#sorry anon if I were overtly preachy it's just the way I fundamentally am

[pbstarot]

Story time lol

Oh abt my ex-bff, She is into tarot (not rly into astrology like me) She has... an eccentric presence. Her aura is somehow calm yet welcoming. An Introvert (intp/intj). A Taurus. Self-righteous (I mean it in a good way). Romantic but Ace (lgbtq+) She is sarcastic without even trying. Dry humor. Honest. No Sugarcoated. She is the one who taught me a lot about boundaries. Self-care queen. I learnt to love myself thanks to her (just like yr readings). She doesnt rly care to talk but when she talks, its with facts and figures and fine arguments that leaves you nodding yr head all the time.

I'm more of an emotional person, She is more of a thinker. Those two functions clash too often when we dun hv good headspace. I'm more active when it comes to my dreams while she has more calculating approach to her goals. So.. I think this explained enough of how you reminded me of my ex-bff 😅

Might be TMI- Its 60% my fault that we fell apart. I rly rly enjoy her company, which eventually led to her feeling suffocated. Ik yr not into astro but if s/o who knows astro can relate this as a classic struggle between Scorpio (me) and Aquarius(her) nature. I call her an ex- bcz.. she told me to stop being besties and back to 'just' friends, which I cannot do obviously. I accepted her offer to be like that but in my mind, I have decided to.. shut down my feelings as She is my ex-bff. We talk.. even less than how you and I (as a follower) interact. Yea... it tooks me like 3/4 months to get over that breakup. I still care and love her. Ik she does the same. I just.. dun like how I felt when I was told to stop being bff. Its like stabbing my heart. It also makes me question a lot about my identity and personal values. BUT. The past is in the past. I respect her decision. I'm fine on my own anyway. And I learnt a lot in hard way.

To sum up, Yes. She treated me so well. That was.. me who could not treat her the way she wanted. Yes, you are somewhat similar to her. Seeing you, the thought like 'Ah~~She is blossoming alone. Its cool. I hope she(my ex bff) is doing well too" is what pops up in my head the most💓

Heyoo!

First of all, thank you for sharing! You didn't have to, but I'm glad you did (yes, because I'm nosy).

I am actually an extremely emotional person. I just like to use my more practical side to talk to people and express myself (probably as a coping mechanism? Who knows?). I am even too emotional by some people's accounts (many), so I understand your position intimately. As someone who has had a ton of issues with friendships (at the moment I have no friends and I'm not looking, for example), I also understand where you're coming from.

I'm glad your best friend means so much to you and that I remind you of someone who's so dear. That being said, I of course don't know anything about your relationship and it's really not my place, but it seems like separating was good for you. If she, as a person, gave you so many things and then made you question yourself and what you offer, that's not good either. Sure, relationships are complicated and are never just black and white, but seeing you in this position makes me wanna side with you because I've been in similar places, one too many times. I understand that you two were simply not compatible, which is fine and it happens, but it also seems like you might have wanted a deeper, ride or die kind of friendship, and this person wasn't available for that, which is, unfortunately, one of my pet peeves. I also, weirdly, don't like overtly brainy people who can't delve into their emotions. They always leave me feeling cold.

NONE of this is to say your best friend is a bad person or anything. I don't mean to talk about her specifically, especially because she seems so dear to you. I'm talking mostly about overtly logical, or logical to a fault, people in general, mostly the ones I had and have in my life. They'll (almost) always try to argue with me about my emotions, or won't understand where I'm coming from.

Also, I believe that being emotional and knowing how to deal with it is just as important, if not way more important, than having a calculated, logical, approach to life (because you can't factor emotions out of your equation. Emotions are not something you can opt out of, not most people at least. And life is not logical, no matter how much people want to make it).

Again, I know nothing of your relationship and I don't wanna talk badly about your friendship, so please don't take this the wrong way. It seems like this was a relationship that gave you many good things, just ended badly. I hope you are healing well (and not questioning your own self too much). I hope your best friend finds her own wellness and happiness on her own (although she probably will, from what you told me about her), and I thank you for telling me all of this!