#so i'm hoping she'll be in LTC long enough for me to either have to leave this apartment and thus can't take her back | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

killbaned · 11 months

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i WANT to do something else with myself and my time but i'm too fucking tired and too fucking depressed to fucking do anything and yes i know it's just a reaction to the current situation and yes i know it's not my fault but that doesn't make me less fucking pissed off about it.

#and she's trying to be on this shit about 'well if you didn't have to do anything would that be better' and it's just #there is no way to facilitate that with you HERE. there is no fucking version of reality where you get someone else to come in #and do all this fucking bullshit all of the time.#maybe if you'd made your own doctors appointments and done something other than lay around and watch TV for the last ten years #you wouldn't be needing long term fucking care but no #now get the fuck out of my fucking apartment so i can start working and getting money to fucking LEAVE #bc i don't know how long she'll be there and my goal is to push for assisted living once it's done #because she can't fucking live on her own and i am tired of being the fucking person dealing with her #so i'm hoping she'll be in LTC long enough for me to either have to leave this apartment and thus can't take her back #or ideally to be the fuck out of this state entirely #i am not letting them push her back onto me #i know i'm getting ahead of myself and i'm trying not to and that's why i keep like #not being able to do anything else bc i just keep rabbit holing about this

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