn’t talk to you before,” he continues, “but I’ll do better if you just give me another chance. Because I still love you. And I hope you still love me. Even after everything I’ve done, and the way we left things...” 

She probably should have read the fifteen page backstory he e-mailed her this afternoon. 

But she can probably wing it, right? It’s not like Cage is going to pick up on any inconsistencies. He is silently fuming in the seat across from her, ready to throw a tantrum at any second. 

All she needs to do is give that final push, the reason to make him leave. If he dumps her, nothing will reflect badly on her and her mother will still get the support she needs. 

“I do,” she tells Bellamy, “I do still love you.” 

It pains her to say it, not because it’s such an obvious lie, but because it’s true. It hurts because it’s true. She loves Bellamy Blake. It’s why he was her first choice for this, why she was so angry with her mother for setting her up with anyone. She was hoping that the timing was finally right for him to see her differently, now that she isn’t just Octavia’s friend anymore. 

“Then why can’t we try again?” Bellamy actually reaches for her. 

Clarke can’t help herself - she leans in. It isn’t even a conscious decision. Hell, she barely even registers the chair across from her screeching as Cage stands up, pushing it back. 

“Clarke,” Cage tries to get her attention. “Clearly I am not who you want to be with. I trust you can find your own way home.” 

For him, that’s almost magnanimous. She’ll take it. 

“He didn’t even make a scene,” Bellamy sounds disappointed, the dork. 

“Were you going to fight for me?” she teases, unexpectedly invested in his answer. 

When Bellamy tries to shake out his hair - a habit that doesn’t work with the amount of gel pushing his hair back - she tries to stifle a smile. 

“Oh yeah,” Bellamy grins. “Chicks dig scars.” 

“Totally,” Clarke responds. “Let’s go. I’m sure you need to give Miller his jacket back before midnight or you’ll turn into a pumpkin.” 

Bellamy laughs, and he links their arms as they stroll out of the expensive restaurant. 

When she runs into Cage again at a function, he makes it a point to ask after Bellamy. 

Oh no, guess she has to keep the ruse going for a little while longer. 

[flawlessbellamy]

Bellarke + #14 from the Uni prompts please :)

Bellarke+ I come to the library every day to ‘study’ but really I’m just watching Netflix over your shoulder and I’m really invested in this series and the day we’re supposed to be watching the season finale you’re not there and I??? Feel personally betrayed??

A/N: i spent a good 2 hours thinking about the right show till @holybellamy​ and @thejuggyjones​ answered it straight away. They are a better people than me.

Bellamy spends a lot of time in the library. 

As a TA he isn’t entitled to his own office so usually has to put up with whatever spare space he can find in between classes and meetings in the departments library. It’s quiet and unlike his flat isn’t taken up by Miller’s weird architectural models all over the kitchen table.

It’s a quiet time of year so there aren’t many people in the study space but he does see a few regular faces he knows. He drops his bag down onto a table and falls into a seat. 

He has just over an hour till he has to lead a seminar and he’s already done all his prep so he pulls out his laptop and intends to maybe start his next thesis point when he remembered the new series of Sense8 was out, he pulled up Netflix and untangled his headphones and plugged them in. 

He barely acknowledged the blonde who sat at the space next to him dropping her books with a bit of force, Bellamy flicked his eyes to watch her quickly but his eyes returned to the screen as the Netflix theme boomed onto the screen. He watches the different cities flash across the screen for the opening credit and settles in for the episode. 

Less the 5 minutes in he gets a very definite feeling of a pair of eyes watching his screen. He looks over at the girl sitting next to him to find her eyes stuck on his screen. She looks like she got distracted mid studying, pen still in hand, notes half finished. He assumes she’ll look away in a minute but when he see’s her still watching over his shoulder he shifts in his seat. She seem’s pretty hooked on the show and he can’t blame her, after all Sense8 is a powerful show, but he kinda feels a bit awkward with her watching over his shoulder. 

He ends up switching on the subtitles. 

He feels kinda bad she’s missing the dialogue. He looks over after he does it and meets her eye and this time she blushes in slight embarrassment and nods awkwardly at him. 

Bellamy nods back and notices the freckle placed just above her lip. Looking back at the screen Bellamy focuses on the rest of the episode getting use to the girl next to him watching along. 

When the episode finishes he shuts down the tab and pulls out his headphones. He packs away and stands up to leave. When he hears a voice next to him speak he looks over to the girl. 

“thanks for the subtitles.” she say’s smiling at him gently. 

“no problems” Bellamy replies, he waves awkwardly walking out the room. 

Over the next few days he gets kinda distracted and forgets about the random girl in the study room. He doesn’t quite forget about sense8 and he plans to watch it again when he gets the time. 

The opportunity pops up 2 days later. He’s meant to have lunch with Monty and Jasper but they cancel last minute, Bellamy’s pretty sure it’s because they’re to high to move but he’s not going to judge. 

He heads back into the Library and see’s the blonde sitting next to the only empty space that has a plug.  Bellamy slides into the space and glances over. She’s to busy studying to notice he’s there but by the time he’s set up his laptop and plugged in his charger she’s notices and gives him an acknowledging smile. 

When he plays Sense8 again he watches her again, she seems to notice a bit quicker this time and leans her chair back. He switches the subtitles on again and watches for an hour with her leaning back seeming to be happy with watching the next episode with subtitles only. Bellamy feels bad. The music is awesome. 

They seem to find a routine. She isn’t always there when Bellamy shows up but they manage to get to episode 5 before they actually talk about an episode. Riley and Will escape by a hairs breath and Bellamy lets out a puff of air as he pulls his headphones out. 

“that was intense” she says shocked. Bellamy nods. 

“it was close. But the club scene was great.” He replied, she nodded in agreement. 

“totally, i love when they all get together.” she offers

“it’s so great.”he rubs a hand across the back of his neck “I guess ermm you didn’t hear but they used the What’s going on song remix for the scene” he tells her. 

The look on her face is priceless and Bellamy laughs. 

“i guess i should have offered you a headphone” he joked. She laughs back and Bellamy gets caught in her infectious smile, her eyes bright with joy. 

“I guess. Or i could stop watching over your shoulder.” She chuckled glancing to the floor. 

“I don’t mind. I feel like it’s tradition now i guess!” He replies hoping she agrees. 

“I guess” she echo’s “if i’m going to keep watching over your shoulder you should probably know my name. It’s Clarke.”

“I’m Bellamy” he greeted in return.

Ever since Bellamy found out Clarke’s name he can’t stop thinking about her. 

He walks into the library and automatically looks for her, he waits 15 minutes before starting on his thesis incase she turns up. He’s starting to feel a bit pathetic honestly, watching 6 episodes of a tv show with someone and barely exchanging names doesn’t make them friends. 

He decides to get something to eat one day before heading to the library, it’s late on a Tuesday and he doesn’t expect to be in the department. His plan is to buckle down and get his seminar and lesson plans done for the next two weeks. He walks in the room distracted trying to put his Grad student ID back in his wallet. When he looks up he see’s Clarke sitting there grinning over at him. 

“Hey” she welcomes him “i was hoping you’d appear!” 

He sits next to her and he can feel himself blush slightly at her openly enthusiastic greeting. 

“you ready for another episode?” he asks, reaching down to his bag. 

“yes, honestly i’ve been thinking about what the next move will be  for the last few days”  she confesses and moves her chair lightly closer. 

There’s no one else in the library and Bellamy points this out. 

“you wanna watch it out loud?” Clarke asks

“yeah, you’ve been missing out on some great music.” he jokes pressing play on the next episode. 

They get through to episode 9 that evening. Bellamy pulls out his snacks and offers some to Clarke. She takes them gladly and they chewing through his entire stash. 

They throw stupid comments around and remark on the characters and their relationships. 

Bellamy finds out Clarke is a massive fan of Wolfgang but sympathises most with Sun, she says it’s the similarities in their parental relationship and the expectations they grew up with. Bellamy doesn’t dig any deeper but tucks the information away in the back of his brain. She laughs at Lito and claims to have a who’s hacking ability rival Nomi’s. 

Bellamy tells her about Octavia who forced him to watch the show in the first place. About how his friend Miller ran into Freema Agyeman once and she was apparently really nice. 

They swap more information then that. He learns she’s a grad student too, history of art. He tells her about his thesis which involves some rude roman poems by Catullus’ he’s studying. He learns she’s not dating anyone and he shares, not so subtly that he’s single too.  

They talk through half the show. Bellamy’s sure he’ll have to rewatch it at some point but right now he can’t bring himself to stop the chatter. 

Eventually her phone rings and he see’s the name “Jaha Jr” flashes up across the screen. She picks it up quickly. 

“i’m so sorry Wells i’ll be there in 10 minutes” she promised. Bellamy heard the person on the other end swear its fine and Clarke apologises again and hang up. 

Clarke smooths her hair back and looks over at Bellamy apologetically. Bellamy just shakes her head waving off her worries. He realises it’s dark outside and they’ve been in the department room for hours. 

“do you want me to walk you anywhere?” The campus is relitivly safe and Bellamy’s honestly never heard of anyone having any issues near or around campus, but if it was Octavia he’d want someone to at least offer even even though he knows she’d just roll her eyes. 

Clarke has the exact same reaction. She just packs up her stuff and pushes her chair back under the table. 

“i’ll be fine Bellamy” she assures him. They walk out the building in comfortable silence and Bellamy finds it slightly odd to see her anywhere but the Library. She pauses before they say goodbye and seems to consider something for a moment. 

She makes up her mind it seems since the next thing he knows Clarke is wrapping both arms around his neck and hugging him. Bellamy pauses for a moment before responding and wrapping his arms around her waist hugging her back. She pulls back too quickly dropping back down to the soles of her feet. 

“See you around?” he asks. She smiles and waves before turning around and walking away hurriedly to meet her friend. 

Episode 10 is the penultimate episode and in Bellamy’s opinion is the best. Which is obviously about the amazing plot and character development that happens and nothing to do with the fact Clarke spends the episode grazing his shoulder and eventually leaned up against him. 

It’s ridiculous. Connecting with someone because of a TV and building a relationship with them based entirely on that. He hasn’t even seen Clarke outside of their weird Social Science Library bubble. But he’s ending up sharing a lot with her and vice versa. 

The episode finishes and Clarke pulls out the headphone Bellamy’s shared with her. 

“the last one?” Clarke asks hopeful. The last epsiode had been thrilling and he couldn’t wait to finish the series but right now he had class. 

“I can’t i’ve actually got to attend a lecture, i can’t justify skipping it even for Sun getting her revenge finally” he sighs settling his things back in his bag. 

Clarke looks disappointed pulling her lips thin but nodding in understanding. 

“i’ll be around tomorrow?” he poses it as a question asking her if she’ll be around too. She smiles a half smile and agrees. 

“See you then Bellamy Blake” she kicks his heals affectionately and he leaves smiling like an idiot.  

The problem is Clarke disappears. He’s there waiting, watching the door to check for her. He gets a sinking feeling at the end of the day when he realises she’s not coming. He drags himself back the next day and the next. She doesn’t appear and although he gets the rest of his lesson plans for the semester and a good chunk of his thesis. That doesn’t mean the disappointment that settles in his stomach disappears though.

He spends the weekend with miller wallowing and playing video games until Octavia drags him out for dinner on Sunday night. 

“whats up? Miller said you didn’t even swear when he deliberately shot you in the dace last night” Octavia asked going straight to the point after they ordered. 

“ Traitor” he whispers “nothing O i’m fine” The single raised eyebrow on Octavia’s face tells him she doesn’t believe a word of it. 

He ends up telling her about Clarke and for once Octavia just listens occasionally smiling at a joke her tries. At the end she reaches across the table and grabs his hand. 

“you, dear brother” she starts and Bellamy braces himself “are ridiculous. But” she continues “romantic as hell. She seems into from what you’ve said. I don’t know why she wouldn’t show up. Have you social media checked her?” 

“No, i’m not being a creepy stalker O” Bellamy sighed knowing full well Octavia will have done it anyway by the time she gets home. 

“ughhh fine, but you seem pretty into this girl for hardly knowing her. Maybe give it one more shot before you commit fully to the single life” 

“i hate you” he deadpanned but Octavia just laughed. 

Bellamy was a glutton for punishment apparently because on Monday he bunkered down in the Library ready to be disappointed once again. 

By midday he’d managed to restrain himself from looking at the door every time it opened. So much so he jumped when a hand squeezed his shoulder. 

“Clarke” he breathed looking her up and down. She looked happy if slightly tired. 

“Hey” she offered pulling up a chair close to him. “i’m glad you’re here. I’m so so sorry Bellamy.” she apologised, whispering so the rest of the room wasn’t disturbed. 

“it’s fine” he ran his hand over the back of his neck “i was kinda expecting you last week though” She grimaced. 

“I know i’m sorry. Ugh, my mum showed up and tried to talk me out of Art and into medicine which obviously ended in a massive mess.” she babbled her apology. Her eyes softened when she eventually met his eyes.There was a pause where Bellamy just watched her. She relaxed slowly and seemed to get comfortable in her chair.

“you wanna watch the last episode?”he asked knocking his knee against hers. 

She looked down and then glanced at him from through her eyelashes. 

“i do but…” she smiled coyly at him “maybe back at my place?” 

Bellamy raised both his eyebrows in shock and placed his hand over his for exasperated effect. 

She stood up and offered her hand to him slightly tentative.

Bellamy hurried his belongings into his bag and wrapped his fingers around hers quickly. She pulled him out the room keeping their hands interlocked all the way. 

He kisses Clarke Griffin at the end of the last episode. Running his hands down her shoulders and pulling her close. Clarke laughs against his lips and he pulls back to ask her what’s so funny. 

“nothing. I just can’t believe all i had to do was invite you around to watch Netflix to get you to kiss me”  

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I really enjoy your fics and the fic recs you’ve done in the past, but with all the new ones for Big Bang and bingo I really don’t know where to start! Any pointers?

Hi nonny.

Wow, tough question. Bellarke Big Bang had so many wonderful fics submitted for its challenge (some that are still on my ‘marked to read’ section on ao3) and mine and @pawprinterfanfic challenge (Bellarke Bingo) has submissions almost daily so again, I haven’t gotten around to reading them all yet.

But I will try to form a fic rec for you based on the ones I have read. I’ll add the links, pop in the summary and then give a brief commentary (in italics) of what I thought/why the fic needed to be included in this rec list.

We’ll start with @bellarkebigbang:

1. Paint me in Trust by @pawprinterfanfic

Clarke is on the run. It’s 1997 in Britain, during the height of the Second Wizarding War. Voldemort is running rampage through the Wizarding World, fear is weighing heavily on everyone, and anyone who doesn’t side with the Dark Lord is in danger. Clarke was expected to side with him. She’s from a pureblood family that has decades tangled with the Dark Arts, after all. But, she didn’t.

So, she ran. Somehow, she finds her way to a safe house where she meets with other wizards and witches on the run.

All Bellamy wanted to do is to keep his sister safe. Instead of saving her, he’s stuck in a safe house with her. She’s a Slytherin, and she’s the daughter of a Death Eater. He doesn’t trust Clarke; why should he? Now, he’s stuck with her as they roam around the country, looking for places to stay safe and stay hidden. He quickly realizes that things could be worse. And… maybe Clarke isn’t as bad as he thought.

A Harry Potter world AU, written by my magnificent friend Essie. I’m not just putting this here because she’s my friend, this fic is actual gold. It’s so well written, like everything she writes, and I cannot get enough of it. Brilliance.

2. We were in love (now we’re strangers) by @raven-reyes-of-sunshine

Bellamy stares at his phone in concern. Asking him to fake date Clarke would be a weird thing to ask even if they were still friends. But they’re not. They hardly even talk anymore. But for Raven to be asking, practically begging, there must be a fairly good reason that Clarke needs a fake boyfriend for this wedding. It’s just not something she would be asking otherwise. Especially not something she would be getting Raven to ask him. It’s a lot and it has him concerned.

He’s not agreeing to it. He’s just saying that he’s going to need more time and more information and maybe a face to face conversation before he makes a decision. He and Clarke might not be friends anymore. But he’d known her forever. He can’t help caring. He cares with his whole heart. He can’t stop that. And he won’t lie. He’s a little curious. So he sends Raven a message that says they’ll discuss it when she’s sober and switches off his phone so he can sleep.

This girl was born with heaps of talent. I actually got the opportunity to pre-read a little bit of this fic before it was posted and it was agony waiting for the rest of it. It grips you from the opening line and I can’t sell this fic enough. READ IT.

3. Take Me to Your River (A Waltz in Three Parts) by @chase-the-windandtouch-the-sky

After the events on the Ground, Clarke and Bellamy no longer feel like the team they once were. They’re puzzle pieces that don’t fit, languages with no connection, and worlds with no peace. So when they venture out into the new planet to scout before waking everyone up, they have an opportunity to relearn who they are after all the time apart, discovering the people they’ve become.

Except when they stumble across an abandoned mansion in the woods from a distant piano, they discover this world has hidden traps that Earth never had. Now they’ll have to survive their own ghosts. Except what will they do when the real ghosts are each other?

The Day Trip 2.0 fic no one asked for.

I adored this fic from beginning to end. It had to be part of my rec list because it’s one fic that stands out in my head when I think of this challenge. And I also love the girl who wrote it too - such a sweetheart.

4. In A Pitch Black World (Anything Goes) by @talistheintrovert

Bellamy and Clarke fell in love in Cairo in 1943, and then Clarke broke his heart. In 1949, Bellamy is working as a Private Investigator in London when Clarke turns up on his doorstep claiming her grandfather was murdered. No-one is above suspicion and the killer is poised to strike again.Or, the Crooked House AU that I’ve been *dying* to write for months.

Is it really a fic rec if Talis isn’t apart of it? The artwork of this fic combined with the story is so so beautiful and I always remember it. It’s such a gripping plot and I’d re-read this until I die. Yeah, this has to make the cut!

5. A Watch With No Hands by @kinetic-elaboration

Bellamy has lived his whole life in space, in a series of 300-year old space stations known as the Ark. When an oxygen crisis sends the stations down to Earth, he flees the beginning of a military dictatorship, and discovers that his long-abandoned home planet isn’t as deserted as he believed it to be.

Clarke lives in peace with her people, making art that celebrates the beauty of the Earth. But a recent discovery by her best friend has opened up the possibility that the world was not always this peaceful, nor this beautiful. Wells’s subsequent disappearance, the surreptitious experiments of her neighbors, and the inscrutable silence of the village’s leader, all contribute to a growing sense of unease in her community. When she encounters a stranger in the woods, they give each other the answers they’ve each been seeking: about history, peace, trust, the Earth’s violent past, and its hopeful future.

This was one of the most intriguing and unique storylines that I read in the Big Bang challenge. The way everything was described, the detail - ugh, it’s just a masterpiece. I wonder why I bother writing when I read fics like this one, how could I compare?

6. Hung up on You by @eyessharpweaponshot

Bellamy Blake does not get hung up on girls. It just doesn’t happen. It’s probably why he’s out of his depth when his easy ‘friends with benefits’ arrangement with Clarke Griffin turns into something he can’t control. He’s heartbroken when she leaves town, leaves him, and he thinks he’s made a good effort to move on. However, upon her return, it only takes the mere mention of her name for the crushing realisation to hit: he never got over her at all.

I’m gonna plug my own fic submission to Big Bang here guys. Because, well, why not?

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Okay. Onto @bellarkebingo. This challenge is obviously close to my heart as myself and Essie are hosting it and I will eventually get around to all the fics on there.

I, myself, haven’t even had time to complete anything off of my own bingo card yet but I’m so excited to do it. The talent that has come out of this challenge already is off the chain and sign ups are always open, so come on over and request a card to start writing.

Here are some of the fics I have been loving so far:

1. Melt Into You by @icantloseyou-too

Clarke might have underestimated the blizzard. What was supposed to be a late finish at the clinic to catch up on paperwork turns into a storm-stayed night with the last person she would have expected, but as she’s about to find out, a lot can happen in one night.

Wow guys, just wow. What people are doing with the tropes on their cards - I can’t deal. I have no fingernails left after this fic - I was hooked, obsessed, invested, heartbroken, intrigued and outrageously happy. I love this girl to death and she created thee most magnificent piece for bellarke bingo. Bravo!

2. guess it’s never really over by @captaindaddykru

“You want me to put a kitchen supply up my—”

“I’m kidding, I’m kidding,” he interjects, shoulders shaking with a chuckle. It fades and a heavy feeling of resignation settles between them. “Imagine how many diapers we could buy with that kind of money.”

Clarke crosses her arms over her chest, almost petulant. She knows he hates it when she gives him an attitude for no reason. “Well, what do you expect we do?” Does he wanna blow it off? He never used to be a quitter. She lets out almost this nervous chuckle, tongue darting out to wet her lips as she thinks of the most ridiculous option of them all. “The old-fashioned way?”

He half-shrugs, cool expression on his face. Still, she knows him too well to not realize he’s being completely serious. “It worked out pretty well for us last time.”

Or: Clarke and Bellamy think it’s a good idea to try and have another child together even though they divorced three years ago.

Right, for those of you who know me well, seeing ‘exes, angst and smut’ in a bellarke fic just basically shoots the fic into my favourites/will read again pile straight away. This fic more than lived up to it. The plot was awesome and something I’ve never read before and even just describing it makes me want to go back and read it again right now. Amazing.

3. dance away your fear of love by @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold

Life for Bellamy Blake hasn’t changed much in the past few years, not since his mother’s death and he took over her coffee shop in his hometown of Stars Hollow. That is until he receives a phone call from his ex, his high school girlfriend Clarke Griffin. Motherhood brings Clarke back home and from there they slip into new roles, while he battles old forgotten emotions.

This was everything I never knew I needed. The characterisation, the plot, the FEELS. This had to be on the rec list, there was no way I’d consider leaving it off of it. It was honestly perfect, from every angle. Not to mention that the author is a complete and utter babe.

4. to save a life I didn’t have by @kombellarke

Post 6.08 Speculation. Bellamy drags Josephine through the woods in search of Gabriel. He is confronted by a manifestation of his darkest fear and deepest desire, Clarke Griffin.

I have read other fics from this author and honestly, she just gets better and better each time she writes. Such an amazing, heart wrenching fic. It was one of the first submissions I read and it brought the biggest smile to my face to see such talented fics coming to our challenge.

5. Would Roses Bloom by @icantloseyou-too

Clarke was totally fine with being ‘just friends’ with Bellamy, honestly. Even on the nights they kissed they were just friends. Even on the nights they fell into each other’s beds they were just friends. So when Bellamy starts dating Echo it shouldn’t sting at all. It shouldn’t.

Another fic submission by this girl and honestly, I can’t tell you which one I like better. They are both phenomenal but this fic stands out majorly to me. I can relate to it on a personal level and reading it makes me feel like I’m actually living in the plot. My heart races and I feel the shame, the worry, the pain - EVERYTHING.

6. Sick of Losing Soulmates by @pawprinterfanfic

Clarke and Bellamy talk after the events at Gabriel’s. After almost losing her again, Bellamy intends to not let emotions go unspoken.

I don’t think Essie has wrote a fic yet where I haven’t shed a tear over it. This was incredibly beautiful and so well written. I’m so lucky to know such inspirational, incredible writers.

7. hanging all her hopes on the stars by @carrieeve

a month ago, Bellamy and Clarke slept together. a one-time, drunken thing and now they are very much not talking about it. in fact, they are not really talking about anything because Clarke is sure Bellamy doesn’t want it to mean anything and since she’s been in love with him for years now, this all feels pretty much like the world is ending.

the world, not one to be outdone, decides to show off and actually ends.

I just read this fic this morning and I couldn’t leave it off the rec list. It was so good, so interesting and a great concoction of tropes off of her bingo card. I’m very fond of Karolina’s fics and this did not let me down. So good and a perfect fic to end the fic rec with.