#so if noah could come over and drag me out of this pit i'm in that would be great!
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iwasntstable Β· 2 months ago
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n.s. | if i'm there
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I didn't want to believe how much you needed help / And I just left you to be all by yourself / And now I wish I had seen that you weren't doing well / But I just came back to see how hard you fell Well, if I'm there to catch you when you fall / You'll have a friend down in Hell after all γ€€γ€€β€” If I'm There - Bad Omens
summary: when things start getting bad, you withdraw. ignoring calls and texts, and descending into bad habits as you self-isolate. but noah knows what you're like and he loves you too much to let you suffer alone.
content tags: angst, emotional hurt/comfort, poor mental health, mentions of disordered eating, discussions of food, self-destructive behaviour, fluff.
word count: 3.8k.
note: having a rough time recently so enjoy the self-indulgent product of my stressing. γ€€γ€€PS: please tell me if the layout of this post is fucked up so I can fix it for you.
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Things are getting bad again. You find your sleep schedule sliding later and later, falling asleep in the early hours of the morning and waking in the afternoon, bypassing the day altogether. Meals are becoming infrequent and poor in quality. Appetite dwindling and opting to eat half a bag of microwave rice at 3am rather than dedicating time to creating a nutritious and satisfying meal. Truth be told, you didn’t have the energy to cook anything more, and the malnutrition itself likely played a part in that lack of energy. The trash was left to build up, and the laundry hadn’t been done in weeks.
The progression of all of this was gradual. So gradual, that by the time you recognised what was happening, it was all but too late to stop the rapid descent into your depression. And as the days go by, you start to withdraw into yourself. Messages from friends begin to go unanswered. You tell yourself you’ll reply later, when you have the mental bandwidth to engage in conversation. But later ends up being not at all. Too many days have passed, and you feel like it’s too late to reply now; you don’t know how. That includes your boyfriend.
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γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[Noah πŸ’˜]
            Tuesday γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€10:45AM
β€” Morning! Do you wanna call later?    Miss your voiceΒ 
          morning! I have a headache β€”             right now and I feel like it's             not gonna go away :( I'll let                you know though.                 I miss you too ❀️ β€”
β€” Aw I'm sorry :( β€” I hope you feel better soon β€” Text me later and let me know    how you are ❀️
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€02:27PM
β€” Hey babe how are you feeling?
             my head still hurts :( β€”
β€” Want me to come over and look    after you? β€” Have you eaten yet?
       you don't have to do that, I'd be β€”            shitty company anywayΒ Β Β Β                just wanna sleep β€”
β€” Okay :( β€” I'll text you later tonight so    you can sleep
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€10:09PM
β€” How are you feeling? β€” Are you sleeping? β€” Hope you’re resting well. Text    me when you wake up so I know    you’re okay β€” I love you ❀️ β€” Goodnight ❀️
           Wednesday γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€08:41AM
β€” Morning, how’re you feeling?
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€09:13AM
β€” Are you awake? β€” Babe, are you okay?
      hey! sorry I was still asleep. I feel a β€”       little better but my head still hurts :(
β€” I’m gonna cancel today and come    over β€” I don’t want you to be alone when    you’re not wellΒ 
       no don’t do that, i’m okay really β€”              you know this happens          sometimes. I just wanna rest,            you don’t have to cancel for        me. not when work is important
β€” You’re important too β€” Please let me look after you
          I love you and I love that β€”           you want to be here for me,         but all I want to do right now                   is sleep
          I don’t want you to cancel β€”           important schedules just           to watch me sleep all day                I’ll feel better soon.             just need to give it time. β€”
β€” I’d cancel to sit and watch you sleep    in a heartbeat β€” I love you, I just want you to be okay β€” I have to go, I’ll text you later okay?
         I’ll text you back when I can, β€”            if I don’t reply I’m probably          asleep so don’t worry have a                good day I love you β€”
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€10:26PM
β€” Hey babe sorry I didn’t text all day I    was so fucking busy β€” How’re you doing now? β€” Are you sleeping again?
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 10:31PM]
β€” Text or call me when you wake up,    even if it’s the middle of the night I’ll    leave my sound on β€” I love you ❀️
              Thursday γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€08:41AM
β€” Hey, are you awake?
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€08:55AM
β€” Hello??
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 08:59AM]
β€” Message me when you wake up
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€12:20PM
β€” Babe?? β€” I’m worried β€” Even if you don’t wanna talk canΒ     you please let me know you’re okay?
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€12:46PM
β€” Babe please answer me
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 12:48PM]
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€01:20PM
     hey, sorry I missed your messages β€”         I’m okay sorry for worrying you β€”
β€” I was just about to come over β€” I still might β€” I’m worried about you
           please don’t I just don’t β€”          wanna see anyone right now
β€” Even me?
                  I’m sorry β€”             I’ll text you tomorrow β€” β€” If that’s what you want β€” I love you
               Friday γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€03:47PM
β€” I don’t want to bother you, I’mΒ     trying to give you space if that’s    what you need β€” But I’m worried about you β€” You haven’t messaged me all day β€” Did I do something wrong?
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€04:10PM
β€” Babe please answer me
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 04:12PM]
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 04:15PM]
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€Β γ€€γ€€04:18PM
β€” Your friends said they haven’t heard    from you in days β€” What’s going on? You can talk to me. β€” You don’t have to talk to me if you    don’t want to but text someone back,    please β€” I just wanna know that you’re okay
γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€γ€€[MISSED CALL: 04:23PM]
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And that’s how Noah ended up outside your door. Banging incessantly and shouting your name through the wood. You could hear him from where you were wrapped up in bed, but you were half hoping he would just drop it and go away. Realising quickly, however, the futility of that hope when you heard another voice join the sound of his. That of your neighbour, the nosy one from the house on the right.
You groan and throw the blanket off yourself, flinching a little when your feet touch the cold floor. You have no choice but to go downstairs, and no time to change your appearance. Hoping to whatever God will listen that Noah doesn’t make a comment on the clothes you’d been wearing for the past week before you can get in the shower and change.
β€œI’m just really worried about her,” you can hear the unmistakable tone of Noah’s voice through the door before you even open it.
Hesitating for a moment with your hand on the door handle, you decide to eavesdrop on the conversation. β€œI haven’t seen her for, ohhh let me think... has to be about a week now,” despite the man’s voice wavering with age, it came loud and clear through the door. An unfortunate side effect of his hearing loss.
β€œA week?!” Noah exclaimed. Having enough of the old man sticking his nose where it doesn’t belong, you unlock the door quickly, wrenching it open and taking a surprised Noah by the arm.
β€œOh! Nice to see you, dear. It’s been a while, hasn’t it?” The old man sneers.
β€œYeah, nice seeing you, Trevor,” you barely extend him a glance as you drag Noah in through your doorway, slamming the door closed and turning the key. You let out a deep sigh, your palms and forehead resting against the cool wood.
Noah calls your name softly. You squeeze your eyes tight and take in a breath before you turn to face him. Putting on the best phoney smile you can muster.
β€œSorry about him, he’s always in everyone’s business. What are you-”
β€œHe said he hasn’t seen you in a week,” he says matter-of-factly. There’s no hint of a smile on his face. β€œYour friends said they haven’t heard from you in days either, and you’ve been ignoring my texts. And calls.”
Your heart seizes at the sadness in his eyes. He stands there in your front room, his usual sweatpants and hoodie, but he just looks so defeated. You always tell him he looks like an upset puppy when he’s sad, and the puppy-dog eyes are working overtime on you right now. β€œI told you, I’ve just been busy, and I-”
β€œAnd you had a headache, and you missed my texts, and you didn’t want to talk,” his voice was as stern as his expression. You knew he wasn’t an idiot. That there’s no way he’d believe yourβ€”at bestβ€”flimsy excuses. You stand frozen to the spot, fiddling with the edge of your sleeve. Picking at the stitches, trying to distract yourself from the lump forming in your throat. β€œAren’t you going to say anything?” Noah questions.
You swallow roughly, β€œI don’t know what you... I don’t-”
He says your name firmly and takes a step towards you, β€œI’m going to ask you how you are, and I would like you to answer me honestly.”
Feeling your heart begin to race in your chest, you swallow again, but it does nothing to get rid of the tightness in your throat. Or the dizziness creeping up on you.
β€œAre you doing bad again?” He sounds softer this time, and you almost wish he would just scream at you because when he’s kind and attentive like this, you can’t help but crumble and shut down.
You clench your jaw as your breathing gets quicker, shallower, and you feel the unmistakable burn of tears in your eyes. β€œI’m fine,” your voice comes out cracked and weak, not at all the sound of someone who's fine.Β 
β€œDon’t pretend you’re okay. Please don’t lie to me, because I know you’re not okay!” Noah crosses the room to meet you, holding his hands outstretched towards you, β€œwhat can I do for you? Please, I want to help.”
You cover your mouth as you choke back a sob, wrapping your other arm around your middle; you can’t hold it in anymore, and the floodgates open. Gasping for breath that seems to never come, you grip the front of your shirt tight in your fist, the clothing suddenly feeling suffocating and stiflingly hot.
β€œOh, baby. Come here,” Noah takes you by the shoulders and pulls you into his chest, where you fall into him and cling onto him like he’s your only lifeline. β€œI need you to breathe for me, okay? Slowly, in and out,” he strokes soothing circles against your back as he demonstrates to you how to breathe. β€œCome and sit down here, yeah? The couch is right here.”
You barely register your legs moving for the numbness extending across your entire body, from your fingertips all the way down to your toes. Your tears are hot on your face, and every time you try to wipe them away, they’re just replaced by more in a never-ending stream. The room feels like it’s spinning around you as you move, only worsening the feeling of nausea rising in your throat. The plush cushions of the couch are a welcome relief.
β€œYou’re holding your breath, I need you to breathe. Just how I am, that’s it,” he cradles your head to his chest through your shaky attempts to take in a breath through your nose and let it out slowly through your mouth. Your breath hitches uncontrollably with every inhale, taking in tiny bursts of air at a time. Noah, though, has nothing but praise on his lips: β€œThat’s it. You’re doing so well, just listen to my voice.”
You missed his voice. As you worsened and withdrew, you found any excuse to avoid going out to see him, and you had been ignoring his calls for days. You knew you were doing it, and you missed him desperately, but with every day that passed, you found it harder and harder to reach out. It was hard for you to reach out for help in the first place, hard for you to admit to anyone that you needed help. Hard to admit it to yourself. Opting instead to suffer in silence and just push through it until you finally broke. You didn’t know any other way.
The familiar presence of him by your side eases the pace of your racing heart, allowing each breath to come a little easier. A little calmer. β€œI hate to see you hurting like this,” he whispers into your hair, his hand stroking through it gently, working to soothe the seemingly unquenchable anxiety. β€œI want to help you, please let me help you.”
It broke your heart to hear the pain in his voice. You never wanted to hurt him, but that’s all you seem to do. That cold hand of dread tightens its grip on your chest again, panic filling your lungs and replacing all the air. β€œI’m sorry,” you barely choke out, gripping onto Noah tighter. Warring with yourself, wanting to hold him close, but feeling like you need to push him away.
β€œYou don’t need to apologise, ever. I’m here, I’m right here,” he runs his hand up and down your back, cradling you close. He can’t help but notice that through the fabric of your shirt, the bones of your spine are ever so slightly more prominent than before. He keeps his mouth shut. Focussing instead on quelling your distress and holding you tight in his arms.Β 
β€œI just- I fuck everything up. I can’t do anything right, I don’t deserve your love, I don’t deserve you-” Once you start talking, you can’t stop, finally letting it all out until Noah cuts you off, incapable of hearing you degrade yourself anymore.
β€œNo. No, that’s not even remotely true. Don’t say that about yourself,” he says firmly, holding you just a little tighter.Β 
You shake your head against him, β€œall I do is hurt people and push you away, and I don’t know how to stop. You don’t deserve that, you shouldn’t have to put up with me.”
β€œI don’t β€˜put up with you’. I love you, and I want to be here for you. Whatever you need, whenever you need it.”
β€œYou shouldn’t have to drop everything to come deal with me when you’re so busy. You deserve someone that isn’t so fucking hard to love.”
With that, Noah pushes you backwards by the shoulders, holding you there so he can look into your eyes when he speaks. β€œYou are not hard to love. Loving you is the easiest thing I’ve ever had the privilege of doing. You just…” He takes a deep breath, cupping your cheek and brushing away the tears from under your eyes. β€œYou just need to let me in, and let me show you you’re just as worthy of love as anyone else is.”
The image of him blurs when the tears overflow from your eyes again, your face crumpling as you bow your head. β€œYou’ll leave me," your voice shaking with the force of your sobs.
"Why would you ever think I'd leave you?" he asks, dismayed by your fear.
"Everyone always leaves," you tell him, voice brittle and quiet, shaking your head. "It's only a matter of time before you leave too."
"I love you," Noah feels tears prick at his own eyes. "I love you so, so much. And I'm not going anywhere." He lifts your head, once again brushing away your tears so he can look into your eyes, "please trust me to help you."
"I'm just so tired," you confess, and he pulls you into his arms again.Β 
β€œI can't promise to fix all your problems, but I can promise you won't have to face them alone. There’s nothing you could do that would drive me away. And the things that would, I know you’d never do,” he runs a comforting hand through your hair as you cry, his other arm secure around your waist. Your tears soak into his shirt, but he doesn’t mind. He wants you to give it all to himβ€”all your sorrows, all your griefβ€”so that he can bear it with you.
You desperately want to believe his words. To lean on him when you need him the most, but that insecure piece inside of you won’t let you yield. You don’t know how to open up to anyone without feeling like a burden.
Noah stays right there with you until the tears subside and your breathing evens out. Your head resting in his lap as he reassuringly strokes your hair, you feel the beginnings of a dull ache in your head that makes you drowsy. He rubs soothing circles into your back with his other hand, shifting slightly to get a better look at your face. β€œHave you eaten yet today?” He asks tentatively. Feeling your throat constrict under the pressure of guilt, you know you can’t lie to him. You know he sees right through you, so you decide to try being honest by shaking your head. β€œWant me to cook something for you? Or we can order something? My treat.”
You know he means well, but you don’t know how to say you don’t have an appetite without worrying him. He won’t let you go the entire day without eating, but all you want to do is sleep.
β€œPlease talk to me,” he pleads, β€œI need to hear you.”
On a shaky breath, you settle for a half truth. β€œI don’t think there’s anything to cook.”
β€œThat’s fine, we can order food then. What do you want?”
Chewing on your lip, you freeze. The silence stretches on far too long for you to be deciding what restaurant to order from, it’s clear you’re unable to answer.
Noah sighs your name, β€œyou have to eat something.” 
β€œI know. I just… I just don’t want to,” he remains quiet, waiting for you to continue. β€œI don’t feel hungry. Thinking about it is overwhelming. I just want to sleep so I don’t have to think about it.”
β€œWhat have you been eating these past few days?” He asks cautiously, his tone light. Conscious to not sound accusatory.
You sigh, knowing there’s no way of escaping this. β€œMicrowave stuff, mostly,” you play with the fabric of his sweatpants, feeling his leg underneath, fidgeting your anxiety away. β€œRice, oats, ramen. Stuff I don’t have to wash up after.”
β€œHave you been eating every day?”
The question hangs heavy in the air, the tension only thickening when you answer "no,” barely above a whisper.
You feel him nod. Quiet for a moment until he too speaks so quietly, you almost didn’t hear it. β€œYou can’t go on like this.”
β€œI know,” you confess.
β€œPlease let me help you.”
The desperation in his voice is what does itβ€”the final straw. You sit up straight, turning to face him. Wiping the residual tears from your cheeks and looking him in the eye. You know it’s time to really be honest.Β 
β€œIt’s hard for me-” Your voice catches in your throat as the threat of crying again creeps up on you, not quite realising how much your body would resist. Taking a second to compose yourselfβ€”a deep breath in, eyes closed, releasing it slowlyβ€”your resolve strengthens and you continue. β€œIt’s hard for me to open up to people. To admit when I’m struggling. I’m so used to feeling like I’m burdening everyone with my problems, so I just keep it all to myself. And by the time I realise I’m going down that road again, it’s too late to stop it.”
β€œIt’s never too late,” Noah says reassuringly, tucking both sides of your hair behind your earsβ€”the left first, then the right. β€œI mean this in the most loving way possible, but you don’t get to decide whether you’re a burden. You don’t get to take that choice away from me. The choice to help you. Your problems will never be a burden to me, no matter how big or small. You will never be a burden to me. I love you. I choose you. And I’ll never think poorly of you for needing help, ever.”
You don’t know what to say. Your eyes fixed on his. One of your favourite things about him is his big brown eyes. Always so full of comfort. So full of love that even you, with all of your self-doubt, can’t deny it. β€œI’m sorry. I know you said not to apologise, but I think I need to. I’m sorry for making you worry and for pushing you away. I’m sorry for hurting you.”
Noah takes your hands in his. Large palms enveloping your own entirely. β€œSeeing you hurting is what hurts me the most. I love you so much, all I want is for you to be happy and healthy.”
You squeeze his hands in yours, β€œI love you, Noah. I’ll try harder, I promise. Feeling so unwanted for so long before I met you, I think I didn’t realise just how lucky I am to have you until now.” Noah raises one of your hands, kissing the back firmly and holding it there, savouring the feel of your skin against his lips. Timidly, you ask, β€œcan we get pizza?”
He breaks out into a smile, β€œof course we can! But you have to text your friends back first," he bargains, "even if it’s just something short.”
β€œDeal,” you can’t help but return his smile. β€œMy phone is upstairs, I’m just gonna go get it.”
β€œWait!” he calls as you stand, pulling you back to the sofa and into him with a hand on the back of your head, β€œcan I kiss you first?”
Without a word, you lean into him, closing the gap between you and feeling his lips on yours for the first time in weeks. That familiar burn of tears threatening to escape your eyes returns, and when you pull away, those beautiful brown eyes are full of concern.
β€œIt’s okay,” you reassure him, laughing awkwardly, β€œhappy tears. I just missed you so much.”
β€œI missed you too,” his smile taking on a more solemn appearance this time. β€œBut I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere. I love you, please don’t ever forget that.”
β€œDon’t forget that I love you too. No matter what happens. No matter how stupidly self-destructive I act.”
Noah pulls you in for one final embrace before letting you retrieve your phone. You spend time texting back each of your friends, apologising for your absence and telling them you were okay, that Noah is here, and you’d explain more later. Noah, sitting at your right, creates your pizza order, periodically asking what else you’d like adding.
The two of you spend the night watching trash TV, settling into your usual comfort and hurling insults at the characters for making stupid decisions while you eat your food. Only realising after it arrived just how hungry you really were. And when you’re finished eating, Noah and you head upstairs.
You feel like a new person after you shower, coming out of the bathroom to find Noah relaxed against your headboard. The sheets on your bed changed, and a fresh set of clothes lay waiting for you to change into for bed.
Accepting finally how much lighter everything feels when someone is around to help you. You slide under the clean sheets, comforted by the warmth of Noah’s body beside you for the first time in too long. And just as you fall asleep to the sound of his heartbeat and the feeling of his hand stroking your back, you’re determined to never let things get this bad again. Knowing you need to trust him, because trust is the foundation of love, and you love Noah with every fibre of your being. And despite how hard it is sometimes, you need to let him love you back.
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