#so our cat dying is hard but I don't lament the unfairness because there is no controlling that
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#life isn't fair and that's okay#like we as a society could do better and THAT is unfair but that isn't LIFE itself#so our cat dying is hard but I don't lament the unfairness because there is no controlling that#i accept it#because the whole time we have had him has been so beautiful and the fact that we ever knew him is so unlikely#it almost offsets it in a way#that loving them is always stolen time because they are so temporary#but that doesn't mean I'm not falling apart and scared and trying to do the right thing with almost nothing to work with but love#and my boyfriend isn't okay because raleigh is his heart cat and as best i can tell is his first heart animal#and he has never had a pet loss like this#and supporting him through it has just been love and helplessness dancing hand in hand#unable to change anything#i can do this emotionally but materially we just...ran out of everything this month#and for the first time in a long time we are going to be completely dry BEFORE we can cover pet expenses#and i know it wasn't irresponsibility it was just a storm of bullshit happening all at once but i still feel so terrible#i wish there had been a way to do better enough to have made a difference#it doesn't tear me apart that my cat is dying it#tears me apart that his mouth hurts and I have to beg for help to feed him#i wish it wasn't him#i wasn't expecting it to be him#and i feel terrible about that too
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