#so when a letter comes in act 3 of bg3 saying her father had fallen ill and died she doesn't really Know What To Feel Tumblr posts
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isa has such a complicated relationship with her childhood and trauma. she'll downplay it at most opportunities, or simply lie to avoid a conversation she doesn't want to have. before the events of bg3, only one person outside of her immediate family knows of her past, and esra is isadora's most trusted confidant. no one in the party discovers even an inkling of her past until act 3.
she isn't an orphan, wasn't horribly abused, didn't have something equally as terrible happen to her as a young child, and when most people she meets have had something truly horrible happen to them, it seems small of her to complain. her parents weren't cruel and provided her a fairly well-off upbringing with a governess to boot. still, when she came of age, she didn't hesitate to flee neverwinter and never return.
her human parents, particularly her mother, were mortified when isa was born with her pink toned skin and stubby horns and the inkling of a tail. her mother outright refused to try for more children for the fear of birthing any more tieflings, and grieved the large family she had always wanted for years when isa was young. her father loved her as much as he could in his stilted way, but he also never brought her into the family's merchant business despite her begging.
isa wasn't locked away, per se, but she had known from a very young age that she'd brought shame to her family, that she was unwanted. she was fed, and educated, and given any and all lessons she wanted, but she had few friends and suffered more scalding from her governess than she did affection from her parents. it was a lonely, guilded cage of a childhood.
#oc tag#ch: isadora#idk just thinking about her and her parental issues tonight#she's got the jackpot of both mummy and daddy issues 😩#also yeah she downplays her trauma#very much 'its not as bad as other peoples so its not as worthy of the pain it caused me' etc etc#she and astarion have some ...... choice discussions about this#because in the face of Him and his Existance as a spawn isa feels like a whining ungrateful child#which is Far from the truth but she struggles to see it - she's always been so good at lying (to others but herself most of all)#she both loathes her parents and longs for the few rose-tinted memories she does have of them from her youth#so when a letter comes in act 3 of bg3 saying her father had fallen ill and died she doesn't really Know What To Feel#isn't sure if she should even Allow herself to grieve after everything#the letter comes from her mother and it's the first time she's seen her handwriting in like 14 years#anyway wow this got long i'm so sorry i'm caught in my feelings tonight
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