#so now I'm incredibly grumpy with the knowledge that I will have no fucking break for 3 weeks straight when I need one desperately

[struggling-to-find-home]

Not to be upset over my own goddamn choices I stand behind but like

I miss not having so much shit to do

These days with med school doing it's fucking best to murder me I almost never like,,,, have time to do things besides studying

Oh, you want to engage in a hobby for more than 10 minutes? Try making it alive through anywhere from six to nine hours of class, house chores, and an absurd amount of homework you have and see if you won't pass out from exhaustion first. Oh, and don't forget about all of the tests you need to study for, as well, and those two projects you are meant to present next week which require turning in a paper version, which means you need to have them ready a day in advance in order to go print that shit on the way from class because none of the places that offer printing work at the time you are leaving for uni

It's genuinely not fun because I can never properly rest,,, like, it's my only weekend day (as saturdays also have class) and guess how I'm spending it? That's right, glued to my desk drawing piles and piles of histology because I spent the last two days suffering from the extent of my own exhaustion and a migraine which decided to fuck me over.

Just

Can't I have a single day without having to stress over this or that assignment,,, can't I just go to class, go home, and be done ಥ⁠_⁠ಥ