#so ill probably go back and play it after ep

[fayedartmouth]

Well since it’s okay please share some info about your upcoming projects sorry but im too curious and excited for my own good and i genuinely love your work read every single one in only a week

Well, in truth, I have like 20+ fics that are technically WIPs, all in various stages of development and completion.  I tend to get way more plot bunnies than I can write, and my WIPs range from rough concepts to like 30k words or more.  So it's just a wide range.

As per usual, I can't shut up, so the details are below.

For the record, some of those WIPs I really really love.  Like I have a whole series of Shoupe and preseries JJ that I'm super excited about (their first meeting, the first time Shoupe realizes JJ's getting beaten, JJ taking all of Luke's pills as a teenager, and a few more).  I have one very well developed with a preseries JJ getting kidnapped by one of Luke's associates and Luke blowing off the ransom (spoiler alert: it goes badly for JJ).  And I have a few now completely AU takes post S3, one with Rafe getting revenge on the Pogues by going after JJ (forcing him to take an overdose of drugs, and it's so convincing that almost everyone believes he did it himself) and a Sarah and JJ as siblings fic.  That's just a sampling.  There are so many more that I can't even remember them all.

One idea that just got hold of me this week is an AU with JJ and John B in the military.  There are a few other takes on this on AO3 that intrigued me, and the brothers in arms thing could be so fun to play out with those two.  And I mean, the whump. I may have wrote a few scenes....

However, the fics that I'm actively writing right now.  I'd say there are four (beyond the car accident fic I'm posting snippets of and the town council AU I did a snippet of last weekend).

1. Best of a Bad Deal part three.  This one is still in the works though technically kind of on my backburner.  I have completed quite a bit of this fic, which spans five-six years after JJ goes into remission.  I think I have a cohesive narrative at least through the third year with a lot of bits and pieces completed after that -- including the ending, which I really love.

2. My long fix-it.  I have been actively plotting this with woudsohfiv and currently have probably 70k done.  It starts around the mid point of S4 and maintains everything we see in canon -- but adds a secondary plot that manages to subvert it completely.  LOL, I don't want to spoil too much, but it heavily involves Luke.  The Pogues will still (mostly) think JJ is dead while JJ hits absolute rock bottom.  This fic is planned to be the first of a series.  We've been a little ambitious with our plotting and have sketched out plots for three additional fics.  The second one will really dig into JJ facing his trauma and dealing with his family heritage and Goat Island.  I'm really excited about this one!

3. I write fics for my friends for Christmas, and this year, I have two friends getting JJ fics.  The first one is for woudsohfiv, and she requested an AU of the S1 ep where Barry robs the Pogues.  IIn this take, JJ goes for the gun and gets shot for his trouble -- and the Pogues are faced with the reality of what they were willing to risk.  My goal is to make it eventually fit back into canon, however.  It's probably 15k in and is maybe half done.  It will (hopefully!) be done for Christmas.

4. For my other friend, I'm going on one of her favorite tropes:  seizures.  It's a fic set in that happy 18 months of Poguelandia 2.0 where the Pogues get sick -- and JJ ends up getting very, very ill.  This one is a pretty simple straight up sick fic where the Pogues have to confront that they're not quite as together as they thought they were, and wherein John B and Kiara have to face the reality that JJ isn't really as okay as he seems to be most of the time. Again, my goal is to finish this by Christmas, and I think I can pull it off. This should be relatively short hopefully in the 10k range.

Feel free to ask more questions or specifics! I'd even post snippets if you wanted. I only do completed fics on AO3 but I'm a lot looser here.

[witchoil]

act 3 thoughts i guess. incoherent discussion of spoilers below the cut.

there were things i enjoyed about episode 7 purely by virtue of it being something new and FINALLY explaining like half of what happened in act 2. ekko FINALLY getting some screentime!!!!! unfortunately this also meant more heimerdinger. timebomb cute. vander/silco real.

however episode 8 immediately erased whatever grace i could have given this act from ep 7. it was a slog and a clusterfuck. the caitvi sex scene in particular was absolutely infuriating in every way, from the way it came out of left field while vi had way more important things she was already upset about to the absolutely cringe-inducing music playing over it to the fact that it happened in a FUCKING JAIL CELL I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. i didn't enjoy the jayce stuff at all, but can admit that's probably personal preference because i've never really liked him. but the caitvi stuff. unforgivable lmao.

by the time we got to ep 9 i was just begging for it to be over. this episode was stunningly beautiful to look at but absolutely painful to watch from beginning to end.

how to even begin to get into the politics of all of that. completely handwaving EVERYTHING piltover has done to zaun to come together to fight an underdeveloped and deeply problematic big bad outside threat. others have already pointed this out in the tags, but dressing zaunites up in cop costumes just to kill them to PROTECT PILTOVER. what the fuck. i'm genuinely speechless.

additionally i remained so mad about ambessa/the noxians becoming the big bads that i couldn't even sit back and enjoy the big battle on its own merits i was just cringing the whole time.

also like. everything with viktor/machine herald just made no sense to me from a character writing standpoint. if i could be bothered to rewatch i would try to do so with an eye towards understanding his whole arc but on first watch it felt completely incoherent and only made sense in the context of machine herald being a foregone conclusion.

but jayvik got un-divorced so yay i guess!

i wish i could say something meaningful about all the mel stuff? her powers were cool, although it would have been baller to know literally anything about how they worked. i guess it was cool to see her finally come into direct conflict with her mother. but ultimately absolutely no narrative closure for her, imo

and of course. jinx. if i had a nickel for every time i had to watch a mentally ill character get killed off because they're too damaged to live, well, i'd still be fucking depressed.

putting sevika on the council only to show the other councilors giving her the stink eye was so bleak and sad, insane way to twist the knife after everything else they did to her this season.

and man. poor ekko. wtf. on top of barely getting any screentime this season, everything that happened to him was just so tragic and at the end we don't even get to find out whether or not the tree and the community around it exist/are going to survive in any meaningful way. very cool.

absolutely hateful that caitlyn got the last words of the series but also completely in keeping with everything else this season has done and shown itself to be about so can i really be surprised??? she was the writer's room's favorite character and it showed from the beginning to the end of this season, i say with a heart full of bitterness.

[thatgirl4815]

The thing is yes Sand has the ability to be messy and do things wrong as we see in episode 6 and partaking in cheating (if we can truly even call it that but I digress because yes I know it was morally wrong either way) but it doesn’t come naturally to him. He lets his emotions get the best of him sometimes (giving into Ray and getting revenge on Top not really thinking about anyone that could get hurt around him but also not really caring that much because if Ray doesn’t care about him why should he care about Ray like Jojo said was part of his thought process in that tweet he made after ep 6). The thing is he’s remorseful and has been constantly atoning for and apologizing and feeling bad about what he did in ep 6 for 3 episodes straight now. Him feeling bad or doing something to make up for it has been brought up every ep since. And with partaking in helping Mew cheat he understood it was wrong and wanted to stop it but his emotions got the best of him and he gave into Ray. Was it wrong? Yes but he is human and I think they’ve shown that he has flaws but is still a good person who takes responsibility for his actions pretty well. And for example if he agreed to look after Ray or try to help get him into rehab it’s not him doing that out of any ill intentions. He would have done it regardless if he didn’t talk to the dad because he loves Ray and wants him to get help. But of course I would understand Ray feeling betrayed by this especially with his feeling of no one actually caring about him and to him he would be so blinded by rage that he would think Sand never truly cared or was in it for money even if deep down he knows how untrue that is.

So in regards to him doing something wrong in the last 3 eps I just hope it makes sense for his character (the dad deal does) and isn’t the writers trying to throw in drama that I think isn’t needed or doesn’t make sense. If he sleeps with Boeing in the present like I and others have said I can see it being after their apartment fight because of him feeling a lot of high emotions since like I said he is emotionally driven a lot of the times even if he is level headed most of the time. I just need it to make sense if they go with Sand sleeping with someone else and them not doing it in a way that doesn’t make sense to me or is just for more drama.

With sandray being endgame or not I completely agree with First I don’t think they could be just friends. If they tried it would either destroy them or end with them just back in bed together lol….

But like you said them not being endgame would mean they would just never be in contact with each other again which is just…..I guess in a way realistic but also just not something I want to see. Yes maybe it is just that Ray will remember Sand as someone that was in his life he appreciates for being there and helping him on his road to recovery and that’s what their relationship meant in the end and for Sand he thinks of Ray as someone he hopes is doing well but I just wouldn’t be satisfied with that personally. I know there’s a whole bunch of people especially on here that don’t want them together or don’t think they could work and fair enough but that’s not me.

I will say I do think there’s a high chance we get a positive open ending for them that’s them starting over. Possibly in a time jump?

I agree with all of this, especially your point about how Sand is emotionally driven. I think one of the most important parts of this show is characters realizing that they’re in the wrong. Like you said, Sand has been atoning for what he did in Ep6 for the past three episodes. I don’t think Sand has ever had any intention of hurting Mew; in fact, he probably thinks Mew is the most put-together person in this whole friend group. But Ray is his weakness, as we’ve been shown multiple times before.

Also agree that a Sand/Boeing hookup in the present has the potential to be played up for dramatics instead of making sense for Sand’s character. But with how bitter Sand seems to be about that whole situation, I just still have a hard time picturing that it will come to pass. It’s very likely I’m so resistant to it because of my own biases and hopes for the story, but it still feels like Boeing is more involved in TopMew’s storyline anyway.

I think Sand and Ray can work, but Ray obviously has a lot of individual work to do. I don’t think Ray has to have completed rehab in order for them to be together. That’s like saying no one can be with anybody who has any sort of mental health issue until they get it all sorted out. Which just…isn’t (and shouldn’t be) how it works. Sand is very aware of Ray’s issues, but I think he’ll be made even more aware of them next episode; I imagine he’ll go into full caretaker mode. First has also made a point of mentioning Sand’s patience, and I think that’ll come into play most with Ray’s alcoholism.

So it won’t be the perfect relationship for SandRay (but is any relationship really perfect?). But so long as they are committed to each other and offer support to one another, I think it’s very likely they’ll end up in a happy place.

[toindeedbe-agod]

ill get into real posting in a sec i need to deliver new hcs for the modern au tho 🙏

neil

on the academic team at welton. he plays jv and is not great at it but damn does he try

spiritual connection to jeff buckley. the other poets are only mostly worried esp since he doesnt know how to swim

fucks around with his schedule so hard he ends up taking keatings three times in one year on top of also being his ta

has never climbed a tree ever

knows how to tie his shoes like, in theory

major gleek. dragged todd into it

absolutely cannot cannot cannot drive. do not trust him with it. he can get himself to school and back and only just barely.

considers himself Artsy and Pretentious. listens to dua lipa

last true high school shakespearian scholar

todd

holder of the groups dab pen 🙏

has a cat that charlie swears up and down looks like tom cruise. no one else sees it.

listens to midwest emo

insomniac.

watches the princess bride once a week

favorite author is ray bradbury

only one in the friend group who likes the great gatsby and it genuinely pains him to this day the extent he believes the others are misunderstanding it

secret lana del ray listener

unfortunate addiction to toaster strudels. school supplies $20 new books $70 toaster strudels $898759 gifts for friends $30 someone whos good at budgeting please help

charlie

#1 shenanigans getter-up-to. a real ne'er-do-well.

will do anything if he thinks itll be fun enough. starring in the school play w neil? sure. breaking into the local middle school? absolutely. helping film a music video for one of pitts' fave bands at 8pm cause hes the only one w a video camera? whatever dude just give him a heads up to put pants on

probably genderfluid but he has a job so he doesnt really care (<jobless loser tho)

hes actually native and not racist. trust im native and im literally him

wears the same busted ass pair of doc martens every day. theres a hole in both of them. theyre covered in what is either red paint or blood. the laces are in complete disrepair. theyre so so scuffed. he loves them

#gorewhore. #horrorfanatic. #fangs. absolutely loves horror movies, the freakier the better

takes naps like its his fucking job.

meeks

takes ap classes for fun. everyone hates him for this

has a deeply held suspicion that charlie may have actually boned his mom but it hurts too much to think about

tried so hard to be a twitch streamer when he was 12 and charlie will never let it go

tries every year to show charlie either 1. lord of the rings 2. dune and it never ever works.

made a tiktok recipe for a friend hang out once (1) and now he has to make it every time for threat of tears from charlie and neil

babysits for extra cash. teaches the kids how to swear

had braces from 7th grade to 11th grade

isnt allowed to eat white bread

gets sunburns in the shade

pitts

failed econ 🙏

has seen all the human centipede movies. thinks the first one is great but the second one is just awful.

plays crazy amounts of dating sims and visual novels and shit. steam account is literally radioactive

gets yelled at for wearing airpods in class once a day

only one brave enough to eat school lunch

secret soft spot for romcoms. dude just wants love

massive crush on natasha richardson he misses her every day

likes the star wars sequels. even ep 9.

keeps a shaved head (after he accidentally set his hair on fire)

totaled his car. was still bought a new one

has walked into hotels just to abuse the complimentary waffle machines

knox

also failed econ 😔

scared of the rock bottom episode of spongebob

big spongebob watcher in general

also a big stranger things watcher

lowkey if its a basic tv show hes watchin it. knox is helping to bring down the average media literacy rate of the world singlehandedly

obsessed with romcoms. especially terrible ones.

kiss me by sixpence none the richer can make him cry if you time it just right

#loverboy

would lose his head were it not attached to his body

certainly the prettiest crayon in the box, if not the sharpest

probably dyslexic but we'll never know

[makigorogoro]

disorganized thoughts on fionna and cake eps 5 and 6

(Spoilers!!)

ok ive only seen the eps once each and im going off of memory so a lot of this is probably gonna be paraphrased and mixed up but whatever . also this post is really fucking long lol sorry

-OK FIRST OFF THESE WERE SO GOOD RAAAAAH

-obviously we are in the farmworld, not surprised but very happy!!!

-also not very surprised fionna and cake immediately went along with simon’s plan

-the whole time they were talking about where to find a crown i was like lol. simon don’t look behind you

-cake bringing fionna a dead rat was really funny

-the versucci gag or whatever was also really good

-but what made me die was fionna talking abt how she’s played a lot of post apocalyptic rpgs and then it pans over to “man who has actually lived through the apocalypse”

-was really cool to see how the farmworld has developed after what happened with ice finn, i think it’s interesting how they’re more technologically advanced since the first time an ice age happened in this world they pretty much reverted to medieval times (does that make sense. you know what i mean)

-i was SO convinced jay was farmworld finn’s little sibling so when he said dad my heart stopped

-the name jay didn’t immediately click until bonnie was revealed to be one of his other kid’s name and i was like HOLY SHIT PUHOY???

-veeeery interesting since assumingely golb destroyed/erased the pillow world

-i guess you could just chalk it up to finn would have named his kids the same thing in any universe?

-but i mean speaking of his kids GOD he got busy with huntress wizard

-i mean it has to be huntress wizard. one of them looks just like human hunter wizard

-sucks that she died though

-simon’s ship of theseus thing was so fucking funny oh my god he’s just like me fr (i started talking about the ship of theseus in one of my assignments a few days ago and i was like. is this too nerdy.)

-i haven’t really talked about farmworld finn yet. a little sad he turned out so cold (pun not intended oops 😭) because of what happened to him when he was younger

-good on him for saying simon was a damn fool or whatever for wanting to put the crown on lol

-i wish they actually had a talk though

-cake saying fionna should kiss him while knowing he’s just an alternate version of her??????? girl

-also farmworld jake still being alive was crazy

-so it did turn out the crown was destroyed in this world, i honestly wasn’t sure since the crown from the main world survived direct contact with a comet lol

-the romeo and juliet style romance going on between finn’s kid and big destiny’s kid was really good

-finn showing up with bartram lmao!!!!!

-dude i love bartram, the bit in finn the human where finn’s mom says that they have to sell the mule and then bartram’s head peaks out from the bed in the corner is unironically one of my favorite jokes in adventure time

-i kinda forgot what happens between here and the end

-so did farmworld finn fucking die????

-idk what happened there i sure hope not

-i really don’t know if we’re going to revisit these worlds in any capacity considering the amount of time left but i hope we do now!! i feel like we need to see what happens lmao

-now for ep 6

-wasn’t really expecting it to open on “fionna world” as they started calling it

-i was wondering how they were gonna balance gumball and marshall yaoi with what’s going on with the main trio

-they did it really well though i think

-i also wasn’t really expecting to be introduced to winter king right away once we got back to the main plot

-he definitely gave me weird vibes right from the start im gonna be honest lol

-blaah i don’t really remember what happens between that and the winter wonder world sequence

-so ill just talk about that. holy fuck

-every review i read before the show came out was really hyping this scene up and i get why now

-was really cool to see the beyond the grotto animation again and the song was so good it’s still stuck in my head

-but the moment the winter king said he overcame the crown with sheer will i was like. um. im calling bs

-i was just thinking however it did happen though i have a bad feeling about! felt really bad for simon and when he said that he sucked i was like. oh no ☹️ dude

-the moment i saw little ice marcy pretty much cemented it for me i was like oh no something fucked up is happening here. tbh i still can’t really figure out what happened with that but given what the winter king said about making an ice betty. uhhhhhhhhhh

-OH YEAH cake once again saying simon and the winter king should kiss . GIRL WHAT ARE YOU ON

-i looooved crazy pb

-i remember when people were saying she was a marcy pb child lmao.

-simon saying that he wanted to “fix her” while the winter king just wanted to kill her was really interesting. im trying to figure out what it means lol. like we know that simon wants to be the ice king again but also now knowing he would want to fix and save someone from that madness…idk

-her song was really good

-her playing those ominous notes on her keyboard made me laugh

-i haven’t really talked about gumball (im not calling him gary im sorry) and marshall. i thought they were really cute!!! could definitely see marcy and pb meeting in a similar way

-the juxtaposition between gumball talking about his creations to fionna fighting the fucked up versions of them was really cool

-i hope gumball doesn’t take what the lemoncarbs said to heart . they’re just like that

-ok so. I was honestly more shocked that fionna kissed (a version of) simon than him disintegrating seconds after lmaooooo

-i have to wonder why he immediately died here when in betty (the episode) he was dying relatively slowly without the crown’s magic

-ive been writing down a bunch of crack theories and the first thing ive gotten right was the winter king transferring his craziness to pb lol lets goooo

-i was thinking that simon might’ve transferred it himself but then i was like nooo he wouldn’t do that….apparently he would do that

-idk despite how he seemed i think the winter king was still a little insane in the membrane.

-maybe the crown was still influencing him in some way? and that’s the message here? idk

-i can’t believe bi fionna is real

-back to gumball and marshall. gumball describing slumber party panic……oh my jod 🥺🥺🥺

-the baby world was so cute

-“and i’ll be cursed the right way” simon do you fucking hear yourself

Ok that’s definitely not all i have to say but this post is long enough lmao ,, god this show is SO GOOD i can’t believe it’s real. ok that’s all

[notkeepittogether]

Talking about Making Space

i dubbed this a concept album when i made it, but i think i misunderstood the definition at the time. i’d written a handful of songs during the year, which i had intended to release as an EP or an album, but most of the demos i had remained unfinished, even by december.

all of these songs are about my time in san francisco, over my birthday & also the christmas period in 2021. the plan was to go for my birthday, meet up with my friends, and have a silly time together. you may remember the great resurgence of covid cases that occurred in november/december of that year, which definitely plays a part in this. but keep in mind i had booked my flight in june.

admittedly, it was a stupid idea to plan a meetup with internet friends you made during lockdown, only a matter of months after said lockdown measures had been slightly relaxed. it was june and i’d figured things would be much better with the rate that things seemed to be improving and opening back up again. i had managed to avoid catching the dreaded illness up until that point, and i’d confidently gone in to take my fit-to-fly covid test two days before. but the night before my flight, my mum took a test of her own amidst coming down with what seemed to be a heavy cold, and when she called for me up the stairs with a panicked voice, i knew exactly what she was going to tell me.

i was faced with a tough decision. i hadn’t yet received the results of my fit-to-fly test but i realised i was potentially about to receive what i deemed would be earth-shattering news. i went to my dad’s place to spend the night and hopefully avoid catching the virus (if i hadn’t caught it already), mere hours before my flight. i told my friends that there was a chance i wouldn’t be able to make it, but even if my test was negative, there was still a chance that i had caught it and was still in the incubation stages.

we decided as a group that if the test was negative, it was probably better to just risk it and go anyway, rather than waste all the money i had already spent on getting there and staying there. so when the test came back negative, i went.

as you can probably guess from all this buildup, two days into the trip i developed my first covid symptom, and two days after that, i tested positive. i wasn’t the only one, though. we hadn’t thought in depth about what would happen if we weren’t able to get the negative tests we needed to get home. we had to extend the trip to accommodate for the ten day isolation period and to also let enough time pass by that we could produce negative tests again. this meant having to relocate to a smaller airbnb where we’d stay for christmas. what ensued during this period of isolation was what you might expect from four ill, stir-crazy, homesick people who had to spend christmas in a place with one bedroom in it. i won’t go into detail about what exactly happened, though - that’s what the album is for.

the album is the aftermath. the impact of this trip was still fresh in my mind and on my body as i had flown home on december 29th with seemingly worse symptoms than i’d had when i was actually sick with the virus. a delayed reaction (and probably a result of not sleeping for 36 hours on the journey home) with my lungs has flared up my asthma at the worst it had ever been. i was basically bedridden for the two weeks following my arrival home. i was feeling a lot of things, too. i had so many regrets - things i hadn’t said or done while with the people i was convinced i’d probably never see again, things i had said or done that i felt i had no control over at the time while my brain was at mercy to sickness and discomfort, making the decision to go while knowing the risks and bringing everyone down with me.

EDIT: we were also drunk for a lot of the time. i think that’s worth mentioning.

now, almost two years later, i don’t regret anything. (well, maybe some things.)

1. Making Space

this one’s very blatant in its lyricism. we, or at least i, was going completely stir crazy in this airbnb that had one bedroom in it. i was hating myself pretty intensely both during and after all of this had happened. i was rejecting the affection of all of my friends.

2. The Art of Texting

the year preceding this trip hadn’t been easy. i found myself seeking comfort in my friends who were willing to let me completely lean on them, so long as i let them do the same with me. this resulted in some unhealthy codependency that, despite the implications, i still look back on somewhat positively. how do you convey your deepest feelings to someone when all you can do is text or call them? (miscommunicate).

3. Understand (All the Best)

i came home feeling like i was broken. i had strong feelings, but they felt like the wrong feelings, and i regretted not letting myself get fully comfortable around the only people i’d ever been comfortable with.

4. Dunes

i believe it was on boxing day that i had finally had enough of being indoors. a friend and i went on a long walk down a nearby beach, at night, where we shared airpods (until they died) and listened to music out of a phone speaker (until it died) while walking up and down and climbing some of the sand dunes that had formed. it was the most peaceful i felt the entire time i was there.

the image for the album art was taken on this walk.

5. Are We Alright?

mainly focused on the aftermath of this trip - i had a lot i needed to fix once i got home. guilt was not enough. i was unthinkably cold. i had to wear gloves in my room.

6. New Year

written about the year of 2021 as a whole, and what i went through with my friends. i used this song as a general outlet for my deep desire to repair a friendship that i’d fucked up. i think it helped.

7. Bad at Talking

every single friendship i had was in a state of disrepair after this trip. i wasn’t entirely sure what everyone thought of me after meeting me in person for the first time and then immediately seeing me at my worst.

8. Late Again

i was feeling inadequate as a long distance friend, and also inadequate to fulfil life’s basic expectations of me. i wish i remembered the exact intentions i had as i was writing this. but the stuff about missing my train and being thirty minutes late to class actually happened.

9. Twin Beds

on my last night in san francisco, my friend and i shared a twin hotel room. it was the first time in a week that i had my own bed to sleep on. he floated the idea of sharing a bed and i thought it was both funny and outrageous.

i flew home the next morning, but two of my friends were hit with an endless stream of complications. one had such extreme delays due to weather that he missed his layover and had to spend an extra night away from home. the other found out that canada’s covid policies were different to that of the us and uk. they had to spend an extra two weeks(?) in san francisco, by themselves. i felt bad about how relieved i was to be at home while they still had not made it. part of me, now, wished i had stayed.

10. All the Best / Goodnight

reading these lyrics back, i’m transported back into the toxic mindset i was stuck in for a while after i returned home. i was struggling with a lot of self hatred, for a whole plethora of reasons, and i spent a lot of time wishing nobody knew me or thought of me at all now that i was painfully aware that people knew me and were thinking of me.

i still write songs about this experience today. i need to stop, but honestly it somewhat shaped me into the person i am now, unlocking desires and urges i didn’t know i had.

[feuqueerfire]

Jazz For Two Live Blogging

Another kBL, here we go.

Ep 1 (Apr 11)

ASTCO boys

I think I heard something or other about bullying and I wasn't sure if it was between the main couple since it's enemies to lovers but it seems like it's between the second couple? is homophobia gonna be an aspect of the bullying?

ah, somebody dear to him used used to play piano but is... probably dead now?

Taejoon, Taeyi they were probably brothers ig

but did Taejoon die on Taeyi's birthday then?

Ep 2 (Apr 11)

lol this is the "that's my boyfriend" scene that's in so many edits/clips for the show

lmfao tripped and spun long enough in each other's arms for it to basically be a dance

I was kinda expecting Doyoon to walk in but makes sense it's the other guy Juha since Doyoon went home

hm Juha being weird to Seheon... is it to get back at Taeyi cuz he thinks they have a thing? Well don't harass Seheon

Ep 3 (Apr 12)

I really fucked up starting this right now agh... I'll try to go back to doing my work after watching a few scenes

Juha gotta stop playing with Seheon like this! Creep >:(

but what is Juha telling Taeyi

woah Seheon is such a fool lmfao first being like Juha sunbae doesn't seem like a bad dude like no way... and second being like oh! The reason Taeyi doesn't like Juhee is because he likes Juha lmfao. clocked him being into guys lol but wrong guy

this show kinda funny lol the way Seheon asked everybody for help and is not even telling Taeyi that he apparently likes Juha

okay y'know what at least Seheon is indeed in the noraebang so I'm sure he'll step in... at some point... right? Becuase I was worried what Juha was gonna do to Seheon but he really just seems to have the most fun when he's playing with Seheon right in front of Taeyi to make him jealous. creep tho

I actually don't get it, is Seheon dumb af regarding what Juha is doing?

bruh Juha is such a creep and so scary too D: Is Doyoon really gonna end up with him :(

NO ! >:( what fuckass kiss already no !

Ep 4 (Apr 12)

...welp I watched full ep 3 unfortunately, smh

agh i do get the appeal of the bully romance aspect but it’s so agh like how dare Juha treat beloved puppy cute Doyoon like that

taeyi having trouble sleeping but falling asleep listening to seheon play piano

even the therapist being like hmm you got any feelings for him?

watched this much in bed before going to sleep lol

dang, Taeyi is ill?

Ep 5 (Apr 12)

Juhee saw her brother punch Doyoon (but not Doyoon kissing him first?)

Doyoon and Seheon are cute friends, can't they end up together and not Juha with Doyoon? Or at least give me something to warm up to Juha/Doyoon soon

Ah, scene from the beginning of Taeyi coming to Seheon with the umbrella

another fakeout kiss, this time from the main couple lol

Ep 6 (Apr 12)

so did they kiss in-show or no?

i'm gonna assume no and it was just supposed to be a trick with the umbrella smh

hah only one bed

dirty?!

ah, everything falling apart for Juha but he's still scary so no

i hope this turns out to be a real Taeyi/Seheon kiss

Ep 7 (Apr 12)

i hope Taeyi doesn't react badly to the kiss...

I was like okayyy Juha/Doyoon convo but idek how I feellllll cuz like I'm into it with one foot while with the other I'm like it's not... enough yet to make up for his creepy/weirdo/scary behaviour but it's still... cute idk

Oof Taeyi really wiped his mouth

Taeyi talking about whether he's a girl to Seheon or Seheon considers himself a girl is kinda crazy actually

omg why are these love interests all so scary T.T Taeyi stoppp wtf is this sexual assault kinda

okay didn't take too long to make up apparently

both the couples have become so ooey gooey cute, is it earned? who knows

What's up with the Jazz For Two thing, did their brothers have something too or what? Or is it plagiarism?

Ep 8 (Apr 12)

Did he die because of you is a crazy thing to ask fr

Taejoon and Sejin whole history goddamn but it also parallels the two couples' stories (except sad ending)

ah, Seheon wants to break up with the Taeyi cuz of all their brotherly mess?

they usually make up quickly which is good cuz we're literally at the last ep hah

hehe Seheon and Doyoon besties

ah Juha in the group now

kiss

idk if I wanted more of Juha/Doyoon or not like... I might've warmed up to them more? because theoretically I could like the dynamic if it's more developed

Overall:

Nobody in this drama asks before kissing lol not Doyoon, not Seheon, not the little kiss that Seheon's brother gave to sleeping Taejoon, and the other two, Juha and Taeyi, are experts in being creeps and having internalized homophobia that they direct outwardly to the guys they like as well (Seheon's brother fits here too lol). Yet, I enjoyed it a fair amount, the story was coherent, the acting was fine, I was endeared by Doyoon (is he the Omega X kid?), and the dynamics were enjoyable, if iffy on certain counts. Not super attached though.

Rating: 6/10

[destinyc1020]

TCR Review: Episode 9 - "Family"

Sorry I've been busy with a lot lately, but I'm finally able to post some more of my reviews for TCR.

Here's my review for Episode 9 of TCR....

*****WARNING: SPOILERS!!!!

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Ep 9 Review:

Overall, I really enjoyed Ep9! 😃 I was glad to finally get to the legal drama aspect of this case. As you all know, I loooove legal dramas lol. 😅 I was glad to finally see Danny's case getting to the courtroom.

Where do I even begin? First of all....WHEW!! That DA on the prosecution's side came out swinging with a vengeance in her opening statement to the jury boy..... 😲😳 I was scared lol... Cuz yea, if you just look at the "facts", it would appear that Danny is immediately GUILTY. I mean, c'mon...he was caught on TAPE shooting at his stepfather. 👀 Keep in mind too, that this was during an era when DID (or, what was formerly called "Multiple Personality Disorder") wasn't really recognized as a real, classified, mental disorder...at least, not in the justice system.

I have to admit, the prosecution's side came out hard-hitting and swinging left and right, so I was very curious about how the defense side of the team was going to be able to de-escalate this, and help the jury to see that Danny has a certifiable mental illness. 😊 You can already tell that the defense side has a HUGE uphill climb with this case, and it was definitely looking very hopeless for Danny (even though we all already knew that the outcome would be positive for Danny in the end). It was very intense.

The acting was very well-done in this episode. I have to hand it to Emmy... She did an amazing job in this episode. She did so well in this episode that by the end of the episode, I literally LEGIT hated her character lol. 😅🤣

I just couldn't with her.... I'm sorry.... I also felt really awful for Danny too. It seems like aside from Rya, Jerome was probably the only other person who REALLY cared for him. His own mother doesn't seem trustworthy at this point in the series🙄.....Just the very fact that she would even stay with a man for that long, knowing GOOD and well that he was molesting her son? Oh no no way could that be me.😡

I know it was a different era back then for women, but still! It's not like they were living on the streets! She had a house, she had a job, they had shelter.... I don't see why she had to drag that man into their lives, and (even worse) STAY with him when she knows that he was abusing her son as a little kid. 😭

What made it even WORSE was that Danny's mother Candy had ample chances to turn things around for Danny by testifying the truth. Rya and Stan were practically BEGGING her to please testify and help Danny out in his case, and she kept refusing. Only to later on then testify and LIE on the stand!!

The way she just remained silent and even LIED on the stand in the court scene (Ep 9) was just.... 😤 Smh!! I'm sorry I couldn't. I understand why she did what she did, but I still think that was a pretty low blow to do to your own son who's obviously suffering smh. 😔

I literally sat there with my mouth agape towards the end of the episode as she blatantly LIED on the stand. She basically committed perjury in front of that whole courtroom. SMH...

And then, the last few minutes of the episode where we see Danny (TW) attempting to slit his wrists is just.... Ugh.... it's just SOOOO heartbreaking to me! 😭 I literally teared up, and my heart ached for him! Just soo much paaain! 🥺 It was so depressing after I watched this episode. Tom played that whole part beautifully.👏🏾

I think it's also remarkable to note that throughout most of the episode (if not the ENTIRE episode), Tom's character Danny doesn't really say a word. Tom is acting with his facial expressions and with this eyes pretty much the ENTIRE time during this episode. And yet, we all know what he's thinking and feeling just through his EYES alone. I've always said that Tom is a very good expressive actor with his EYES. He can convey things w/out even speaking just through his eyes alone. I thought that was very interesting. He barely had any lines in this episode.

Sorry for this long dissertation guys, but I had to convey my thoughts.

I will post my review of E10 soon!

Hope you all enjoyed the series! 😁

[bengiyo]

Star Struck Eps 7 & 8 (Finale) Stray Thoughts

Let's finish this one. Last week, our leads reunited in college and it has been so awkward. Yoojae feels possessive and jealous of Hanjoon, and Hanjoon is unable to find any comfort because he can't just bee Yoojae's best friend anymore. It's been kind of sad to watch, because this is rather common for friends when one of them wants more than the other can give.

Episode 7

And now Hanjoon is trying to avoid Yoojae again. I feel bad for both of them. They both lost their most meaningful relationship.

Hanjoon said they had a bad kiss! Oh my god. Except, Yoojae doesn't believe him at all.

Look at Yoojae suggesting they date. I think it's the right call regardless. The only way out is through.

We don't have a lot of time left, so I'm curious what the final role this fight club will play in this.

Gays on bikes? Definitely dating.

Okay, where is Hanjoon's mom?

This divorce scene with Yoojae's parents is so uncomfortable. This show has had an underlying commentary about wealth that basically says no one is happy.

Episode 8

Oh no. Something tragic happened to Hanjoon's mom.

Oh, great. Hanjoon is rushing to the hospital the night of an anniversary date and is so worried about his mom he didn't message Yoojae, who also just had a huge fight with his parents. Pain.

Go Eunha loves her son, and tried to shield him from her illness. Of course she'd encourage him to salvage the date.

That's probably all the money she had left. Man, this show hurts in lots of really small ways.

Oh, I do hate when we flash back to conditions after they're broken and it's new information to us. I get that Yoojae doesn't want to be abandoned or ghosted again, but still.

This is almost Japanese with him running across Seoul to fix his relationship.

Hey, I'll give this show points for Yoojae not being obnoxious about this.

Bonus points to this show for acknowledging #LipWatch2023 because those lips were chapped.

Ehh.... I just don't feel like this rings scene is earned.

Final Verdict: 7, Feels Unfinished. I'm getting a bit tired of the refrain that these K-BL outings should be longer. Studio Winsome is telling complete stories in their limited run time. This show has some incredibly good ideas that need three times as much runtime to develop. I'm dissatisfied.

[jackietaylorsghost]

Final TLOU ep coming up. Do you think they're going to show Abby at all or save her for the second season? I have a sinking feeling that we'll get at least one scene of Jerry being sooo nice and sympathetic (before he attempts to cut open the brain of an unconsenting child, but I digress), and I bet we will get a brief scene of Abby later finding him dead (probably intercut with Joel lying to Ellie, to really drive home what a villain Joel is so he definitely totally deserves to get beaten to death).

I hope I'm wrong, but with the way they've been shoehorning in "foreshadowing" (aka justification for the dumpster fire that is TLOU 2) I am worried that they are going to fumble this ending.

Any thoughts/opinions/speculation?

at one point i would have said absolutely no, i think its unlikely, but after the dina cameo yeah i think it’s a possibility and im also sure they’re gonna try and show jerry sympathetically. i wonder if they’ll have that flashback convo between marlene/jerry in part 2 in the episode or if it’ll play out largely like in the game with marlene just talking to joel after all the tests. i know one of the complaints when part 2 came out was that they rlly amped up what went down into the hospital and portrayed joel as an unhinged murderer so im wary of them course correcting that and making it far worse than it was - like jerry surrendering and joel killing him anyway instead of threatening joel with a scalpel and saying he won’t joel take ellie. the nurses too - in the game you can ignore them but we will see in the show. im definitely wary for the episode and what they’ll do to make it tie into part 2 and the notion of joel as a villain who deserves to be beaten to death horrifically even though it was the fireflies leading that particular conflict/hostility. the only thing i wonder about that MIGHT make them hold back from showing abby crying over the body is it giving the s2 plot away a bit - ppl will know she’s been shown for a reason. and i gotta say, if they waste too much time on abby and jerry in my 46 minute finale ill be pressed cus i don’t care about either of them LMAO.

[shhlima]

Congratulations JANA ,you have been accepted into the University of Lima as ALIYAH COLE !! To keep your spot at UoL make sure that you send us your account within 24 HOURS and complete the CHECKLIST. But beware, Shady Lima is just waiting to expose your secret!

OOC INFO

NAME/ALIAS: Jana PRONOUNS: she/they AGE: 33 TIMEZONE: est ACTIVITY LEVEL: 7/10 mon, wed and fri are tougher days for me PREVIOUS RP BLOG: [removed for privacy] TRIGGER(s): medical trauma, chonic illness, terminal illness ANYTHING ELSE?: nope!

INTRODUCTION

Hey, Lima, I’m ALIYAH COLE but everyone calls me ALI, I identify as a CIS WOMAN and use SHE/HER pronouns. I was born on DECEMBER 29 making me TWENTY-ONE years old and a CAPRICORN. Most people call me the NEW GIRL, maybe that’s because I am CREATIVE but also ALOOF. If I had to describe my vibe, I would say it revolves around MESSY BUN AND BAGGY CLOTHES, HOT CHEETOS AND AN EIGHTH OF WEED AND DRUMSTICKS POKING OUT OF MY BACK POCKETS. Of course there is one thing I hope no one ever finds out, and that's I AM THE SECRET OLDER HALF SISTER OF JAKE PUCKERMAN. Anyway, on a more fun note, people always say I look like ZENDAYA.

FAMILY INFORMATION

HOMETOWN: Detroit, Michigan, USA (this is where she was born anyway) FAMILY: J. Puckerman TYPE OF SIBLING: half BIRTH ORDER: eldest PARENTS STATUS: they were never married, broken up POSSIBLE SIBLINGS: full, half, step and/or adopted

SCHOOL DATA

YEAR IN SCHOOL: Freshman MAJOR/MINOR: Sound Engineer Major / Music Theory & Composition Minor EXTRACURRICULARS: jazz band (drums), marching band (drumline), GSA LIVING QUARTERS: four bedroom apartment style dorm, on campus OCCUPATION: Bartender at Babes

HEADCANONS

Growing up, hoping all round the country, it didn’t take Aliyah long to realize that her life was a little different from her friends. For one her dad was way younger, and she never knew who her mother even was. Her father had only been twenty-one, her age, when she was born and he was a musician and artist and had passed all of that down to his daughter. As a child Aliyah seemed more connected to music than anything else. Her father likes to joke that she learned to sing before she spoke and that she learned to read and write music before she knew how to read and write words.

Turns out, Ali was something of a musical prodigy, having a particular affinity to percussion instruments. Picking up her first mallet at three and her first set of drumsticks only a fe months after. By the time she was five years old she was years beyond her age on a drum kit and had even picked up bass and guitar. It wasn't long after that she was learning piano, then harp and she always had mad love for the bass clarinet and euphonium (mainly because it was fun to say). At the tender age of twelve her father had her standing in on drums at his shows and at fifteen she was singing backing vocals and some solos. Even played a few rich kids parties, and none of it registered as something she could make a living off of, she just loved music, performing it, learning about it and writing it.

Now school had never much interested Ali, and she definitely had no plans of going to college. Why would she? She was already making a bit of a name for herself in some niche circles with her music, if she got herself a tik tok, maybe actually put a little time into working on her ep, she could probably get by, and honestly so long as she got to hide away in a studio she didn't really care about the rest of it. While her grdes had never been anything to put on the fridge, she had gained some interest from conservatories and various arts colleges throughout her high school experience. Including the University of Lima. Originally, she wasn't going to go, she didn't go, she'd spent the last three years our of high school, doing exactly what she wanted but last year she got some news.

The topic of her mother hadn't much come up over the years. Not because she was a no no subject with her dad, but because she hadn't cared enough to ask. As far as she knows she left shortly after Ali was born, contacted her father once when she was about five and they hadn't heard from her since. Well, not until last year, when she mentioned she had a son. Jake Puckerman. Ali didn't have much of a reaction at first, figuring it wasn't that big of a deal but over time, she grew more... curious and finding his socials apparently wasn't enough. So she got in contact with the music department at UoL and before she knew it she was committing herself to four year of college and she wasn't even sure she actually wanted to meet her half sibling.

Aliyah is a very laid back and unbothered person, who doesn’t take much of anything all that seriously and thinks the rest of this town could do with a chill pill or a couple puff puff passes on the bowl with her but she does like observing drama and for some reason this random town in Ohio has no shortage of that.

[joeonmusic]

Beast Mode is out today!

Yesterday I held a listening party on Bandcamp to celebrate the release of my new EP, Beast Mode, and give people some insights into the songs. I thought I'd share my notes for those who couldn't make it, so you can read as you listen along. The EP is produced by Chris Marney (referred to as Chris throughout here).

Pass the puffer is the first track and I wrote the lyrics after reading about an episode of Spy in the Wild on BBC. It was narrated by David Tennant. In it, the dolphins pass round a puffer fish and get blissed out from small doses of the lethal toxins. I did a bit more research on dolphins and put something together that’s not supposed to be political or animal rights based, just observations of strange behaviour.

The music was written a while ago, and I added the guitar and dolphin samples a bit later. I think my producer did a good job in bringing out the bass notes a bit better than I had it in the original mix - that’s never my strongest point. 

Fed to the tigers is probably the saddest song on the EP. Again, in terms of the music, the guitar was the last thing I added and I think it gives it an extra dimension with the tremolo weaving in and out. The lyrics explore how a zoo came to decide to kill a 2-year-old giraffe. Marius the giraffe was born at Copenhagen zoo, but he was from the same gene pool as too many other giraffes in European zoos so was no use for breeding the next generation and it costs money and requires space to keep such animals. They didn’t want to sell him to some private collector or a circus so decided the most humane thing was to kill him and feed him to the tigers. I don’t make a judgement, just think it’s a dilemma that’s worth thinking about…

Cyborg (broken animal) is up third and it’s less of a story than an exploration of these around adding technology to humans and animals. There’s a philosophical element to it in terms of how we should feel about experimenting with impulses going straight to the brain to control movements and things, plus a bit of a fear of what if it goes wrong and robot-insect armies start attacking us!

Musically it is the probably the closest to dance music through parts of it, although there’s a really brutal guitar solo in it to throw you off. You can hear what Chris did with the remix a bit later for a different take on the song.

Sweet Kiss of Death (or the story) was suggested to me by my Twitter friend Stephen Haggart. There was a horse (Sweet Kiss) that won a race, but the jockey died on his back some time before the end. I decided to write the song from the point of view of the horse who was henceforth nicknamed Sweet Kiss of Death.

I wrote the music for this a couple of years ago, but played around with it and added the weird talking bass sound to get away from it being too traditional a reggae sound. I’ve always loved reggae and those who’ve listened to my earlier albums will have heard elements in those from the genre. Also from my band at uni, we had a dub reggae stage, influenced by Boo Radleys and other 90s bands who added it into rock/indie.

The cyborg remix is not the first time my voice has been put through a decoder. The Invisible squirrel also did it with the remix of Trace in 2022: Listen here for that. I love what Chris did with this. It has a very different feel from my version, while still being recognisable. The guitar solo's gone, but there are some really gnarly synths to give that menace still.

Radioactive hybrid terror pigs was originally released in October 2022. It was the first song Chris mixed for me, so I thought I’d bring it back, as it was just a single, so has never been on Bandcamp. It was fast and punky all the way through before, so I slowed down the verses and chopped up the guitar line, adding a few synth elements, too. 

I read a story about how the wild boars moved into the contaminated land without feeling any ill effects and made themselves at home, inter-breeding with the domesticated pigs that had been left behind in the desperate aftermath of the disaster. The title’s a little bit sensationalist, but when I read it, I just thought that has to be a song! Thematically it fits perfectly with this EP.

I hope you enjoy listening to the EP. Please buy a copy on Bandcamp if you can, or just share it with people who you think will like listening to it. Word of mouth and recommendations from friends are the best promo in the world.

[extravalgant]

hi! ive been listening to your playlist abt the wizard lately (“the only time when most people feel alive is when theyre suffering”) (very good btw. your mind….) and i was wondering if you had any other song/artist recs that have a similar sound/vibe!

OMG I HONESTLY FORGOT ABOUT THAT PLAYLIST... went back to it and kinda realized the vibe was all over the place HAHAHA but some of the songs there are bangers fr....

heres the playlist if anyone is curious. i made a whole post about each song and why i chose it but its probably so far back... ill add it later (lying)

mitski has a lot of good songs!! i feel like her and weyes blood sort of have a similar vibe ^^ theyre also the more well known artists among that playlist. i know mitski just released an album and rest assured that shit has destroyed me

PERHAPS... A LOT'S GONNA CHANGE BY WEYES BLOOD? its a very yw-coded song now that im lookin at it...

smokes a cigarette very solemnly.. oh yeah.. this hits harder after my novus rerun

I LOVEEEEE broadcast their songs are very calm and soothing... i found them through their 1997 album work and non work! my first song was the world backwards ^_^ you can try there and see if you like the way it sounds hehe

crumb has so many good songs.. u might have heard them from their song locket but if u havent GO CHECK IT OUT!! its a good song.. a good band. i also like tunnel (all that you had) from their most recent album ( ^ ^)b

the voidz' frontman is julian casablancas who is also part of the strokes which as you know. kinda popular BUT IF IT HELPS my first song of theirs was human sadness which is like an 11 minute song 😭 THEY MIGHT BE HIT OR MISS but i like em. havent listened to them in a while though

cusp is a band i found offhandedly from a video suggestion BUT I FOUND THEM FROM THEIR SPILL EP!!! u can check that out to see if thats to ur fancy...

steady holidays... oh my gaaawd i love steady holiday. SHE HAS A LOT OF GOOD SONGS!!! my favorites are eastern comfort, love and pressure, nobodys watching, trapping season...

fun fact i associate them with empyrea and cool ranch because thats all i would play when i ran those worlds LMFAO

ok sorry this was really long i just never get the chance to talk about music LMFAOOO BUT I HOPE THESE HELPED!!!

[mvmnbnv]

mkay so back to this...

I was going thru ep 8 for screenshots for another post and decided to let the convo between vi and cait play out...and the way cait talks to her just pissed me off through and through

Telling HER to "calm down for once" like huh?? just being an asshole to her and acting like shes always irrational?? Vi's literally the one who has to anchor her to make sure she doesnt go haywire again...but VI's the one that needs to "calm down for once"? and why does she feel entitled to Vi's calm anyway...and the way she just straight up complains that Vi didn't let her in on the part of the plan that Jinx was involved in because Vi didn't trust her...she literally bitched about Vi not trusting her...why tf should she??? She doesnt even have any remote understanding of why Vi wouldn't...she just expects it of her...after she broke her trust. after she hit her, after she left her and started fucking someone else (who she doesnt even get rid of when vi is back mind you), while Vi's just suffering thinking about nothing but her.

And I blame myself for not seeing this coming from a mile away, because act 1 laid out this entitlement beforehand. She literally tries to guilt trip vi and tells her she thought vi was on "their side"...then even when Vi says no and expresses her trauma she feels so entitled to Vi's loyalty and dare i say compliance she just goes and enlists her behind her back...even in the end, when Vi's sitting alone with a drink in her hand and MOURNING...she still wants to know for certain she has that loyalty that she feels entitled to...asking her if she's still in this fight. While...she's...mourning...after a fight...after she probably found her screaming and crying so fucking loud you could hear it from outside...after she just lost her family.

the only time ill say she doesnt act entitled to Vi is when she tries to tell Vi that shes been seeing someone else, but even that amounts to nothing considering the scene is literally centered around cait's pleasure and Vi's love sickness anyway...

fuck vi deserved better bc wtf...

The more I think about caitvi the more unsettling it gets because why does Cait lowkey show feelings of entitlement to everything about vi?

[kinnsporsche]

Am I the only one who thinks that Khun is just pretending to be crazy? I suspected so since ep 4 but ep 5 made me really 👀 because of the conversation he had with Kim. To me it looks like he might be trying to steer his brothers from behind the scenes (though I think it's out of brotherly love, not ill intentions). I'm also wondering why he would be doing that in the first place (except for like. not wanting to be a mafia boss). I know he really had a traumatic experience but isn't this a bit weird?

Oh I don't think he's pretending to be crazy at all! I think, if you're just looking at Tankhun on a surface level then his eccentricism can come off a bit forced, but it's just who he is, you know? It's not so much that he's pretending, more so that he's still actively traumatised from what happened to him when he was kidnapped.

Obviously we don't know all the details with what happened to him, but it was bad enough for him to develop agoraphobia and PTSD, so much that he doesn't leave the grounds. And, if we're to believe he hasn't left them all that much since he was kidnapped as a kid, Khun's character starts to become so much more sad and heartbreaking. 

When Porsche first brings up the prospect of going anywhere outside he doesn't hesitate to shut it down because he's scared of it. His PTSD manifests a lot in avoidance, outside is scary so he doesn't go there, he chases excitement and thrills where it's safe at home in this tv shows and his appearance. He bounces from one thing to another because he is bored, he is trapped both in his own home and his own head. Like that short scene where he dyes his hair and then instantly wants to change it back, I know it was supposed to be an ad placement, but the way they delivered it with Khun’s character is sad when you look at it. He’s bored and scared and chasing the trill of something in it.

Like, as the oldest he was supposed to be the heir to the Theerapanyakul legacy, was probably raised to be just that from a very young age, but then after he was kidnapped, after whatever happened to him happened he just... couldn’t. And I bet he carries so much guilt because of it, not towards his father or to the Theerapanyakul legacy, but towards Kinn. That’s his little brother and because of his trauma, because of him, he has to take on a role that was never meant for him. He has to carry the heavy burden of their entire legacy now and Khun knows the weights that come with it, the toll that it takes. So he’s protective of him in his own way, especially when it comes to the minor family:

But what he doesn’t realise is that Kinn shoulders everything thrust upon him willingly just so his brothers don’t have to. 

So no, I don’t think he’s actively trying to steer them in any kind of direction, I just think he’s trying to help and to make himself feel useful. People assume he’s just this weird, crazy guy and he lets them assume that about him because then they don’t see him as a threat, as someone to worry about. And that’s very obvious from his conversation with Kim:

He does know more than he lets on, and I think his brothers know that too, because Kim doesn’t even look surprised that Tankhun knows, just a little resigned and annoyed.

So to answer your question, no I don’t think he’s pretending to be, and yes, I do think what guides him most is his love for his brothers. I think he is traumatised and a little eccentric and people look at him and mistake that for helplessness, but that’s exactly what he wants. He wants certain people on the outside to see him that way because it means they’ll underestimate him, and the people who really know him know that he isn’t a person to be played with. Vegas knows it, he walked away when Khun hit him and squared up to him because at his core, if there’s one thing Khun is, it’s protective.

[ekholocationn]

so it turns out that my pc isnt quite strong enough to run dark revival.... which is fine bc ive realized i dont quite have the guts to go into a horror game blind after all XD

thankfully tho DAGames is doing an episodic playthrough of it!! so im gonna be watching that, im already LOVING the look of the game so far the models are so expressive ahhhhhh

i already went into it knowing archgate canonically has ahold of the bendy IP,,,,, the little museum room was super cute and i LOVED that they brought back the pedestal quest from the first game

needless to say i wont be getting the story as immediately as i had wanted but thats alright, ive filtered tags that might give me spoilers for the game since i wanna experience it through will's playthrough. idk how long itll take for his full lets play to come out but ill probably give little update posts like this each time one of his eps comes out