#shouldn't be some secret occult knowledge

[st-just]

One of these days we will get a second high budget and high-quality CRPG created by people who understand that there isn't actually some metaphysical law requiring that they make their core gameplay loop mediocre tactical combat and inventory management.

[shwarztrakt]

- About/Rules -

About the Writer:

Nate, 28, Any pronouns. Autistic. 10+ years of rping experience. Currently living in California. I love talking to new people: DMs are open to everyone, Discord is available to mutuals on request.

About the Character:

Johann Staedtler is an elderly and extremely powerful mage existing within an original urban fantasy setting.

Born in Austria at the close of the 18th century, He spent much of his early adulthood seeking knowledge of all kinds. He was hampered in this pursuit by the neuromuscular disease he developed in his 30s, which he survived through use of his magic and sheer stubbornness. The first world war proved to be a further hindrance, and he relocated to America before the onset of the second, where he was eventually contacted by the US government. After some negotiation, he accepted the position of Special Curator at the Library of Congress Black Wing, the secretive suborganization that maintains the federal governments collection of dangerous and occult texts and artifacts. Though not the official head of the Black Wing, he runs the collection in everything but name, and is content to largely limit his interaction with the outside world to the gathering and archiving of more material for the library.

Rules:

This blog is 18+. Actual sexual/suggesting interactions likely wont appear on this blog, but Staedtler may mention them or other adult topics, so I would prefer not to interact with minors here.

I'm a little selective with who I write with. Generally if a character comes from or can interact within a roughly similar setting I'll give them a shot but if there's too much setting clash it's something I struggle to write.

IC =/= OOC. Staedtler's views do not automatically reflect mine, especially his opinions of other characters.

Additional guidelines:

Some of the themes discussed on this blog will likely be triggering. I'll do my best to tag things, but my memory is not great and I can't guarantee that I'll never slip up. If that seems like it could be an issue you probably shouldn't follow me, sorry.

I deeply value OOC communication, both positive and negative. My goal here is to make this fun for everyone involved, so If I'm doing something you don't like and you want me to stop or if I've otherwise upset you in some way, please tell me so I can correct that behavior.

Tags: #ic - posts meant to be read as being posted online by Staedtler himself. #f2f - in person threads between Staedtler and someone else's character. #narrative - in person or action posts that are not part of an extended thread and involving only characters written by me. #[private] - means an in character post is only viewable by other characters involved in the post. #on timeline - means that the events depicted are happening in or close to the present time. #off timeline - means that the events depicted are not happening at the current time, such as in a flashback or flash forward.

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

8th House Placements : Astro Observations

The passion, the secrets, the occult, and the dire need to be with one another can be strong in this house. The 8th house is a special house where all things dark can be brought to the light on a regular day to day basis. With just yourself, it can be powerful yet vulnerable. Dark yet sexy, chaotic but somehow controllable. Its a pretty interesting house.

HOUSE PLACEMENTS:

Neptune in the 8th house can go through loads of spiritual transformations with their vision/third eye. Like the veil is super thin with them already, however with time they go through a process where it becomes the norm to see pretty strange things. Dreams are always on 10, and theres always a message about secrets/occult knowledge in them from time to time. They could learn things they shouldn't know about people in this house through the process of astral travel & dreams. psychic abilities are usually being an oracle, a seer or medium.

Uranus 8th house can get loads of insight in the most craziest circumstances. Near death experiences can happen but isn't always likely. If this does happen however, they can have extreme eureka moments. Life flashing before their guys and seeing their future. They could suddenly see different ways on how to shift realities. These people may have dreams of quantum leaping, seeing themselves in different dimensions and having experiences where it may feel like 'it didnt happen' to others so they'll keep quiet about it.

Moon in the 8th house individuals can have extreme psychological warfare if they do not come to terms with their shadow. It is a lot harder for these individuals at times however it will become their biggest strength if they look deeper into the subconscious/unconscious for any traumas that need healing.

Sun In the 8th house is truly secretive like no other. With this placement it allows them to be mysterious even when they are opening up to people because their aura is normally shielded from other peoples. This is a natural thing that they do and its not something id say they can really turn off. Their personal power comes from shedding light on the dark things in their reality and this truly scares others with the things they know.

Sun in the 8th house are the children of the underworld, so whatever is chaotic and 'scary' to some its what makes them unique. Truly some interesting people when you meet them.

They dont care to show off as much but still have huge fan bases, lovers, crushes, etc that want to know everything about them. May show you just a DROP of whats going on in their life however it can seem like you know them from that small little detail. ;)

Moon in the 8th house have powerful personas, can sense information from just being in the room. If they're too open to this gift they may start to go crazy a little, because it can be too much information at once. Like an empath (which most are) it can start to be overwhelming to them. This is another way the psychological warfare can happen, taking in too many energies at once from other people while always dealing with the things their currently going through.

Venus and Mars in the 8th House can have loads of jealous people around them, so they'll be pretty closed off from time to time. Once they let someone in its like the person gets crazy obsessed with them. Eventually they start to realize people want to be around them so they can figure them out and see whats so mysterious about them. So another reason why they'll end up being secretive because no one truly wants to know them, just want to experience them to get more information.

Venus in the 8th house can have mimickers trying to play their persona and it truly doesnt work the way they think it does. Can sense when someone is off right away, Mars in the 8th might question for a little but eventually they'll figure out something was off about them'.

Venus in the 8th house individuals can be enticing to be around, their sensual energy exudes to high levels and can make people obsessed with them for a while. They could have a whole fan base just off their personalities alone. Materialistic pleasures can come easily to them if they let go of the need to do everything on their own, its easy to succumb to doing things yourself since people have tried to use you and take power over you from just giving you things. So it makes sense why they would rather be independent than to let others give them things especially money. Could have older partners who can help them achieve a certain lifestyle.

[jaykayblr]

Anon asked : hey! you have a beautiful name mairah, it sounds exotic.. i just read you were a Scorpio rising, can i ask what do you look like? sorry if it too personal, i just feel scorpio rising just some how very hot so.. i wanted to ask, or can you do a scorpio rising culture?

[ Note : this post is completely based on my knowledge in astrology. ]

I added some more points to this post which was answered by me long ago.

They have very dark eyes. The way they look at people - uff! They can lure anyone with their eyes.  

And i have noticed that when they are listening to people they tend to have a very intense eye contact with them.

they have very strong and sharp features.

i dont know but they seem to look good in suits even the women, most of them love to wear suits

they usually have a tan skin-tone

they tend to have this dark aura around them that seems somewhat evil. 

If they have no expressions on their face they can look some what angry? (mars influence i suppose) 

all of them are very sassy

they are no - nonsense and straightforward people 

they always seem to look like they are plotting something 

something about them just screams - mystery, secret, sex.

resting bitch face

they dont smile, they smirk.

they have distinct noses or just prominent ones.

they love to wear black or any dark colors even velvet. 

i think somehow all of them have a habit of touching their chins while thinking or talking

they might have a habit of touching their nose too

they seem cunning.

they can easily make people obsessed with them

They have sharp jaw lines and bone structure.

Huge foreheads.

They love wearing formal attire.

They love wearing clothes that make them look dominant and powerful.

They can command people easily.

It's hard to not notice them - they can easily catch your attention.

The mars influence makes them athletic

So even if they don't work out that much - they have a good stamina and flexibility.

Their voices are usually deep and seductive.

Something about them screams 'silent leader' to me

Like they don't even have to try - leadership comes to them naturally.

They have the habit of clenching their jaws and hollowing their cheeks

Not to forget the iconic rolls of their tongue.

They like playing with fire - literally or metaphorically.

They walk confidently - like they own the place.

They might have a habit of running their hands through their hair.

They can come off as Rude without meaning to.

They can be pretty moody sometimes

They can be either literally or metaphorically surrounded by the thoughts of dead and the unknown - sex included.

They are possessive.

Either the people around love them or they hate them or some may even may fear them. Not like they care though.

They always receive strong reactions from the public

They are very hardworking and energetic in their workplace.

They are very critical of themselves, take for example - social media: they will not post anything just like that. They will make sure that everything is perfect in the post. They will recheck it thousand times before actually posting it - they might even not post it in the end because of their overthinking.

Hella stubborn and Sometimes petty.

They can pick up the energy in a place so well.

They can see right through a person's facade.

And I am not even kidding - they are very observant - they can predict your next step correctly - how? By looking at your face and body language.

They can even sometimes complete sentences for other people.

They are very secretive - this shouldn't come as a surprise. They might know everything about you but you will know very little about them. They won't open up completely unless they trust you.

They love money ok? They might've understood the importance of having money from a young age.

Trust me, they have been through shit.

They seem experienced.

They can see the dark side of things which people ignore.

They are strategic AF. Every move is well planned by them. They don't rush.

They can pick up energies of people very well. They will ignore people who give them a bad energy.

They have amazing intuition!

They are more mature than their age.

They don't trust others easily - but people easily put their faith in them.

It seems like they had to grow up at a young age. Like before their peers.

They are interested towards the occult and the unknown. They might've feared it when they were young - but eventually they got curious about it as they grew up.

They can achieve fame easily. It's as if they are meant to. ( 10th house Leo )

They mostly like to be alone.

They will only allow you to see things that they want you to see.

They have no filter. They say what they think and do what they want.

You can always find them sitting with a frown on their face.

They have a huge self respect for themselves.

They are very individualistic - they wont ask you for help unless they really need it.

They are very intelligent.

They all have beautiful smiles but they don't smile very often.

Low-key perfectionist.

Good taste in fashion though.

Extremely critical of people and themselves.

[xenofact]

Projects Are Magic

The world isn't what it should be.  We want to change it for the better.  What is the key, the spell, the magic that will help us do that?  Or at least make stuff suck less?

And I answer, "Project Management," which might not be the answer people want.

Workboards and flowcharts aren't exciting to most people.  Market research sounds boring at best and manipulative at worst.  We want to act and get things done cleanly and honestly (at least honestly).  No one wants to be like some chart-obsessed office drone from a sitcom.

As a professional project and program manager, I feel otherwise most strongly.  Project Management is power.

Look at the state of the world.  The bad people are organized and productive, and there's often more method to madness than you think.  Sure, they may not realize the ultimate results of their bad ideas, but they're certainly getting them implemented.  If you want to make it in this world, change it, work your mystic and mutant strageness, you need to know how to get things to happen.

If you want to do something you need to know how to make it into a project and get it done - often with other people.

The “secrets” of Project Manager and easy to find – they’re not really secrets.  David Allen has written a bunch of great stuff under his "Getting Things Done" brand, and yeah he's commercial, but he knows what he's talking about (take it from me).  David Marquet does great stuff on leadership that explores language, management, and mindset.  For that matter, grab the Scrum Guide to check out a light way to organize projects from the “Agile” movement, or go to the Project Management Institute to go old-school.

The power is out there to get stuff accomplished.

I can say, personally, when you dive into Project Management and productivity in general, it turns out to be magical.  I mean this near-literally; it reminds me of occult and meditative systems.

You learn how to see the things you need to accomplish in a new way.  You see how goals are something deep and meaningful, not buzzwords (or shouldn't be).  You understand breaking down work and how a project is a network of causality.  You get a vision of how things can happen and get done - and make it happen.  When you know Project Management the world becomes different because you can make things happen..

Project Management gives you a bunch of tools, techniques, and ceremonies (meetings and events) to bring some project to completion.  Once you see your work differently, you can apply these tools to get a goal achieved.  There's vision and action, as long as you make an effort to learn it.  In fact once you learn it, it’s easier to learn from other organizers using the same language.

I invite you to take a look at various Project and Productivity tools.  Here's a few to try:

Let's change the world - and get organized.  What, do you want to leave all this knowledge in the hands of the people currently running the world into the ground?

- Xenofact

[loretemple777]

Ch-3: 'Holy Guardian Angel' & 'Great Demon'

In modern occultism, there are existences named as 'Secret Chiefs'.

The so-called 'Secret Chiefs' refer to humans or extraterrestrial beings with transcendent power and wisdom. They have knowledge that is too large to be described in words, they are in a sense almost omnipotent.

In modern occultism, they oversee the operations of an organization that manifests outwardly in the form of a magical order.

In the famous magic association or magic cabal of this world "Golden Dawn" also known as 'Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn' that has completely influenced modern occultism, there are three levels of order.

In their grading system— 'Silver Star Grading System', the grades are referenced to by paired numbers separated by an equal sign, relating to the associated position on the Tree of Life.

With the exception of the initial 0=0 grade which has no associated position, the first numeral is the number of steps up from the bottom of the tree (Malkuth), while the second is the number of steps down from the top (Keter). 

The 'Secret Chief' is the position of the highest order— third order among the total three orders. The most basic 'Secret Chief' are of (8=3) grade, some 'Secret Chief' are also associated with higher grades.

(T/L Note- I have released a seperate chapter in Volume 0 to better understand the 'Silver Star Grading System'.)

The 'Secret Chief' are able 'to comprehend the divine without a body', and those who can comprehend 'divine will with a human body', those are known as 'God of Magic'!

In modern times, there is a famous occultist Helena Blavatsky, who also the ancestor of Theosophy. It is said that she was favored by a certain 'Secret Chief' and thus gained great knowledge.

The angel behind Roy is also a 'Secret Chief'. According to this angel, it can be regarded as an extraterrestrial life form with unprecedented knowledge.

It is a golden haired being, with a tall and thin stature, wearing loose white clothing that covers its body entirely, a pair of naked feet exuding holy brilliance, and an angel halo on top of it's head.

It's expression is also difficult to ascertain, having a mix of happiness, sadness, grief, and anger, having emotions completely different from humans.

It is effeminate-looking, but it is impossible to distinguish his gender from a human point of view, but Roy feels that it's features leaned toward a 'female'.

Perhaps, it is precisely because of Roy's thinking that the angel in front of him appears in this form, no matter what it's true appreance may be. In appearance, it is getting closer to the concept of 'female' because others think so.

'Holy Guardian Angel' Aiwass is her name, a 'Secret Cheif', a mysterious existence summoned by Aleister Crowley using the body of his beloved wife.

Roy didn't know when Aiwass appeared behind him like a spirit. When Roy was conscious, he could see Aiwass following behind him.

Roy once asked why Aiwass appeared next to him, and Aiwass gave the reason:

'You are an interesting person, a person who shouldn't appear, the person that I want to find, I will observe you by your side and find the place I have been searching for but can't find. '

Aiwass words were ambiguous, but Roy didn't ask for more information, because a higher life form like Aiwass is totally mysterious and will never easily tell you the truth and knowledge.

It is more like an observer, observing the existence it is interested in such as— Aleister Crowley and Roy Crowley.

An existence like Aiwass is not a single individual. She can completely transform herself into a 'plural' form, which means that there is an Aiwass by Roy's side and another by Aleister's side. They are both Aiwaas, observing the father and son duo together at the same time.

"Answering your question..."

Aiwass has emotions such as happiness, anger, sorrow, and so on, but Roy always has a strange feeling from the bottom of his heart when facing her, her emotions are not like humane, but more of a sort of angelic emotions.

Her voice was a bit distorted, as if the aural law of the world cannot accommodate the sound, the voice felt like the sound of 'Zizzz' from an old TV with bad signal.

According to Aiwass's explanation, this is because her words are difficult for humans to understand, so it is produces this distortion phenomenon.

"...Lola Zaza Crowley's body is inhabitanted by 'Great Demon' Coronzon. He is the demon symbolizing '333'. Ten years ago, he tried to invade Aleister's body and failed, and somehow ran away. Arrived in London, and from then started to dwelled in her body."

Aiwass voice is still distorted, just like she is trying to translate some secret words that humans cannot understand into ordinary English, and it sounded awkwardly strange.

"The 'Great Demon' Coronzon? Since you are called the 'Holy Guardian Angel', is Coronzon's existance similar to you?"

Roy frowned. It would be very troublesome if the demon lodged in Lola's body was the same existence as Aiwass. He never thought that this demon had such a big background.

It is also really interesting to think about that the two brother and sister, one with an archangel behind him, and the other with a big demon in her body.

"You can understand Coronzon as a fallen angel. He is indeed an existence similar to mine... Existence like us live in the higher aspect XXXXX, and can only appear in the material world in the form of a 'spirit'. "

"As a 'spirit', we cannot exert too much influence on the material world. We must have a physical medium to do so. "

"This is why Coronzon wanted to seize Aleister's body and now wants to sieze Lola's. Without a medium, he is just a 'spirit' who can only observe. "

A part of Aiwass' words was automatically blocked. Roy knew that it was not that Aiwass deliberately skipped it, but when she said the word, he was not able to hear it.

This was because Roy with a human brain, could not understand it, the brain automatically filtered out that word.

"I don't want to know the origin of Coronzon. Aiwass, I just want to ask what can I do to expel that demon's 'spirit' from Lola's body. "

Roy interrupted Aiwass's long talk and asked the most critical question.

"You can't do it. "

Ives answered decisively.

"Then who can do it? "

"Aleister Crowley may be able to. "

"Where is Aleister now? I'm going to find him! "

This time Aiwass did not answer Roy, the 'Holy Guardian Angel', the 'Secret Chief' from a high-level aspect gave Roy a strange smile.

"...Roy, I want to ask you, is Lola Zaza Crowley really your sister?"

"What do you mean?"

Roy was shocked when he heard Aiwass's words and saw her weird smile.

Just as Roy was about to inquire more about her words, Aiwass's figure faded away from Roy's sight.

Roy knew that as long as Aiwass herself didn't want to, he couldn't force her to answer more.

"Huh..."

Roy exhaled deeply, he clenched his fist and went to the floor-to-ceiling mirror inside his room.

He knew that it was all because he was too weak and didn't have enough knowledge and strength, his situation has turned passive.

If he had great power and rich knowledge, he could atleast try to expel the demon dwelling in Lola's body by himself.

If he had great power and rich knowledge, he would find the truth about everything without relying on outsiders.

"Power, knowledge..."

Roy whispered, he never wanted to possess power and knowledge so much.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror, Roy looked at himself in the mirror. Although this body was only fifteen years old, he was already 1.8 meters tall.

He had short silver hair and a neutral face. Without informing, people wouldn't be able to distinguish him between a beautiful man or a beautiful women, a neutral face.

Yes, that is the face that can be described as 'beautifully' handsome either you are a man, or a woman.

Roy knew that his hair and physical features should be inherited from Aleister Crowley. Even though he had never seen the man named 'father', Roy knew that Aleister was an attractive man with long silver hair and a neutral, attractive face.

In any case, compared to Roy's appearance before his reincarnation, he is now many times more attractive.

"If I had a face like this in my past life, I guess I wouldn't be missing a girlfriend at all, right? "

Roy laughed at himself, then looked at his eyes in the mirror.

A pair of dark black eyes, which was the only sign Roy had inherited from the past, because in those dark eyes, there were actually two pupils present, which are the appearance of the legendary double pupil Sage!

Roy before the transversing was also called Roy, but his surname was Roy, instead of the current situation where it is his first name.

When he was a child, he was ridiculed by other children until he grew up and read many history books he became excited on discovering his 'true identity'.

Double pupils means the appearance of a Sage, he once felt complacent that he was the reincarnation of a saint with extraordinary power.

Until one day, Roy went to the ophthalmology hospital. After the ophthalmologist said, "The double pupil is actually the pupil's adhesion and distortion, it may be congenital or result from a disease affecting the iris." He emerged out from his childhood fantasy.

In his later life, he was completely indifferent of being called as the Double pupil Sage. Have you ever seen a Sage take photography as a profession, occasionally relying on his photography skills to earn a living?

Thinking of those interesting memories of the past, Roy couldn't help but let out a light laugh.

But soon he restrained himself and set his attention on his messy silver hair again.

What is the hair color of the mother of this body? I can't remember.... but surely, I inherited Aleister's silver hair.

Was Lola's long blond hair inherited from our mother?

Is Lola really his sister?

Recalling what Aiwass said just now, a faint fear arose in Roy's heart.

If Lola is not his own sister, who is she?

I have lived with her for so many years, she always sweetly calls me "brother" with a cute smile, and if she is not my sister, who is she?

Roy suddenly hit the wall with his fist in full force. The pain that came from the nerve endings in his hand stimulated his brain as the bright red blood slid down the wall from between his fingers.

"No, Lola is my sister, that cute and beautiful sister, whoever she may be, it can't be denied that she is my sister!"

Roy said firmly without any hesitation.