#so he can't even invite questions about it post18 because

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I'm interested in how Jensen will play Dean, and how he has been playing Dean. I've been working under the assumption that Dean knows he's in love with Cas but doesn't want to let himself want it due to thinking it can't happen. Or Cas doesn't feel the same. Maybe he's been oblivious to the depth of his feelings, I could accept that. I wonder how Jensen will want to portray it? Leaving it more ambiguous than Misha? Realizing for the first time that he loves Cas? Or accepting that he always has?

honestly they haven’t been blind to it. i don’t know a lot of bts details or their acting methods or choices, i’ve never been too big of a bts person if that makes sense. i know there are instances in the past some people who don’t like the ship as much pointed to him saying something that indicated he was against it, but when in reality he was facing pressure from people particularly these “fans”, and lbr, from what little bts stuff i know what i do know is that he was pretty uhhhhhhhhhhhhh shy up at cons especially by himself. so i personally find those instances people point at as unfair. 

so i do think at some point there had to have been a shift with acting choices, even if they don’t say it or won’t say it. 

i wish i knew what was in their heads lmao. 

but personally, i think it can really go two ways: subconscious realization (oh wow! so that’s what i’ve been feeling this whole time!) or the conscious one, the “Shit, I ran out of time. I thought I was looking too much into certain things and denied both of us something bigger and better and now it’s gone completely”

Like there’s what we think, and then what he’s trying to convey with his own acting choices. But since you can really point out toooooooo seasons a long while ago and go “Uh, what was that. That’s def. pining” or “Omg you made him a fucking mixtape?” I feel like there was some choice to play it up as each year went on. 

Sadly this isn’t my area, I wish it was. 

Sans taking into account actor choices, my hope is that Dean knew it was always there but 1) doesn’t really know how to recognize love especially directed at him 2) doesn’t know how to love himself so how can he accept love from someone else 3) much like Cas doesn’t think he can get it, so why bother. I can imagine over the years it was “I was reading into his reaction, I’m looking too far into it, I’m going to ignore it” which also turned into “I’ll tell him next time”. 

This is the one area I am very curious of because these characters, as far as I’m aware, were never meant to get like this. Cas did not come as a character with this intention. This—everything—was spawned by writers, acting choices, and fans. 

Annoyingly one of the actors is so quiet we don’t really know all the puzzle pieces he’s holding lmao. Well, at least for me. I don’t know the puzzle pieces he holds. 

To add, with my last anon, I will say ambiguity is off the table. They... blew right past that train stop.

Sorry if this is rambling. I’m very tired lol