#so many people praised Kira and while light tried to satiate himself on those crumbs in the end it wasn't enough | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

celestialbruise · 3 days ago

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Light needing validation from his father for what he was doing as Kira, knowing he was never going to get it but still secretly, desperately desiring it…..Light secretly, deep down, needing L to *see* his work as Kira, understand why he did it and agree that he was doing was right even knowing that was impossible, not that L couldn’t see him, couldn’t understand him, because he did and he still thought Light was wrong, and knowing to the marrow of his bones that L would always be fated to catch and destroy him, not just Kira but the remnants of Light Yagami that were forged into Kira’s likeness, so unresectable that without Kira there would be nothing left….am I onto anything here?

#does this make any sense #idk just ruminating over Light desiring perfection over all else #he always had to be right #or else what did he have left?#but Light Yagami wasn't cold and unfeeling #he cared so much!!!#he wanted to sacrifice himself for his cause #and deep down he knew what he was doing was evil #“If we catch Kira #he is evil. If he wins and rules the world #then he is justice."#if the two people he respected the most saw him for who he was and accepted him.....#Kira would not be evil. he would be a revolutionary. a savior.#so many people praised Kira and while light tried to satiate himself on those crumbs in the end it wasn't enough #because he never received absolution from the two people who's opinions he valued the most #death note #lawlight #light yagami #also really complicated way to say I think light canonically has daddy issues

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