#she's just so ugly man I don't wanna scare away the neighbors

[nhura]

mmm.......... the urge to do a little bit of housekeeping on this (12+ year old!) blog... versus my dedication to archival integrity...... I am not ashamed of the art I made when I was a kid but that old Vriska piece I keep seeing in my sidebar has GOT to go

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #101

(taken january 12th; uploading surveys taken while gone)

What was the last thing you pinky swore on? I don't remember, but I'm sure it was with Girt. He likes to do it when he knows I'm having a hard time believing something like me not being ugly to him and stuff because he knows I take them very seriously.

About how old was the last person that hit on you? He's 29.

Do you believe in abortion? The fact that it's not an international right is infuriating, and as long as it does exist, you could NEVER convince me sexism doesn't exist. You know goddamn well if a white man could get pregnant, he'd have it right at his disposal in a snap.

What’s your favourite kind of poptart? I like the hot fudge sundae ones.

Pepsi vs. Coke? Coke, for sure. I actually don't like Pepsi. There is absolutely a difference.

What`s a movie / book / TV show / band / whatever you highly recommend? Movie: I remember Coco hit me very deeply emotionally with its deep concentration on family. Book: my VERY confident answer is Johnny Got His Gun by Dalton Trumbo. It's written in a very unorthodox style, but it is INCREDIBLE. TV show: Extraordinary Attorney Woo; it teaches you a lot about acceptance and keeping an open mind. Band: Maybe, uh... I'm not entirely sure here because music I think is massively taste-based and a lot of bands I like have lyrics that not everyone is going to enjoy. I think it's way harder to see a band as "universally good" than the other categories.

Are you anticipating or dreading anything? Yeah, more dental work. I'm very much not looking forward to my wisdom teeth removal... I'm also anticipating therapy, but in a good way. I start next month.

What is something other people say you're good at but you think you're not? Dealing with kids.

Who taught you to tie your shoelaces? I actually understood my dad's method better than Mom's, so I memorized his way first, but because Mom used the more accepted way that was also more secure, she continued to teach and insist upon her way, which is what I do indeed use.

What`s your favourite picture of yourself as a child? I have no idea.

What was the last bug you saw? Most likely a fly? I do know a fly came into our car the other day.

What is the scariest thing you`ve ever gone through? Being so mentally unstable and delusional that I VERY much believe I could've been qualified as insane. That breakup nearly fucking killed me.

Who's your favourite character from The Simpsons? Or do you hate that show? I'm not into that show.

Do you like pudding? I like chocolate pudding.

Which is worse: stale chips or flat soda? Stale chips. I just like soda too much to mind it much when it's flat. It's not preferable, but I can handle it.

Do you like raviolis? I hate them, the texture inside is unbearable to me, and I don't like the taste much anyway.

What wild animal would you love to have as a pet? I would never just snag a wild animal from the wild, to preface, but I VERY much want to rescue and foster an opossum one day.

What’s the most creepy experience you’ve ever had? When I was home alone and going to bed very late at night, Teddy became VERY upset over something he'd clearly seen or heard or just in some other way sensed at the foot of our bed. He kept whipping his head up to stare there and bark, and deeply. I felt so, so incredibly uneasy and even tried to force his head to lay back down, but he fought against me and refused to look away. I eventually forced myself out of bed, which took so much willpower because of how scared I was, and called my mom (and keep in mind this was like, past midnight, everyone would've been asleep but I was THAT freaked out). She ended up calling our neighbor and she stayed the rest of the night at our place. This experience was one of the I wanna say two I've been through that I absolutely feel was paranormal, like my dog was WAY too upset to be staring at something and barking like that with such dedication.

Have you seen the movie 2012? What’s your opinion on it? I did see it and I think I thought it was okay?

Do you want to do something to make a difference in the world? YES, even if it's a subtle contribution. Having SOME stepping stone positive effect on the world is honestly extremely important to me.

What’s your thoughts on poverty? Poverty is one of the most heartbreaking things in the world, especially when fucking billionaires and shit exist and are perfectly capable of helping SO much.

What’s your favourite berry? Strawberries.

If you believe in reincarnation, what animal would you want to become? I personally don't believe in reincarnation, but if it was a thing and I could choose, let's see... I want to say a meerkat, but their lives are so, so risky and dangerous, and besides, ME living life in a hot desert is unimaginable. I think maybe I'd be a lioness; they're beautiful and majestic as hell and very powerful, plus I favor social species.

How many pillows are there on your bed? Four; two each for myself and Girt.

Would you ever have a bird as a pet? Not realistically, no.

Do you know someone who’s been cremated? I don't think I know a person who has been, but three former dogs we've had were cremated.

Do you have memories from preschool? Yes, quite a lot. One thing I remember is I tended to talk too much during naptime, lmao.

Has anybody in real life ever asked you your sexuality? Yeah, doctors and stuff.

Do you like the name Carmen? Yeah.

What band do you never get tired of listening to? It's kinda absurd how much I can listen to Rammstein and not get tired of them lmfao.

What condiments do you put on your burgers? Ketchup and mustard, always. I also don't mind if there's a little bit of mayo.

Is there a band logo you would get tattooed on yourself? I don't think so.

Are you a fan of Hollywood Undead? I do like a good number of their songs.

What’s for dinner tonight? Mom is making burgers.

Any birthdays coming up? Mine and my youngest niece's.

Do you fool people on April Fool’s Day? No.

Did you eat anything for breakfast? Yeah, I had cereal.

Have you ever had food poisoning? No.

Have you ever been smacked by your parents? Mom, yes. Not in the face, but. I don't ever remember Dad spanking my sisters or myself, but I do know Mom threatened his life if he hit Ashley as a child this one time soooo that's probably why.

Have you ever been called a slut, hoe, skank, whore? Only by friends that didn't ACTUALLY mean it.

Have you ever been on a plane before? Yeah, to and back from Ohio and Illinois. MAYBE one more location or so, but I don't think so.

What’s the farthest you’ve ever been from home? Illinois.

What is one of the saddest novels you’ve ever read in your lifetime? Johnny Got His Gun, The Giver, and Old Yeller come to mind quickly. There are definitely loads more that have made me cry, especially those I've had to read in school.

When do you feel the most confident? Never.

What’s the coolest animal you’ve seen in the wild? Probably red foxes. You don't see them much here at all, and I've only seen one alive.

What’s the funniest TV show you’ve ever seen? I fucking love That '70s Show, its humor style just hits for me.

What’s your love language? Words of affirmation and quality time.

Do you still enjoy blowing bubbles? It's not something I'll do on my own time, but I do love blowing bubbles for my niece Emerson since she's too young to really know exactly how you need to do it to get a lot. On I wanna say Christmas she made me blow bubbles until there was no more liquid in the tube to make anymore, and she just had a blast laughing and trying to pop them all. It was absolutely adorable. I think I remember Oakley (their chocolate lab) playing a bit too, or maybe it was the cat.

Have you ever took a picture of your shadow? Maybe as a child, but not that I remember.

Have you ever waxed your legs? No. My hair is just so thick and long that that sounds absolutely fucking excruciating. I mean damn, getting my upper lip waxed when I was a teenager sucked enough.

Have you ever taught a little kid to flick people off? No, that sounds like a fucking awful idea. They're going to think it's cool and not understand how socially unacceptable it is and get in trouble a hell of a lot.

Have you ever itched yourself until your skin was raw? Yes; this was a major problem when I actually shaved my legs. I made literal scars as if I was legitimately slashed on both my shins from this. Had the scars for years, and hell, maybe they're still there, I just can't tell unshaven.

Have you ever had your food stolen by a bird? No.

Have you ever had a parasite before? JKASL;DKFJALK;WJEAL;NWDFOQ NO NO NO NO NO I WOULD RATHER DIE. I've had ticks briefly on me before, but of course they were promptly removed. Never anything internal, thank the fucking lord.

Have you ever put your pets in a kennel for a while? I don't believe we've ever had to do this...

Can you compose sentences in any other language than your own? Simple ones in German.

If you could be a Disney character for a day, who would you be? Ehhhh maybe Kiara. I always liked her character and I mean, being a fucking lion in Africa tho with a rad lion bf.

If someone says god has spoken to them & meant it, do you believe them? Absolutely not, I'd be concerned for them.

Do you find neon bright colors annoying? No, I actually like neon colors. Now of course there are instances where they're not aesthetically suiting and bother your eyes, but.

What was the last contest you were in? Uh... I can't say I'm sure.

Who gives you inspiration? My boyfriend, more than anyone. But there are others, too.

Is there really no such thing of a stupid question? Oh no, stupid questions are very real, but only in the sense of when they're asked with completely ingenuine curiosity, like when the person knows they're being insensitive and deliberately trying to irritate/in any way hurt somebody. But if someone is asking ANYTHING with the genuine pursuit of wanting to understand something, no, "real" stupid questions aren't a thing imo.

How many barbie dolls did you own? I'm quite sure I didn't own any personally as a child; instead, if I was playing with my sister, we'd just use hers.

What feeling do you have the most difficult in expressing? I wanna say maybe envy.

If you had the power to shapeshift, what would you turn into first? Why? TOTALLY a meerkat, just for the sake of being a meerkat, lol.

Does any particular season make you happier than others? Why/why not? AUTUMN! It's just perfect to me, and all the colorful foliage just hardcore sells it for me. I REALLY want to visit a place with less evergreens to get the real, deep experience of all the leaves changing. (:

Did you ever build furniture forts as a child? Yeah, like with blankets. I went through a phase where I liked building them and pretending I was a meerkat hiding in a burrow, lmao.

What was your GPA in high school? I don't remember exactly, other than it was above 4.0.

Have you ever had to put up with a really annoying child? Ha ha oh jeez, I still feel REALLY bad about this, but I nearly went insane one night when my half-sister Misty was here with her kids and husband; her youngest daughter Aria was for some reason really attached to me and would NOT give me personal time alone when I desperately needed it with all the extra people in the house, and I know with absolute certainty you could eventually see how irritated I was because she pointed out I looked mad or something similar. She wouldn't leave me alone until I literally texted my mom from my room basically begging her to lure this child out of my room, lmao. I still feel bad about it, like this is the only time I've met Misty's kids (and one - almost two - is a teenager) and I really hated feeling so overwhelmed and aggravated the ONLY time I've gotten to see them.