#sometimes it's just more fun to run in circles with it and enjoy the wind in your hair and air in your lungs and relish the endorphins
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the line between insanity and Art is finer than capellini, friends.
#so the rabbit won ok#sometimes it's just more fun to run in circles with it and enjoy the wind in your hair and air in your lungs and relish the endorphins#this IS art and you just dont know it yet!!#shitposting#omfg i just realized i was supposed to be reading Mary Oliver but this happened instead.#what a beautiful world we live in.#my stomach hurts from trying to hold in The Giggles.
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Foolish and Cellbit were my fav qsmp duo (Idk if they are supposed to have a duo name or something). Obviously bc they had an antagonistic friendship (funny), but also bc Foolish just got REALLY into whatever Cellbit was doing at any given time. Castle, wedding, feds murdering, Ordem Paranormal rooms, whatever. I love you grandmas room. I love you chaos room shrine. I love you coin flip decision. I love you wedding assination enigma. Ily interrogations and elections and that chance encounter in Fed HQ.
Foolish and bad had an antagonistic friendship, too, but they understood each other. They could see through the others bullshit and knee what they were after. Foollish and Cellbit did NOT understand each other (character) AT ALL. It was a mystery and theys what made it fun
I disagree on them not understanding eachother! To me qFoolish and qCellbit did not initially understand eachother but over time, especially after purgatory and towards the end of the server, I feel like Cellbit really came to get foolishs chaos. It used to frustrate Cellbit, Foolishs unpredictability, betrayals that from Cellbits point of view at the time could only be seen as malicious as to him there was only two sides on the island, you were with the federation or you weren't. But I think the turning point for their relationship was in Cellbit realising Foolish was never really against them, it's just who he is and that his actions don't reflect whether he cares for other characters or not.
I would say the way in which qBad and qFoolish understand eachother is different to the way in which qFoolish and qCellbit understand eachother. Bad and Foolish understand eachother through the intertwined nature of their immortality, they're the only person that could comprehend that experience for one another. But in another sense it's like they know eachother more than they understand eachother, which are two very different things. With Foolish and Cellbit it's harder to pinpoint, Cellbit came to understand Foolish as a person and love him for it anyway. They're both characters that value family highly and just needed to find the right wavelength, realising they're on the same side. That doesn't mean they weren't still beefing the whole time of course.
To qFoolish the chaos and betrayal is almost like play, a game of cat and mouse except the mouse was never really trying to get away but run one certain kitty round in circles for the fun of it. And eventually qCellbit caught onto the flow of it and was able to engage in this back and forth.
Foolish enjoyed being an another enigma to for Cellbit to solve, he liked winding him up, throwing red herrings, generally being confusing on every front. It was kinda like he was testing Cellbit to see if he could understand and was almost proud when he did! Pleased to not only have been a good puzzle but a good solution, that being that there wasn't one!
The dichotomy between them is delicious, he who searches for answers and he who has none, it made the two of them greater together! Sometimes there are no answers, and sometimes the satisfaction is found in searching and solving and getting to know the puzzle anyway.
Their Duo name is castleduo btw after cellbits castle build but they're often also called foolbit đ Thank you for the ask anon! They're one of my favourite duos too and I loved the opportunity to dig into their dynamic a little
#qsmp#qsmp foolish#foolish gamers#doozer doozys#cellbit#castleduo#foolbit#qsmp cellbit#qsmp analysis#it's been a while huh#i might be totally off the mark with this one but i suppose i'll just have to see#asks#landduo#qsmp badboyhalo
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Full Moon
The couple from last year's Werewolf / Sweater Weather enjoys some bedroom fun on their favorite night of the month. (SSBBW, SSBHWW -- that's "big handsome werewolf." CW: The fine line between desire and fear; explicit sex, but mostly implied rather than descriptive.)
Here's my belated contribution to Day 10 of Feedist Kinktober '24. This one is a few weeks late, but as soon as I saw the "Full Moon" prompt I knew what was going to happen.
As long as @fatguarddog keeps giving us an annual list of Kinktober prompts, this fictional couple will keep making appearances. I might bring them back before the month is over, if I have the time to write.
Monsterfucking isn't a kink of mine, but using a monster character to think about some of the primordial forces that inspire our kink was an illuminating exercise. This one was a lot of fun to write. Reblog if you enjoy it.
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He gets hungry when the change hits. Hungry for her cooking. Hungry for her.
Sometimes, on these nights, he'll leave the house to hunt. But sometimes, when the snow is piled up in meter-high drifts, he stays indoors.
She knows what to do then. For a few days beforehand, she'll cook and cook and bake and bake until every surface in the kitchen is covered with food. Meats, lots of them, beef and mutton and venison, roasted and grilled and fried, stewed and sizzled. Always rare, always tender and dripping.
Bread, loaves and loaves of it. Cakes. Cupcakes. Puddings.
The kitchen is right next to the bedroom, and she can hear him moving around, ravenous, devouring.
When the change hits his appetites seem even more bottomless than they already are.
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She feels vulnerable then, in a way she rarely feels around him otherwise. He's as much beast as man when the moon is full, and sometimes he's more beast than man. When that happens she can see the struggle in his eyes, the struggle to hold both sides of himself in balance, to regard her as his lover as well as his prey. The beast is very different from the man, who is as unfailingly as tender as he is strong, unfailingly kind to her and others even when his strength would allow him to be cruel.
The beast is different. And she is so vulnerable.
She's just as fat as he is. Or maybe he's just as fat as her. They've made each other this fat.
But while his rolls of fat and quivering belly are layered on top of powerful muscle, hers are nothing but softness. It's not that she doesn't pull her weight. On an isolated homestead in the woods there are always chores to do, and not just the cooking. She stretches and even lifts light weights to stay mobile, mobile enough that she can get around the kitchen and the garden. But by the end of the day the effort has left her ready to beach herself in bed and eat and eat.
Like she's doing now. He's not the only one with a hunger. She lifts a forkful of blueberry pie to her lips. She can hear him in the kitchen, tearing through the beef stew and the chops and the pot roast. She can imagine the trails of grease dribbling down his chins, stubble and sweat, ferocity, appetite.
They've made each other this fat. If it were entirely up to him, if the duties of the real world didn't intrude, her fat would be nothing but an ocean of immobile softness. When the moon isn't full, when the change hasn't taken him, his lovemaking is kind, eager, attentive. Pampering. He loves to spoil her, to satisfy her. To see her grow and grow and grow, rolls folding over onto rolls, all for him.
Warm. Soft. Pampered. Endlessly inviting.
Tender. Easily winded.
Unable to run.
Prey.
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She's made herself so vulnerable. There's a cold fear inside of her, dancing in circles with the heat of her excitement. She eats to still the fear and to stoke the excitement. I trust him, she tells herself. He can control the change. For me he can control the change.
Some people would think it was madness. To give up a career and a condominium and designer handbags to live in a cabin in the cold, dark forest, miles from the nearest town, hours from the nearest city. But she had known from the moment she first set eyes on him that she would do it if he asked.
He was so kind, so thoughtful. So fat and so hungry, for her cooking and for her.
He didn't ask her to move in with him until he had explained to her about the change.
And she still did it.
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I've made myself so vulnerable, she thinks, shoveling the last of the blueberry pie past her lips, her own breath ragged with fullness. I'm not sure I could even get up from bed right now. The stuffing has pushed her over the edge; when she's this full, she feels as if she might lose her mobility entirely. The thought makes her burn with heat. The thought makes her freeze with fear.
So soft. So tender.
So appetizing.
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When he crashes through the door, beast and man are one thing. His strength is supernatural now. It moves with the same rhythms of the full moon that move the tides, that pull great waves of force up from the depths of the ocean until entire coastlines, in places far away from their ice-cold forest, drown in a surge of water and heat.
She's drowning too. Her breathing, ragged with fullness, grows shallow with fear. Heat and moisture, sweat and desire, churn like the ocean around the cold knot of fear at the pit of her stomach as he crashes through the door, hunger in his eyes. His belly is swollen and taut underneath its softness, filled to the brim with the tender dishes she spent days preparing.
On another night she'd rub it gently, smile, run her fingers through the hair of his chest and nuzzle her face against his stubble until she felt the softness of his chins yielding to her kiss. On another night she might comfort him, tease him. Did my hungry boy eat too much?
But there's nothing boyish in him now. Not a boy and not a man, or not only a man. A man and a beast, two hungers at war with one another.
Looming over her.
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"Can you really control the change?"
She had asked him that after seeing it happen for the first time. So frightening but so exciting, like something out of an old and terrible legend.
He nodded. "It's difficult but I can do it. It's like⌠I know I want you, but I have to remind myself why I want you. Does that make sense?"
She nodded. "I think so. It's scary to see you like that." She pulled him in closer, feeling the strength beneath his fat as he relaxed and let himself sink into her softness. "But it's also hot."
"I'm glad." He grinned and squeezed her. "A lot of girls would run away the first time they saw that."
She laughed, playfully shoving her belly against his. "Do I look like the kind of girl who runs?"
Now he laughed too. "Nope. You look like a girl who sits and eats. My kind of girl." He kissed her. "Don't worry. I can control the change. You're safe with me."
But she had been so much smaller then.
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Beast and man are one thing now and his strength is supernatural. How many hundreds of her pounds does he shift with his sheer brute strength as he takes her and mounts her? He could throw me across the room if he really wanted to, she thinks. The thought is frightening. Exciting.
His belly spilling onto her back rolls, over the sides of her hips. His hands on her thighs, then her shoulders, then wrapping themselves in her hair, pulling her head back. His breath on her neck, ragged and fierce, a wordless growl.
Hunger.
Her heart is pounding. The beast has teeth, she thinks. He could tear my throat out. Tear me to shreads.
Then she cries out as he thrusts, a force beyond human penetrating deep inside her. Wet with sweat and excitement, her fat rolls shake and quiver, crash against him like tidal waves.
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Half excitement, half terror. A night that seems to last forever. She wants it to end. She never wants it to end.
His grip growing stronger and stronger, his breath more and more of a growl. His thrusts more forceful. He takes her ferociously, as if he can barely control his desires, the appetites of the beast mixed with the urges of the man who knows every inch of her fat body by heart.
How much she trusted him. To come all this way. Miles from the nearest town, hours from the nearest city. To risk this danger.
To get so fat for him, so fat that she could never leave.
She screams. Half pleasure and half terror. His teeth are at her throat.
Maybe this will be their last night together. Maybe tonight the dam holding back his hunger will finally break and he'll lose the man entirely, lose the man and become the beast.
She screams again.
Can she trust him to control the change?
When she comes it's like wave after wave crashing across the coastline.
And when the sun rises, it's like the storm has passed and her languid body is the surface of the ocean grown placid.
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The beast is gone from his face now, thin lines of sunlight giving a golden cast to his pleasantly fatigued smile. She reaches fat fingers for his face, strokes the softness of his chins beneath the stubble.
"Are you hungry, big boy?"
He laughs. "Yeah. I worked up an appetite. And I could use some coffee, too."
She grins. "I set the timer for five A.M. It should be ready by now. Put plenty of cream in mine."
He sticks out his tongue puckishly. "Plenty of cream." He grins back. "Got it. Big girl."
She can see satisfied exhaustion in the way he heaves himself up from the bed, rolls quivering beneath body hair, turning slowly towards the kitchen. "Breakfast's in the locked cabinet?"
"Yup. Just toast the waffles and pop the pancakes in the microwave. There's plenty of butter and maple syrup. I'll cook the bacon and sausages later."
He turns back and bends down to kiss her. "Breakfast in bed?"
She smiles. "Yeah. You wore me out. Once I'm full again I want to cuddle and nap."
"Sounds perfect." He squeezes her thigh and she watches appreciatively as he turns again, his naked body quivering as he moves.
He's all man now. The beast is elsewhere, somewhere beyond the tides.
But she can't wait until the next full moon.
#feedist kinktober 2024#feedist kinktober#wg fiction#mutual gain#mutual gainer#mutual gaining#mutual feeding#mutual feedism#fat4fat#fat werewolf#weight gain fiction#feedist fiction
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This is going to be a deeply personal post that I want to share because I hope it can also be somewhat inspirational and motivational for others.
I started a new job a month ago and I deeply love it. I mean, genuinely love it. Love the place, the people, the work. I'm happy going to work and I find joy in what I do and time passes startlingly fast at work because I'm enjoying it. Plus, I make good enough money (sure, it could always be more, but it's already more than my last job which is great).
I honestly didn't think that was a thing. Growing up, I always thought that work is that thing you force yourself through for the sake of money. The requirement. I thought it was crazy when people claimed they liked their work. But damn, I love my work.
When I finished high school, I had no idea what I wanted to do. Fourteen years ago. And it's been a longwided and bumpy journey, but it brought me to a place where I'm happy and where I can see myself working for the next thirty years.
Not knowing where you want to go, or how you could get there, is incredibly, overwhelmingly frustrating. But sometimes, you just have to keep going and figure it out along the way.
(The more long-winded journey under the cut.)
I had no idea what I wanted to do after high school, partially because my school never really prepared us for what comes after.
Our local university is large, and it intimidated me beyond belief when I was eighteen, there was just no way I could go there.
But there was a small, private art school around where I lived and everyone always kept saying turn your passion into your profession, right? So sure, why not. Let's go to art school.
Four years later, I had a Bachelor's degree in art and had also fully lost my passion for drawing. It had become a chore. So I knew that... that wouldn't work out for me. I needed to find something different.
I've always admired the teachers who could inspire others and make you feel welcome in their classes and I was pretty good at teaching others, so I figured, maybe I could become a teacher?
I first signed up for English and Philosophy (with the goal of teaching ethics). I made friends in the first semester in both classes, but I had to switch out of English after one semester - mostly because the teachers were actually insane. They prided themselves in failing at least 10% of first semesters and made the beginning unnecessarily hard and no... fun. I think learning should be fun.
So I switched from English to German and, ultimately, after five years, got my Bachelor's degree in German philology and Philosophy. During the high-time of Covid. My last two semesters were exclusively spent in remote zoom classes.
The thought of becoming a teacher - of being in a room with thirty students for ninety minutes, before class ends and the next thirty students file in for the next ninety minutes, in an endless circle of hell - absolutely terrified me. Heck, the thought of going back to classes to get my Master's degree to actually become a teacher was already mortifying.
So, once again, I stood there, without a plan, but with a useless BA.
I didn't know what I wanted to do, to be quite frank. I was running out of motivation to find something new, because it started to feel like I was truly just failing one thing after the other. I was 29 and had absolutely nothing to show but two Bachelor's degrees.
I became a temp, after a year of unemployment, working in an office in an insurance company. And I liked it alright. The work more or less, but the feeling. Oh, the feeling of working in a small team in an office absolutely delighted me!
I lost that job at the end of last year and went back to being unemployed for half a year. Until a friend of mine, who was working at our alma mater as a secretary, told me about how happy she was working for our university and how she had also started there because she had no prior work experience and none of the required qualifications. She also told me that our university has its own job hunting website and that they never put their job listings onto foreign sites.
I went looking the same day, applied to a job that I got a job interview for but that didn't entirely fit for me. A week later, I applied to another one - and it fit like a glove. I got a job interview before the application phase even ended, I was invited to spend a day observing the work and was supposed to give a yes/no on whether I want to move forward with the process the next day, which I did. All I expected in return was a thank you and to be told when I might hear back to them after they saw other applicants. Instead, I got the job that very day.
During every single step, I felt like I was failing. After my first Bachelor, that seemed useless. After giving up on getting my Master and having yet another useless Bachelor. When I lost the temp job.
But every single step in my journey was... necessary, to get me to where I am right now.
Because I wasn't ready for our big university when I was 18, I needed the small, private university that eased me into college life to have the courage to apply to our city's big university.
And the friend who told me about the job website? I met her in my one semester of English. Yes, even years later, even though we were only together in one class during that first semester, we are still friends. And if I hadn't attempted my second degree - if I hadn't started out with and failed out of English - I wouldn't have met her.
If I hadn't gone to this university, I wouldn't have been eager or able to find a job there.
And if I hadn't had the temp job, I wouldn't have discovered my passion for office work.
Who knows, maybe there is an alternate life where I get on the "right" track when I'm eighteen and end up happy too, but for the life I have now, things worked out well and they only did because of every single thing I had failed or changed out of.
Sometimes, you do need the failures to learn from them, to draw something from them that will help you find your way later.
#Personal#About Me#It Gets Better#because being unprepared for adulthood was only part of it#it was bad. I was in a bad bad place in high school#and I never thought I'd get through that#and every failure over the years felt like a set back#but when you get through it. when you reach the other side#maybe they're not setbacks. maybe they're just steps#that you need to take to get better
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Can this Hetalia character Roller Skate đź
Italy: Yes, heâs pretty good. Will offer to hold someoneâs hand if theyâre having trouble and loves to flirt with other people on the rink.Â
Germany: He wonât fall down very often but heâs stiff as a board, wonât bend his knees. Mostly relies on getting pushed or pulled in the right direction and must often accept Italyâs hand for help. Falls on his ass a couple times.Â
Japan: Yes and heâs surprisingly fast. Brings his own skates to the rink and enjoys listening to the music and zipping circles around the others.Â
America: This mf LOVES roller skating. He doesnât do it as often as other sports but heâs been skating since at least the 1910s. Always says heâs gonna try out for a roller derby team but never does.Â
England: No and he will not try. He used to skate a little before the 20th century but the wars fucked up his legs and his balance. Tried once in the 80s and fell on his face in front of a dozen punk youths. Never again. Refused to use a walker. He will watch people skate from the bench with his skates on and refuses to get in the rink.Â
France: Same as England mostly, he prefers ice skating. Heâll sit on the bench and talk instead of skate. Can be convinced to do a light lap or two around the rink but he MUST be holding someoneâs hand.Â
China: Yes, he can skate decently but he canât make himself stop, he has to let friction slow him down. Often gets stuck and has to scoot out of the rink when he gets tired.Â
Russia: Also prefers ice skating but canât quite figure out how to translate ice skating skills into roller skates. Grips the wall the entire time and canât manage to keep his legs under him. Falls on his ass once and leaves the rink to get food.Â
Canada: Hell yes, he loves some roller skating. Ice skating and hockey will always be his true love but roller skating has been a hobby he and his brother could bond over for decades. He and America will sometimes race around the rink and attempt to not run into people.Â
Prussia: Oh god. This motherfucker is so fucking bad at skating but he doesnât care. He will full throttle shoot himself across a rink, slam headfirst into the opposite wall, and fall back on the ground and act like heâs the greatest skater alive. He loves it so much and he WILL do it again two minutes later. He canât break, he can barely turn, and if thereâs someone he doesnât like directly in his way he WILL take them down with him. If given a walker he will use it to hit the wall even faster. It gives Germany a heart attack every time he hears his quasi-mortal brother thud on the ground but as long as heâs breathing and gets up soon enough he lets him have his fun. Will go until heâs completely winded and has to be pushed off the rink.Â
Romano: Yes! Started roller skating back when he worked at Americaâs house in the 20s and has tried to keep it up as a hobby but heâs a little rusty. Is a pro at stepping around Prussiaâs fallen body.Â
Hungary: Yep yep. Hasnât done it as much in recent years but absolutely adored roller skating in the late 19th-early 20th century. Joined a roller derby in the interwar years and absolutely fucking loved it. Wants to join another but hasnât had the free time. She and Prussia will occasionally try to push each other down while skating, though she succeeds in staying up more often than he does.Â
Austria: Much like France & England, he needs to hold someoneâs hand or he psyches himself out. The hand is often Hungaryâs. Will often trip and fall. Prussia tries to knock him down too but theyâre both so terrible at turning they usually just fly past each other. Usually resorts to using one of the walkers.Â
Lithuania: Like Romano he started skating back when he worked at Americaâs house in the 20s. He enjoys it but he is a bit rusty. Takes photos of Prussia wiped out on the floor and posts them on social media with a caption equivalent to âCommon Prussia Lâ. They try to push each other down but it often results in both of them wiping out. He usually tries to fall forward rather than backward because his back is still very fucked up.Â
Belarus: With a long background in ice skating, she prefers in-line roller skates. Prefers to skate alone and watch others fall over but she will help them back up.Â
Ukraine: Has an impressive collection of roller derby trophies in her room. Loves the social aspect of skating at a rink and gets dressed up to go with friends when she can.Â
Poland: Acts like heâs better at roller skating then he really is, needs to hold the wall for a while but can eventually scoot off by himself. Â
#My credentials are Ive roller skated like#twice#hetalia#hws Italy#aph Italy#hws Germany#aph Germany#aph Japan#hws Japan#hws china#aph china#hws America#aph America#hws england#aph England#hws France#aph France#hws Canada#aph Canada#Hws Russia#aph Russia#hws prussia#aph prussua#hws Romano#aph Romano#hws hungary#aph hungary#hws Austria#aph Austria#hws Lithuania
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// making a pinned rq.
basic DNI: proshippers, pedos, racists, LGBTQA+ phobes etc. - oc, canon character interactions are all okay - doesn't have to be FN but FN is preferred since I might not know every other media - please keep interactions sfw I want to create a safespace for everyone to enjoy - no gore or death threats, bruises or small mentions of blood etc are okay but keep it mild - no drug addict/drug abuse jokes, I've heard them all and I don't find them funny so I won't react to them sry
appearance: he has a damaged left ear with two visible cuts and chunks from his ear missing. [visible even when masked] furthermore Donnie has a lot of scars hidden underneath his mask, noticably two bigger ones across his left eye, one across his right eye, two scars each one on the left and right side of his chin, one scar running across his mouth and one more on the left side of his cheekbone. his eyes have a dark sclera and are duo coloured, being red for his iris [outer circle] and yellow for his pupils [inner circle] his face is most of the times covered in black war paint around the eye area. [think of Mad Max Furiosa or the warboys] warpaint is often running across his mask, like straight down from his eyes. ear rings can be applied to his right ear. very optional however. can transform into a badass nitro-fueled monster form. this monster this bears something that resembles his mask and armor, wereshark and other monster elements are mixed into it but mostly shark. the monster form is taller and more massive than his human form, also angrier lol.
armor: either base style or oasis colours, I will probably sometimes draw superstyles or own colours as well just so you know. his mask has very jagged teeth, this is just the way I prefer to draw them anyway. shoulder pauldrons with large spikes on both sides. a tad bit bigger than the in-game model. he has clawed gloves with metal clawtips at the end of each finger. armor plated shoes with spikes on them as well bandages or barbed wire can be wrapped around any armor part. wasteland warrior symbol can be applied to any part of his armor, not just the chest.
personality: my Donnie is a bit on the more serious side and it's very hard / yet not impossible / to break his bad guy personality. he CAN be soft or sometimes even silly-coded, however it takes a lot to get through to him. please try and find out lmao. he's actually decently kind to his henchman / wastelander crew, he would not insult them unless they screw up big time. easy to provoke so please have fun with that given fact lmao. he's often out there alone and not really prone to stick around other people, occassionally he does enjoy a little company however just to talk to or wind down. he's also quite fond of hugs or other physical touch.
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Having some feelings I need to write down, and here is as good a place as any. This is gonna be a bot all over the place...
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I hate going for walks with my family.
I hate walking full stop, but i hate "going for walks" when my family is involved.
So often in the past it's become a *thing* that I can't do it now without reliving all of those past times.
I've always had muscular problems with my legs due to my height, and in recent years this has been compounded by nerve damage in my feet, and injury damage to my knees and hip that mean I can't walk particularly fast or far without a great deal of pain.
This means I almost always get left behind. I can't keep up with them and fall further and further behind them, and when I was younger I would always wind up lost.
Lost and tired and in pain in a strange place until somebody came back for me. They'd always make a joke about it, trying to cheer me up, but that always made it worse when all I wanted was a hug.
So I started refusing to go. As soon as I was old enough to stay home on my own I would politely refuse to go, and that was almost worse.
My mother would always respond in a half-joking way like "aww, you're miserable, you're no good" or "you're no fun, come on" or after my nieces and nephews came alo g shed turn to guilt tripping. "They're only here for a weekend, you have to spend time with them'
My brother would always look so disappointed and try to talk me into it with all the stuff I'd be missing, while I'm sat there knowing I'd probably never see most of it anyway and even if I did I'd be in too much pain to enjoy it.
My sister would just take a snippy tone like "oh. Ok." Then make a point out of how I didn't come later.
So even when I didn't come I'd spend the whole time sat alone at home making myself miserable and feeling guilty for not going.
And then when I do go, I'm in pain, I'm miserable, and I still end up alone half the time and stewing on the whole situation.
These days they at least try to accommodate me, but that just makes me feel like an invalid and burden which makes it all worse.
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Today I wound up alone again because the others decided to take a cliffside path full of stones and roots that I can't navigate, (literally the nerve damage in my feet means I can't feel the stones and roots, and dont have great balance, not ideal on a cliff...) so I continued alone on the main path with all this stuff running through my head in circles and making me miserable and depressed.
Part of what I was thinking about, I'm on holiday this week, staying with my brother and his family in Kerry. My mum came to join us for the weekend, and this morning his wife commented that I stop doing things when my mum is here. I'm not sure what she meant by that and I was already feeling shitty so I didn't pursue it, but now it's preying on my mind.
My mother is hard work sometimes. She doesn't understand my mental health problems and trying to talk to her about my life is just difficult. It feels like the "never again" meme. Given that his wife broke down in tears the other day worrying about my mum coming to stay, I'm sure she understands.
I tend to shut down when I can't deal with a situation. I go quiet and I find a way to leave for a bit. The more people are here the easier it is for me to get overwhelmed. And I do tend to shut down with my mum even more because I feel like I can't talk to her or make her understand, I feel like I cant get anything right, it'll never be good enough for her, so I just don't bother trying.
For all of my teenage years I felt trapped between the person I was "supposed" to be, and the person I wanted to be, and wound up stuck as neither.
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A few weeks ago I came out to my brother and his wife as bisexual, and hinted that I might be trans. It went well so i tried to have the same conversation with my mum, and her immediate overreaction made me abort so quickly. She freaked out about me wearing nail polish and was going on about how I was going to be fired from my job and it would ruin my life.
So I decided not to bring any femme clothes on this trip....
Its been hard, I feel wrong. I haven't shaved either and it's started getting to me, and being called "uncle [deadname]!" Every 5 seconds has begun to wear on me. Hence why I was feeling shitty today to begin with.
I don't know how to deal with all that. I don't know how to have the conversation with my family about my gender, or even if I should. I don't know how to talk to them about how my disability and how their attempts to accommodate me make me feel. And once again winding up walking alone brought it all home at once a little bit.
I feel alone. I feel like an outsider in my family, pushed to the edge. Not because that's what they're trying to do, but that just makes it worse because I feel like I'm just making it all up in my head.
They love me and they try, but it feels like they love the fake 'me' that I was expected to be. They don't really know 'me'.
Do I even really know 'me' at this point?
Who even am I?
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Some (not-holiday-related) things the RVB characters do in Winter~
Grif; has the perfect excuse to just stay inside, avoiding the cold, and make an entire cozy kingdom out of blankets and pillows (claims he is âhibernatingâ). If he is bribed with hot chocolate after, he can be convinced to venture out, and make a snowman or two (heâs oddly good at balancing each giant snowball as he stacks them). Movie-marathon is also an enjoyed activity
Simmons; likes the idea of taking a pleasant winter stroll IN THEORY, but usually has the bad luck of either finding all the drops buried by snow and keeps getting stuck, or steps in an ice-patch (and turns into Bambi before falling on his butt). Mostly winds up staying in and taking the time to complete puzzles and gets focused on beating all his old high-scores in games
Donut; ready to throw-down in a snowball war, LETâS GO. Lives the dream of getting into a hot-tub outside while itâs snowing. Also, he gets all choked-up over the sad animal commercials, and even though he canât adopt them all, heâll volunteer a lot and help find homes for rescue pets
Sarge; hikes out in the woods, usually just to get some tree branches and sticks for whittling, but claims he also built a log cabin and ârassled a few bears. Continues to embrace his inner lumberjack by making GIANT Paul Bunyan sized flapjacks with lots of maple syrup every morning. Eventually, he will build a HUGE SNOW FORT, and loudly inform the Blues that it is so awesome and cool and they arenât allowed in here
Lopez; as long as he doesnât get wet and his joints donât freeze, he likes being outside at night in winter. Itâs sort of peaceful, even in big cities. Unlike humans, who miss little details, he can stand outside for hours and literally watch as frost-spirals form in windows
Church; COMPLAINS, about this-that-and the other thing, absolutely hates when his feet or nose get cold and would rather make the whole place warmer than keep adding layers. In his better moods, he has fun re-watching his favorite shows and playing video games. He also discovered heâs pretty good at cooking, so he makes lots of treats and warm meals (he creates delicious soups from powerful broths). Heâll collect various mugs he thinks are funny/have cool pictures, and then use most of them to keep other things in (like marbles or buttons or whatever). If he can brave the cold, he kinda likes the times he wakes up early, seeing the sun begin to shine on the snow
Tex; enjoys kinda just people-watching in the city, and likes finding places that do horse and carriage rides (Tex is a horsegirl in a dude way. yee-haw). Sheâll also go places that are more typically visited in warmer weather (like the beach) to see how different it is in winter, appreciating cold beauty and what-not
Tucker; likes playing games and watching shows/movies while being cozy inside like some of the others, but is also really into sledding! Heâll get a whole run going, packing up snow to make turns, and finds stuff like cushions to help soften the stop. Sometimes sets up a rope swing so he can fly over the snow. He enjoys eating something hot outside when itâs cold out, and likes finding places that do special winter treats. Heâll also have fun sitting around a fire-pit at night making sâmores
Caboose; helps with rescue animals too, and enjoys going somewhere outside to see what kind of winter critters show up in the wild (or maybe just squirrels in the park). When lots of snow falls, and he can clearly see how clean it is, he gathers it up in large cups, mixes it with juice, and makes his own âslushiesâ (and will sometimes eat the snow plain... itâs good!). Will find large areas of snow that is mostly flat with small hills, and COVER the space with the BIGGEST snow-angels (if you look at them from high above, they make crop circle patterns... nobody is sure if he does this on purpose or not)
Wash; also helps with rescue animals, and WILL try to keep more kitties. Surprises everybody by being a snowboarder dude... he can go down huge hills and even do tricks. Loves hot apple cider, and drinks it almost every day. He has fun doing puzzles, playing board games, and cards with the others
Carolina; enjoys all the outdoor activities with everybody, and is also fond of star-gazing at night (the stars seem so much brighter in winter). She has fun going to things like concerts at night, seeing cool light-shows on the snow ( it reminds her of the Northern Lights). When she wants a calmer activity, sheâll find herself a book to read (maybe something really emotional with a sad theme, but a happy outcome, so it isnât depressing)
Kai; visits various ice-skating rinks and will anybody that listens about the time she feel through some ice and TOTALLY met an actual MERMAN under the water (no really!). Finds places that have rides/attractions so she can go on indoor rollercoasters and ferriswheels inside while watching it snow through large windows. Intentionally goes out wearing âminimal clothingâ, then visits several stores, buying something from each place, until sheâs finally finished wearing multiple layers (if she doesnât shop fast, she can get VERY chilly)
Doc; likes getting chocolate iced coffee drinks, regardless of how cold it is. Also likes to find something to read, but picks out old classical literature (some heâs read before but itâs been a while, others heâs only aware of but hasnât read himself). OâMalley likes to find big chunks of ice frozen outside and smash them on the ground (heâs at least nice enough to pick a place not surrounded with people, so nobody gets surprised or accidentally hurt). Doc also INSISTS all his friends listen as he goes over various winter safety tips
Locus; tags along with the others to try and figure out what normal-people-things he enjoys. On his own, Locus kind of likes going to unique craft stores, getting wood-work and crocheted items. If he can gather up enough energy to deal with a crowed of people (and somebody he trusts comes with him), he gets a kick out ice hockey and motorcycle ice racing (Tex had no idea there was a whole sport where people put sharp screws in bike tired and shredded around on ice, itâs brutal and she loves it)
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i once believed love would be black n' white (but it's golden)
five times mun-yeong wished to see colour in her life and once she did (or the one where mun-yeong can only see the colors in 4K resolution when gang-tae is around her, and without him, life is muted)
a fic for kdrama secret santa 2022; for @rabonghee
read it on ao3 here!
im also very sorry this is late. a combination of sickness, travel and family stuff had left me busy last week. i do hope you enjoy, nonetheless, especially @rabonghee
a happy belated christmas and new year to you and your loved ones!
iâve been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night
1. mun yeongâs never had friends before. the boy with the flower at her gate is the first whoâs ever come up to approach her and sheâs more confused than anything else. everything around her, the world moves so slowly (dreadfully so) in some stupid 20s monochrome film.Â
itâs all boring and predictable and even at six, mun yeong knows that lifeâs not supposed to be like this.
in the books she hides from her mother, read secretly under her covers at night with a soft night light, she knows life can be and have so much more meaning and depth and colour to it than whatever her mother says.
for her few years of life, sheâs believed her motherâs every word religiously, hanging on to it as if the word of god herself. her mother is? was? her god, but now, the former believer has committed sacrilege.
free thought has never felt more constraining.
the boy is like a fresh wind of indigo in her imposing house of stark greys and blacks. for her, whoâs never seen colour, nor the blinding indigo in a rainbow, heâs her gateway drug.
she wants to pull him to her, magnetised by the beautiful blue hues.
---
he leaves, and she finds herself living in greyscale again.
the things that haunt me in the middle of the night
2. ju ri is kind and loud. mun yeong who would like to be an artist, if she had any talent at it, would paint her a loud and vibrant red; something vermillion or crimson, whatever would describe that prick of a paper cut that first stains it. she could be that crimson, that fresh blood, and she probably is. mun yeongâs eyes are aching and tired, and it filters the world around her, blunting all its edges.Â
ju ri is fun, but even she, in the predictability of seongjin city and its coastline, remains predictable. in a world of rectangles and squares, both she and mun yeong are the same; sheâs loud in her fury where mun yeong is cold and quiet, that is the only difference.Â
the daughters of seongjin are all born angry, it seems.
that boy, mun yeong wonders, is probably a circle. sheâs attracted to all those unlike her: that butterfly for one. does fury run in his blood? she wonders. is he a child of seongjin like her? or is a desperate wanderer, a nomad with no grounds to put down, a home that moves around with their people, like her?
does he want to find a home? or has he found it?
even years later, her mind still wanders to the boy who sharpened her edges to show her the most blinding of colors. something blinding in a gradient of darkness, does he pull others into him like he did for her?
is he a star to guide her or a blackhole waiting to devour her?
---
when she kisses ju ri, she wants to see another dazzling color.
sheâs disappointed and leaves.
(itâs what sheâs good at, after all. leaving just when the relationship was going to inevitably end; itâs called self-preservation, she has to save herself first before the momentum becomes too much and crashes)
luck of the draw only draws the unlucky
3.Â
her college boyfriend thinks heâs won. sheâs amongst the prettiest women on campus and she knows it: sheâs his prize. among the many toys he takes, sheâs his one and only trophy. all golden and gilded and glittery surface, hollow and black inside. he plays with her like a toddler with a precious toy; careless and sometimes it hurts.Â
but sheâs used to falling and bumping and bending. trophies donât break anyway, he canât break her because he canât fix her. or replace her.
all bark and bite, thatâs how he likes her. says it makes the sex more fun, and she wants to jeer in his face. her contrarian nature is good for him as long as he wants to roleplay, and beyond it, sheâs just a bitch.
(of course she knows of the things he says of her behind her back to his friends. heâs an average steady fuck, so she doesnât want to quite let go yet.)
when she kisses him, she likes to pretend heâs that boy standing at her gates with a flower. she admires the great bit of courage that boy had picked up to come to her haunted house of a home in all his childish innocence and fears. oppa isnât brave like him. no, like all good women before she had to bait him and reel him in.
college dating teaches many a great deal about fishing. she would be a pro at it, if she could tolerate amputating and gutting that worm (it feels too alive and her breath catches in anxiety). itâs taught her patience (she barely has some; waiting is for the strong and brave of heart, and sheâs far too cowardly to face daunting time).
she doesnât want to. she tries not to. but inevitably, unfortunately, she tires of oppa sooner than he tires of her. itâs easier to let men leave her, and pretend as if theyâve walked away with breaking her heart (it does things for their ego, and later at night, when they sleep with another, the guilt makes for excellent sex).Â
she could scoff. none of her suitors have broken her heart---theyâd have to own it in the first place. you canât break whatâs not your own.Â
she walks away from the flames and burning embers, as oppa rapidly tries to fan them in vain. sheâs not coming back.
itâs a shame she really did like him.
---
she kisses him once again at a party before he graduates. itâs just before he gets piss drunk, and a test for her to see whether any of the remnants of feelings remain.
her heart feels as heavy as steel and yet sheâs hollow through and through. within her, her heart is as dense as it is empty, something paradox.
there are so many lines iâve crossed unforgiven
4. becoming a childrenâs fiction writer, itâs something she couldnât even have fathomed in her dreams. she doesnât think her fiction is for children, even now. itâs based off her own childhood for starters, and thatâs appropriate for no child ever. perhaps it is the fantastical elements, the downright grimm-brothers-and-hans-christian-anderson tale that has been her life. like attracts the like, and sheâs always thought of life as something a little mystical, unreal even.
something like a long dream she longs to wake up from.Â
if everyone that was in her life could see her now. theyâd laugh. ko mun yeong? a childrenâs book author? you must be joking. she hates children.
theyâd be right too. she hates children---freud says daughters are a reflection of mother. sheâd always thought that lunatic had some truth to his words despite his delusional works most of the times. she is her mother, and all she remembers from that woman is coldness and detachment and her child-like nature to constantly want to please the unhappy, un-pleasable woman.Â
(if children got close to her, maybe theyâd realize the same and sheâd break them. she keeps away for them and herself).
---
she thinks of that boy at her gates. was he as naive and innocent as her? as the other children? would she have broken him then or now?
sheâd hate herself more than she does now, more than she can fathom if she had broken him. sheâs fine with everyone in the world hating her, but that small part of her traitorous ten-year-old heart still doesnât want him to ever hate her. not with how much she likes him. still.
---
âwas the witch lonely?â a little girl asks her once. her newest book is out, something about the tale of a witch who gobbled children up who came to her door. a little boy spots her eating a child once, her favorite little boy, and he stops at her gates before running away.
the witch never sees him again.
she blinks, and little pinpricks of tears are at the back of her eyes. she wills them not to fall because sheâs helen and if she cries, troy will fall. sheâs self-sacrificing.
âno, she was bad. a bad bad person. bad people donât get lonely. they get their come-uppance and have to live with the guilt of their actions, the weight of it, and the people that leave them.âÂ
she answers it all in one short breath, before smiling and walking away.
---
âpeople arenât always bad. they can change.â
not her.
clearing the air, i breathed the smoke
5.
her life has been on auto-pilot. after a certain level of fame, it all started getting a bit too monotonous for her. when the only constant in your life, your only friend is your goddamn publisher, you know itâs getting a little sad.Â
she has more than she knows how to spend, and this job is more of a hobby, playing adult, than doing something for actual money.Â
lifeâs too boring, and she aches for just something different. itâs times like this when she thinks of the boy. how unexpectedly delightful he was. a breath of fresh wind in her cooped-up house, something new, something unexpected.
maybe she just misses him. after all, itâs been twenty years now since she saw him last.
the boy...if she could have one wish, one last wish and demand and plea in her life, sheâd like to him see him again maybe.
get entranced. transfixed. enchanted again.
(maybe this what people call burnout? boredom? is this what weber meant when he talked about the bureaucracy and disenchantment with life?)
---
sang in suggests she do charity, philantrophy. some of that corporate csr bullshit sheâs not on, but he clearly babbles about day and night.
something about building her image.
as if good deeds now will redeem her and save her now. sheâs far too gone to be recovered. itâs the gates of hell for her only.
itâs golden like daylight
and once,
1. spring brings back her love to her. they say love is like the tide of the four seasons, it fades in the cold of winter, but as the warmth of spring blooms in, love returns.Â
sheâs had a very long winter.
twenty some odd years, and the hazy bright golden sun and the pink cherry blossoms around her in a beautiful lovely spring of romance feels dizzying.
that gust of cold northern winds sheâd felt from the boyâs arrival years ago, once again bursts in her chest. oxygen fills her lungs, and perhaps she just hasnât breathed before as well as she does now. greedy little breaths of cold air, and she doesnât want to return to that recycled, stuffy air.
they say three times is fate.
once, the first. she sees him in spring, walking up to her. pink petals around them. she drops cigarette ash in his cup.
twice, next. she raises a knife, a hand. he catches it, and it, his grasp, his fist tightens. blood flowing. red, red, red. the pink darkens.
it falls onto her hands, her sinner hands, her tight fists. and the mongolian blue mark stains red. (sheâs always marked by violence.)
thrice. itâs fate. sheâs almost in love. a little bit more and sheâll be there. heart palpitations, sweaty palms, flushed cheeks, and her aching wet cunt. what is love without lust? she hasnât felt like this before.
(if the boy was here, sheâd think he would be just like moon gang tae. moon gang tae. moon gang tae. even the taste of his name on her mouth tastes heady. she feels light-headed and drunk off just this. would she die at the taste of him then?)
they meet in seongjin city. and she knows itâs her boy. that boy. the boy that remains at the gates of her house and her heart.Â
---
later, months later. when she finally kisses him, she can taste the freezing north wind boreas in her mouth.
itâs burning like the heat of the golden sun.
#my writing#It's okay to not be okay#ko mun yeong#go moon young#moon gang tae#moon kang tae#mun yeong x gang tae#moon young x gang tae#it's okay to not be okay fic#kdrama secret santa 2022#secret santa 2022
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He just gives you a knowing look, amusement playing at the corners of his mouth. âWell, you know I think you look gorgeous in pretty much everything. Including that particular shade of green.â
That's what I like to hear đ
Youâve been enjoying this something with them over the last few months. The three of you fell into everything so easily, but it wasnât something youâd put a label on yet. Youâve always been the type of woman who likes having all the answers, but with them- with this- for the first time in your life you were ok with not having them.
Fuck a label
Youâd turned your phone off the moment youâd gotten in your car, wanting some time to yourself, not in any kind of mood now to be around other people. The only thing you could think of had been getting home so that you could simmer in peace.
Sometimes you just need moment like that
You didnât want to talk. You didnât want to think. And you really didnât want to deal with your feelings.
Mood lmao
Theyâve always teased you about it, with all of the soft pinks and creamy neutrals, and how it looks too sweet, too pure for a woman who enjoys taking two cocks as much as you do. But youâd seen the gleam in their eyes and the gears turning in their heads when theyâd help you set up your pretty white wrought iron bedframe; it was the one thing theyâd never commented on, especially since you were more than happy letting them tie you up to it.
đ¤đ¤đ¤
Jake tsks, flashing you his dimples. âBut Iâm having fun watching his mouth instead,â he says, nodding his head towards Bradley. âSpeaking of, you got a little something on your chin there, Bradshaw.â âThatâs because arguing gets her wet.â
I just đŽâđ¨đĽľ, no words
Hangman tugs you up just enough for him to maneuver himself behind you and cradles you back against his chest, his arms winding themselves around your waist. As Bradley rests his chin on top of your thigh, his thumb making soothing circles on the swell of your hip, âWeâre not what, baby?â And youâre not sure youâve ever heard his raspy voice so soft before. Â It wasnât a secret those closest to you all there was something going on between the three of you. After all, Bradley was affectionate and Jake was objectively the least subtle man on the planet.
Urgh, such a cute and simple moment between them
âIs that what this is all about?â Roosterâs eyes are intense as he looks at you. âJust because weâve been keeping things casual doesnât mean this thing between all of us isnât the real deal. Iâm not seeing or sleeping with anyone else. And I donât want to.â âIâm not either,â Hangman adds, running his hands along your sides. âIâve got my hands more than full with you and I like it that way.â
I can work with that đđ¤
A surprised laugh almost slips out of you at the mental image of them hashing out their feelings during the commercials between some game on TV, but heâs looking at you so thoughtfully that you know heâs being entirely serious.
Hilarious but I have to wonder when and how that talk really went đ¤
Jake tangles the fingers of your right hands together. âThe way I see it is that even when youâre not with me, I know youâre with someone I know and trust, who cares about you just as much as I do. Someone whoâs going to look out for you the same way that I would.â
đĽšđĽšđĽš
âYouâre the one calling the shots here. Youâre in charge and always have been ever since that first time in Pensacola,â Rooster reminds you. âWeâre both here because we donât want anyone else. This doesnât need to be complicated. Whether youâre with him or with me or weâre all together. Itâs already working just fine when you arenât going ghost on us and ditching us without saying a word.â
âWeâre good. This is good,â Jake promises, leaning his forehead against your temple. You feel like your heart might burst from the sheer affection you have for the two of them.
Urgh for realđĽ°
âSo I was the only one overthinking things?â âYou sure were,â Hangman agrees, âYou and that big brain of yours.â He trails open-mouth kisses up your neck. âNow have you straightened out your shit or are we going to have to do it for you?â he asks into the shell of your ear. You can feel the grin heâs wearing, and youâre positive if you turned to look at him youâd see those dimples of his.
I'm gonna melt đŤ đĽ°đ¤
âThatâs our girl.â Jake tips your head back, lips a whisper away from yours and desire reflected in his green eyes. âHereâs whatâs going to happen. Youâre going to kiss me until he makes you come. And then Iâm going to fuck the attitude out of you while you apologize to Rooster for being so mouthy. Weâre gonna remind you what itâs like to have two aviators wrapped around your little finger. Sound good?â
Sounds very, very good đ¤¤
I absolutely loved this story!
Call My Bluff
Summary: Rooster and Hangman have always attracted attention wherever they went, only now you're starting to have a hard time ignoring it. You weren't jealous, you couldn't be. After all, they're yours- at least for now.
Pairing: Bradley âRoosterâ Bradshaw x Female Reader x Jake âHangmanâ Seresin
Length: 5.8k
Warnings: smut and a dash of angst (mdni)
(author's note: this fic is set in the Up the Ante universe, however it can be read on it's own!)
You knew you were staring- casually observing, one could argue- but it was hard to pull your gaze away from Jake at the bar.
He had gone to get another round of drinks for everyone more than ten minutes ago. It was a busy night at the Hard Deck, but not that busy. It really shouldnât have surprised you though to realize why he was held up, especially with the way his tight white t-shirt was offsetting his end of summer tan. Heâs always been too damn charming for his own good, especially when it was paired with that deep rooted sense of southern hospitality.
It wasnât a rare occurrence to see Hangman getting hit on by another woman. However, it was the second time that night heâd been approached by the same woman with all too interested eyes and an enticing smile.
âIf I didnât know better,â Rooster says, sliding up to you and squeezing your hip, âIâd say youâd look like you were jealous.â
âIâm not jealous.â It comes out a bit too short to be believable.
He just gives you a knowing look, amusement playing at the corners of his mouth. âWell, you know I think you look gorgeous in pretty much everything. Including that particular shade of green.â
You let out an annoyed huff and take distracted sip of the remnants of your drink, which was now mostly melted ice cubes with an essence of gin.
Bradley just chuckles lightly and takes a quick glance around the room before pressing a quick kiss to the side of your head.
âIâm sure I could think of a couple ways to distract you," he offers.
Youâve been enjoying this something with them over the last few months. The three of you fell into everything so easily, but it wasnât something youâd put a label on yet. Youâve always been the type of woman who likes having all the answers, but with them- with this- for the first time in your life you were ok with not having them.
There were electrifying nights the three of you spent together. And there were peaceful nights you spent home alone. There were times it was just you and Rooster and other times when it was just Hangman and you. There was time spent in beds and out of them. There were sunny days spent on the beach. There were hours spent taking road trips and exploring your new state. There were nice dinners out and quiet nights in. There were reservations made for two and there were tickets bought for three.
It was a new dynamic for you, and something youâd never could have expected. And youâve been happy.
Really, really happy.
But over the last couple of weeks, itâs been hard ignoring the voice in the back of your head that has been filling your brain with all the what-ifs.
What if this isnât working for them the way it was working for you.
What if this causal arrangement you have with them isnât enough.
Or worse, what if youâre being selfish with them.
As you watch Hangman with that smooth smile on his face- but without a trace of those dimples you know so well- as he talks to the pretty girl near his elbow, you canât help but wonder if this something â with him, with them- comes with an expiration date.
The room feels too small with the crowd of people- with their loud chatter and booming bursts of laughter- and all the too big thoughts swirling around in your head. Everything feels like too much, from the rings of ceramic mugs on the ceiling to the string lights and model planes around the bar to the patches covered walls.
âIâll be right back,â you murmur, stepping out of Bradleyâs grasp.
He hums, letting you know heâd heard you, giving you your space before drifting over to the pool table where the rest of the Daggers are gathered around.
And then you walk straight out the front door and leave.
Youâve been home for less than an hour when you hear a set of car doors shut with a heavy thud outside of your house. And thereâs no question in your mind about who it could be.
The two quick, sharp raps on your front door only a few moments later confirm what you already knew.
Youâd turned your phone off the moment youâd gotten in your car, wanting some time to yourself, not in any kind of mood now to be around other people. The only thing you could think of had been getting home so that you could simmer in peace. You had just wanted to get your head back on right without feeling like the walls were pressing in on you.
You open the door to see Rooster standing there looking pissed. His big arms crossed over his chest, jaw tight, and lips pressed firmly together in a flat line. Jake is just a step behind him, leaning against the porch post with his poker face already in place, a pretty picture of nonchalance.
âWe tried calling,â Bradley rasps, the words clipped and short. You can tell heâs trying to keep his temper in check, but there was no missing the storm cloud behind his eyes.
You blink at him and drum your nails on the side of the door, giving him a flippant shrug. And Jake lets out a low disapproving whistle that grates on your already ragged nerves.
Rooster lifts an eyebrow at you like really. Heâs always been the more hot headed one of the two of them. You know this cold shoulder act of yours is pushing his buttons, and youâre surprised he hasnât called you out on it yet.
Not that youâd probably answer him anyways.
The last thing you want to do is talk.
It was why you left in the first place.
You didnât want to talk. You didnât want to think. And you really didnât want to deal with your feelings.
Sex was easy. Sex was fun. Sex wasnât complicated.
Everything else is exactly what youâd been trying to get away from, and instead all youâd done was have it delivered directly to your doorstep.
âI donât remember inviting either one of you over,â you state, coolly, doing your best to feign indifference.
Roosterâs mouth drops opens, but Hangman is quicker on the draw. âAnd yet, here we are,â he says, stating the obvious, then mirroring the same brazen shrug youâd given the glowering man in front of you. âGuess the question is, are you going to let us in?â
You know without a doubt that if you said no theyâd respect your decision and walk themselves right back to Jakeâs truck and out of your drive away. You could have your space to simmer, just like youâd wanted.
What youâd thought you wanted.
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Or.
Or maybe you just needed to remind yourself what exactly this is. Since thereâs not much room to think when youâre too busy coming.
You drag your gaze from Bradleyâs smoldering whiskey brown eyes to Jakeâs all too observant sea green ones, before spinning away from them to saunter down the hallway towards your bedroom.
Knowing you still have the full weight of their twin stares on you, you reach for the hem of the oversized shirt from your college days that youâd thrown on the second youâd arrive home and tug it up and off, dropping it on the floor right before you turn the corner and out of their view.
There are a few noises youâre able to pick out in the too quiet of your house over your thundering heartbeat as you flick on the switch to the lamp in the corner of your room. The click of the front door being shut and the deadbolt turned into place. The sound of their sturdy soled shoes being toed off at the entry. The low baritone of Hangmanâs murmured drawl, although the words that are spoken are too soft for you to make out.
And then the one youâd been anticipating the most, their weighty footsteps coming down the hallway to your bedroom. Theyâve always teased you about it, with all of the soft pinks and creamy neutrals, and how it looks too sweet, too pure for a woman who enjoys taking two cocks as much as you do. But youâd seen the gleam in their eyes and the gears turning in their heads when theyâd help you set up your pretty white wrought iron bedframe; it was the one thing theyâd never commented on, especially since you were more than happy letting them tie you up to it.
Youâve just shimmied out of your panties- still bent at the waist- when you hear Bradley groan behind you. You linger there a moment longer than you need to, making sure he gets a good look at you like this. From reflection in the mirror thatâs hung on your wall, you can see that the irritation is still rolling off of him in waves, but so is the heat of his want as he watches you stand back up with greedy, appreciative eyes.
Turning back towards him you let him take his fill of your naked body, one hip temptingly tipped to the side, daring him to be the one first to make a move.
Rooster slowly drags his heated gaze over you before he pulls his t-shirt over his head in that one-handed way that men do before pitching it off to the side. His broad chest is already starting to turn your favorite shade of flushed pink.
âHow can a girl as pretty as you be so goddamn frustrating?â he mutters as he flicks open the button of his tight jeans. Only unzipping them enough to release some of the pressure off his visibly hard cock in a way that shows you just how turned on he is.
You feel high off of your own self-satisfaction as it twists and swirls in your chest.
âI think she just likes keeping us on our toes,â Hangman drawls, entering the room. A slight look of amusement coasts over his handsome face as he looks from you to Rooster. Clearly content to wait for the two of you to work whateverâs going on out of your systems.
You skim your fingers up your body and cup your breast in your hand. âWhat? You donât think you can keep up, Rooster?â you challenge. He tips his head back up towards the ceiling and forces out a breath through pursed lips. And youâre tempted to see just how far you can push him.
âOh, darlinâ,â Jake chuckles, shaking his head, âYouâre determined to trouble tonight, arenât you?â
âAnd if I am?â you taunt, rolling your nipple between your fingers. Two sets of eyes hone in on the motion, but no one makes a move. âBut if you both are just going to stand there, Iâve got a vibrator that works just as well- if not better.â
Youâre trying to goad them. You know it and they know it.
Rooster struts up to you, grabbing a handful of your ass and hauls you against him. Heâs thick and firm against your stomach. âIf youâre going to act like a brat, then Iâm going to treat you like a brat, baby,â he murmurs into the hinge of your jaw, âNow, get on the bed.â He punctuates the order with a swift, firm flat-handed slap.
And for the first time since youâd left the bar, you grin. Feeling entirely too pleased with yourself, even with the lingering sting of his handiwork.
This. This is what you want.
You want demanding fingers and the scrape of teeth on your skin. You want messy mouths and generous tongues. You want fast and hard and filthy and rough. You want to hear their heavy breaths and moans and curses. You want to give and to take, only for them to reward you with more.
You want as much of them as you can have, for as long as you can have them.
Bradley basically herds you to the bed while Jake watches on with a smirk, not that you needed much convincing anyways. The second youâre stretched across it, Bradley is on top of you wedging himself and those wide shoulders of his between your thighs.
Thereâs no build up, no gentle lead in. Roosterâs mouth is set on ruination.
Heâs had you enough times that he knows exactly how to flick and circle and lave over you in a way that will end with white noise in your ears and starbursts behind your eyelids. His tongue is unrelenting on your clit, showing you no mercy as you start to quake under his touch.
Itâs dizzying how fast heâs gotten you so spun up. Your breaths are coming out ragged and uneven as your fingers dig into the fabric of your gauzy duvet. And every time you whimper, he rewards you with a groan that only ripples up and throughout your keyed up body.
Youâre right there, so so close to unraveling.
And then he pulls his mouth off of you, âWhyâd you leave?â
A shocked gasp escapes you. At the timing of the question and the way he bites the fleshy part at the crease of your thigh.
âBradley.â You keen as he sucks the very same spot, like he wants to mark you as his own.
âCâmon now, Bradshaw,â Jake tuts, from where heâs leaning against the door jamb, âOur girl was so close.â His ankles casually cross over each other, looking right at home as he watches you get eaten out by another man.
Rooster scoffs. âShe can come as much as she wants, after she answers the damn question.â He brings the hand that had been gripping your hip over the center of you. âHow about this,â he says, sinking a single thick finger into you, âConsider this a show of good faith.â
And then he has the audacity to send you a smirk.
âFuck you, Rooster,â you huff, tilting into his touch. Bradley just hums and rolls his eyes, because he knows you well enough to tell when you actually mean it and when you donât.
âYou could be,â he reminds you. Then crooks his finger just enough to show you how devastatingly good it could be if he wasnât set on edging an answer out of you.
You roll your hips trying to take more. To get him to give more. Anything to get you to that heady place again, where the only thing keeping you grounded in the moment is their bodies against yours.
âThatâs it, sweetheart, keep riding his fingers.â Hangmanâs hot gaze roams all over you as he crosses the room to sit down on the bed next to you. He reaches out and runs a big hand down your sternum, you arch into it offering more of yourself up to his touch. You know heâs feeling every jump of the muscles in your stomach under his heavy hand as he rests it in the soft space under your bellybutton.
You suck in a breath when Bradley teases you with a second finger. He only allows you one heartbeat of hope before he denies you that more, more, more youâre desperate for.
But he wasnât the only one in the room capable of giving you exactly what you wanted.
âJake, come on, fuck me.â You look up at him from under your lashes, hoping heâll be the one to cave first.
âYouâre a regular poet laurate, arenât you,â Jake states, shaking his head at you.
You shoot him a glare. âIâll write you a haiku later, just make me come.â
You feel a puff of air over your cunt from Roosterâs amused chuckle. It causes you to clench around his finger, but itâs not enough to get you there.
You try to reach for Hangmanâs cock, still confined in the snug jeans he was wearing. He doesnât even give you the chance to undo the top button before he catches your hand in his. âNuh-uh, greedy girl, none of that.â Hangman presses the palm of your hand over his length, showing exactly what youâre being denied. âNot sure youâve earned this, not after your disappearing act.â
âNot you too,â you pant. Werenât sure if it was the weight on your chest or the sheer want of them that was making it hard for you to get a proper breath.
âYes, me too. I donât think you realize just how much you worried the old man,â Jake drawls, âYou know that canât be good for his heart.â
The old man between your trembling thighs takes the opportunity to rub his mustache over your needy clit, the friction of it almost makes you jump out of your too tight skin. And for an all too brief moment your mind blanks as need ricochets throughout your body, the only thing you can think of is how desperate you are to come.
Jake collects your other wrist in his warm hand and brings them up above your head. He leans over you, with your faces only a few inches apart you can smell the peppermint of his favorite mints on his breath.
âLeave them up there for me,â he murmurs. Itâs a command thatâs dressed up like a request.
He pauses a moment and searches your eyes, asking you a silent question with the resolved dip of his chin. You answer by curling your fingers into the edge of your mattress, itâs your first concession of the evening. The only one youâre planning on making.
Jake gives them a quick squeeze before he lets go, âGood girl.â His southern accent is smoother and richer than honey against your ear, it makes your toes curl in response.
âOh, now you want to behave,â Bradley grumbles into your inner thigh, his slightly chapped lips scraping against your oversensitive skin. âDonât forget, Iâm still waiting for an answer, baby.â
His fingertip on your clit isnât teasing anymore, now it feels like a taunt.
âNext question.â You dig your heel into his shoulder blade, urging him for more, but he doesnât budge an inch.
Neither one of you are ready to fold.
You can feel the sweat starting to collect behind your knees where theyâre resting over the overheated skin of Bradleyâs shoulders as he alternates between slow, shallow thrusts and a featherlight touch of his calloused fingertip against your clit. Every now and then- if heâs feeling generous- heâll treat you to his tongue, dipping out to taste and tease you.
Rooster takes his time in that thorough way of his to get your legs quivering and quaking. He keeps you teetering there, perfectly and precisely balanced on the edge. Not enough to get you off, but just enough to keep a steady flow of wetness dripping out of you. You donât need to see his hand to know youâre making a mess out of him. Out of yourself. And probably out of your duvet.
Your body feels like a house of cards, just one breath away from toppling over. gust
âJesus,â Jake says, his voice husky and rough, âI wonât ever get tired of seeing you like this.â His eyes feasting on your body thatâs displayed just for their hungry gaze.
But he might, that voice in your head taunts you. They might.
You press your forehead into his denim covered thigh, itâs all too much and not enough all at once.
This wasnât what youâd imagined when youâd invited them inside. Youâd envisioned hand mussed hair and skin-on-skin and their flushed, satisfied faces. And so far, you were still the only one naked.
âYouâre not⌠This isnâtâŚâ Your fingers flex as your arms strain with the effort to keep them where they are raised above your head. âWhy are you still dressed?â you hotly demand, not ready to forfeit this one-sided fight.
âIâm just here for the free show.â Hangman circles his finger lazily around your bellybutton. âYouâve been so determined to be so tight-lipped all night, but that pretty pussy of yours is sure making a lot of noise for a woman who hasnât even been properly fucked yet.â
Youâre hit with the realization that heâs giving you a taste of what youâd been dishing out since the moment theyâd arrived, always one to give as good as he gets. It was just as hot as it was infuriating. Because thatâs the thing about knowing how to push someoneâs buttons was that they knew exactly how to push yours in return.
âYou better watch your mout-ah.â You might have sounded almost convincing if Rooster hadnât pumped three thick fingers into you suddenly, stretching and spreading you around them. You gasp and arch off the bed at the sensation. Itâs the most heâs given you all night.
Jake tsks, flashing you his dimples. âBut Iâm having fun watching his mouth instead,â he says, nodding his head towards Bradley. âSpeaking of, you got a little something on your chin there, Bradshaw.â
âThatâs because arguing gets her wet.â
You canât even deny it because the evidence is right there for them both to hear in the slick sound of him thrusting his fingers back into you. You press your head into the bed and try to arch your hips, but Jakeâs firm hand pushes them back down, making you whine.
âRooster, please, I just want to come.â And if it sounds like begging, itâs because you are now.
âAnd you know what I want, so it seems weâre at a stalemate.â You try to hitch your right leg open further, but Bradley hooks his arm around your thigh and pulls it back in, keeping you in place. âBaby, Iâve got all the time in the world. Iâm a patient man. For as much fun as Iâm having here trying to get an answer out of you, Iâd much rather be coaxing orgasms from you instead.â
The frustration swells and crests inside of you. Youâre tired of being toyed with when all youâd wanted was to not have to think for a while.
âBradley, you canât seriously expect me to want to have a damn heart-to-heart when your fingers are literally inside of me,â you fume.
âOk, then.â He pins you with a pointed look and withdraws them, finally calling your bluff. âCan you please tell us what the hell is going on now?â
Jake tips your chin up to look at him, the congeniality replaced on his face with seriousness. âAs much as I try to avoid agreeing with him, I think you owe us an explanation for why you left without saying a single word to either one of us, darlinâ.â
âI didnât realize I answered to you,â you say, haughtily. Not proud of yourself for getting short with them when they donât deserve the heat of your irritation. Â
His eyebrows pull together in confusion. âHey now, you know itâs not like that.â
âWhatâs it like then, Jake? Itâs not like youâre-â you cut yourself off, pressing your lips tightly together.
Of course he doesnât let it slide. âWeâre not what?â
Him and Rooster exchange a look over the top of you when you donât elaborate further, some unspoken understanding passing between them. The mood between the three of you shifting immediately.
Hangman tugs you up just enough for him to maneuver himself behind you and cradles you back against his chest, his arms winding themselves around your waist. As Bradley rests his chin on top of your thigh, his thumb making soothing circles on the swell of your hip, âWeâre not what, baby?â And youâre not sure youâve ever heard his raspy voice so soft before. Â
The silence stretches as you war with yourself. They know you well enough to know you need a moment. Youâd made a career for yourself knowing the right words- the strategic kind- but when it came to communicating your feelings, youâd always found it so much harder to string them together.
This is the exact conversation youâd been trying so hard to run from, but you didnât want to play games with them anymore.
Sharing your emotions makes you feel a thousand times more vulnerable than being naked in front of them ever has. With them you feel sexy and powerful and wanted, especially when youâre pressed between them like you are now. Itâs a different kind of intimacy entirely letting them see the confusing mess of whatâs going on inside your mind.
âDoes this have anything to do with Rooster teasing you about being jealous earlier tonight?â Hangman asks, lifting an eyebrow. âBecause you should know by now that I only have eyes for one girl.â
And there it is- bullseye.Â
Your gaze slides over to Bradley, âYou told him about that?â He shrugs a broad shoulder, which jostles the thigh thatâs still draped over it.
âHe was concerned when we realized you werenât at the Hard Deck anymore, we both were.â Jake cups your cheek and turns your face back to him, encouraging you to rest your head on his shoulder. Â âI asked him to fill me in on what Iâd missed, because I thought we were having a good night up until I came back from the bar to learn you werenât anywhere to be found and not answering your phone.â
The wave of guilt that washes over you makes your stomach churn uncomfortably. Youâd been so inside your own head that you hadnât taken even a moment to think about how theyâd feel about your impulsive retreat. At the very least, you should have sent a text before turning off your phone.
You chew on your lower lip for a moment, before speaking, your voice quiet and tentative, âYou canât be jealous when you donât have any real claim to someone.â
Itâs not like you can be frustrated at anyone other than yourself. You were the one who wanted to try and keep things discreet. Casual. Because of your job and theirs. People talked enough on their own without you wanting to give them any more fuel to add to the smoking embers.
The rumors of your favorite aviatorsâ hook up had followed them for years since that first time it happened in Florida, just not many people knew that it had been you from the very start. Youâd all kept in touch, but infrequent nights spent tangled in sheets before returning back to your real life was different than all of you being stationed together for the foreseeable future.
The ambiguity of what you all were to each other had chafed at you tonight in a way it never has before. It wasnât something that youâd all talked about together before. After seeing the interest on the other womanâs face, you couldnât deny that her and Jake had looked good together. But what youâd been most struck by was just how content and at ease he looked leaning there with an elbow at the bar.
It wasnât a secret those closest to you all there was something going on between the three of you. After all, Bradley was affectionate and Jake was objectively the least subtle man on the planet. It wasnât something you were hiding; it just wasnât something you were actively trying to broadcast to all of NAS North Island.
But for the most part, theyâd been following your lead since they knew you liked to keep your cards close to your chest. And while you liked to consider yourself an enigma, they were both looking at you right now like you were a book that only they were fluent in reading.
ââReal claimâ,â Jake repeats back to you, slowly. Like heâs not believing what heâs hearing. âOh darlinâ, whereâd you get that idea?â
âIs that what this is all about?â Roosterâs eyes are intense as he looks at you. âJust because weâve been keeping things casual doesnât mean this thing between all of us isnât the real deal. Iâm not seeing or sleeping with anyone else. And I donât want to.â
âIâm not either,â Hangman adds, running his hands along your sides. âIâve got my hands more than full with you and I like it that way.â
You knew that they werenât and they knew you werenât too. Sex has always been the easier thing to talk about. That particular discussion had ended with the mix of their cum dripping out of you and too many orgasms to count.
But what happened if having fun turned into wanting more. You didnât know how long theyâd be fine with this dynamic, with splitting time and attention.
You look from one to the other. From green to brown. âAnd youâre both truly fine with sharing? I need you to be really honest with me.â
Bradley tilts his head at you, and asks, âYou donât think weâve talked about this before?â
A surprised laugh almost slips out of you at the mental image of them hashing out their feelings during the commercials between some game on TV, but heâs looking at you so thoughtfully that you know heâs being entirely serious. The fact that this was something theyâd already discussed between themselves on their own was news to you, especially considering you felt like you could barely get the words out yourself.
âI had no idea,â you admit, not sure whether to feel sheepish or not.
Jake tangles the fingers of your right hands together. âThe way I see it is that even when youâre not with me, I know youâre with someone I know and trust, who cares about you just as much as I do. Someone whoâs going to look out for you the same way that I would.â
You almost expect him to tack on a joke at Roosterâs expense at the end, a bit of banter or something to liven the mood, but he doesnât. And the weight of his words sinks into you.
âAnd when weâre together? When itâs the three of us?â You reach out with your other hand to run your thumb along Bradleyâs jaw, needing to touch him too.
âYou know us pilots, weâre a competitive bunch. But we also work as well on our own as we do as a team.â Bradley explains, running his hands along the outside of your legs. âAnd what we do here together with you, it just feels like an extension of how we are up there.â Jake squeezes your hand in agreement.
âBut how is this going to work? Itâs already complicated enough when there are only two people in the equation.â
âYouâre the one calling the shots here. Youâre in charge and always have been ever since that first time in Pensacola,â Rooster reminds you. âWeâre both here because we donât want anyone else. This doesnât need to be complicated. Whether youâre with him or with me or weâre all together. Itâs already working just fine when you arenât going ghost on us and ditching us without saying a word.â
You know youâre going to have to make it up to him. For as confident and sure of himself as Bradley Bradshaw is, you know the spots where heâs tender and tonight you were careless with them. Youâre just grateful heâs going to give you the chance to make things right by him.
âWeâre good. This is good,â Jake promises, leaning his forehead against your temple.
You feel like your heart might burst from the sheer affection you have for the two of them.
âIâm sorry about tonight,â you say, apologetically.
Hangmanâs lips skim your cheek. âItâs water under the bridge, darlinâ. But if you need space, tell us. Donât just cut us off like that, ok?â You nod in agreement. âSo what do you need from us? Do you want to call us your boyfriends?â
âI think I justâŚâ You pause to mull over your words. They already were in all the ways that mattered, you just werenât sure whether you were ready to define it entirely. At least not yet. âI think I just need to know that youâre happy. Just like this. With how weâve been doing things.â
âBaby.â Bradley croons. So sweetly, so indulgently. And you get the first real smile youâve seen from him since he arrived on your doorstep. Itâs your turn to smile when he drops a kiss to the top of your thigh. âAre you happy?â
The answer is easy.
âYes.â
He looks over at Jake. âAnd are you?â
Jake has his chin propped up on your shoulder. âIâm happy,â he confirms, kissing the spot behind your ear that always makes you shiver deliciously.
âAnd I definitely donât have anything to complain about.â Rooster says, gesturing to his spot between your legs. You lightly tug on his hair and he laughs. âYes, sweetheart, Iâm happy too.â He reaches for your hand and presses a kiss to the back of it.
âSo I was the only one overthinking things?â
âYou sure were,â Hangman agrees, âYou and that big brain of yours.â He trails open-mouth kisses up your neck. âNow have you straightened out your shit or are we going to have to do it for you?â he asks into the shell of your ear. You can feel the grin heâs wearing, and youâre positive if you turned to look at him youâd see those dimples of his.
âNo promises,â you sing.
Because whereâs the fun in that?
âThere she is,â Bradley murmurs, honeyed and soft. A sigh escapes you when you feel his tongue along the inside of your thigh, even as your heart starts to race.
âThatâs our girl.â Jake tips your head back, lips a whisper away from yours and desire reflected in his green eyes. âHereâs whatâs going to happen. Youâre going to kiss me until he makes you come. And then Iâm going to fuck the attitude out of you while you apologize to Rooster for being so mouthy. Weâre gonna remind you what itâs like to have two aviators wrapped around your little finger. Sound good?â
He doesnât give you a chance to reply as he slips his tongue into your mouth at the same time Bradley licks into you. And you know this time you wonât have to beg for an orgasm, youâll probably have to beg them to stop serving you them.
You feel yourself melt into them. The tension youâd been carrying since even before the bar fades with every one of their touches. Happy and content in knowing that theyâre yours just as much as you are theirs.
And true to his word, youâre kissed through an orgasm. And another. And another.
That night, there are two mouths that never leave your body once.
Two sets of hands that are just as capable of keeping you grounded as they are giving you pleasure.
Two warm, strong bodies that give and take then hold you throughout the night.
Two men who- one day very soon - might possibly share your whole heart.
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Azul, Rook, Idia, Riddle playing with S/O in snow headcanons if youcan please!! tyvm Raven!
Curiouser and Curiouser...
The cold doesnât bother Azul (heâs dealt with worse in the chilly waters of the Coral Sea), but heâs reluctant to do anything that requires exerting a lot of stamina. It wonât be long before heâs wheezing and and pink-faced, and needs to stop to catch his breath. Because of this, he insists on slower paced activities with more emphasis on planning than vigorous movements.
After some back and forth, you come to a mutual agreement: youâll pick one activity, and Azul will pick another. Heâll do his best to honor his end of the bargain with you, but it wonât be without some grumbling, depending on what your choice is. Azul doesnât very much enjoy being pelted with snowballs or having blistering wind chills tearing at his face as he sleds down a steep hillâbut heâll grit his teeth and endure it for you.
His glasses fog up terribly in the winter weather! He has to take them off and wipe them on his coat or on his scarf every so often just to keep his vision clear. Itâs one of the few moments when you can glimpse him without his glasses (though heâs quick to replace them and smugly ask if you âsee something on his faceâ).
When itâs his turn to choose something to do, Azul takes the reins of command and announces his plans to build a snow sculpture. He starts by etching a large circle on the ground and, as a stickler for interior design, mumbles to himself about potential furniture. Block by block, you and Azul carefully construct a spacious igloo, complete with little snow stools and a low, flat mound resembling a coffee table.
Once your new shelter is complete, of course youâve got to crawl inside to test it out! Itâs a little cramped and dark, but the igloo is surprisingly warm and cozy, especially squished so closely with Azul. (Is this what itâs like in his octopot? you wonder.) âFor what it is, itâs adequate,â he remarks with a vague blush, â... but itâs certainly not what I had in mind for the home weâd one day share. When the time comes, I ensure you that it will be nicer than an igloo.â
Rookâs ecstatic to join you for a day of fun in the snow. So ecstatic, in fact, that he skips ringing your doorbell or knocking the door (you know, like any rational person would) and instead heads to right below your window. Forming a snowball in his hands, he chucks it at the glass panes to grab your attentionâand shoots a smile, and a morning greeting, from below.
Heâs open to any and all winter time activities! Rookâs not that picky; heâll happily follow along with whatever youâre in the mood to do. If you happen to choose something competitive (say, a snow all fight), heâs good about restraining his physical prowess to allow you a reasonable chance of defeating him. (... Though if you accuse him of âtaking it easyâ on you, heâll throw his hands up and deny it, instead attributing his loss to your skillful play.)
His artistic abilities can be put on full display, with snow as his medium! While you work on making a standard snowman (even if its head is more narrow than round), Rook whips up fantastical sculptures with his bare handsâa deer family and a cheeky rabbit, a boy playing with a bear, a llama (eating... spinach puffs?), and finally, a pair of strikingly familiar people, happily embracing one another.
Rook shows you how to identify animals by their tracks! Together, you crouch low to the ground and exchange hushed whispers over the shapes in the snow, sometimes coming across dens in a forest of barren trees. He warns you not to disturb the hibernating animalsâbut should you come across one that is awake and well, heâll coax it closer so you can run a hand along its fur.
You decide to make snow angels to leave your own mark in the area. Side by side, you collapse with Rook onto your backs, spreading your arms and legs out to form glorious wings. You get back up and brush off the snow, Rook chuckling as he helps pluck out particularly large chunks from your coat. âWhen all the snow melts away, there is only an angel left behind,â he croons, fingers weaving through your hair. âWhat a lucky man I am, to have an ange before me.â
It must be a Christmas miracle that you managed to coax Idia out of his room and out into a winter wonderland. He looks so awkward standing there, sharp teeth chattering, shrinking in on himself in the middle of a flurry of white, snow fizzling away as soon as it makes contact with his scorching hair. His enthusiasm is at an all-time low, and itâs up to you to lift his spirits!
Idiaâs clumsyânot that he usually is, but this otakuâs definitely not used to treading on slippery ground! Every other step is a dare with death itself, with Idia stumbling over his own feet to correct his balance. Itâs even worse for him when he attempts (re: attempts) to join you on a frozen lake for ice-skating. He has to cling onto you for dear life as you slowly make your way around the rink, praying that his trembling legs wonât double over and make him look lame.
Idiaâs like a walking furnace. Whenever youâre too cold, all you need to do is lean a little into him to get an instant surge of warmth. Heâs especially warm when his emotions are running highâfrom your touch or from your words. And if you ask to hold his hand, or for his breath to thaw your fingers, itâs game over for Idia. That boyâs overheating, his brain is crashing, and it will take one looong debriefing before he reboots again.
Heâs not a fan of normie activities, but heâll gladly augment sports with his various inventions, just to make it feel more like a video game! Idiaâs got a snowball shaping machine, and a snowball launchers for faster and more precise aimâone for you, and one for himself. But donât think heâll go easy on you just because he tried to even the playing field! Idiaâs playing to win and come out on top, getting so swept up in the match that his cackling carries well across the silent snow.
Once the FRZN status has really started to eat away at him, Idia packs up his gadgets and begs you to go back inside. Even with the whirring machines scattered throughout Ignihyde generating warmth, itâs not quite enough to keep you comfy. A hesitant glance, a nervous bite of his lipâand Idia awkwardly extends both arms, his eyes lowered to the ground. âI-If you want... I could also warm you up... w-with a spare hoodie or something!! D-Donât assume this is a high level love flag...!â
Riddle has always wanted to frolic in the snow, even if he may not always express it. He rarely had the chance to play outside as a child, but his curiosity has never died out. Youâll often catch him staring out of the window during a study session, his eyes fixated on the blanketed landscape, and the drifting bales of whiteâso when you finally suggest that Riddle experience it for himself, he agrees.
Riddleâs unsure of how you properly âplayâ in the snow, so he asks you to demonstrate for him. For a while, he shuffles after you, hands stuffed into his pockets, and watches as you show off the snowâs qualitiesâhow fluffy it is, how cold it is against your skin, how quickly it melts at your touch. He listens and observes with rapt attention, eventually bringing himself to scoop up some snow for himself, and allow a few falling flecks to hit his tongue.
Since he has the chance, Riddle wants to try a little bit of everything. He trusts you to be his guide as he stumbles on ice, shapes the snow, and decorates with sticks and stones and uneaten vegetables... Itâs a joy to watch him slowly open up and familiarize himself with it all. Riddle laughs and smiles like he hasnât been able to in a long time. (... Is that a tear in the corner of his eye, or it that just melted snow?)
As much as he enjoys catching up on aspects of his childhood that he missed out on, Riddleâs resilience (or lack thereof) soon catches up to him. Like a rose, he canât take ice and frost for too long before wilting. You shelter Riddle and his bright red nose, huddling close as you lead him inside and throw a thick blanket over his small form.
You prepare mugs of hot chocolate, piled high with whipped cream and marshmallowsâone for you and one for Riddle. Together, you snuggle by the fireplace as you sip at your drinks, warming you from the inside out. âIâve never had this much fun before,â Riddle softly confides in you. His fingers slowly trace the rim of his cup, his image reflected back to him in the chocolate. â... Thank you for sharing this with me.â
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Drs Styles
paediatric heart surgeon harry, husband harry and dad harry. honestly the holy trinity.
warning: they did it in the car. bloody animals.
Harry
âMove your car, please!â
âWhat are you going to do? Write me a ticket?â
âThis is in the interests of safety for the children!â
I look at the time in the car. Iâve still got about twenty to twenty-five minutes to watch this drama unfold at the school gate. I just wish we had popcorn because drop-off and parking situations at the school gates are always more entertaining than Good Morning Britain.Â
The school gate is a strange social scene, and honestly, I donât blame my wife for trying to avoid it like a plague. Sometimes, you donât even have to talk to these people to know everything about their lives and more. I swear there are more gossips in the class WhatsApp group and daily playground chattering than in the copies of The Sun and Daily Mail combined. You know whoâs married, whoâs getting a divorce, whose husband shagged the au pair again, whose party you havenât been invited to, even whoâs looking for a builder.Â
I see the school caretaker chuckling to himself as he sweeps the autumn leaves off the pathway, no doubt also enjoying our morning entertainment.Â
âWhy is Mrs Chambers screaming like that?â Alma, our eldest daughter, asks from the back of the car.Â
âBecause that man parks his car in a drop-off zone,â I reply, still watching him as he removes a child from his car seat. âDo you know who that is?â
âI think the boy is your classmate,â Alma turns to her sister.
Fiona, our youngest, peers over to inspect. âOh yeah, thatâs Rufus and his dad.â
âDo we like Rufus?â
âNot unless we like boys who pee down the slides,â Fiona scrunches her nose up. âHe stood at the top and peed down like a waterfall. I havenât gone down the slide ever since.â
I shake my head and let out a chuckle. âMâsure theyâve cleaned it up since, button.âÂ
Did you know that choosing a school for your child after nursery can be a head-throbbing, stomach-twisting, heart-pounding experience? Well, it can. How is one supposed to choose a school anyway? According to the proximity? Leavers Results? Adorable uniforms? Parentsâ agendas?
After many, many discussions and visits through more schools than I can count, we ended up with Thomasâs Kensington. Itâs a great school, and only ten minutes away from our home, making school runs easier. The downside of this school is the fact that it costs us an arm and a leg and that theyâre always trying to rip us off any chance they get. Also, they only take the kids until 11, so after that, weâll have to look for other schools again. But since our girls are only seven and five, we can worry about that later.Â
Thereâs a strange mix of parents at this place. I went to school up in the North and the school gate scene is nothing like this. Here there are more au pairs, fancy cars, nicer clothes and people coming with impressive tans from their last weekend break in Antibes. The kids here are suited up too: the PE kit is the size of a small weekender bag, and we put them in uniforms that make them look smart, hoping that will increase the size of their brains. A child walks past our car with a cello case, another with a hockey stick. Itâs a different land here. One that my socialist in-laws constantly tease us about and one which my mum was hysterical about because she was scared her grandbabies would be little Tories. I promised her Iâd keep them grounded by only giving them plain hobnobs. None of those luxury chocolate covered ones.
Jokes aside, my girls are happy here. Theyâre thriving. They learn French and Spanish and Mandarin, even if they share a class with kids who have ridiculous names like Kitty and Archibald.Â
A knock at my window calls me to attention. I wind it down.
âAre you Fionaâs dad?â A mum asks me.
âI am.â
âItâs about Opheliaâs riding party this Saturday at the riding stables.âÂ
Like I said, itâs a different land here.
âI thought we RSVPed to that?â I look at her in confusion.
âYes, you did, but we have to change the food options as one of the partygoers is allergic to nuts. Iâm making everyone aware and we need to let the guests know that they canât bring any nuts on the day.â
A dirty joke is right there on the tip of my tongue and Iâm trying my hardest to keep it in. My wife would definitely find it funny though, Iâve got to remember this and tell her later.Â
âNoted,â I mean, I wasnât going to send my daughter to a party with a packet of cashews anyway but I nod politely.
âAnd just gift vouchers for gifts please. Smiggle, if you can.â
Again, I nod, biting my tongue at the presumptuousness. But then I suddenly panic, because we havenât entered the realms of pony riding just yet. Do I have to buy jods and boots? If I donât, will my daughter be the odd one out? But Opheliaâs mum saunters off before Iâve got the chance to ask.
âDo I have to go to that party, daddy?â Fiona asks.Â
âWell, weâve already replied, poppet,â I tell her. âDid you not want to go?â
âIâll go if I have to.â
I donât answer because I get distracted by a vacant space. I edge the car forward so my girls can hop off.Â
âI love you both. Have a good day, make good choices.âÂ
âBye daddy! Weâll see you after work!â
***
Evelina London Childrenâs Hospital is our second home. Of course, as a childrenâs hospital, we try to make the place as fun as possible as not to freak those little patients out at being ill. It is bright and primary coloured, and each ward is decorated according to its own theme with different colours and lovely artworks. There are televisions and toys almost in every corner. We have a giant slide on the ground floor, and even the bins are shaped like red London buses. The aim was to help the children to forget that theyâre in a hospital and take their minds off their sickness.
Since my wife and I are in the same department, our offices are next to each other, both overlooking the Thames. Itâs nice up here. Wouldâve been nicer if we could sneak in a quickie, but thatâs practically impossible with our shared secretaryâs desk sitting literally in front of our doors.Â
Speak of the devil.
âGood morning. Hereâs your tea,â my secretary follows me into my office with a cup of tea and a tiny plate with a couple of rich tea fingers. âClinic until 3 pm, scheduled PDA ligation in the laboratory for 4 pm and then evening rounds on the wards.â
âMorninâ Rhonda, you look lovely today,â I greet her cheerily. Sheâs a stern-looking woman who definitely likes her tea as strong as tits and who has probably never cried in her life. With such severity, she runs a tight ship, but she secretly has this affectionate side in her too. Not only is she a great secretary, but she also takes care of us in a way as a grandma does. She makes us tea, feeds us in between surgeries with biscuits or nice baby cheeses and crackers just so we wouldnât starve.Â
See that sofa over there in the corner of my office? Rhonda got me that. It was around the time when I had just become a new father with the sweetest, most gorgeous little baby who did not sleep. Alma wasnât a fussy baby though. For some reason, she just wouldnât go back to sleep after her midnight feed for months. Believe me, I tried everything. I changed her nappy, I swayed and jiggled and rocked and sung her to sleep. Odd nonsensical songs like, âAlma darling go to sleeep. Sleepy sleep sleep. Pleeeeease. Iâm so tirrrred. My eyeballs may actually exploooode. I donât want you to see thaaat.â And she would just look at me all wide-eyed like Iâd lost the plot. Those were song lyrics? That was rubbish. Please donât give up your day job. Also, itâs not sleeping time. Iâm awake. Iâm ready for life. Come on, entertain me, old man. Isnât this nice, just you and me? Tell me everything you know. EVERYTHING.Â
Except of course she didnât say all that. She would just stare at me and I had no idea what was going on in her little head.Â
I took over my wifeâs patients at the hospital during her maternity leave, so I had longer hours at the hospital. One day Rhonda found me napping on the floor between surgeries, so she sweet-talked some porters into looking for any old sofas on the go and paid to have this one reupholstered. She even bought me a fleece throw for it too. We really donât deserve her.
âYou hittinâ on me?â She deadpans. âYer wife not doing it for you these days?â
âItâs the blazer. Iâm a sucker for a blazer.â
âIf Iâd known, I wouldâve worn it more often,â she replies. âDid my nice dress yesterday not give you the fanny flutters?â
âItâs schlong shiver for me,â I roar with laughter. âAnd itâs the tartan, makes you look well old.â
âYN, yer husbandâs a bloody git, did I ever tell you that?â Rhonda says loud enough for my wife to hear, and I can hear my wifeâs laughter from her office next door. âDrink your tea. Your first clinic appointment is in twenty.â
âYes maâam,â I salute her.Â
***
The Arctic ward in the Evelina is home to many of our imaging, heart and kidney services. The name is probably giving it away, but everything is decorated in blue and white to go with the theme. We have several zones, and since paediatric cardiology clinics are held in the Walrus zone, I spend a great deal of time each day looking at walrus and snowflake decals.Â
âDoctor Styles!â I hear a little voice shouts in excitement as I walk towards the waiting room in the outpatient ward. I smile, because I recognise that voice even before I see the little person.
The waiting room is very open here compared to other hospitals. Thereâs a sea of noise, snacks, tiny juice boxes and colouring pages. Thereâs also always a look of expectation, judgement on the faces of parents and guardians every time I walk in. They want to see if their doctor is old or qualified enough to see their children. Thereâs always one child who has the whole gang with them; parents, two sets of grandparents and even several aunts and uncles, and thereâs also at least one child running around in circles out of boredom.Â
This little lad bounces off his chair and hurls himself at me in a way like a little puppy would when its owner comes home from work. I put an arm out, hoping that heâll apply the brakes but no such luck and he bundles himself into my arms. âNice to see you, mate.â
His parents smile as they watch their sonâs antics, who then runs off as I shake their hands. I turn around to see what caught his attention, and I canât help but chuckle when I realise itâs my wife.Â
âDoctor pretty Styles!â He exclaims excitedly as he bundles himself into her arms. She gets a mouthful of curls in the process.Â
âHi Rory,â she greets him as she runs her fingers through his curly mop.Â
âOi,â I pout as I walk towards them. âYou donât think Iâm pretty?â
âYour wife is prettier,â he says with a shrug, his tone matter-of-fact.
She laughs and gives him a high-five. âRory, you are officially my favourite patient.â
She is right. Rory is one of our special patients for sure. Weâve both known him for about six years now, ever since Roryâs mum gave birth to this tiny human next door at St Thomas and his heart was literally broken. I remember watching proudly from the theatre when my wife replaced two of his valves when he was born. It was in our early years of training. Long time patients like Rory almost always feel like family. Weâve seen all their parentsâ tears and watched over their children throughout the years. They send us cards and wine every Christmas and despite all attempts to keep a professional distance, their kids do feel like our own.
Rory shrugs off his dinosaur rucksack and unzips it, pulling out a drawing of a blue whale and an opened packet of KitKat. I like that the whale wears a top hat and appears to also don a moustache.Â
âI drew you both a picture. Only one though, because I figure you can share,â he says with a big toothy grin and hands the packet of KitKat to my wife. âAnd Iâve got half a KitKat here. Do you want it?â
âIâm good for now. Keep that KitKat for later on the tube,â she smiles and waves at Rory as she begins to walk away towards the fetal cardiology ward just down the hall. âBye Rory, thanks for the picture.â
âBye doctor pretty Styles,â Rory replies, making my wife laugh as she walks away. I give her a wave and a wink.Â
âHey Rory, did you know a blue whale has a heart the size of a small car?â I ask him and his eyes widen.
âNo way! Thatâs mega!â He exclaims. âDo you think you could operate on a whale heart?â
âI would need a very big ladder,â I tell him. âAnd a wetsuit. Iâd give it a go though.â
A senior nurse from the outpatient ward, Florence approaches us with a junior nurse trailing behind her. âDr Styles, always a pleasure.â
I smile at her. âFlorence. How are we today?â
âBusy as usual,â she replies. âWeâre about twenty minutes behind Iâm afraid. We had Dr Goodridge in this morning and you know he likes to talk.â
âHe always runs over,â I chuckle. âWell, donât worry. Iâll skip lunch and get us back up to speed.â
âIâll make sure to send some snacks for you. Hereâs your chart, your files are already in your office. And this is Alice, your nurse today. Sheâs newly qualified so might need some instructions.â
The new nurse looks terrified so I smile at her to try and calm her fears. I totally get that. When you work in medicine, unfortunately, youâll realise that there are a lot of rude self-important wankers.Â
I look down at my chart and find Roryâs name on the top of the list. âWell, look whoâs coming with me to the exam room.â
Rory reaches out to hold my hand and we walk towards the examination room. His parents follow us closely, carrying the usual coats and devices that people do when they know theyâre bound for a hospital waiting room. I see them inside and sit behind the desk.
âSo, young man, I hear weâve had a touch of drama with you. Can you tell me what happened?â
Iâve actually already got the information in the file, but I like the way this kid tells a story. He reminds me of my youngest.Â
âSo⌠I was at school and we were doing PE and I wasnât really feeling it because it was cold and really we should have been inside but Mr Witter makes us go outside because he used to be in the Army apparently and he says we should get used to the cold but thatâs what they do in prisons.â
I smile. âGo on.â
âAnd then my heart started running.â
âYou mean racing?â
He nods firmly. Racing isnât even the word. It sprinted to the finish like Bolt at 252 beats per minute, three times the speed it should.
âIt felt like bubbles in my chest and then the school went crazy panicky and they called the ambulance and they brought me to the hospital but not this one, it was another one and it wasnât as good because you werenât there and they had really bad biscuit.â
His mum adds. âAnd they gave him some drugs to bring it back to a steady rhythm; they were close to shocking him.â Her voice trails off and both parentsâ faces look drawn and pale remembering the incident.
Rory looks absolutely unbothered by this. To be fair, we have put this little man through everything. Weâve cut his chest open more times than is necessary for someone so small, we hook him up to machines and put him on treadmills. His resilience and character amaze me, and I really canât imagine what it feels like to see your child so vulnerable and helpless, to be paralysed and weighed down with such worry.
âAlright then, little man, we need to make sure that your heart is working as it should. This is Alice, and she is going to take you over for an ECG and we just need to make sure your tick-tock is in good shape.â
Rory nods and jumps off the chair. His dad offers him a piggyback, and his mum smiles at them. I can hear Rory offering that half KitKat to Alice as they leave the room.Â
His mother turns to me as the door is closed, her shoulders relaxing, allowing herself to breathe. âAnd how are you?â I ask her.
âYou just think itâs done and then something like that comes along to scare you,â she says with a sigh.
âLetâs have these tests and then see if itâs anything major to worry about,â I try to calm her. âEpisodes of rapid heartbeat is quite common in Roryâs case, and we can look into drugs to remedy that if necessary.â
She smiles, nodding.
âDid you have any other questions for me?â
She studies my face for a moment too long. âI⌠well, it will show up in Roryâs records soon, but my husband I are⌠I mean weâre getting a divorce.â
I pause for a moment. Of course, I know these things happen in life, but Iâve known this couple for years. Iâve seen them at their lowest ebb, bound by friendship and their love for that boy. I really do feel sorry for them.
âOh, Iâm sorry,â I mumble.
âWe just⌠weâre terrified about telling Rory.â
âHe doesnât know?â I ask.
She shakes her head. âWeâre scared of breaking him. I mean, look at him. All of this stuff heâs been through and he carries on like nothing has happened. We donât want to upset him.â
âIt took a team of us the best part of six years to build Roryâs heart. There's a warranty on that workmanship,â I reassure her. âHave that chat with him. Heâll be fine.â
***
âHave we got time for dinner first?â I turn to my wife as we walk out of the hospital. We donât normally have the luxury of ending our shift at the same time, but today is exceptional. We have parentsâ evening at the girlsâ school so Rhonda made sure to clear up our schedule after our evening rounds at the ward.Â
âNo, but we can raid M&S and eat in the car?â
Iâm starving and I almost cry with relief at the suggestion. âAlways knew I married the right woman.â
She chuckles. âDamn right you did.â
We leave the car at the hospital and she drags me along the walkways to Waterloo, the breeze biting at our cheeks. I pull her into M&S, dodging the marching commuters and grab a basket.Â
âIâll look for some wine,â she says before she saunters off. âOh and I want sushi. None of that crap with the mayonnaise please.â
âAlright.â
I skipped lunch today so the whole place calls to me. I start taking very random things off the shelves: a packet of raspberry iced buns. Thatâll do. I also take some hummus for my wife because she bloody loves hummus. Iâm not even joking, Iâve seen her down a whole pot of it. Then I take some sushi as requested, some coleslaw, a family bag of mature cheddar and red onion crisps and a trifle. I hope I donât bump into Rhonda. Next are cheese twists, noodle salad and cocktail sausages.Â
It takes me a while to notice that there is a man right next to me with a roll of yellow stickers in their back pocket. Hello there, you are one of my favourite people tonight. Have I managed to find that sacred hour when all the food is being marked down? He labels some prawns with dip and even though I get a little squeamish about eating fish near its expiry date, I put it in my basket. I then follow him around the corner. Now, this is dinner. I put all sorts of random food in my basket and smile at the thought.
Ooh, knockdown pizzas. I should get a pizza. Thatâs tomorrowâs tea sorted, the girls will love it. Although I canât help but wonder, whatâs the limit for us to feed our daughters frozen pizza in a week before they get taken away from us? But eh, we might be able to get away with it if we give them frozen peas on the side.Â
âLook at you,â says my wife, depositing two bottles of red in the basket.Â
âYes, itâs me. Iâm the yellow sticker bitch.â
She snickers as we turn to head for the tills. âExcellent work.â
***
âMr and Mrs Styles, welcome.â
âMrs Ebner, always a pleasure,â I shake the headmistressâ hand whoâs standing at the door.Â
âBusy evening?â My wife asks her as she shakes her hand next.
âAlways,â the headmistress replies with a smile, then proceeds to speak like sheâs reading out of brochures. âBut such a wonderful opportunity to connect with our parents and build on the special relationships we have with our school community.âÂ
Two uniformed minions appear.
âLewis, Maggie, could you please show Mr and Mrs Styles through to the drinks reception?â
They both nod in unison. The boy holds his arms out like a waiter showing us to our table. We follow them through the schoolâs grand corridors to the main hall. Itâs the one thing I like about this place. Itâs very Hogwarts-like with hefty engraved name boards and sepia photos of successful sports teams. In the hall, a throng of parents mill around waiting to see respective teachers. Itâs the same every year. We all dodge the people from the PTA trying to sell us quiz tickets, and the bowls of crisps out of hygiene concerns.
âRed or white?â Asks a lady in an apron.
This right here is the very reason we get through parentsâ evening. From the look of the bottle, itâs decent wine too. I think thatâs where a good proportion of our fees is going.Â
âRed, please.â
We both take our glasses and walk to the corner of the hall. Itâs essentially a holding area without the background music. The idea is that all the parents will get on and create a party vibe but it just becomes a strange family gathering. As terrible as it sounds, itâs sorted into cliques: parents who know each other via NCT groups, the international expat brigades who keep to themselves, the parents whoâve ostracised themselves by gossip, the ones who you know regularly brunch and ski together.
The boy from earlier suddenly appears in front of us. âMrs Hughes is ready for you.â
I put my hand on the small of my wifeâs back as we walk towards the classroom. Fionaâs teacher first and then Almaâs straight after. Right, we can do this.
âMrs Hughes, we meet again,â I shake her hand. Iâve got no qualms about Mrs Hughes. Sheâs a seasoned teacher who likes a slack and sensible moccasin and weâre familiar with her since she taught Alma two years previously. When we enter the classroom, Lewis bows in reverence, taking his leave and I wonder whether to tip him.Â
âItâs always lovely to have another Styles girl in my classroom. Fiona is a particular delight.â
My wife and I smile proudly. Iâm sure Mrs Hughes says this to every parent here about their child, but thatâs always nice to hear.Â
âShe talks a lot about you,â my wife says. âShe seems to have settled in well.â
Mrs Hughes opens up a couple of books and itâs classic Fiona. Alma is ordered and neatâif she makes a mistake then she erases it completely and she underlines things with a ruler and listens to instruction carefully. She gets that from her mum. Fiona though, on the other hand, sheâs all me. She has more wild abandon about her; no rulers, no rubbers. She puts giant crosses through things that donât work and likes her bubble writing decorated with doodles of many, many cats.
I glance around the classroom as Mrs Hughes talks to us about standardised scores. The theme of the school is to show you how smart and educated these children are. Look at the copperplate handwriting, their reproductions of Van Gogh and our languages corner where theyâve all had a go at telling us what they like in French. I spy a contribution from my girl. Jâadore les chats et le gâteau au chocolat.Â
Iâve lost track of the conversation so I try to catch up.
âSo to push Fiona into those top scores, perhaps we can look into tutoring? For maths, in particular, so she can grasp some of the concepts a little more tightly,â says Mrs Hughes.Â
My wife and I look at each other confused. âUh, I donât think thereâs a need, right? Sheâs only five.â
âItâs never too early,â replies Mrs Hughes. âWe run an after-school tutoring club on Tuesdays that would help.â
Back when I was a youngster, clubs were fun endeavours that involved matching baseballs caps or were a chocolate biscuit that you had in your lunchbox. Maths tutoring session was not a club.
I ask her. âIs it free?â
âItâs fifteen pounds per session.â
See? My point being this should be a parentsâ evening, not a sales session.
âWell, then itâs something to think about,â says my wife. âIt could be that Fiona catches up with people throughout the year.â
âPossibly,â Mrs Hughes nods. Still, though, she proceeds to go into her folder and passes me a form. Sneaky. âFiona has also shown great interest in languages and art. Her pictures have been a joy.â
Mrs Hughes goes to a file and pulls one of Fionaâs drawings. I glance down at it. Itâs a standard child piece of art. The grass and sky are strips of colour to the top and bottom. Itâs a family portrait, and we are as tall as the broccoli style trees. Wait, hang on a second. I count the number of people in the picture again. Is that-
âAnd Mrs Styles, I gather congratulations are in order,â she says with a smile. âSuch lovely news.â
âIâm sorry?â
âFiona told me itâs a boy,â she adds, and the sheer terror on my wifeâs face at the realisation is priceless. âYou must be very thrilled.â
I study the picture. Thereâs a house in the middle, and standing in a line in front of the house is our family. The one slightly taller than the broccoli tree is me. Iâve got my white lab coat, and I look like a serial killer because Iâm holding a scalpel with the size of a butcherâs knife. Next to me is my wife, also with a white lab coat, but instead of a scalpel, sheâs holding a very chunky baby who rather looks like a basketball with a head.
âOh dear,â I chuckle. âGuess now we know what sheâll ask for Christmas.â
âYeah,â my wife shakes her head. âWeâre not expecting.â
âOh, I apologise,â Mrs Hughes says with a sheepish smile.
âNo worries, Mrs Hughes,â I tell her. âSo, what else has our girl been up to here? Besides gossiping of course.â
Mrs Hughes laughs under her breath. âWell, in class, Fiona is attentive, bright and very helpful. She is a credit to you both.â
***
âI swear your daughter, Styles.â
Weâre sitting in the car now. Finally done with parentsâ evening, still laughing at the slightly creepy, chunky basketball baby in Fionaâs picture and the fact that three people, including Mrs Hughes, have congratulated us for the âbabyâ.
âYou havenât called me Styles in years,â I turn to her with a grin. âNot since medical school.â
I canât help but flashback to the good olâ days when we had matching university hoodies and weâd test each other on the parts of a kidney whilst walking into lectures, sitting next to each other, sharing pens and cans of Lilt.Â
âWell, after that I became a Styles too,â she chuckles. âWould be confusing then, wouldnât it?â
âTrue,â I laugh under my breath, then I grab her hand and pull it to my mouth so I can kiss her knuckles. âThank you.â
âWhat for?â
âFor being a Styles.â
âAw, arenât we soppy tonight?â She smirks. âAlright, stop the car.â
âWhat?â
âThere,â she points to a dark empty spot and I oblige.Â
Then, before I can even ask her why, she reaches over and grabs me by the collar. Pulling me close to her and gives me a kiss. I kiss her back, and I smile when she bites gently on my bottom lip.
âOi, oi. Somethingâs got you randy.â
The next thing I know, she undoes her seatbelt and then rolls her trousers down her legs along with her knickers, fumbling and giggling at the awkward movement. I push my seat back and pull my trousers down.Â
âDonât fall on gearstick now,â I joke as she climbs over to straddle me. âWell, unless you want to, of courseâŚâ
She laughs as she lowers herself over my lap. I really canât believe whatâs happening here.
âMrs Styles, weâre about to have sex in a car. Around the corner from our daughtersâ school.âÂ
âI know,â she says with a smile before she runs her tongue along my neck. âNot our first rodeo though.â
âOh right, we did it in our Volvo years ago, didnât we? Thought the suspension couldnât take it.â
âAnd it turned out fine. Told you that you needed to have more faith in the Swedes, theyâre a reliable breed.â
âI love it when you talk about Sweden.â
âIkea.â
âFuck.â
âMeatballs.â
âBilly Bookcase.â
She throws her head back in laughter and I take this as an opportunity to run my tongue along her collar bone. She gasps. I reach down to lift her before I slowly lower her over my cock. We both sigh as I enter her, a long exhalation with our lips barely touching.Â
âViggo Mortensen.â
âIsnât he Danish?â
âTomato, Tomahto.â
I smile at my wife and push my hips up, silently telling her that we donât need to talk about Swedish people anymore. She grabs onto the car seat and levers herself up and down. I look at her in the eye, a goofy smile still plastered across my face.
But then I squint. Light. Bollocks, whatâs that? Whereâs that light coming from? Crap, thatâs bright. Shit. I see the flash of a hi-vis jacket, a knock at the window and someone shaking their head.
Oh sodding fucking bollocking shit wank.
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Hey I kinda wanna make a request (don't know if I have already)
13:Iâm not wearing anything under this
26:Donât make me pull over - thatâs it
29:Scream for me. I want everyone to know how good I make you feel
Praise Kink
Over-stimulation kink
With the loveable nerd donnie?
If this isn't possible I understand, love all your work by the way
I have never seen a more perfect set up. Friend youâve got it!
Rated Explicit (18+ only)
He exactly knew what you were trying to do from the moment you climbed into the truck in that frilly little sun dress. In fact he would bet a kidney that the choice of wardrobe on the hot summers night was catered to distract him to the point of muttering to himself.
Donnie was and is, a safe driver.
But that stupid dress had mysteriously ridden up your thighs when he hit a pothole somewhere into his drive through Manhattan. It was a fun little activity the two of you did all the time, a means of getting away, AC on high and privacy you both didnât get often.
But you had intentions.
Intentions that hopefully would lead to the a very good outcome. So when Donnie saw your hands smooth over the tops of your thighs, his eye would twitch. Never mind when you crossed your legs and that defiant flimsy fabric just allowed more skin to show.
â-could you believe the nerve of that guy? Anyways my boss fired him, good riddance honestly. What about you babe? How was your day?â Donnie had absorbed cero information for the first time in his life, he was at a red light, big brown eyes blinking at you.
You smirked, uncrossing your legs, crossing them the opposite way you had previously.
âWhatâs your game plan here?â He asked, you almost snorted.
âWhatever are you saying my dearest? Can a gal know how her manâs day has been?â Oh you were a clever sneak but your eyes always betrayed you and when the corners of your mouth shot up in a fit of laughter, Donnie frowned. âMy day is great! Just somewhat distracted by a certain someone, you know if we crash itâs totally your faultâ He honked when the guy in front of him didnât move at the green light.
Wanting to make things even more savory, you played with the hem of your dress. âI love when I distract you, itâs a favorite past time of mineâ You lifted it and reveled in Donnie almost cracking his neck to see what you were doing and then back to the road ahead.
âIâm not wearing anything under thisâ You spoke, a sultry hint to your words. You were in fact bare, with every intention of teasing him into having to do something about it.
He bit his lip and shook his head, this was so not happening right now and you sure as hell werenât...
âY/n...â Your name sounded like a demand the moment he saw your palm run over the hood of your sex. He kept a good handle of driving and sneaking glances at your lap. Your legs spread enough for you to slide a finger in between your folds and to Donnieâs pure teasing realization he heard how wet you were. You relaxed back, soft touches working you up and Donnie soft little churrs picking up volume. When you pushed that digit inside of yourself, he gripped the steering wheel. âDonât make me pull overâ It was that stern voice he used on occasion.
With another turn on a less trafficked street, you turned to him, digit slowly pumping in and out of you and said, âOr what?â You grinned mischievously. â-Thatâs itâ
Donnie parked the car by the sidewalk, not really caring that even if it was relatively late pedestrians were still passing by here and there. He reclined your chair, enjoying the little yelp that exited your mouth. Pushing your hand away he popped his own digit into his mouth before teasing it at your entrance. âHave you been walking around this city with no underwear? Answer meâ You stifled a giggle by biting your lip but that quickly melted into a moan when he pushed his much larger digit inside of you. Your thighs shook with the delightfully stuffed sensation it brought.
âYou havenât answered my questionâ He thrusted his finger, moving just the way he knew that could illicit the best response.
âSo what if I did?â Defiant words for somebody in a precarious position. Donnie had that little twinkle in his eye, the one you knew all too well.
âNobody, and I do mean nobody, has or will have the right to see thisâ He emphasized the last word with a harsher thrust of his finger that made you choke. âI guess that only leaves one other option, reminding you exactly who you belong toâ That sentence was enough to make you want to scream internally, pushing the usually chill terrapin to these extents wasnât the easiest. Sometimes one had to play dirty, which you we never opposed to doing so.
Somewhere between a moan and a full body shiver you felt Donnie crook his finger. That first release whenever sought out like this, always made you just a little dizzy, made your joints protest from tensing so much. Your hands flew to his chest, the firmness of his plates grounding you back from your high.
âSay âthank you, Donnieâ, come on baby, use your wordsâ He swelled with pride seeing your mouth start to move but nothing resembling the words coming out.
So naturally, he started up again.
You squished your thighs together, trapping his hand when the oversensitivity hit but he only âtskâdâ his disapprovement and gave your thighs a soft slap. âDonât squeeze, donât squeezeâ Trembling thighs obeyed and separated enough for him to continue his strokes, thumb circling over your clit with enough pressure to make your hand fly up to your mouth.
Just like that he pulled another orgasm out of you, but did not stop his motions over your clit.
You started to squirm, breath hitching into embarrassing squeaks and all the more he glued those precious brown orbs of his to you.
âWell?â He barely sounded strained, he was hardly even breaking a sweat.
âThank you! Thank you!â You shut your eyes when he didnât stop, every nerve in your body felt over exposed, saturated with the constant onslaught to your sensitive nub.
One more, yanked from your body, hard enough you felt a rush of something in your brain and that jelly like feeling hit your limbs. He fucked his finger slowly in and out, bringing you down into a somewhat false sense of security. Your hazy vision found the window on your side, a few pedestrians passing and the idea that somebody couldâve heard...
Pulling out his digit, Donnie popped it into his mouth. âI had a very nice date planned out, but then again this isnât far off from the original planâ He pulled you up into a sitting position but maneuvered you onto your knees to face the car window. He bunched up your dress and nudged you forward to rest your hands on the glass. âYou like making a spectacle? Walking around with nothing under your dress?â Donnie spoke those words against the back of your head, he enjoyed the scent of your hair. Gripping your hips he pushed you against the prominent bulge.
Oh how your thighs shook. Your breath fogged up the glass as you heard him unzip. âDee-ohfuckâ He ran the length of his cock through your folds, squeezing your thighs for the right pressure for the teasing friction. âArenât I a nice guy? See how good I treat you?â He hunched over you, chin resting on your shoulder. A large three fingered hand landed on the glass next to yours, it gutted him to see the contrast in size, to see your pinky wrap around his much thicker digit. âTell me how it feels, when I push into youâ He whispered against your shoulder, slowly sliding in and stretching you out.
It was tricky, the space wasnât too small but between both seats he found a good spot to stand (or more so bend) and give you the first thrust that left your mouth hanging open. âSo so so good,â You muttered with a shaky voice. âAnd? What else?â He loved the way you swallowed letters the moment he thrusted just a little harder. âYouâre so fucking big, you do this so good, god Donnie nobodyâs fucked me like you beforeâ There was deep rumbling churr against your neck, he tasted salt and your perfume when he licked it.
âYouâre the best, youâre the fucking best!â You moaned out, loud enough you felt embarrassment as somebody passed by. Naturally Donnie noticed, smirking against your neck. âNow weâre shy? Now you want to be a good girl?â He hooked an arm around your waist and absolutely threw caution to the god damn wind.
He sped up, deep thrusts that were fully determine to make you scream your head off. Right there with his hips smacking against your rear he spoke the words you knew would be your undoing.
âScream for me, I want everyone to know how good I make you feelâ He drove into you with that very purpose in mind. That long cock of his hitting exactly the spots you needed in order to do so. In order to scream your head off when your release came suddenly and so devastatingly strong, you felt something gush out of you. Itâs intensity made your eyes shut tight as you rode the high. Feeling teeth at your shoulder and a muffled string of curses and your name you felt warmth shoot into you.
You donât remember Donnie shuffling the two of you onto the couch but at some point youâre there. Body slumped, dress still scrunched up as Donnie rummages through a small bin for some wet wipes. âDid you cum on the chair again?â You asked him sleepily and with a smile, you still had enough gas in the tank for a few jabs. He had bag between his teeth as he stumbled to push up his pants. Dropping the wipes near you he smirked.
âNo, but you didâ He declared quite triumphantly.
Your foggy dopamine ridden brain took a bit to load.
âI squirted!?â You wanted to sit up but that wasnât gonna happen any time soon. You covered your face, embarrassment clear. Donnie snorted and rubbed your rear affectionately. âPlease, if it were up to me Iâd leave it there like a badge of honorâ He stifled another laugh when you peaked through hands and glared.
âBy the way...â He kissed your arm.
âHm?â The sensation lulled you.
âI love youâ His words were soft yet serious.
âI love you moreâ You whispered back.
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hard work - mick schumacher
summary: you spent your entire day studying and you need some help winding down at the end of the day
a/n: hi, hope yâall enjoy this. i woke up thinking about it and couldnât stop so i wrote it down. as always feedback is very much appreciated :)
also this is unedited will fix later thx besties
warnings: 18+, NSFW, smut, fingering, unprotected sex
Mick was propped up on the bed, casually scrolling through Netflix to figure out what to watch next.
Lucky him, you thought as you dropped your head into your textbook for the millionth time that day. It was almost 6pm and you hadnât left your office. Only to use the bathroom and to get a little bit of food.
Finals were brutal and this year was no different. You had four cumulative exams coming up in the next week and your boyfriend decided that this weekend would be good to visit. âIâll help you study,â âWe can work togetherâ yeah right.
He was watching tv and minding his own business, which you appreciated. No distractions.
He was very distracting as is, so you were glad he was making an active effort to stay out of your way.
You read over the formulas again and your temples strained, having trouble even remembering the easiest of formulas. You were overworking yourself. Sometimes you can hit a point where more studying just wonât help, itâll only hurt and frustrate you.
Mick had been asking you to take a break all day but you refused, needing to stay in the right headspace to focus.
A smirk was plastered on his face when you walked into the room, excited that you were finally settling down. You plopped on the end of the bed. âIâm exhausted. Everything hurts. Fuck this,â you said. It was your typical reaction to studying. You loved what you were studying but reviewing anything this much could make you hate it.
âOh, darling.â He said, smiling at you and holding his arms out. He looked so sweet, cuddled up under your fuzzy blankets with a big sweatshirt on. âIâm so proud of you.â
âYeah, yeah,â you said, trying to hide your appreciation. You slowly made your way to Mick and sat next to him, legs hanging off the bed. You patted your hand on his blanket covered thigh, groaning.
âYou look stressed,â he said. âCome here.â He pulled the blanket off and patted the space between his legs. Being in his arms sounded like a dream right now. You scooted towards him, sitting between his legs with your back flat against his chest. He squeezed his arms around you in a hug. âYouâve done so much work today and Iâm so proud of you.â You smiled at his words even though he couldnât see your face. âYou deserve to take a break.â He tucked a piece of hair behind your ear, exposing your neck to him where he placed a soft kiss. You leaned your body into his, feeling a sense of relief and relaxation. It was crazy how fast he could change your mood. âIâm so lucky to have such a beautiful, intelligent woman,â he whispered in your ear.
You wanted to mess with him and crack a few jokes but you had no energy left to fake fight with him. His fingers drew a trail down your arm leaving goosebumps in its path. A chill ran through your body.
You could feel his hot breath still against your neck making your head fall onto one of his shoulders. His finger followed the trail it just made back up your body and the muscles in your stomach tightened when it grazed your collarbone. It was one of your most sensitive spots.
He moved his finger at an agonizingly slow pace, driving you insane.
He dipped his finger in the valley of your breasts and you looked down to see him take one in his hand. Lucky for him, studying all day means no bra needed.
You let out a soft moan as he kneaded your chest, getting rougher by the moment.
His other hand snaked itâs way around your body and dipped into your sweatpants, teasing your cloth covered entrance. âOh, Mick,â you said, shifting your body when he placed the slightest touch on your center.
âYou need to relax, darling.â His soft voice said into your ear. You knew he was right. He wanted to make you feel good but he was teasing you. Your desire for him was winding you up more than it was settling you down.
You inhaled in and let Mick have complete control. Your body settled comfortably into his and you were putty in his hands, literally. He held you securely with one hand groping your tits and the other down your sweatpants. âFocus on the TV, pretend Iâm not here.â He said. âI want to make you feel good. You worked hard.â
You rested your body onto his as he played with your clit. His fingers went in circles, sometimes venturing off course to explore the rest of you. If he felt you tense up, he would give your clit a light smack to remind you to calm down.
Your body felt ice cold and on fire at the same time.
He nudged your thighs apart and you let your knees fall to the sides opening you up for him. He continued to leave kisses all over your neck and shoulder while his finger slid between your folds.
You were dripping wet and he was surprised. He knew how to turn you on but it had only been a few moments. âWere you thinking about me today?â He asked in your ear.
âYes,â you said, keeping your voice low.
âWhat were you thinking about?â He asked as he let one finger slide inside your core.
Your hips bucked at the full sensation but his other hand held your body down.
What didnât you think about today? Any time you couldnât focus your mind wandered to your boyfriend. His body. His hands. His mouth, his tongue. All of it all over you and you wanted it so desperately.
âYou fucking me. Hard.â You wanted to keep it vague. You wanted to be surprised to see what he has up his sleeve and not give him any ideas. He groaned in your ear.
You lifted the blanket and watched as his finger pumped in and out of you, the muscles and veins in his wrist and forearm prominent. Your focus was on his middle finger as you patiently waited for him to push it inside of you. He knew what he was doing so you were going to let him be in control, but god did you want to feel him so bad.
âYou look so hot like this, darling. Completely under my control. Just let go,â he said.
You took your eyes off of his hands and looked up at the TV. Your mind focused on the pleasure he was bringing you. He took this as the perfect opportunity to let his second finger inside of you, catching you off guard. You twitched once again and moaned, wanting to be filled up all the way with him. It felt amazing but it wasnât enough.
âBaby, I need you to fuck me,â you whispered.
His fingers began to pump harder. âWhat was that?â He asked seductively, his mouth lingering near your ear longer than you would have liked. âI didnât hear you. Iâm going to need you to say it again.â
You huffed out of annoyance. You needed relief and he was just having fun. âI need you to fuck me. Right now.â You felt his thumb inch closer to your clit and start rubbing in sync with the movement of his other fingers.
âIâm going to need you to say that one more time.â You felt him begin to get hard against your back and you knew that he would give in soon.
You rolled your eyes and you knew he was smirking behind you. âI need you so badly. I need you to fuck me senseless.â You raised your voice this time. He removed his fingers and slid down your sweatpants. You kicked them off and repositioned yourself so you were on his lap, facing him with your knees on either side of him. You looked at his eyes and smiled. He returned the grin and you looked at each other for just a brief moment. He lifted you up and pulled his own sweatpants off, giving you the opportunity to grind into his hard cock. A soft whimper escaped his lips and you knew he was ready. No more teasing.
He gripped your ass, lifted you up, and lined his cock up with your entrance. He teased you, pushing his tip into your clit before you inched down on him, feeling him fill you completely. The feeling you had been chasing this whole time.
You rocked your hips back and forth with your arms around his neck for support. He guided your hips back and forth and let his hands run all over your sides.
Your head fell back and your eyes were met with the white ceiling. Your back was arched and your hair fell all the way down to the bed.
âHoly shit, you look so incredibly beautiful right now.â He watched you lose yourself in the moment, in the feeling, in the motion of your hips, the collision with his. He reveled in your beauty and still couldnât believe what you were doing right now.
He continued to bounce your hips, hitting the perfect spot to have you crying out in pleasure. Your pussy tightened around him, letting him know you were about to cum. He pulled you in closer to him and held you as you rode out your high in his arms. His arms held your back tightly as he kissed your bouncing tits. The only sounds that could be heard were moans and expletives as you both finished.
âI love you so much, darling.â He said, kissing your lips.
���I love you too,â you said, rolling off of him and onto the other side of the bed. He stood up to clean himself off and returned with a towel for you and a glass of water. He was met with you, passed out as soon as your head hit the pillow.
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Ooooh could I get #24 for Willy Milly? Please?
Prompt #24 âTell me how you like it."
Pairing: William 'Ironhead' Miller x F! Reader
Warnings: 18 + ONLY Explicit NSFW content. Angst, p in v, feelings, young pre-movie Will.
It was only supposed to happen once, a chance encounter one night while he was on leave. But then he came back, and it happened again and again and again. No matter how many times he got deployed, when the stink of death and smoke in the air told him this was it, he survived. He survived another chance to come back to you.
But you couldn't wait forever.
The restaurant was in one of the nicer areas of town, and you took a sip of wine that tasted just as good as the seven-dollar bottle on your counter. You tried to smile as your date droned on about his job, his dreams, but it didn't feel right. He wasn't blonde, he didn't have blue eyes, and he had an excellent safe career that kept him home. But he wasn't Will.
"So what do you like to do for fun?" he asks with a smile, breaking one of the bread rolls in half.
"Oh," you try to think, "I like to read....or write sometimes. I'm afraid I'm not that exciting." You bite your tongue, knowing that it's a lie, but you can't tell him the truth. You can't tell him you love riding on the back of a motorcycle, the wind blowing on your face, hands clutching tight to Will's leather jacket. You can't tell him you love to spend lazy Sunday mornings in bed, watching Will read the paper and trying to answer the crossword together. And you certainly can't tell him how much you love to be railed against the kitchen counter, Will holding you tight enough to leave bruises and whispering quiet promises in your ear.
No, you certainly can't tell him that.
"Good Evening; I'll be your server tonight." Your head snaps up, and your mouth drops open when you meet the clear blue eyes of Will Miller. He's dressed in a white button-up and a thin black tie, black slacks, his blonde hair tousled from running his hands through it. He's fucking perfect. "Have you decided what you'd like to have?"
Your stomach drops when he stares down at you, the question holding more meaning than just the chicken or the fish. Your date's oblivious, pulling out his menu and scanning it another time, unaware of your inner turmoil. "I love the steak here, does that sound okay, baby? I'll order for us?" You can only nod, still frozen, taking in every detail of his face after so long apart. He's favoring his left shoulder, you can tell, and he's got a fresh cut above his right brow, the early signs of a bruise on his chin.
Will breaks eye contact and writes down the order, his hand tightening around the pen. He looks up and grins, but it lacks some of the luster, "tell me how you like it."
Your mouth goes dry, and you're suddenly transported to three months ago when he'd whispered the same thing in your ear though the situation was very different. Your wrists tied tight to the hotel headboard, forehead resting on a pillow as he plowed into you from behind, his cock so full and deep inside you, nearly becoming one with every thrust.
"Tell me how you like it, such a good girl," you moan, arching your back and trying to push him even further inside you. "My beautiful girl, taking my cock so well. This pussy was made for me, baby; no one else makes you feel this good, do they?"
You're silent, enjoying the pleasure building, slurring your words, drunk on his cock. "Will," you whimper, "no one is you, Will."
"That's right, my good girl, all dumb for my cock. I know just the way you like it, baby; let me show you how good it can be." He reaches a hand down and rubs your clit in quick, firm circles, his other hand holding tight to your hip and crashing into you. You cum together with matching sighs of pleasure, Will collapsing on your back and reaching a lazy hand up to untie you before grabbing ahold of your breast and falling to the side to spoon your back.
It's quiet as you bathe in the afterglow of your love, his cock softening behind you, his hand caressing up and down your side. "Why can't this be enough?" he whispers, kissing your shoulder.
You tremble, feeling the tears burn behind your closed lids, "because I want more, Will. I want all of you."
"Baby, you have all of me." He turns you around and cups your cheek, coaxing your eyes open, "look at me, I'm here now."
Your voice cracks, the tears sliding down your cheek, "but you won't be tomorrow; you're going back again, Will. I can't just wait around waiting for you to decide you want to be with me."
He sighs, brushing the tears off your cheeks, "you know I can't give you that...this life...I never know when I'm gonna get called back. If I'm going to live through each mission. I won't ruin your life."
"Then I need to say goodbye," you sniffle, "this has to be the end. Because if it's not, then I'm going to fall deeper and deeper in love with you."
He nods, and you can see the emotion swirling in his eyes, Will was always good at shutting out the world but not you. "I can respect that," he whispers, "just, please...please don't leave tonight. Let me hold you one last time."
The following day you woke up, and he was gone.
"Tell me how you like it," he repeats again, his eyes hopeful when you reach down for your purse and stand, pushing out the chair and giving a frown to your date.
"I need to leave; I forgot that I was supposed to watch my neighbors dog," you cringe at the shit excuse but don't wait around for a reply, all but running out the front of the restaurant.
The door bursts behind you, and you keep the pace down the street, trying to order an uber through your tears, "WAIT!" He calls out your name, and you ignore him, quickening your steps, "fuck, baby, please!" Another few steps, "I LOVE YOU, OKAY?!"
Your feet cement themselves to the sidewalk, and you slowly turn to see Will behind you, his chest heaving, his leather jacket clutched tightly in his fist. He runs his hand through his hair, "fuck, that's not how I wanted to tell you. I had this whole plan, shit."
"Say it again," you whisper, taking a hesitant step toward him.
He drops his head to his chest and takes a deep breath before raising his head and staring at you. "I love you," his voice cracks, a tear sliding down his face, "I love you so fucking much, and it took losing you for me to realize it." He clears his throat and takes a step closer, "baby, I'm a mess. I'm a soldier with no permanent address. Every mission could be my last, and you deserve so much better than me, but I love you. I love you with every ounce of my soul, and I will never, never hurt you again."
You take another step, closing the distance between you, his jacket falling to the ground, his arms wrapped around your waist. You lean up to nuzzle his nose, his eyes sliding shut and resting his forehead against you, the pieces of the puzzle sliding together. "I'm glad you finally figured it out, Captain Miller," you whisper, burying your face in his neck.
His lips graze along your skin, leaving a trail of fire, "and what's that?"
"That you've always known exactly how I like it." He chuckles, leaning back to press his lips against yours, the warmth of his smile burning you up from the inside. "It just had to be you."
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The Limits of a Hero
Hello hello, Iâm here to bring you something rather special. A quick fun fact: When I started writing years ago, Link was actually the first character I ever wrote for, so this piece is sort of going back to my roots as a writer. That, and Iâve been in a HUGE Twilight Princess mood lately, (I recently bought a few volumes of the manga and I am very much enjoying it) so I thought Iâd write this quick thing for my favorite incarnation of Link. I hope those of you who also like him will enjoy this.
The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess
Link x Reader
Summary: During a seemingly ordinary night out in the woods you decide to give the hero a much needed chance to rest.
Notes: Fluff, some light angst
The tree trunk felt rough against your back, but it provided a much-needed opportunity to finally rest and recollect your energy after yet another day of fighting against the twilight and its corrupt ruler. Yet you found a strange calm when surrounded by the night, the warm flames of the campfire swaying in the cool wind.
The wood crackled, the breeze howled and your eyelids grew heavy. You wouldnât close them, however. Not yet. Instead, you kept your (E/C) eyes on the glowing fire, occasionally throwing in a stick or two to make sure your source of heat wouldnât disappear.
Your thoughts wandered, as they often did ever since you were thrown into this dangerous adventure. How did everything change so fast? You could still hear the water trickling down the waterwheel in Ordon as if it was yesterday. Everything had gone wrong so fast, and now you were trying to save the entire kingdom from something you didnât fully understand.
You knew it was the same for Link. But unlike you, he was much better at suppressing his confusion and doubts. You had noticed a change in him, no doubt caused by the sudden responsibility laid upon his broad shoulders. In addition to the more obvious changes in his attire, his cerulean eyes lost some of their glow, he somehow grew even more silent and he didnât smile as often. All because he felt that his role as the hero chosen by the Gods demanded it.
It must have been tiring, you thought, yet he pressed on, never once letting even a single mention of how much it all weighed down on him slip from his lips. But you could see it. Whether it was in the way his shoulders fell with a sigh whenever he finished slaughtering a group of Bokoblins or how he yawned and stretched his arms almost every time he hopped off Epona. His body was fatigued, but his eyes held nothing but determination.
The rustling of leaves that came from behind snapped you back to reality, and your eyes fell on the bush where the grey animal soon emerged from, carrying something in his mouth the edges of which and a part of his lower body was seemingly damp. You watched as he walked with heavy steps towards the fire before dropping the thing you recognized to be a Hyrule Bass on the ground.
The fish flopped on the dirt and you found yourself raising a confused eyebrow at him, before locating his fishing rod not too far away from the fire, indicating that he had forgotten to take it with him. You looked at the fish again.
âAre we this desperate?â You managed to ask him as his beastly form quickly reverted to his original form you were familiar with. He sat on the ground and gave you a slight nod.
âWeâre running low on food,â he said, taking a sip from his bottle of water. Most of his equipment was laying on the ground, though he was still fully clad in his green tunic, chainmail and all.
You noticed him taking out a small knife, no doubt intending to use it to prepare the freshly caught fish. He would not dare use his sacred sword for such a task. The bass was fairly big, enough for both of you, you surmised.
âI can take care of it,â you offered, noticing the tired look in his eyes as they turned to you. He shook his head lightly.
âItâs fine, (Name),â he assured and began cutting into the flesh, but you persisted.
âYou havenât slept properly in days.â It had been an exhausting few days, filled to the brim with battles against Shadow Beasts and other enemies. It took its toll on both of you yet he showed no outward signs of fatigue. Not that it was necessary, for right now, anyone could see the dark circles and bags under his otherwise gorgeous eyes.
He glanced at you, clearly pondering over your words while continuing to cut the fish. You were right, as you often were. He was exhausted, but the selflessness in him didnât want you to lose any of the sleep you needed.
âSomeone has to keep watch,â he began, but you quickly shut him down.
âWhich I can do.â
You scooted over to him, noticing him making the final cuts to the scaly flesh of the fish. Placing a hand on top of his, you kept your eyes on him, trying to convince him.
âYou need to rest, Link. Please.â
Upon hearing your voice that left your lips as a quiet plea he finally gave in, letting out a sigh that carried all his exhaustion into the air and letting go of the knife. He finally turned to you, his drained eyes glowing in silent relief.
âWill you be alright? You know you can wake me up any time if-â
âIâll be fine. The only thing you need to worry about is getting some sleep.â
Your hand reached up to slowly remove his cap, exposing his dirty blond hair that bathed in the glowing embers of the campfire. You offered him a smile equally warm as the flames which he thankfully returned.
Planting the tiniest kiss on his cheek, you retreated from him, once again leaning against a lone tree. With your hand you lightly patted your lap, wanting the hero in front of you to have the best possible chance at getting a good nightâs rest.
He laid his weary head on your lap and almost immediately, he let out a long yawn that indicated just how much he needed this, despite his stubborn protests. Your fingers found their way into his hair, running through his locks in a soothing manner.
Silence fell around you, though it was a refreshing change from the usual noises of battle and struggles. You stared at the fire once again, its welcoming warmth enveloping both of you.
âYouâve changed,â you admitted, thinking back to the simpler times, during which Link would have been more than compliant to sleep when he needed it. He let out a soft sigh, his eyes glued to the starlit sky above.
âI guess I have,â he agreed. You wondered if he meant it to the same degree as you did. Even now, you noticed the solemn expression on his face you had never seen back home.
Home. You thought about it a lot. Maybe a little too much at times. Ordon meant a lot to you, even more to Link you assumed. Perhaps thatâs why he had gotten so stoic and serious. He was merely trying to protect what he held dear.
It was admirable, he was, by all accounts, a hero. Courageous, selfless, strong, yet still a mere Hylian. A capable Hylian indeed, but still a Hylian. A Hylian who the entire kingdom needed to save them. Everyone expected so much of him, it seemed as if he himself forgot his limits.
âYouâre not all-powerful, Link.â
Your eyes fell on him, and his own looked up at you. Someone needed to be his voice of reason, and you were more than willing to take that role if it meant ensuring his safety when he sometimes couldnât.
âMaybe I should be.â
Your eyebrows frowned at that. You knew he felt a certain sense of guilt about what happened to the children of the village. They were safe now, but there was a stinging sensation of shame embedded in him that made him feel responsible for all of it.
âDonât say that. You did all you could. Pushing yourself to the point where you canât stay up anymore wonât solve anything.â
He knew you were right. You almost always were. Link had always secretly wondered if it was a blessing that it was you who had accidentally stumbled across the same wall of Twilight that had transformed him into a beast. In all honesty, he was thankful.
âIâm just... Worried about you,â you confessed, feeling a small sense of dread in the core of your being. Just thinking about what could happen to him if he didnât take care of himself made your stomach churn.
A troubled look fell on his face, as if he was feeling guilty about making your eyes fill with concern. You inhaled deeply and pressed your lips on his forehead, not wanting your own uneasiness make him anxious.
âRest now. Iâll keep watch.â
With a small nod, he allowed his heavy eyelids to close and it didnât take long for him to fall asleep, soft snores escaping his mouth that was partially agape.
For the first time in days, he looked truly peaceful. His body relaxed, rid of any signs of stress or tension, the only movement being that of his chest, moving up and down due to his steady breathing. With a smile you continued running your digits through his hair, hoping to comfort him even in his dreams you could only hope were as tranquil as your current surroundings.
âGoodnight, Link.â
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