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canisalbus · 10 months ago

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As a survivor of abuse I relate to Machete so much. I've always felt unclean for no reason except being told I was unclean, and it made me feel worthless or revolting by default. Like, no matter what I did I would be filthy and unpleasant to be around.

Seeing that he can be loved, makes me feel like maybe I could be loved too.

#abuse is one of those things that can strongly warp your perception of yourself and the world around you #if you're told you're a bad person often enough (especially by someone you should be able to trust and rely on)#you start to believe it yourself #even in the absence of any proof of that being the case #sometimes you're able to view the situation objectively and come to a rational conclusion that you're not #uniquely awful/ugly/stupid/sinful/worthless #you're just a normal person and you have been brainwashed to resent yourself for your imaginary flaws #it's still really difficult to free yourself from that way of thinking once it has taken root #it's not impossible but it is a test of perseverance #in the beginning it just feels like you're lying to yourself when you make the conscious effort to fix the damage #and think of yourself more kindly #sorry that got off track #answered #anonymous

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