#some overbearingly nice but the thought and intent is appreciated

[youngpettyqueen]

I just wanna know what camp atmosphere was like after the events of Period of Adjustment

[mcnypieces]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme

fill out & repost ♥  This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK ( They’re missing out )

Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK ( It’s subjective )

Are they underrated? YES / NO

Were they relevant for the main story? YES / NO

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO? ( This is... also subjective. )

How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL

How strictly do you follow canon?

     As closely as possible, considering there’s not very much to work with in regards to his canon to begin with. There’s a lot of freedom in picking up any kind of minor canon character. I look mainly to expand on what little is present. I adore fleshing out even the smallest ideas so having something I can comfortably build on is great.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.

     Pica is loyal, beyond anything. Strong, well-built, and never wavering. Regardless of the situation, he is always on task, diligent to the last moment and perhaps longer. Devotion and collected functionality make a grand guardian. Always acts as a pillar; a collected foundation of a man centered around dedicated familial values. Being in contact with stone makes him nigh invincible, granting him not only the protective assimilation but the literal stature and appearance of a stone goliath given enough material. Strategic with respectable swordsmanship, constantly protective of what’s important. He’s nice on the eyes, quiet, and a good listener. There’s order and beauty laced within all that cataclysmic chaos just waiting to be found. 

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).

     Distant, stoic, absolutely terrible with expression that isn’t hateful and violent. Pica is very strict, lacking a sense of humor. His voice is extremely disruptive. The smallest remarks set his short fuse alight and it burns on and on until there’s nothing left. That murderous intent settles for very few things, and getting him to open up is a long, grueling process. He’s self-conscious but in an overbearingly cocky way, in that pride often masks everything genuine. He thinks very highly of himself and looks down on other people constantly. He’s uncooperative, constantly wrapped up in solemn business, and heavily against indirect methods. Abrasiveness is a weapon and he uses it without remorse. Stubbornness and general unwillingness to speak with strangers make attempting to converse with him the equivalent of talking to a wall. Pica is impatience, wrath, and apathy tied together with coarse cobblestone.

What inspired you to rp your muse?

     As odd as it sounds, I found certain parts of Pica relatable in very specific, personal ways. People never took me seriously when I was upset because I was so small ( sometimes they still don’t dskdsks- ). For awhile when I was younger my voice was really deep and hoarse due to adenoid issues. Speaking in general was hard, because breathing was hard. It made me sound very masculine, especially over any kind of voice-only system. Normally adenoids aren’t an issue at that point because they’re vestigial and tend to essentially be shrunk down to nothing. But something ( probably fighting off infections and never shrinking/bad allergies, nobody knows ) blew mine up and they were blocking 3/4ths of my airway for ages without anyone having any idea what was going on until it got bad enough to the point it was obvious something was wrong. I couldn’t have any stuffed animals in my room because it was legitimately dangerous and a lot of my non hypoallergenic stuff had plastic covers on it. Made me really sad. Eventually they were surgically removed, and it cleared up my breathing and in time my voice was relatively normal. Before then, nothing felt worse to me then than struggling to breathe trying to defend myself in tandem with all the emotional stress it brought on me. 

     I was always quiet and distant otherwise, and a lot of people thought I was just weird and unapproachable ( unless you wanted a laugh, anyway ). There were days before I made my small group of good friends I’d just spend sitting under the stairwell up against a wall eating lunch by myself. I’m probably one of the few people that listened to Pica talk for the first time and didn’t immediately burst into laughter. I didn’t completely click with him at that point, but watching that one little thing turn into a running gag constantly coming back to undermine everything else that was amazing about him really set my feelings in stone... pun completely intended. I’ve loved him ever since. That inspiration and adoration has only grown with time.

What keeps your inspiration going?

     Quite a few things. Aside from the constant love pouring from my being, I love looking at highly detailed stonework. It’s beautiful. Scrolling through rolling mountain landscapes, listening to certain songs, daydreaming in between sentences. I never really lose inspiration for Pica. Something new hits me every day in the most mundane tasks. A lot of it does go unshared, but some of it is personal and other times I simply don’t have the energy or reason. Very well I could be brimming with inspiration for him all day and have nowhere really to put it without excess. Getting opportunities to do so really makes me smile, though. It’s amazing how much being invested in a character will keep your inspiration at an all time high even when you’re having a rough time. Sometimes all it takes is just an extra comment from someone else or an occurrence or some kind of image to put you right back on track. For me, seeing any kind of lovely stonework or abandoned, run down places really sets my inspiration for him in motion.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO ( I would hope so! )

Do you frequently write headcanons? YES / NO ( I’m always thinking of new ones! )

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO ( It’s been awhile, though... )

Do you think a lot about your muse during the day? YES!! / NO

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO 

Are you confident in your writing? YES / NO ( Generally speaking, I try to be! )

Are you a sensitive person? YES / NO

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?

     Actual criticism, yes. I don’t mind it. At the same time, however, I’m really just here to have a good time ─ as is everybody else. Growing and developing my writing is always a bonus when I’ve the experience here in an environment I’m comfortable with, but critique isn’t exactly something I go hunting for. I’m here to write the characters I love and adore and honestly, sometimes, it’s better to have the freedom to do things as you wish without the worry of receiving it, no matter how well-intended it may be. It’s all chill times and good vibes doing what we enjoy most.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?

     Absolutely! I love randomly being sent things that keep me thinking with any character. I’m always looking for little intricacies and tidbits to really bring them to life. Sometimes it takes a bit for me to think of something appropriate but I always appreciate the brain candy when it comes to new details! It goes without saying that I’ll happily accept anything that gives reason to my constant, aimless musings related to Pica.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?

     Yes and no? I always love hearing other ideas on why someone else’s headcanons differ from my own. For all I know it might be enough to change my mind or, at the very least, give me a different perspective on something I’ve never thought about before. I’m always curious about stuff when it relates to a character I love. As long as they’re not rude about it and we’ve talked to the point it’s not out of the blue, it’s okay. On the other hand, it doesn’t really matter if someone disagrees. We all have our own headcanons and it’s very easy to be respectful about them. Despite what has already been said, there’s a high chance I’m going to keep to my own headcanons as they are regardless, because I put a lot of thought and heart into them. Someone disagreeing with them at face value isn’t going to make me up and throw all that work in the trash just like that.

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?

     That’s okay. There are plenty of different ways to interpret a character. People are allowed to like and dislike whatever portrayal they so choose, so long as they’re not bashing anyone outright. I would much prefer that be something that’s kept to oneself, however. It’s very easy to simply ignore something you don’t agree with, and it’s just as easy to be kind about things when expressing your own thoughts in comparison with theirs. Plus, there’s always making your own blog and writing whoever however you please! Someone out there is bound to enjoy whatever portrayal you prefer. ♥

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?

     Not personal, certainly, unless it was somehow directed at me personally. It’s very understandable. There’s a lot of potential present for actual progressing development, but on the surface Pica is very dislike-able. It’s very clear his purpose was to act as a stepping stone for another major character’s development and there wasn’t much left beyond that. Of course it’s always a sad thing being hopelessly attached to a character like that but as an avid lover of what are often viewed as very minor, niche characters, it’s something I’m very much used to. Perhaps not intense hate in every case, per se, but underappreciated. It just so happens that Pica is... not exactly a good person, putting it kindly. But that’s just another reason I love him so much as a character.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?

     Sure! Though chances are I’ve probably already noticed at that point and have been embarrassed about it/fixed it. I’ve probably made many over the years and also not realized it. Most of the time it’s something minor anyway, and a lot of people just naturally read it as it’s supposed to be read. So there’s no trouble!

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?

     I’d certainly like to think so! I tend to be very patient and accommodating. I wholeheartedly stand beside the idea that RPing is meant to be fun and enjoyable and not something that causes more stress. People should take their time with things and set their own pace. Being comfortable is part of what makes RP the wonderful hobby that it is. Really that applies to any hobby, but there are many little things that can turn someone away from doing something they love at any given time. There’s nothing that would hurt me more than unintentionally making something someone enjoys a chore for them. I try my best to make sure everyone knows that I’m really just a chill little bun having a good time doting on characters I love. Pica might not be cordial, but I certainly try to be!

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

     🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

tagged by. @tenyxshx ─ thank you flamingo nerd ♥ ilu

[tamiddyinyourcity]

ALRIIIIGHT TIME TO VENT.

I have a new crush.

I don't like crushes, point blank periodt. Turns out that repeated instances of men going out of their way to woo me despite having no real interest in me, does kill a spirit.

Then it makes me want to mace anyone that even remotely suggests something more. (And considering how annoying men get about stating their intentions, emotions, and more..... Then yes, be single. Since God, if P1 had the spine or emotional vulnerability to bring things up without me being first to do it, and P2 just not being so toxic in general, imagine how dope things could've gone. And Rowan was a dipshit, but whatever.)

Aaaaand oh looky.

A new crush.

I'm pretty sure it's just an attachment to the first person to be nice to me. (Similar to the crush I had on Cam, pretty much. Me and him still hangout btw, we had watched Upgrade together just the other day on twoseven. Glad we could be buds, honestly.)

I barely even know how to describe them. Plus, for all I know, my ex or that weird hoe could be following me.

But anyway, their name is lsaac, or some shit.

Trying to nail down my infatuation, I guess. I hate going into infatuations blind.

Alright, its listing time:

I followed them after my ex posted a picture of me on his page to "make us official". (Cute.) It was just a picture of me sipping a mocha, and the caption was something like "This girl posted cringe". Kieran (idk his name is Isaac but Kieran is what I've mentally called them, so, excuse the change,) just commented something like "I hope she doesnt lose subscribers". Funny enough. Followed em. Followed back. Nothing particularly special to the story.

They were one of the people to witness the oh so classic insta and twitter meltdown I had, and one of the first to hear about the breakup when it had happened. When me and Patrick talked the night we got back together, (fucking hell,) it just got passively mentioned that "Three people thought it was fine for her to read your blog, two thought it was sorta weird". (The numbers are hard to remember, but if I recall correctly, it was either the two people being me and Kieran, or Kieran and Chris.) Either way, kudos to those who know it's weird to snoop on the girlfriends of your friends so intensely like that. It's just damned odd. (It could have all been avoided if he or her told me how they felt sooner, but hoes are messy and only proved it over time.)

Plus I recalled Patrick saying "Well I did hear about it from others as well, like Kieran, who said it was 'very very cryptic and very confusing but seemed not great'." Fair enough. (I thought I was eloquent enough about it, but, whatever.)

Hmm.

My upstairs neighbor is playing Donna Summers, "Learn to Love You Baby." And I saw a tweet from a manifestation page that was like "Your soulmate is coming! Are you ready?"

UM.

ANYWAY.

AH, SHIT. I'm gonna stop sweating soon enough. Not from nerves, just ovulating + its fucking June and I sweat too much when the weather is overbearingly stuffy for my somehow overly stuffy warm.

Anyways. :)

Fast forward in time, I think Kieran eventually unfollows me. I don't know when, and don't care enough. But I notice, and whatever. I went on a mini apology run to whoever I felt bad over losing touch with, (never contacted Jasper or Marcus, which sucks since they were cool, but frankly getting in fights with their friend usually warrants not wanting further contact, and well, not a fan of being close to too many people who may cause a run in with that thot motherfucker,) and just hit em up saying sorry about the whole awkwardness n shit with the breakup. They said it was fine, and how they only knew Patrick and his brother (who looks like he bathes in hot dog water, according to my good friends) since he dated their cousin. Dope! Cool.

Didn't talk until just recently. Since idk, felt like it. And surprisingly it was NOT wack, which I appreciated highly. Both got to vibe over shitty dating sim games, nonbinary-ness, (aye,) DIY sewing/clothesmaking like the broke but thrifty bitches we are, and then just talking about shitty past relationships and all that.

Then I think just talking about religion, nihilism, aaaand past trauma from bullies and parents. It felt great, honestly.

Felt pretty good to talk to someone like that again. I digged it. My infatuation is probably just based in extreme loneliness and depression lately, aaaaand suddenly feeling genuine joy or relatability for the first time in ages comforted me. I definitely don't enjoy craving people. Eugh.

But knowing me, I'm not the type to be all "Wassup nigga you cute lets fuck", (not at this point at least,) and not to people in a different state. (Not at this point. Shoutout to that time I shot my shot with a guy from Japan though. I wonder how he's doing? I should check in with the dude soon.)

Anyway.

They're cute, and our vibes mesh. It always feels good meeting a chill optimistic fellow, and I love those people the best usually.

Not expecting it to go anywhere. But, pleasant, yknow? Hope we can talk more, they seem to be pretty dope and like we'd mesh well as occasional talking buds and whatnot.

I think they just happen to fit my type, whiiiiich probably explains the additional infatuation. "Are you ever gonna stop liking outcast nerdy indie guys?", you ask. "I wish I fucking knew, bitch, I wish I fucking knew", is the answer, forever and always.

Aaaaaa.

Speaking of which, I meet with Marco soon. I'm sweating a lot, and irrationally horny, aaaaand he wants to buy me things, suck my toes, and fuck me. Sooooooooo, a bitch might be going outside tomorrow.

I still don't like Marco whatsoever.

(Less than four minutes later) Marco got kicked out of his house recently.

How the fuck did THAT HAPPEN SO FAST? DAMN MAN.

I guess its the Universe, telling me to use my Adam and Eve Wank toys instead of risking Covid. :/

Fair enough.

Marco is stupid, but i know his family life is shit, so I hope he's alright. Checking in on him.

Peace out.