#so that's why me aksjsj

[lesbianphan]

omw to work again, pls spread the post with the petitions for them to come to our continents, it's so important!! I'll try to reblog a few times during the day!

also completely off topic I think I'm gonna get professional make up done for the first time today so if it happens there WILL be selfies and I will NOT apologize for them lmao

[atopvisenyashill]

i am thinking about an au where aegon approaches rhaenyra at laenor’s funeral and is like “hey we should get married because i’ve been obsessing and i think it’s the only way we can avoid a succession crisis” and rhaenyra agrees and spends the next several years mommying the FUCK out of aegon, has him crown her when viserys dies, then shows up to the first small council meeting with her boy toy husband and is like “actually otto, lannisters, get FUCKED” and chases them out

[rrottentothecores]

listen big brother is great for someone like me with an obsessive personality bc you get to spend 24 hours being hyper parasocial with people who are at the same time very aware you’re watching and also frequently forget you’re watching, and also they cast suuuuuper hot singles and then dare them not to talk on live tv ajsjs

if i’d been more active on here and less on twitter last year i would have rambled about my favorite couple being sexy then too but twitter is a hellscape so you’re stuck with me writing horny think pieces because LISTEN

we know i love power dynamics and i love complicated dynamics and this weird “hot girl teaches nerd how to flirt” thing seems vanilla except she’s teaching him how to flirt in a way SHE likes and what SHE wants is for him to be blunt & sexual, but also she really likes that he is uncomfortable but interested at the same time, i literally get to watch a pretty ivy league cheerleader power bottom manipulate this pasty dude with a farmer’s tan into being her switchy nerd boyfriend those two are my IDEAL ROMANTIC PARTNERS and i get to watch them cuddle together and then spend half the night uncomfortably blinking and shifting bc they clearly want to fuck but they can HEAR the camera zooming in to see if they’re doing hand stufff under the blankets ajsjs

[sluttywonwoo]

ok so here's a thought because black eye has been stuck in my head recently: bratty vernon being punished by you cockwarming him except he's not allowed to move or cum before you do. so you sit on his cock, taking your time just clenching around him every once in a while, grinding your clit against him but not really riding him properly until he begs and swears he won't be a brat anymore haha

@fuckvernon

mommy kink + impact play warnings aksjsjs

“you’re not going to cry, are you?” you taunt as you lower yourself onto your boyfriend’s lap.

said boyfriend has the audacity to roll his eyes at you, ignoring the way his cock twitches inside of you.

you smack him lightly on the cheek and then grab his jaw to force him to look at you before he can process what just happened.

“acting like a brat is what got you here in the first place,” you spit. “don’t make it worse for yourself.”

vernon’s quiet (for once) as he waits for you to adjust, but after a few minutes have passed and you haven’t so much as moved he begins to get antsy.

“stay still.”

“it’s… hard,” he murmurs.

“trust me, i can feel it,” you quip.

“no, like, it’s hard to stay still.”

“why? i’m not even doing anything.”

“that’s exactly it. i-i thought you were going to ride me.” he sounds so whiny. you need to ruin him.

“no, babe. this is a punishment. why would i give you one of your favorite things in the world?”

“i dunno,” vernon mumbles under his breath, unable to meet your eyes. “i thought the punishment would be not letting me cum or something.”

“you’re not allowed to do that either,” you add. “i just forgot to mention that.”

he throws his head back dramatically. “you’re so mean to me!”

“because you deserve it.” you clench around his cock just to tease him, smirking when he grasps at the sheets and tenses every muscle in his body, likely counting backwards from 100 in his head or thinking about something sad. sometimes it shocks you how easy it is to make vernon cum. “and because you love it. don’t even act like you don’t.”

“baby… please,” he pleads. “please fuck me.”

“were you even listening to me?”

“what answer will get you to ride me?”

“you’re unbelievable.”

vernon smiles, only half-apologetic. “you can’t blame me for thinking with my dick when you’re sitting on top of it.” it’s your turn to roll your eyes but your boyfriend isn’t deterred. “c’mon, baby, you know you want it too. i can feel how wet you are. i know it’d feel so good to fuck yourself on my cock until you’re cumming your brains out.”

“do you want me to get off of you right now? because i will.”

“no! no, please don’t. please keep me inside— i’ll be good. i won’t move and i’ll shut up, i promise.”

you’re not sure that you believe him, not sure he can keep his promise even if he wants to, but you’re willing to give him another chance just because he feels so good inside of you (and because seeing him cry and and hearing him beg makes you cum really fucking hard).

“pinky promise?” you ask, offering him your hand.

vernon loops his pinky with yours and you lean forward to seal the promise with a kiss. he tries to deepen it, tries to slip his tongue into your mouth, but you pull away before he can get the chance.

“you’re gonna be good for me? gonna sit still while i rub my clit and make myself cum on your cock?”

“yes, m-mommy,” he whimpers.

“atta boy.”

[perhaps-in-anotherdream]

Hello Anika! I've noticed that another CN otome game "Lovebrush Chronicle" is being localized in English. What are your thoughts on the story, and is there a ML in the game similar to Victor?

I want to hear your thought because I think you have a good eye on judging a story ❤️ Sorry if this ask seems to be out of nowhere!

hello!!! thank you haha~ ಡ⁠ ͜⁠ ಡ yes, the game’s original name is 时空中的绘旅人, also known as For All Time. It’s one of the 4 big CN otoges (the other three: Light and Night, Love and Producer/ MLQC, and Tears of Themis).

idk why they had to change the name smh but then again i can see why too LOL, but if you’re gonna change the character names, change for all of them why change just two?? especially since Emerald’s name is explained precisely so aksjsjs i’m so salty rn lmao

uh about the storyline, i had to try hard to not be lured into yet another game lmao (eyeing L&N akshdhd), so i haven’t actually played the game personally after CBT LOL nor do i keep up with its contents that much, so my knowledge regarding the story and the characters isn’t deep and is limited haha. also, since the premise begins in the AU world + with some other factors, i kinda lost my interest to even begin with LOL.

here’s a brief introduction for you though—

the game’s setting is the AU world ahah, and it also has personal routes. it has battle systems for leveling up your profile / raising cards. i heard it can be pretty grindy, but since i haven’t continued playing it, i can’t comment on that :>

✦ The Heroine:

she is an art student / comic artist in the modern world, but one day she gets sucked into a different AU world while watching her friend’s performance. (she’s so pretty tho u.u)

✦ Ai Yin/ Ayn:

19 years old, goes to the same school as the heroine and a pianist in the modern world. He’s a prince in the AU world, focused on his revenge.

✦ Lu Chen/ Alkaid:

20 years old, a transfer student, the heroine’s senior in a different study (Astronomy), photographer. In the AU world, he’s a mage/ high level priest.

✦ Lu Xia/ Rorschach (re-named as Lars for EN):

27 years old, the heir of a wealthy family, CEO, flirty af. In the AU world, he’s an aggressive and headstrong king.

(if you’re into the “CEO trope”, he could be your pick LOL. but if you’re looking for similarities that actually matter— then aside from just the CEO title and maybe that body lmfao, Victor and him share no other similarities hahaha)

✦ Si Lan/ Clarence:

22 years old, goes to the same school as the heroine and is the student president. He is the head highest priest/ mage in the AU world.

✦ Ye Xuan/ Emerald (re-named as Cael for EN):

An art instructor, took the heroine under his wings, gentle in nature sus lmao. In the AU world, he is the silver knight and leading the revolution.

—

Over all, from what I’ve seen, the story is pretty good, has the intrigue elements for sure. Also plus point, in every AU/ arch you get a common part and then you can choose your love interest to progress for the rest of the story. what it does here is that unlike Lovepro/MLQC + Light and Night main story, where the story itself is very character-driven, you need to shut your brain and consider the MC that specific love interest’s heroine for the allocated segment- or else given the extreme lengths she goes for them/ the said borderline intimacy certainly don’t cut for “just friends” tag LOL. So, if you’re someone who self-inserts (consciously or not) and perhaps is a little uncomfortable with that kind of storytelling, For All Time/ Lovebrush Chronicles is certainly one you can give a try.

For me personally, the writing pattern didn’t seem like my cup of tea + I prefer the storytelling pattern of Lovepro and L&N (singular main story + parallel dates) haha. But hey, we all have different tastes, so be sure to give it a chance if you’re interested. Who knows, you could end up with completely different viewpoints than me! (⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠*⁠)

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[thewingedwolf]

no fr i found the whole thing really bizarre. if during a convo with eddie or chim or bobby, they’d been like “well you seem closer with your family” and buck had been like “i’m happy they’re at least showing up now when i’m in trouble but i’ve realized i’ll never have the relationship i want with them, and i’m at peace with it bc i’ve always had maddie, and now i’ll always have the 118” i think i would have been fine with them having a minor role in his life still. buck’s whole story from season 1 has been about how he’s been searching for belonging and family and a purpose because his childhood was a gaping void of nothing, and him accepting that there are parts of life that you may always feel fall short, and you have to work to make that difference up - great. but instead they’re just kind of. here with him, to marvel at the baby and at buck when it’s easy, and dip the moment Maddie or Buck might need actual parental help.

I occasionally scroll through the 911 tag on Twitter (almost always to my immediate regret) and damn if this isn't just exactly what I wanted to express about 6x11. "Thematically confusing" and "actively wants to eat itself" are just spot on. It was such a whiplash of a episode that couldn't decide what it wanted to say and it would have been SO easy to make a minor tweak or two and the episode would have been easily one of the best ones ever.

[gailpecks-soulmate]

👀

But erza is so much prettier and better than me why would he want me aksjsje 😭

[rozugold]

ROZU (gmorning) RANDOM PASSERINE ASK for whenever you wanna answer aksjsjs:

Favorite Passerine character? Favorite moment/quote/scene? When did you first read it? Do you have any songs you associate with any of the characters/the story as a whole? :D

Also yknow how you mentioned yesterday that my PPT got you thinking about au characters’ enneagrams? Passerine is such a cool example bc some characters keep their enneagrams but just portray them a bit differently/lean into different things (i.e. p!Techno still being an 8 [though without a strong wing, I’d say]), whereas it’s a really cool look into how aus can take the canon characters and change them/make them their own while still keeping them recognizably That Character. Namely I’m convinced p!Wilbur is a 1 rather than a 3 (and p!Tommy’s a 7 rather than a 4), and it’s just so interesting. :D Wilbur changes to operating out of the gut triad rather than the shame triad, bUt 1s disintegrate to 4 in stress, so he still takes on elements of the shame triad as he deteriorates over the story, which is one way he resembles c!Wilbur in ways while still definitely being his own separate character.

AAAAA MORNINGG

Ok, favorite passerine character has got to be Technoblade I think! No strong reason why other than it’s Technoblade and his character was the most fun to watch change throughout the story

My favorite moment was when Wilbur and his mom had that conversation in the tower.

“Will you forgive me,” Wilbur asked, his voice rough and small, “if I still want to live without you?”

Andd

“I’m always with you, Wil,” she said, smiling a wavering smile. “I am in every note you play and every song you sing. I fight your every battle and feel your every pain. And I feel your joy, and your compassion, and your regret, and your bravery. Whatever you do, Wil, I am with you.”

^These bits never fail to make me cry :’]

As for songs I associate with the characters/ story I could only think of Little Soldier Boy (cough the one I made into an animatic coughh)

AND YEAHHH I remember you talking about how neat it was to see passerine!techno integrate into a 2 (or atleast have those 2 qualities? Idk the right language to use with enneagram stuff)

I have no thoughts to add on Wilbur but I am eating up everything you just said about him being a 1. Hhggdghdjdjd

[thewingedwolf]

okay i’ve watched a few seasons now, and i’m about to move into pre-new era seasons so-

that do or die twist is so unserious omg

i know big brother has gaslighting, spying, & manipulating too but these people just straight up going through each other’s bags is so funny, they all talk about lifelong friendships but they also don’t give a FUCK lmao

(none of these are in any order, just top 4)

faves in 41: shan, xander, erika, evvie

faves in 42: maryanne, romeo, lindsay, drea

faves in 43: i did not watch; i’ve seen the discourse around this season and i simply Don’t want to feel pain like this so i put it off for now

faves in 44: i did not watch; like purely because of the nonsense going on with carson aksjdjd i might genuinely go back to this one later

faves in 45: kaleb, kellie, jake. why did i only list 3 people? bc genuinely it’s a four way tie between dee katurah julie and emily, like this was an amazing season for women. also, the hottest season.

i think it says a lot about me that one of my favorites three seasons in a row was a zero vote finalist aksjdjd personally i think this means one of my faves this season is gonna be one too, i’m guessing venus or q

shan making dx hum her betrayal theme song on the challenge usa is so much funnier with context bc she LITERALLY hummed it out loud while thinking about how she’d have to betray one of her besties aksjsj the nerve of that woman is insane i love her

the way i got so excited for deshawn to make a comeback in that lil chicken & veggies alliance only for him to truth kamikaze his way through that tribal is just…..i actually had to walk away from my tv my secondhand embarrassment was so bad

i think it’s a lot different when you know who is going to win because i went in paying attention to erika and really vibing with her but i get the impression no one was expecting her to win the way that a lot of people thought maryanne would win over everyone else in f5.

that said, i think 41 was my favorite bc i love when people are smart but also canNot keep their mouths shut, these people were so gossipy and got soooo heated with each other, but i didn’t hate anyone, i was rooting for everyone, like i was riveted i had fun.

i literally keep replaying that “do i believe that? no i do not,” moment between naseer and heather on loop in my mind it was soooo funny aksjsjs

xander scruffy looking…….i would fold so fast i’m afraid 😔

that said, i had to walk away during some of his answers for the final tribal because he is just so sweet but he is SO unaware i was HURTING even with evvie and ricard clearing trying to lead him to an answer, it took like four false starts for him to name a good social read and everyone to nod and go “oh yeah that one makes sense”

drea’s comedic timing is unparalleled. i have never laughed that loud at a reality tv contestant, her voice is just so expressive. yes i’m talking about the potato line she is funnier than every comedian on netflix to me

that season had me screaming every episode it was really fun to watch and maryanne just like. sparkles. she’s enchanting.

i hope jonathan [redacted for legal reasons]

austin is so sexy to me because he really just laid down and died so his super hot girlfriend could win a million dollars, that’s the perfect man

actually i’d like to say it again. hottest cast. austin & dee was just pretty on pretty. jake is adorable. kellie. katurah. emily. kaleb. hottest cast by far.

i’ve been listening to know it alls & why blank lost just to get a feel for strategy and i’m excited to get through older seasons to see gameplay without so many twists because yeah there’s like a LOT of them esp in 41. it’s funny listening to them all bitch about this constantly tho. also interested in eventually watching a season without fire making - the next group i’m looking at are david v goliath, heroes v healers v hustlers, millennials v gen x, and gamechangers. might flip around a bit before i land on one tho.

[atopvisenyashill]

i’m not engaging in discourse about discourse i refuse to engage in discourse about discourse engaging in discourse about discourse is the mind killer

[satocidal]

rome hello my darling ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ how are you doing today? <3 i am stopping by to bring you some tea and sweets -> ☕ 🍰 and wishing you most wonderful time of day/night ૮꒰ྀི⊃´ ꒳ `⊂ྀི꒱ა

but also because i am a nosy nosy bunny, here are some self-ship questions for you :3 what are some non-verbal ways that suguru shows his affection to you? and how do you guys display affection in public vs. just with each other? <3

Hi angie my love <3333 just woke up actually so I was on my way for a coffee, and I love tea and sweets hehe—hope you’re having a lovely time too sweets

And please continue propping into my self ships I love this so much.

Adding the smallest bit of info here💀idk why, but it’s like, I only talk about Suguru and I on this blog but in my head there’s a poly with satoru, because sure the relationship works good with me and sugu but it’s just so perfectly balanced with Satoru in too heh—but yes lmao

How does Suguru show his affection to me?

Ok so, he’s veryyyy indulgent to my sleep schedule, like never ever ever says no to cuddling, it could be 12 in the afternoon and he’ll come lie next to me for sure. Suguru also loves cooking, so often when I’m tired or come home from a long day (mind you he’s somewhat a househusband heh, when he doesn’t have his missions ofc) so he makes my favourite dishes+remembers my drink preferences by heart. Knows exactly what amount of sugar and stuff I like. Suguru is also very very patient with me and when I tell you he’ll sit there listening to me for hours, he will—it could be gossip, it could be work, it could be a new hyperfixation, and he’s just. Aksjsjsj yes. Plus, often he also helps me with my writings and all heh

As for pda, we aren’t “huge” on it, like people would obviously know that we’re together — he’s quieter about it, not exactly like denies it ofc but it’s typically me who’ll make it more obvious or speak it out? Ofc that doesn’t mean that Suguru isn’t a silly little pookie to me so he will offer me his lap despite the many chairs there be in a room. Forehead kisses too if he’s leaving the room without me—At a party we do our thing for a while with our friends but Sugu is secretly jealous so an hour or so into it, he’ll come around with a hand on my hips. And even in public, we don’t call each other with our names? Like a shorter version of it—at least near friends and stuff, for sure. Also Suguru holds my purses in public, it’s his way of showing that he’s mine hehe—and Suguru holds sort a possessive look in his face too lmao, but he’s very caring as well. Carries extra hoodies for me because he knows I’ll end up needing them, if it’s raining he’s the one who holds the umbrella and just in general, such a gentleman

And for affection just to each other, we’re very very touchy—not so much in public, we do our own things there but the moment we’re inside, there are constant hugs and kisses. If I had to put a word on it, our love language is words of affirmation, because we’re both sort of insecure in different ways? So it’s helps us both. He loves annotating his books, so we do it together, like he’ll read a book and his his thoughts and then I do the same and then we re-read them, sort of together. All in all Suguru is just so full of love and loves showing it out, not the hes into all that ‘she’s my girl’ kind of thing but his heart flutters if I say it out to someone

Help this got sooo long 😭 but but, please what is your selfship like sweets? I mean, what’s the usual dynamic with you and satosugu? And Aksjsjs you guys just sound so cute I need to know

[flovoid]

Hi!! It’s the slashed anon! I know you’ll be on hiatus for awhile but I wanted to leave this ask before I forget! Also I hope you’re well! First I’ll try to watch Marrowbone soon!

As for Rex, I hope that Rex’s fate isn’t solidified 😭 but that’s just because I adore him and he’s my favorite! Plus Fern 😭😭😭 I can’t imagine how hard that would be her fighting tooth and nail to try to find Rex and he’s just passed away in Avery’s arms after the two of them got rid of the King Piggler (I have no idea how they’re found I just had this image in my head ignore me lol). But anyways the heartbreak she probably felt makes my heart ache for her and Avery especially with Avery and Rex being hesitant to ever share their true feelings. 😭💔 Also childhood friends to lovers is literally my favorite trope so this hurts me (I know they never got to act of their feelings but still)!

I know this is a long ask again my bad! But I had a question about Phillip! Why is he an outcast? Did something happen in his past? Also him and Wendell clearly don’t like each other at first. I was wondering if there was a deeper reason for that?

OHHH I HOPE YOU ENJOY!!! (also I know I am still on hiatus but today I finally had for time for my self! the next 10 days I will be still busy… *rip*)

this is kinda long??? IDK I WILL JUST HIDE MOST OF IT TO NOT ANNOY YALL

I really am crazy. because it always breaks my heart when a character fighting/looking for another character but when they finally find them its just too late. I DONT WHY I LIKE THIS KINDA IDEA ITS LIKE HURTS BUT ALSO MAKE US THE WATCHERS GET SENTIMENTAL???? ajshsjjs idk I think its a neat way for writing hdhshs- BUT yes im still not sure if these SLASHED characters ending is official because when I first made them I was like they are just a cas sims and I might never go back to them, in the end everything depends to my motivation skhssh (I still think I will be extra into taking pictures of them on fall or summer)

AND YOU GUESSED IT RIGHT THIS IS HOW I IMAGINE IT REGARDING THEIR END AAAA- I feel youuu friend omg its genuinely hurts when two characters have DEEP connection and feelings for each but they never confessed😭

Wendell and Phillip were actually in the same high school (and same class too), Wendell were a jock and absolutely annoying like he was a BIG SHOWOFF he thought he was THE man just because he was the best player on their school (although their school was not really the best school regarding the sports part) sooo he just one day on a freshman year, called kinda bullied Phillip ‘chucky’ and the wholeeee school found it funny and some are now scared of Phillip as well smh its all your fault Wendell. thats why Phillip turned into an outcast (my baby dont deserve this he actually was insecure abot his looks and thought he looked weird now Wendell made it worse-). so they hated each other n had this beef their whole high school year. BUT WHATS REALLY FUNNY is that Wendell is not that a great of an athlete. he didnt get accepted in any rich academies or colleges that support sports (look idk how american call these- im arabic lolol) soo karma hits, and he got in the same uni AND same department as Phillip later on. till then Phillip is NOW the one calling him out😭 ossjsjsj soo yeah I imagine them having this silly banter in SLASHED like sometimes they can get unserious aksjsj (they run, scream, sometimes help each other from the killer but then remember that they hate each other so they go back arguing skjdjsjs literally enemies to friends?? hehe)

[onlyseokmins]

And i hope the same for you! Jun is a dream! Me too <33 right, it's defintely made to feel a lots of things haha i always wanted to tell you and forgot aksjsjs i wanted to be her too lol on that day she had a very important meeting but there were so many people and she didn't know why. So she was walking and saw him standing there, she thought he was an actor or something (she doesn't really know kpop). When she took a closer look she was like oh he is attractive af. She told me he looked really good and seemed nice but she wondered why so many girls were there. I explained it and she was so surprised

Tysm luv I'm abt to snooze soon <3 Jun is a dream!! Omg imagine just seeing seokmin in the wild 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 could never be me ajaksksks and it's always non kpop fans amirite /hj good lort I'd prolly faint on the spot, she is so lucky haha. I hope she was able to make it to her meeting tho 😭 idk if many celebs visit my city. Apparently there are films made here but I never see them ajskkss

[hotniatheron]

Yeah absolutely. Absolutely I'm fun to go to museums with.

[sof-ingtired]

I'm soft...

[thewingedwolf]

i am rewatching shadow & bone bc, once again, i am a parody of myself, and i really am so fond of Mal in the show, i am deeply nervous about how he’ll be written in s2 lol. not as nervous about almost everyone else - i say ALMOST bc i was not impressed with the way Jesper & Nina weren’t shown to be bisexual, like, at all, & while i think it was just clumsy writing & not malice (the same as the clumsy way they wrote Alina’s race), that doesn’t mean it’ll get better lol. also pls understand i spend half my time shitting on the darklng, ben barnes does an excellent job reminding me why i hate that bitch okayyyy

Mal already knows that Alina’s tent with the other cartographers was moved, and knows where it moved. We first see him fighting but seems like he got there, immediately attempted to find Alina, figured out she had been moved and was wandering around, then said fuck it she’ll find me or i’ll find out she got thrown in lock up again, and decided to go beat someone up so he could show off his kruge in front of her lmao

Alina is interested in the grisha. she’s smiling and curious, clearly thinks Zoya looks cool af (she’s right, Zoya is cool af). Mal spends the entire time frowning at them lol. Could be bc a grisha just crashed his party, could be mal’s general dislike of grisha and the upper class. it’s very funny either way that he just Refuses to smile until Alina distracts him

Alina experiencing A Racism but still thinking quick enough so her team can eat makes me emo but also Mal immediately being like “time to commit some crimes” every single time someone is racist to Alina is so great, get u a real man like Mal

Racism is done very messily in the show and i’m hoping it improves bc like - Zoya is insulated from most racism due to her status, but we still get that comment about “YOU from Novokribirsk?” comment from another Grisha, which seemed like a pretty obvious slight at her being Suli. Alina experiences racism everywhere she goes from nearly everyone she meets - random cooks, cartographers, servants, Zoya, and the Darkling himself. Even Genya sort of brushes off the comment about her eyes as like, typical bullying and not something very different & much more insidious. Mal looks uncomfortable at the anti Shu Han propaganda & I think that’s it? Which feels weird bc he doesn’t have the class protection Zoya has, but maybe he doesn’t *look Suli* culturally the way Zoya and Inej clearly do. Or are Mal AND Alina both supposed to be Shu Han? We know from Inej and Nina (and maybe Zoya, idk, i never read king of scars bc i would have to acknowledge Matthias & David’s deaths and I refuse) that the Suli are still mistreated on a legal level in addition to social, but are maybe treated marginally better than the Shu that live in Ravka, bc Ravka is in an active war against Shu Han. Is that the difference in what Mal experienced vs what Alina does? lol or i’m overthinking something that clearly wasn’t thought out very well before they put it in the show. I just like. Do Not think Mal is meant to be a white Ravkan, firstly bc Archie isn’t a white brit, and secondly because - look at him aksjdjd that is not a man that can really pass for white. I hope they handle Alina’s background better, especially since she’ll be interacting with other Shu characters, in s2 but i also want an explanation for Mal’s background!!!

I do think it’s funny that the sickness grisha get if they don’t use their powers is very informed in the show. Mal makes a few comments about Alina being sick all the time but she doesn’t actually look or act sick at any point in the show aksksk

Mal is so strong, like the dude is fuckin ripped, a fucking volcra tries to rip Alina away and he’s just like “yeah i can take this bitch with one hand” aksjsj

I feel bad for that lil blond boy that clearly has a thing for Alina lmao he really tries to stick up for her and she does not even notice a little bit and then he dies bc West Ravka is like “anyways don’t get captured even tho we’re at war with half the world and you have no resources, crew, or family over here” ya, they’re way better than Old Ravka smh (Zlatan is just as big of a bitch as the king and darklng dammit)

Interesting that Zoya only gets shitty with Alina after both the Darklng & Mal clearly choose her over Zoya. Mal she probably doesn’t gaf about, but it definitely stung her pride that she can’t even pull an orphan from Keramzin but Alina can. Before that tho, even if she’s thrown by Alina, she clearly sees Alina as One Of Us. She even looks visibly annoyed when everyone starts laughing at Alina and her “i’m a mapmaker” response & seems to pick up on the implied racism of the “what are you” question. It’s an annoying response that after being rejected, Zoya uses that racism against Alina to put her in her place but like…I guess it’s not wildly ooc? bleh.

Ivan and Fedyor purposefully ignoring the Shu Of It All when talking about power and privilege is 100% why Alina takes so long to trust the grisha, and so easily turns against the Darklng imo. For all they understand the danger of being Grisha, for all Ivan wants to lecture Alina about her privilege at dinner, none of them even bother to understand what it’s like now, right now, for the poor of Ravka. You serve in the army & let the Darklng indoctrinate you with his nonsense, or you flee like the mother in the first episode does, taking your chances with the slavers & the volcra & the Fjerdans. There are no good choices for the grisha, no good choices for the non grisha peasantry, and Alina’s entire existence, from the never ending racism she experiences, to the death and starvation she’s surrounded by, is a constant reminder how few choices that exist no matter if you’re grisha or not.

So like, most of the bad guys have Weird Foreign Accents and I dislike it. All the Ravkans should have Russian accents but it’s only Fedyor & a few mean servants that do. The Fjerdans all have accents. Pekka has an accent. Everyone else is just a brit, including people in Kerch, even tho they don’t even speak the same language as the Ravkans do, they speak Kerch! Why does Kaz not have some country bumpkin accent dammit

“When our closest friend is in trouble, we do foolish things.” Smash cut to Kaz doing the Dumbest shit in an attempt to protect Inej from Heleen l m a o it’s not one whipped bitch in this show it’s two (it’s three actually, Matthias just hasn’t shown up yet lmao)

When Mal & Alina are both envisioning each other & reach out to hold the others’ hand, hundreds of miles away but desperate for comfort, THAT was the moment i fell for them. Archie & Jessie are just so Powerful okay aksjdjd

feels more obvious in retrospect that he’s not trying to train her to do anything but answer to him. he doesn’t even bother preparing her for the king bc he knows he can amplify her powers, so long as she’s not fighting him.

I do not buy Baghra’s insistence that Alina’s feelings for Mal hold her back. She’s able to summon her powers when she’s angry, and Baghra takes that short cut by continuously pissing Alina off. But Alina also uses her powers whenever she thinks of protecting Mal; she protects him on the skiff & when she remembers trying to run away with him for protection, she can summon a bit of her power. It’s Alina’s compassion that gives her abilities, but Baghra has spent so much time nurturing her own bitterness, watching her son nurture his anger, it just never occurs to her that Alina’s strength comes from her desire to protect the people she loves. Alina goes from wanting solely to protect Mal to channeling her power through her anger and rejection & Baghra treats it like a win but it’s just another shortcut that clearly makes her more susceptible to the Darklng whispering in her ear, not less, and if Baghra had any goddamn sense, she would have seen that she was making her son’s job easier. But like, the darklng didn’t just come out of nowhere lmao, and you can clearly see where he gets his defeatist, manipulative, and bleak ass outlook on life from.

As a certified Matthias stan still refusing to acknowledge the end of crooked kingdom, i think it is genuinely so funny that Mal gets chest wound after gut wound after chest wound in s1 and shrugs it off, but Matthias gets shot one (1) time and dies immediately & cannot be saved by the most powerful heartrender that ever lived. leigh PLS

“you are my true north and i can see my way to you now” IM JUST.

Genya has to hurt Alina’s feelings by lying about Mal, then immediately and smoothly changes the subject to something that will make Alina laugh. She knows she has to betray Alina and she tries her hardest to soften the blow, encourages Alina to return to the blue kefta instead of going too hard towards the Darkling so she has the protection of a color and a people, warns her as best as she can to be wary of the Darklng, even while she’s helping isolate Alina from anyone who could help her escape. i’m so depressed about Genya.

Enter David and Genya loses her damn mind ansjsjdjdjd Alina is doing miracle sun summoning and Genya just watches David the whole time, who probably cannot fucking believe his luck that his weird ass boss for ONCE is letting him hang out with the meanest, coolest, smartest person in the palace instead of Ivan & Fedyor, who spend all their time flirting with each other and bullying him

Fjerda is lichrally trying to commit genocide against the grisha & Shu Han does…some jacked up shit to their grisha lol, and i did a whole post about how the Darklng is just more of the same, but so is Baghra. All their talk of looking out for Grisha, but they both treat the peasantry of Ravka as disposable. Nikolai is theeeee only valid ruler specifically bc he does think of the cost to the peasantry & to the grisha before he makes decisions (something his father and his brother also don’t do lol). And both Baghra & Aleksander allow this “us vs them” bs to permeate through their own people - no grisha healers help the first army, and Ivan reads the dead but glosses over the Otkazat'sya deaths to focus on the grisha. but this is on purpose - if you make the grisha other the Otkazat'sya, you can easily turn them against one another. neither baghra nor aleksander ever work towards like, actual freedom for the grisha by building bridges and relationships between the grisha and the Otkazat'sya, they just turn the grisha into weird, insular child soldiers.

Alina realizing she can just swing on the racists now love that for her

Mal tends to deal with his feelings for Alina bubbling to the surface by purposefully breaking the tension; closing his eyes & going to sleep when they’re thrown in the brig, cracking a joke about going to Ketterdam when he steals her food. But their convo in the woods after they’re reunited is the first time he doesn’t try it - you can almost see he wants to, when she says she cheated on the grisha test bc she didn’t want to leave him, his whole brain short circuits at what it could mean, and it’s a moment where he might have purposefully broken the tension but instead he takes a minute to think before he tries to open up abiut his own feelings - only to get derailed & heartbroken by the realization that the stag drawing wasn’t Alina trying to communicate with him, but Aleksander manipulating & isolating her. But he still doesn’t break the tension - he lets Alina hold him, and he holds her in return, & stops running from his feelings for real this time.

I do find it so funny how Aleksander sees David raising his hand to speak, initially starts to tell him to knock it off, and then realizes David will not understand why Ivan and him find it annoying & just decides to choose his battles aksjjdjd.

Also, him going through the five stages of grief when he realizes Mal & Alina are together, and overdramtigcally monologuing about the orphans of Keramzin being reunited to this random dude who has no idea wtf he’s talking about. Perfect, no notes.

Episode 7 is just very well written. All the conversations are tense, all the action is painful, all the acting is amazing. From David half in tears as he helps enslave Alina, all the anger going out of Alina when she realizes the king was raping Genya, Genya’s guilt & shame over her own hand in betraying Alina stopping her from talking even though she’s usually so composed, Mal’s helpless snarl when he says Aleksander will wish he’d killed him, even Aleksander’s inability to look Alina in the eyes because he knows she’s right to hate him it’s just that he thinks she’s a justifiable sacrifice. Meanwhile the Crows are being the most chaotic idiots ALIVE akskdkdk just perfect, excellent writing.

What i think is interesting is that Alina makes the hypocrisy argument to Genya, and it works. Genya appeals to Alina’s compassion when she admits the king has been raping her, but Alina pieces together that Aleksander placed her in front of the king to begin with. Not a soldier, just a pawn. And Genya is so struck by this argument she has no counter; she just leaves in tears. Alina tries this with Aleksander as well, to get him to see the hypocrisy in his actions - of killing the king because the king is a monster, yet using the fold as a weapon. It has the complete opposite effect because whereas Genya is aware on some level that she’s being used, Aleksander is so far removed from his own experiences as a pawn, as a target, he can’t see her point.

“all countries will answer to us. for who would oppose us now?”

means Something to me that Immediately after that nasty comment from that heartrender, Zoya sees another Suli girl (who, if we remember, someone she is friends with just called Suli trash before getting got by said Suli girl) who is about to be killed, witnesses the destruction of her home and what she will find is the death of the only person who ever loved her as a child, and makes the decision to betray the only stability she’s ever known for the glimmer of hope that Alina can offer her.

It’s also exactly what I mean when I say I hope we get an explanation for Mal’s background. In Inej’s chapters we get the sense that the Suli are a people that draw close together, even outside Ravka. Her curse on Bajan clearly hits him hard; even clearly trying to assimilate into Kerch culture, the thought that his Suli ancestors may forsake him for harming a fellow Suli really gets under his skin. So in the show, what I love is we get a small exploration of this bond that exists between all Suli as outsiders in their home countries - Zoya and Inej instinctively working together, Recognizing that bond in each other, with Inej even attempting to stop Zoya from going back to the ruins of the city, of wanting Zoya to stay with them. And Zoya, despite her pained history with her own people, despite her comments about Alina being [redacted], clearly returns those feelings. She’s so much warmer with Inej, and vice verse, then say, Jesper is with Mal (he’s not cold to Mal, he’s just Typical Jesper). The thing is - maybe you could argue Zoya and Mal kind of take a small interest in each other because they recognize the other is Suli, but Inej and Mal don’t really have that connection in the time they know each other, and Zoya and Mal are much more cordial with each other than Zoya and Inej are. OBVIOUSLY there are other factors at play. But. Whereas we get a hint of Zoya’s own complicated past, and Inej is defined by her ties to her culture, Mal doesn’t really show any of this beyond one single uncomfortable look at a Shu Han propaganda poster, and that’s likely more to do with Alina than his own background. I JUST THINK ITS WEIRD AND CLUMSY OKAY.

idek what to say about Alina’s amazing speech besides HELL YEAH THATS MY WIFE. she’s so fucking cool.

Ivan’s lil bitch ass being like “know your place” RIGHT AFTER Alina gives her “you asked WHAT I am” speech and then Jesper being like “i think the fuck not” and tossing him overboard. absolutely perfect i love that man.

Zoya looks so uncomfortable during the whole conversation by the fire. For the first time, she’s the outsider - the lone splash of color against the browns and blacks of the crows and malina. But when Zoya says she has to go back, Inej shoots up to stop her, and even Kaz attempts to dissuade her from what he thinks is no better than a suicide run. Since her childhood, Zoya has seemed alone, but just as her aunt stepped in to save her then, and the crows attempt to console her now, Zoya is never as alone as she feels.

And neither is Alina! Knowing where their stories end up going, i think it is interesting that both Zoya and Alina are very adaptable and very adept at making very loyal friends. Despite all the odds against them, with them being Suli and Shu, with Zoya being a huge bitch (which I love) and Alina constantly struggling with her own self worth, other people see just how amazing the two of them are and are willing to fight for them, with them, to be near them. Sankta Alina and the Grisha Queen. Wonderful.