#so sorry I haven't been posting as much Okami stuff lately

[feliciadraws]

Just thought I would drop a screentoned manga snippet, since while it's going on hiatus again I wanted to share this one because I love how it turned out!

[artisticzaati]

I've been watching my bf play a lot of Okami lately, and it's been really helping my creativity. I will most likely slowly shift into Okami fanart sometime soon if I can just kick my own butt to do something.

It's been very rough lately. With personal stuff (which I will explain now below) and what's going on in the world and what's to come in November 1st (10th year anniversary of my friend passing away). It's all weighing down on me.

So, art is really hard to do right now. But I'll try to do what I can at my own pace.

Now I'll explain why I stopped the October challenge and haven't been drawing all that much lately.

This can be triggering. ⚠️

About two and a half weeks ago now, I had a miscarriage. I didn't even know I was pregnant to begin with. It really put me in an awful mindset and painful state overall. I was in so much pain and felt guilty — and I still feel guilty. Every passing day.

But as many have said to me, things like this just happen. It happens. Nothing can be done about it.

Yes, even if I'm transmasc, a part of me wishes that I knew beforehand that I had them, so maybe I could have done a better job. Maybe things would have been different.

But I didn't know and it tears me apart.

My boyfriend and I named them Sage since we wanted them to be remembered. It's helping us cope a little better than some "unnamed" one.

It'll take some time for me to just feel "normal" again. To be inspired to draw and post. I'm trying, but I really need some time. It really destroyed me, even if it was just weeks ago.

So, long story short, I'm sorry I'm not doing much lately. I need time.