#stagnating. as a marketer. and that's where i'd be most likely to find editing work. so i wanna just do something else | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

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#i'm so serious i need to be doing something where i am with people #i'm working with my therapist to figure out what it is i want to do and she could see me being in social work #idk i just want to dissolve when i think about trying to fight to work as an editor in this job market #and it's like. completely killed my passion for it i fear. and i'm filled with imposter syndrome and i don't feel like i have room to make #mistakes because i don't have room to be a beginner at things anymore but so much time has passed since i was laid off that i feel like i'm #stagnating. as a marketer. and that's where i'd be most likely to find editing work. so i wanna just do something else #so i can get the ball rolling again by going back to school. and i want to do something with people that isn't going to disappear #and i really just do not know what to do because i don't want to make the wrong decision. i'm just paralyzed. school is expensive #oh also i don't feel like i can be a beginner because i've been editing in an employed capacity since 2017 #so the fact that i'm like mid career but still unable to land entry-level roles is so demotivating. and i know it's not me but still #it just feels so inhospitable now. and like i don't have what it takes to make it because it's so competitive #idk welcome to a rant by me

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