#social battery gets so low I turn into a npc

[mostdeviouswizard]

Austim is so weird because some days it's like hell yeah this human interaction shit is EASY. Made a joke and everything and i'm the funniest coolest bitch in the room and everyone loves me and then some days it's like Aliens First Day On Earth Simulator. Yeah i've known this person for over a year and consider them one of my closest friends, but suddenly i've forgotten how to interact with them in a way that is even close to normal. Conversation?? How does that work. I am just going to sit here and stare with wide eyes at them to show them I am listening and say a thing Sometimes, I guess.

[fxrtunas]

— — FORTUNE TELLER

An RP multimuse blog for Allan Kier, an original NPC based on the FFXIV world!

current draft count: 50+ current inbox count: 80+

owed starters: 0 owed asks: 8

Guidelines (UPDATED 9TH NOV):

hewwo!! call me termi (25+, any pronouns)

Allan is a non-wol oc btw in case the following information is confusing!

am a filthy multishipper hehehe

hey look at allan’s sausage fingers in the pic above

this is p much a multimuse blog but all the other muses basically revolve around allan so expect to see 80% of allan content kljalksjf

allan is likely to gravitate to extremes for what he wants, so torture/manipulation/etc. may be present on this blog!

i am v bad at rmbering all ffxiv lore but i will do my best ljaflksjf

i tag 'trigger tw' for any sensitive content!

i have a busy irl and other commitments! bc of this is i am naturally very slow and will take random hiatus’!

pls don’t rush me into replying to things or remind me in any way ;w ; this is a hobby for me and i tend to withdraw and get slower if i feel stressed fjlkdjsg

i do drop threads quite a lot; this is just to keep drafts from getting bloated. the reasons range from not knowing how to repond, not having the muse for it, it was a casual thread, or feeling like our muses’ relationship has progressed past that in other threads! it’s nothing personal at all, and i’m always happy to initiate new stuff!!

^ that being said, i tend to keep drafts if its the only one we have between our muses and/or we have anything planned for it!

FYI:

my main rp partner is @echobled​ so replies to their muses tend to be prioritized!

feel free to turn any prompt u sent that i answered into a thread!

i have a very low social battery so if you see me around on the dash and not responding to dms, it’s nothing personal! i’m probably just mentally drained and its easier for me to do small stuff while i recover ;w ;

Permanent Interaction Call (like at ur leisure no matter how long its been :3c)

Gentle wishlist ;w ; (pls also feel free to send me ideas u wanna do for ur muse!!)

Replying to one of my open starters is the easiest way to interact with me! i love doing one-liners as much as multipara/novella stuff, and oneliners require much less brain so! its my fave way esp since it can Evolve into smth more so don’t be afraid to jump in on em!

i love angst, hurt/comfort, romance, smut, and dark themes the most, but am happy to rp everything else, those are just faves kljaklsjf

open to familial/platonic/antagonistc dynamics and pre-est stuff if we can plot chemistry ;w ;

allan is an original NPC! the easiest way to look at him is as a blue sidequest giver LKJASLKFj completely missable, u get like. idk a handshake or a kees on the cheek (or more) LKJASKLFj but he does have a backstory that helps lend darker elements to plotting. its v flexible too in how light or dark it can get to make sure i don’t go too heavy with my rp partner if that’s not what they prefer. that being said, i did mention i love dark themes, so hmu if that’s what ur interested in!!  also love to explore deeper plots connected to my rp partner’s muse too!!

Allan Kier (main muse)

Age: appears mid to late 20s Gender: cis male Orientation: gay Eye colour: purple Hair colour: purple Skin colour: light brown Height: 170cm | 5'7 Notable features: tattoo on his right cheek (further back, mostly hidden), several dotted scars on left side of waist, a long scar from his left shoulder blade to his lower right back Job: Astrologian (abilities similar up to lvl 40; grows or changes class depending on story) Alignment: chaotic neutral

Brief History:

Not much is known about his earlier life. However, he lived in Sharlayan for a significant amount of time as a low profile arcanist.

Was secretly banished from Sharlayan for [redacted].

Went to Ishgard since he had some contacts there, making it easier to hide from [redacted]. However, due to starting over completely and relying on those contacts, he owes a major amount of debt that he pays off with his special ability, [redacted].

At some point during this, he becomes an Astrologian.

After the Dragonsong War, he travelled around more often, figuring it's safe to do so after the time he spent in Ishgard. He still revisits Ishgard to deal with his remaining few debts every so often.

More on Allan!

ANCIENT + SHARDS —

Asclepius (the Ancient Allan is a shard of):

Gender: cis male Orientation: asexual demiromantic Eye colour: glowing pale purple Hair colour: orange/light brown Skin colour: light brown Notable features: scar down his right eye, tattoo on his right temple Job: DRK (more proficient as a WHM, but abandoned it) Special abilities: soul sight - able to see and interpret the essence and shape of souls at will. prophetical sight - receives uncontrollable visions when he rests; this ability only got more wild in his waking time the closer the sundering came. Brief history: 

was known to have talents in medicinal care and healing, and had prophetic visions that would lead him to isolate himself often. 

was even offered the Seat of Emmerololth which he turned down quite fast. 

after receiving visions of the Final Days and the Sundering, he disappeared from society for some odd years, then came back as a DRK and sought adventure in an effort to forget all that he had Seen. 

he was running around... somewhere... when the Sundering happened lkJKALSJF 

he is p much a v big hermit and had like one (1) friend that returned to the star (verse dependent, he could also have Azem as a friend but... that’s probably it....... wheeze)

more on asclepius!

Selene (shard of Allan in the First)

Age: appears in her late 20s Gender: cis female Orientation:lesbian Eye colour: red Hair colour: black Skin colour: light brown Height: 196cm (6′4) Notable features: jagged scar from her chest to her left hip, scar on the back of her left thigh, another three scars across her right shoulder blade Job: BLM main (abilities up to lvl 80)

Brief bio: 

born of Eulmore to high-ranking soldiers in the army, Selene served and protected her home for many years. 

she defects to the Crystarium after learning the dark truth behind Eulmore’s inner machinations and rejecting them.

more on Selene!

Naila (Voidsent shard of Allan)

Age: ??? (appears in her mid to late twenties) Gender: ??? (she/they mostly) Orientation: aethersexual (she will lay with anyone to have aether basically LKJAFK) Eye colour: gold Hair colour: purple Skin colour: light brown Height: 150cm (4′9) Notable features: the biggest floofiest tail. her voice will also become quite gutteral/demonic when indimidating someone or when she loses control (either from anger/pleasure/shock). Job: WAR

Brief bio: 

the person that summoned Naila into the Source swiftly met an end when they prepared horrendously poorly for her arrival. Now Naila runs around in their body. 

she doesn’t necessarily need aether considering she’s in the Source, but she still has a craving for it. 

she only wants to have fun; she found the Thirteenth boring and dull but the Source? The Source is full of people she can play with to her heart’s content. 

recently, she’s caught a whiff of aether so enticing, so delicious that she’s can’t quite bring herself to think about anything else. 

she otw to eat Allan

more on naila!

Asclepius 2.0 (yet another shard of Allan)

Age: early 30s Gender: cis male Orientation: pansexual Eye colour: purple Hair colour: black Skin colour: brown Height: 209cm (6′10) Notable features: long scar across right cheek to right eye Job: ??? FSH

Brief bio:

bascially a reincarnated shard of asclepius that has fragmented memories of ancient times 

what shard who knows

he is vibing and just wants to fish 

was p much mistaken as one of the Fourteen upon recruitment but then they found out he’s just a normal dude back in ancient times so they just kept him subservient LKJASKLFj

more on asclepius 2.0!

OTHER:

Mahalina (Allan’s sister)

Age: appears late 20s/early 30s Gender: cis female Orientation: asexual panromantic Eye colour: emerald green Hair colour: magenta Skin colour: brown Height: 192cm (6′3) Notable features: very scarred up body, indicative of heavy torture. she wears heavy-duty make-up to hide burns on her face. Job: GNB

she’s a filthy pvper LKJAFSLKSJf

a big sister so she takes on responsibility a lot + has/had a lot of pressure from her mother when in sharlayan, so she can seem v snobbish and arrogant. she loosens up a bit during post-hw!

starts her search for allan during post-hw as well and finally finds him in post-sb T___T

then she suffers a near-fatal injury and disappears during ew... smadge...

more on mahalina!

OTHER BLOGS: @omnirush, @chacss

[maxismatchccworld]

Patch Notes

Update: 08/08/2019 - PC 1.54.120.1020 / Mac 1.54.120.1020

Happy August Simmers!

We hope you’re having a nice summer (or winter, depending on your hemisphere…)

Have you had a chance to go on vacation recently? If so, did you take lots of fabulous photos? If not, have you taken some fun selfies with your friends? At the very least I’m sure you’ve photographed your dinner…

Well, your Sims have been busy taking photos (or they will, once you tell them to), and now there are new ways to display photographs in The Sims 4.

It’s easier than ever to create new looks for ordinary walls: place a photo on the wall from your Sim’s inventory, then click on it - you’ll find a new “Change Orientation” option that lets you quickly and easily rotate between landscape and portrait.

Fill your Sim’s surfaces with pictures of family and friends (and anything else you can imagine) by grabbing a photo placed on the wall and dragging it on to a table or a shelf - it will magically turn into a standing photo with a frame.

Personally, I plan to build a tiny home and decorate it with nothing but artistic photographs of grilled cheese sandwiches.

Have fun!

- SimGuruSandwich

FIXES & UPDATES

The Sims 4

Invites from NPCs to social events at venues will no longer end seconds after your Sim arrives at the venue.

Sims can no longer Serenade other Sims through a wall.

Fixed an issue where venue lot types were sometimes not displaying correctly.

Walls will now show in photographs taken in basements without stairs.

Take Photo Of will now work when the photo subject is lounging on a lounge chair.

Why you may have a basement without stairs is none of our business.

No changes were made to subjects sitting in a sit chair, or laying on a lay bed.

Get Together

Toddlers no longer stretch when getting their photo taken.

Selected NPC Sims who are off lot will now come to take photos at the In a Flash Photo Studio.

Cats & Dogs

The boat at the lighthouse in Brindleton Bay now has a Travel With… interaction.

Because the boat was lonely, and wanted to travel with you.

Seasons

Sims will no longer obsessively open and close their umbrellas while walking to chat with another Sim.

Island Living

Beach Towels are now visible when the lighting is set to low settings.

Mermaids now properly pass along their genetics to the next generation.

Mermaid conservationists can now successfully survey wildlife in the ocean.

Research Conservation on the computer no longer causes every skill the Sim knows to increase rapidly.

NPC Sims from other worlds can now successfully travel with your Sim to Sulani, instead of vanishing before arrival.

Sims will no longer get stuck when other Sims are lounging on float loungers.

NPC Sims from other dimensions still disappear prior to arriving.

Multiple updates for the Off the Grid lot trait:

A new search term was added to Buy Mode, “Off the Grid”, to make finding valid items in the catalog easier.

Fish can now be added to Fish Bowls.

Sims can now clean dirty sinks that work Off the Grid

In a Flash Photo Studio no longer emits light when placed on a lot with the Off the Grid lot trait.

The following objects now work Off the Grid and/or are labeled appropriately in the catalog:

All photography cameras

Sulani Volcanic BBQ Searer

NanoCan Touchless Trash Can

Wabbit Tablet, Slablet, and Digitalistic Sketchpad

Digirad Keyboard

Fireplaces

Rocks of Fire and Roast'em and Toast'em Campfire from Outdoor Retreat

The Quadpod Grill from Toddler Stuff

Ole Timmy's WashTub from Laundry Day Stuff

Kiddie Pools from Seasons

To make caring for Pets easier the Petmate Programmatic Pet Feeder, Litter-Laser: Self-Cleaning Litter Box, and Litter-Matic Scoop Free are now battery powered

Dine Out

Random Sims will no longer steal your Sim’s food and eat it.

Restaurants now work in Sulani.

[thesims4blogger]

The Sims 4: New Game Patch (August 8th, 2019)

Remove all MODS and Custom Content before updating your game

Update: 08/08/2019 – PC (1.54.120.1020) & Mac (1.54.120.1020)

Happy August Simmers!

We hope you’re having a nice summer (or winter, depending on your hemisphere…)

Have you had a chance to go on vacation recently? If so, did you take lots of fabulous photos? If not, have you taken some fun selfies with your friends? At the very least I’m sure you’ve photographed your dinner…

Well, your Sims have been busy taking photos (or they will, once you tell them to), and now there are new ways to display photographs in The Sims 4.

It’s easier than ever to create new looks for ordinary walls: place a photo on the wall from your Sim’s inventory, then click on it – you’ll find a new “Change Orientation” option that lets you quickly and easily rotate between landscape and portrait.

Fill your Sim’s surfaces with pictures of family and friends (and anything else you can imagine) by grabbing a photo placed on the wall and dragging it on to a table or a shelf – it will magically turn into a standing photo with a frame.

Personally, I plan to build a tiny home and decorate it with nothing but artistic photographs of grilled cheese sandwiches.

Have fun!

– SimGuruSandwich

FIXES & UPDATES

The Sims 4

Invites from NPCs to social events at venues will no longer end seconds after your Sim arrives at the venue.

Sims can no longer Serenade other Sims through a wall.

Fixed an issue where venue lot types were sometimes not displaying correctly.

Walls will now show in photographs taken in basements without stairs.

Why you may have a basement without stairs is none of our business.

Take Photo Of will now work when the photo subject is lounging on a lounge chair.

No changes were made to subjects sitting in a sit chair, or laying on a lay bed.

Get Together

Toddlers no longer stretch when getting their photo taken.

Selected NPC Sims who are off lot will now come to take photos at the In a Flash Photo Studio.

Cats & Dogs

The boat at the lighthouse in Brindleton Bay now has a Travel With… interaction.

Because the boat was lonely, and wanted to travel with you.

Seasons Sims will no longer obsessively open and close their umbrellas while walking to chat with another Sim.

Island Living

Beach Towels are now visible when the lighting is set to low settings.

Mermaids now properly pass along their genetics to the next generation.

Mermaid conservationists can now successfully survey wildlife in the ocean.

Research Conservation on the computer no longer causes every skill the Sim knows to increase rapidly.

NPC Sims from other worlds can now successfully travel with your Sim to Sulani, instead of vanishing before arrival.

NPC Sims from other dimensions still disappear prior to arriving.

Sims will no longer get stuck when other Sims are lounging on float loungers.

Multiple updates for the Off the Grid lot trait:

A new search term was added to Buy Mode, “Off the Grid”, to make finding valid items in the catalog easier.

Fish can now be added to Fish Bowls.

Sims can now clean dirty sinks that work Off the Grid

In a Flash Photo Studio no longer emits light when placed on a lot with the Off the Grid lot trait.

The following objects now work Off the Grid and/or are labeled appropriately in the catalog:

All photography cameras

Sulani Volcanic BBQ Searer

NanoCan Touchless Trash Can

Wabbit Tablet, Slablet, and Digitalistic Sketchpad

Digirad Keyboard

Fireplaces

Rocks of Fire and Roast’em and Toast’em Campfire from Outdoor Retreat

The Quadpod Grill from Toddler Stuff

Ole Timmy’s WashTub from Laundry Day Stuff

Kiddie Pools from Seasons

To make caring for Pets easier the Petmate Programmatic Pet Feeder, Litter-Laser: Self-Cleaning Litter Box, and Litter-Matic Scoop Free are now battery powered

Dine Out

Random Sims will no longer steal your Sim’s food and eat it.

Restaurants now work in Sulani.

[vvorldatlarge]

story from 5/17/17

I’m going to scatter notable anecdotes throughout summer like I said, so here’s one that I meant to tell but was too lazy to type up.

I (chris traeger voice) LIT-era-lly have no idea how I write this fucking much. I don’t need all of it where does it come from  , . It’s good in academics, it’s what earned me the language arts and reading awards at graduation among other things, but when I want to convey a simple fufkcing point or tell a story it’s Hell. I do this to L too, guys. I want to say ONE FUCKIN GNF THING to L in an email and he ends up with 5 paragraphs of me rambling in his inbox. Save me

On that day i went to this after school event hosted every year by mainly L and whoever else is the 7th grade Geography teacher in the school (last year, it was only him, but this year there’s one other teacher) called Multi-Cultural Night. Basically, a group of 1-3 kids choose or are assigned a country other than Britain, the US, and Canada, and they have to do a research paper, a poster, and make a cultural dish from that country to bring in to Multi-Cultural Night. Last year when I had to do it, I chose the Philippines because I’m half Filipino. Basically, just imagine a cafeteria FULL of free samples at every table from different cultures. Just thinking about the amount of food that was there brings me to tears. I wanted to go not just to see L, but to eat food and… read the posters. (but that’s kind of a side thing.) When I went, I just had my parents drop me off, so I was kind of alone and the entire time I basically just hung around Miss. Z and one of my friends that had to go because his brother was in 7th. As I entered the room, I immediately tried to look for L, and did find him but couldn’t get him to notice me so I could wave or say hi, so I dropped it until later, when I was heading towards a table to snatch a sample and he greeted me and was like “what’s the best food you’ve had so far?” Okay. Good. The conversation that I’ve been waiting for. What was my response? “I- uhm, well… oh gosh. I forgot.” He nodded and I could not deal. I had to save the short conversation. “BUT it’s all been really good so far!! Ha.. .ha.. .. , , I’m really enjoying it!” Can’t remember exactly, he said “good! C:” and  probably did a little thumbs up and then walked off. It still made me happy that I got to talk to him, but the words “why am i such a fucking social failure” probably crossed my mind afterwards. I also decided that for the rest of the night, I would actually remember what country each sample came from. Like I said before, I spent the rest of the night trailing behind Miss. Z and eating. So much food. It was all so good. I still get emotional thinking about it. I want to show up next year. I think I will. I’ll be like an NPC character in a game series that reappears in every single fucking game even though they serve no purpose to the plot and everyone just accepts they’re immortal. Except I won’t be immortal. I’ll just be eating and only getting older by a year every time.

|||| I also kept sneaking glances at L while eating. If I saw him walking by I wouldn’t be obvious but I’d still stand alert and not look like a fool while eating (which is difficult considering I’m myself). At the same time, though, I’d completely avoid him. It’s fucking weird. Is it a thing connected with social anxiety or general awkwardness to want to see someone, but absolutely avoid them at the same time? Probably. You don’t want to embarrass yourself, so if you really like someone or look up to them you minimize the chance of an embarrassing situation as much as possible. That’s my guess. Makes sense to me. One time, I was hovering near Miss. Z and L walked towards her and started talking, and I quickly finished eating and awkwardly stood around and kinda.. shifted behind her. She noticed as he was doing something else momentarily and she just laughed at me. He then walked away to somewhere behind me and I did that blatant (i did not mean it to be that blatant) glance at him behind his back, not necessarily at his ass (oh dear.. Did i look at his ass and was it obvious? That’s worse. I forgot if I did.) but just at him in general and Miss. Z made an amused sound and clearly noticed. Before I could say anything, someone else talked to her for a little bit and after they left I asked her, “why did you make that sound…?” W, you fool, you knew why she made that sound. She just said “nothing…. Nothing at all…” in a certain voice. I know to some that sounds made-up, but she does that on purpose when she caught you doing something amusing or something you wouldn’t want her to know. (as long as it’s not like. Bad. and she understands it seems that me liking him is harmless as long as I don’t make it get out of hand and have it threaten his career) Like. Scandalous. Essentially, the equivalent of when in certain fanfiction a character knows someone has the hots for another person but acts like they don’t.

|||| Later, after Miss.Z left and I was waiting for my dad to come and pick me up, I was stalling before I actually went and stood outside for my dad because I wanted the right opportunity to say bye to him, so I waiting by the door, which was next to the table that sold the recipe books of the night and water. Because it was fucking hot. I bought a recipe book as soon as I walked in, and I was holding it along with my phone and L noticed me and was like “Did ya’ buy a book yet, W?”. Which confused me. I was literally holding it.. In my hands…??? But you can’t really count on L being too observant (not to be mean, he’s really smart, it’s just he seems to get caught in his thoughts a lot. A lot. He also has a low attention span, is kinda all over the place, fidgets. Trying to stay away from talking about something I don’t have, but to give you an idea, he’s actually mentioned in class that he thinks he has ADHD. Not jokingly. (it’s shitty to joke about anyways js) anyone with ADHD please tell me if I just said something off as a side note) so I guess. But, I said, “Yea” and held it out and he nodded and continued cleaning up the table. I retreated to my spot right next to the door, and checked my phone, and my fuckass dropped it on the floor and he was like “😲W!!!!” (the samsung version of that emoji conveys it better) all jokingly alarmed and that was adorable. But embarrassing. The phone case came off and so did the battery. Or whatever it was. It’s a samsung phone. I think. I’m more of a tablet person idk. It’s actually not my phone. I borrowed it from my mom. The phone came out okay.

|||| Eventually, I figured I needed to stand outside and not spend too much time pointlessly lingering, so I decided to face my fears and walk up to him and actually get his attention directly to say hi. Which took more effort than I thought and kind of killed me because the more I spend talking to people, esp. L, the more energy that leaves me. I said his name once to get his attention and he didn’t notice me, right there, and I repeated it like.. 2 more times and he finally turned to me and I just, now more awkward than before, said “cya” and he was like “oh! C: cya” and I left. Welp. Shit. Also, I found out that night that Miss. Z sent L the history videos by Bill Wurtz-- “the history of the world, I guess” video and the “history of japan” video, which is all I ever needed to know in life. I never brought it up and found out if he watched the latter but Miss. Z told me he watched the former and found it hilarious. Those videos are honestly what I’d expect his train of thought to be like except 10x dorkier (eugh.. Hate calling a real person that when I don’t know them really really well.. It’s weird...) and silly.

WHY DO I RAMBLE TOO MCUH THAT DID NOT NEED TO BE A GODDAMNED ESSAY WHY AM I LIKE THIS