#should i tag this as negativity lmao. i just really didn't like greywaren what can i say

[astudyinfreewill]

"adam would have been fully justified in running ronan over with his car" LMAOOO ok but NOW we've said it!!! like. lbr. the real reason maggie had to get rid of the crying club is that NO self respecting group of queer friends would have watched adam go through that without going "girl the dick can't be that good block his number NOW!!!"

ok wait i'm so. chin in hand kicking my legs twirling my hair reading your idea this is GREAT. "being both a huge bitch and expressing character growth" is the adam parrish BRAND so it hurts that we didn't get any of it. and any of my friends will tell you, i was SO certain that adam being a magician would be a part of the resolution that i fully made it a key point of a 50 slide powerpoint presentation we all orchestrated (ley theory u will always be famous TO ME) because, honestly, why the fuck wouldn't he???

i honestly think whatever hangups and fandom bullshit caused stief to delete the adam povs from the series are a big reason that the final book falls flat - there's just so much plot stuff that would have hit different if the characters had had actual agency on page instead of weird astral projection mind space fighting. i was sure either adam or ronan or both would have to make a sacrifice of some sort so that the emotional and narrative payoff would feel earned, but they just... didn't. ronan just reached Enlightenment via magic and adam was disassembled and reassembled like a lego set and that was like. it.

anyway back to your ideas - i would LOVE a hennessy adam roadtrip. do they like each other, no. will they team up to gang up against ronan, yes. i want interactions that are soooo charged and uncomfortable. the church scene x 1000. the adam blue pizza fight scene ON STEROIDS. but most importantly RONAN APOLOGIZING WITH HIS MOUTH WORDS HELLO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HI

it can happen in a big action climax OR it can happen years down the line i don't care i will drink up the angst like a fucking milkshake babey!!! and i'm lactose intolerant so i KNOW it would hurt but ultimately it would all be worth it!!

"alternate universe pynch where it doesn't work out" no no say more. i was dying for their whole thing to be the most excruciating acrimonious breakup followed by getting back together and so I am very much Feeling This

AHHH i don't know what this was in reference to anymore, bc tumblr decided to eat not one but TWO of your asks (what kind of truly diabolical fuckery tbh???) however rest assured i WILL say more!!!!

listen. LISTEN. i will never forgive mstief for how quick and painless and easy their resolution in greywaren was. i know that one of the premises of these books is "ronan never really needs to be accountable for anything", but damn. my guy joined an ecoterrorist cult and almost destroyed the world (except he didn't, because PSYCH! ronan can never really be the bad guy either! it was really Random Faceless Antagonist #2 all along! booooo boring :/) because his boyfriend was late to text him back. he also proceeded to then ghost said boyfriend by not answering his texts, calls, and shutting him out of the communal dreamspace they usually codependently/homoerotically share. that is a NEXT LEVEL ghosting. and THEN!!! when they finally speak, since adam went behind his back (for good reasons! because ronan was behaving too erratically to be trusted! but he STILL went behind his back!!!) ronan unceremoniously dumped him and threw the whole phone away!!

when i tell you i was SALIVATING for the confrontanion that would inevitably happen. i wanted DRAMA i wanted ACCUSATIONS FLUNG IN FACES i wanted CATHARSIS for heaven's sake!!! and then. and then in just a quick five minute mind-meld in the astral sea, all was forgiven. and it's like, of course we knew everything would be forgiven. there was never gonna be a universe when adam didn't come back to save ronan. he made a big deal of leaving him in front of declan and then came back one (1) day later. BUT IT DIDN'T HAVE TO BE SO EASY AND UNEARNED!!!

what about a universe where adam returns to save ronan, but then things are stilted and awkward between them. what about a universe in which they don't patch it up actually, at least not for a while. what about a universe where adam is so confused about what he wants out of his life - now that he actually has options - that he doesn't know if he can keep doing this. what about a universe where ronan is not actually magically okay with the mind-shattering revelation that he's a different species from a different dimension. what about a universe where ronan refuses to apologize (because he never does, really!) and so adam refuses to just accept him back as it is, because ronan made his choice and it wasn't me and if adam has nothing else, he has his stupid pride at least.

idk man i simply think that would have been DELICIOUS and i mourn it every day. these characters have never been simple for one single page, so why would they get a cookie-cutter resolution?