#specially because said siblings took great glee in the fact that they could kick me in the dick and I had no effective means of retaliation | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ontologic-catgirl · 12 days ago

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Sighhhh, one of these days I'm going to figure out I'm capable of maintaining a effective and fun dominant persona. For grappling, sword-fights, and debate. But cannot for the life of me actually keep it up for actual kink. You'd think taking immense joy in slowly peeling back someones defenses, before slamming my leg into there throat and throwing back the arm bar. Would translate well, but apparently not!

#the many mysteries of life #I'm going to be rather cross with myself if it just turns out being another one of those #“every-time you hurt your siblings when you where young you got in a lot of trouble and now you are immensely worried about hurting everyon #specially because said siblings took great glee in the fact that they could kick me in the dick and I had no effective means of retaliation #such is life #Some sort of bug report on these things would be so much more convenient #Like I've set up a sub-process in the brain to record data on motivations behind behaviours #but because im working with meat i cant actually split attention only diverting it across consistent routes #so like that sub-process cant catch anything if I'm actually focusing which cuts out so much information.#not to mention if i use other subproces's such as the one I use for like work social interactions #it starts ruining the coherence of the decision part of the brain #....#catgirl rambles #I should probably drink my coffee #before I get to much energy during a break and start having thoughts again

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