#sometime I'm gonna post about Ichor's Eclipse

[spotlightstudios]

Just woke up and I feel like ranting about ✨️Ichor✨️. So if you don't wanna read an analysis post, then just scroll on by!

I think the hardest thing for me to do is look back on old characters and bring them back to the present.

My fursona(s?) Heavily tied into Animal Jam and my time in that community. My batim ocs? Existed in batim, and I don't have the energy ir willpower to update them for batdr. My undertake aus? I adore them, but they've all mostly got their set paths. Dnd characters? Their worlds are on pause for eternity, and I think of them fondly as old friends that I've distanced from.

I just think it's really silly of me to think deeply about it, but I was just trying to write something about Ichor (a beloved undertale oc). The thing I realized was, this guy was one of my punching bag ocs, and at some point, I decided to give him a happy ending. He gets to live peacefully, his adopted sons visit him, and he's not entirely okay, but he's finally getting rest. I just tucked away his story as finished somewhere in my head, and all I can do is alter and add to what I already had.

Like, he loved koi fish, and he worked out every day because, while he was a God, his replacement arm required normal care to keep it strong as it was. He was a lover, not a fighter, but he ended up fighting regardless because that's the positions he was placed in, and it would tear him up to have to leave his loved ones in order to protect them. He hated his job, and his home, but he adored mortals, because they were so true in the best and worst ways. They could change, where he was unable. No matter how many times he'd get hurt by a mortal, he'd always return, because he knew there was hope (his brother got that sentiment from him).

It's just, Ichor, I built as a fully fleshed out character. I gave him vices, and weaknesses, and real importance to who his is and how he reacted in a setting. He wasn't just a fun voice piece to indirectly put myself in a story, he eventually just became something new. That's why it's so hard for me to do anything else with him, he'd always be the same, and it's perfect.

An entire narrative arc that I've share with almost no one. An entire arc I'm not sure people would be interested in if I only wrote it out. It's a sans from undertale, and I know there is still a fan base, but new aus rarely become popular or are acknowledged. It's silly to feel like I can't share him because of the backgrounds of his origin, despite the fact that he was so important to my development in character design, drawing, storytelling, everything.

Idk, just tired moring thoughts, but I could and would write am essay just defining how much my ocs tend to mean to me in the long run.