#sorry for all the naruto jokes I just couldn't help myself lmao

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Allow me to introduce myself.

Hello there, dear reader. You can call me Kankuro - not because I am Kankuro, or intend to roleplay as him, but because I don’t want to give out my real name and I like Kankuro’s name. (I’d steal it and use it for myself, but then my parents would think I’d totally lost my marbles. I mean, I’m sure they think that already, but it’s best to play it safe in case they actually still think I’m somewhat normal. Is there even such a thing as normal? If so, what would that be? *sigh* I’m getting way off-track.) 

The first thing people think when they see me is that I’m a girl. I can’t say I blame them, to be honest. My long hair and feminine attributes don’t really scream, “MAN! MAN! THIS IS A MAN!” (Although you should hope they aren’t screaming anything at all, because that would be flat-out terrifying.) The way I dress doesn’t necessarily help, either, but I dress for comfort. I don’t care if my plaid shirt is a woman’s shirt. It’s comfortable, and I like it, and therefore I WILL wear it! 

Also, I will never cut my hair. It’s my proudest possession and I use it to assert my dominance over other men. If their hair is shorter than mine, I top them! Except that I never top them, because I’m a total bottom. (Did I really just admit that to the whole internet? I think I did. Oops. Oh well.)

Back to the whole looking like a girl thing. They’re not entirely wrong. I am technically female, because of my... you know. Thing-a-ma-jig. Yucky-yucky. No-no square. The thing that shall not be named. The sinful bread knife. The secret jutsu: Crystal Ice Mirror. The Water Prison jutsu. The Black Ant. Salamander. Crow. (I’ll stop with my obnoxious references now, I’m sure they’re getting on your nerves. Hell, they’re even getting on mine!) Call it what you will, but it’s there, and for most of my life, that’s determined my gender. Not anymore though. 

Nonetheless, I’m a guy. I’m not a girl, no matter what my body will tell you. I’m as much a guy as my brother who was born with a Kubiriku Bocho instead of an avocado. (I’m so sorry. I can’t help it.)

I guess this is the part where I’m supposed to say that I’m transgender, but... it feels wrong for me to call myself that. I know that's what I am - I’m a person that was born one sex and identifies as the other. Yet whenever I introduce myself on any social media sites, discord servers, or game forums, I can’t bring myself to say it.

I can’t bring myself to say that I’m transgender, and I don’t why.

Well, okay. That’s not entirely true. I sort of know why, but I still haven’t quite pinned it down. 

I think one of the main reasons why is because I just want to blend in. I don’t want to be labeled “the weird kid” or “the transgender kid” because I think that’d make me stand out. It’d make people want to talk to me, ask me intrusive questions that I’m probably not ready to answer. I guess I’m also afraid of what people will think of me. You constantly hear stories from transgender people about how they were relentlessly bullied and harassed by their peers after coming out, and, well... I don’t think that’s helped my case.

Anyway, I think there are much more important things you should know about me. For instance, I can play the cello! I’m not very good at it, but I’m still learning. I’ll get better! I will! I’ll make like Zabuza and... get killed fighting Kakashi, probably. (Is that how he died? I can’t remember. Not that I’m really trying to remember, but... shush. Also, Zabuza is seriously underrated. He deserves more love. I command you, reader, give Zabuza more appreciation!)

I draw, I write stories and songs, and I’m trying to get into programming. I say trying because it’s hard and I’m lazy and I’d rather play Naruto Online. (I will get to level 100 someday. I will. Just you wait HeijiMorino - someday I am gonna kick your ass. Oh how the tables will turn! Wait, was it Heiji or Kenshiro who I lost to in battle? God, my memory is terrible! I can’t count on it for anything!\

Some of my other interests include:

Hetalia

Inuyasha

Voltron

The Office

Video Games! (mostly fps and horror)

Oh, and I don’t know if it’s become prevalent in this post yet, but I really like Naruto. 

Anyways, I’m going to end this post here. I don’t expect anyone to read this, but I’m going to make it anyways because I do what I want. Also writing this all down while hiding behind the veil of anonymity is actually quite therapeutic. I enjoy it. I’ll probably do it more often when I need to vent and am too scared to open up to the people around me.

Total credit and massive props to the book “Symptoms of Being Human” by Jeff Garvin for giving me the idea to make an anonymous Tumblr blog for all this stuff. If anyone is actually reading this, you should totally go check that book out. It’s awesome.

But enough of that - off I go. See you later, alligator.