#she doesn't really celebrate her birthday idk what to tell u

[illputabexonyou]

Who: Open @lunarcovestarters Where: Doctor's offices in the hospital

Bex might've hated hospitals, but there was really no way to avoid going to one after breaking a bone. She'd been offered vampire blood to help it heal, but after a lifetime of being a vegan (which wasn't easy on the streets, but she couldn't eat dairy, anyway, so she didn't have much of a choice) the thought of consuming blood of any kind repulsed her to the point of nausea. And, sure, she could've probably had someone heal it, too, but the coven was already dealing with everything that had happened, what with Poppy dying and being resurrected (something that was still so fucking insane sounding to Bex, she thought it might be a dream), she didn't want to bother anyone with her own problems.

And so there she was, again, back at the hospital for a check-up.

At least the nurse she saw was nice. She smiled at her the whole time and reassured her that everything was healing okay (even though Bex had refused vampire blood-- cut her some slack, okay?). She even let Bex pick out a lollipop on the way out, bidding her farewell as she headed out.

Then, the nurse added, "Oh, and happy birthday!" It rang in Bex's ears and in the quiet waiting room and she flinched, turning back around sheepishly, hoping no one else had heard. She really hoped no one she knew had heard.

[readingwiththestars]

₊˚⊹♡ IF ONLY I HAD TOLD HER

["whatever our souls are made of hers and mine are the same"]

| ✮ 3.5 stars |

THOUGHTS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [spoilers for ihhbwm + some spoliers for ioihth]

ok so lemme tell you i had the BIGGEST reading slump ever just as i started to read this. so this review may be a little choppy at some points because i've just pointblank forgotten some parts and don't wanna go back and re-read finny's pov just yet.

i was so on the fence about reading this because on one hand i really wanted to read finny's pov and on the other, complete and utter heartbreak.... yeah....... so anyway i read it.

when i tell you that this book had me ugly crying in the middle of the night. like seriously finny's pov?? fucking broke me. are you kidding me? the way he speaks about autumn? ugh when am i gonna find a guy like finny fr? but seriously this book had me on a rollercoaster of emotions just from the heartbreak knowing whats already gonna happen to finny as he describes how happy he is and how he can't believe autumn loves him back, to the smile i had on my face reading about 'the moms' bickering over baby stuff for autumn.

i will say this now i did expect a little more (hence the rating). i wanted idk more closure at the end there. idk rlly know how to describe it better since its 10 o'clock at night and ive had zero sleep for the past four nights in a row. but yeah i wanted something more. (bitch u wanted finny to be alive)

CHARACTERS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

finny -

*sobbing noises* i could go on a damn rant abt this boy. holy shit. he's just perfect. if i see one person ONE PERSON coming after him istg- he was such a caring sweet person like the pencil??? and always going to the sketchy gas station (i nearly called it a servo then lmao) to get the candy autumn likes?? and always making sure people were safe when he drives?? *cough* apparently not you though sylvie *cough* just ahhh laura when i get you. cause like why'd you have to make him get out of the car, hmmm? lets just compromise and you give me an alternate universe where finny misses the puddle or better yet where sylvie kept her damn seatbelt on.

jack -

tbh i wasn't all that excited to read about jack. (also to be fair i was still sobbing from finny's pov so that probably didn't help) like i seriously just thought it'd be some jock trying to process finny's death by hooking up with alexis (who by the way can go jump up her own ass and die) but we got the whole other side of him where he was genuinely affected by finny's death and really was his best friend. but the way he didn't like autumn way just- yeah. also i saw him and sylvie coming from a mile away like seriously it wasn't very subtle.

autumn -

*sobbing noises increase* autumn my baby girl. i just wanted to jump through the pages and give her a hug. seriously i feel robbed that we didn't get to see a happy autumn. angie and her's friend ship was so precious tho. and i love love LOVE that they bonded over being moms/soon-to-be-moms. im also just gonna say the way we didn't see an ounce of jamie or sasha this entire book made me so happy! i also lowkey wanted to see more of when she was an actual mom? like what would she name the baby? i wanted to see domestic autumn a little more. but i still love her so much and it was so lovely to see her heal <3

QUOTES ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [spoilers]

"my love for her is the closest thing i have to religion. but it's okay that she doesn't feel the same. i'm fine. i can handle it" - finny

"my devotion to autumn is engraved on my very being. i am in awe of her. i will sit in the stands and cheer her on in life as her most ardent admirer. i know i'll always love her in the same way i know i'll always need oxygen" - finny

"it's all done. finn's story is over. his whole life. that was it. not even nineteen years, and he'll never, ever do anything else ever again. finn won't go off to college or celebrate his birthday. he won't get another hair cut or get the oiled changed in his car. he won't bite a hangnail on his thumb or buy another CD. finn smith has done everything he will ever do. he won't get to be with autumn." - jack

“this baby isn't what's left over from our love story. this baby is our story's continuation.” - autumn

"if only i'd told her that i loved her years ago, i wouldn't be here now." - finny

all in all laura you can pay for my therapy mkay?

[beckface]

Eileen's mom never seems to be home or awake. If we didn't know about her mommy existing it would look like this 10 year old girl lives in a two story house all by herself, with no supervision or anything. Eileen doesn't seem to have a bedtime and was able to go and adopt a pet by herself, getting all the supplies and things needed on her own. She was in the kitchen alone and feeding Maria toasters and can openers. When we cut to her in Sonny Days, or when the cops go to her house in The Wrong Side of the Law, she's just by herself? In her room? She never has to ask anyone for permission to do things; she just shows up and does whatever tf she pleases. No Claire catching and scolding her, no Bests watching and criticizing her failures. 

It got me thinking: what if Eileen's mom is just that neglectful? What if she doesn't wanna bother with raising a kid for longer that she has to? What if she works a graveyard shift, one of those 10pm to 8am types, and is always sleeping upstairs? (I mean it's confirmed that in the WG universe the second story of a house could be removed like it's Jenga or some shit. Would Eileen's transformations really bother her that much? What if her room is soundproofed and/or darkened?) What if she just gets home, pays for utilities, and leaves Eileen allowance for food and shit and just says peace? What if, akin to a mother telling their kids to lie about their age to get the child's price for a buffet, she gave her the necklace and encouraged her to use her charms to get things for herself once her budget was tapped out? What if Eileen does her own housework, cooks for herself, basically raises herself, and she feels like it's normal because she's never really lived any other way? She can take care of herself physically but never learned how to do it emotionally because absent/neglectful mom is absent and neglectful. She also doesn't have a moral compass because fuck if Eileen's mom had time for that. "She's ten, she can take care of herself." Like... IDK... I've been thinking about this. It would be such an interesting contrast to the villain parents we already have.

I've also thought about this headcanon:

Eileen's family, or at least her mother's family line, believes in redeeming all your birthdays during childhood. The necklace is given at 10 years old to whichever child is in line for it. Once her birthday years are up (probably ending at 13 when she becomes a teenager), she lets go of/passes down the necklace, and, according to her family's tradition, she never gets to celebrate it again.

...but when thinking about all this new stuff, I just... this other one is also growing on me :')

Love it yes!!! U mentioning that Eileen can physically take care of herself got me thinking like, maybe we can frame her transformations are just a physical manifestation of her confusing emotions towards her parents and lack of an outlet for them. What i’m saying is that Eileen is reverse Matilda.

For anyone who hasn’t read or seen Matilda it’s a children’s story about a girl with abusive parents who’s hyper-intelligence never got a proper place for her to hone it, so she gets telekinesis superpowers.

Eileen is the reverse of that- the neglect left her with so much pent up stress that she got hulk powers. She’s so :3 all the time because she buries her feelings deep inside a tiny little bottle that cracks and turns her into birthday girl when even the slightest thing annoys her too much, straw that broke the camels back

Continuing on the Matilda train- she gets adopted by her kind teacher later in the movie. What if Eileen gets adopted by another villain, I kinda wanna say Granny May

We apply the birthday thing imagine when Eileen’s last birthday comes, she’s trying to make the best of the day but she’s really upset. Her classmates all notice and she gets mad that they notice, but try to twist it to get them to do nice stuff for her for her birthday so they don’t actually focus on her sadness and just keep giving her things.

She eventually breaks down at the villain meeting later that day and spills everything to the rest of the villains and now that she’s letting herself be vulnerable, she FINALLY lets someone explain to her how birthdays actually work. And finds out that her mom wasn’t treating her right all this time. Eileen doesn’t know what to do with this information, but Granny May takes charge of the situation and insists that Eileen comes home with her.

Eileen is a brat ofc but who better to provide her stable discipline then Grandma over here? Granny May doesn’t take any of that whining crap, and slowly Eileen’s behavior gets corrected over time and she feels safer being open and honest with her new guardian, who still spoils her ngl. Eileen eventually gets her mom to give up her legal guardianship too.

When the day comes for her actually birthday, it’s a surprise, a genuine surprise party. All Eileen ever wanted back in the day was a party like this, but since she believed every day was her birthday and she wasn’t really that liked it was always her forcing people to plan a party for her or taking over someone else’s. Everyone from her class is there, and Eileen is genuinely shocked, and it’s the best feeling she’s ever had.

[existslikepristin]

hey i passed by ur purplekiss swan nsfw fic and idk if u know this but she turned 18 only a month before you posted that, it really doesn't seem appropriate to write those things about someone who's barely an adult :/

Well, I've got a couple things to say about that. I'm going to kind of figure you're bringing this up as an actual concern and not just trolling, so I'll say this in good faith rather than blocking you. If I'm wrong, hopefully someone else will read this and engage meaningfully. I apologize ahead of time if the first sentence comes off a bit rude, but it's just a statement of fact.

Firstly, she is eighteen and her birthday is July 11, so it's been several months. I found out about PK right in the middle of Zombie promotions (which is an absolute bop), so my experience with her is that she's been eighteen for as long as I've been aware of her existence. Of course, that's not something you'd have known about me and I don't expect you to have, so it's all good.

However, when it comes to stories like this, for as scummy as it can come across if someone is chomping at the bit, waiting for someone to turn eighteen so they can write smut about them: At least they're waiting, unlike companies who want to take advantage of an idol by presenting them sexually way too early (oh hi JYP, when did you get here? Three years early? Sorry if you've been bored. Oh you haven't been? You've been oversexualizing underage idols this whole time? Wow, good for you). Even assuming I was waiting for Swan to turn eighteen just to write this super short fic, that does mean that I was aware of her age and was keeping it in mind. In this case, I'd compare it to someone waiting for a friend to turn twenty-one before taking them to a bar to celebrate their birthday.

Now, if you want to more thoroughly discuss the law itself or its moral implications, my DMs are open. Honestly this stuff is interesting to me, and I'd be happy to talk to you about it.

Anyway, my second point is... About your ask: that's essentially the whole point of the fic.

I'm going to assume you didn't read it, and I'm kind of torn on the matter.

I want to tell you NOT TO read it because there is NSFW content and Swan says some pretty intentionally nasty stuff. Swan is sexualized in the story, even if it's not in an explicitly "having sex" sort of way. And I am making yet another assumption that from your moral perspective, it would be unacceptable. And if you did happen to like it, that may lead you to my other writing, which I'm sure you could find way more offensive content. Though, again, my DMs are open if you want to talk with me. It's a lot easier to have this conversation when I'm not wildly guessing about what your personal moral stance is.

On the other hand, I WANT you to read it for the context. Because it's, as obviously as I can make it, a joke about the exact thing you're asking. If you don’t want the joke explained, skip this last paragraph and just go read the fic itself:

Swan shows up at a certain well-known-and-memed porn studio. It's implied that she's there to get laid/explore her sexuality (possibly because she doesn't know better because she developed a sexual identity through porn, but that's up to reader interpretation). She even uses porn tropes and refers to herself as a "barely-legal teen" in her attempt to get some sexual attention. In the end however, she is unsuccessful (which is the big main joke of the story). Even the title "The Cutest Duckling" is a reference to this conversation. In the old story "The Ugly Duckling," an orphaned swan is seen by the community around it as ugly when it's adopted by a duck, only to grow up and become admired for its beauty. In my story, Swan has reached adulthood, the "swan" stage of the story, and is trying to present herself as beautiful and sexually available, but can't get that recognition. She's still treated as if she's a child.