#she REALLY likes it when i hand-feed her. and for foods she wont eat she'll eat it if i offer it by hand

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with Olive being sick i have heeded her most wonderful dream which is for papa to hand-feed her meals to her always

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i may be just gasping at straws here but there is something just. so insane about how the nature of kendall and shiv’s relationship is somewhat cannibalistic. like shiv spitting in his drink and kendall drinking it anyway and the ‘i love you but i cannot fucking stomach you’ and the idea of kendall being the sacrificial lamb in 2x10 + shiv’s ‘can’t eat’ . like the whole consumption aspect of it all.. just wondering if you had any thoughts on it i suppose!!

YES very true. the kitchen scene is a callback to their childhood in more ways than one--it reflects the siblings' relationship with each other and with food and how they're linked (dyou remember the summer of competitive eating disorders:)). its notable that only shiv and kendall say they're hungry despite none of them having eaten dinner, and that kendall is the only one who ends up eating anything. roman licks the cheese as a joke, passes the ingredients to shiv, who actually blends the discordant foods together, and together they feed kendall this drink that is definitely terrible for him. siblings ! no but i do think its an unsubtle metaphor but it works ! kendalls position as the heir has always relied on roman being the weaker dog bolstering his position, on shiv being the baby who will never get it bc shes a girl. and if he wont drink the rest, they'll drench him with it, turn his own promised position against him in jealousy and self interest and a mistaken notion of love

and shiv spitting in it was very much foreshadowing, yeah. i liked how it was a callback to her spitting in kendalls notebook after the "rape me/i'm not the only one," incident during her speech--it was a childish act then, and its one now, and it shows how any attempts at enmity or solidarity come from the same place of shared abuse, of seeing someone better than you see yourself and punishing them for the traits you share. kendall drinking it again reflects how his position will never be untinged by shivs simultaneous understanding as well as animosity. mirror traps real

the way this all relates to the characters' relationships with food is also ofc very interesting. roman doesnt eat at all, he denies his body and sees it as evidence of his failure to be logan's son. he never wanted ceo, it couldn't have been him, dad's death cements the impossibility of the love he craved by which proximity to the ceo position was made valuable at all. shiv admitted she was starving but never ate anything, only asked her mom if there was food. she brings up food only as a move, only as something that can serve her, because to acknowledge it otherwise would be weakness. ofc this is reflective of her relationship with power, and love--she'll bring it up first so she's noted as being aware of the cards at play without showing her hand. but she never actually gets it because when she's said the quiet part out loud, voiced her ambition, there's nothing stopping the quiet parts of her weaknesses in this world from being consumed i.e. her womanhood :) in the end all she can do is acknowledge the fact of her starvation, and spit into the poisonous food bowl while still hungry.

ofc its kendalls bowl she's spitting into. he sees food as fuel, as something that gets him where he needs to go, but never actually enjoys it, and sees such enjoyment as juvenile--we're not at buckley anymore--but his firm belief in rationality and health corresponding to awareness means its another step to the ideal position that doesn't really exist. at the end of the day he will drink the concoction because he considers himself stronger for it. i did a fucking year in shangai, i'm ready, etc

ultimately this is reflected in their choices in the endings. roman says yes first then retracts with shiv. i think hes the one who says shiv has no stomach for admin which is like, him pinning the decision to support kendall as well as the consideration to kill him onto shiv lol. SHIV doesnt have the stomach for admin, and SHIV cannot stomach kendall, and it comes down to the same thing--shiv shutting kendall out bc she's never been able to digest his choices. this DOES relate to pierce ofc and logan throwing up at the breakfast and ultimately waystar being a declining corporation that could never have eaten up pierce. do you see what im saying do you see how it makes sense from this angle that shiv was the only one who ended up still "in," even if only as the ceo's wife. shiv being unable to stomach kendall is the final nail in the coffin--its acceptance of this fact. of the death of waystar, and by extension logan. anyway i keep thinking about how when they all trooped into the kitchen, wet through, kids again, there was never really any real food in the fridge :)

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Little things my cat does that I love

1. She talks a lot

When we first got her she didnt talk as much but for a while I was the only one home during the week and I talk to myself A LOT. soon she would start talking with me by just merping and screaming and meowing. Amd she never stopped.

2. Apologizing

My cat has chronic sinusitus, basically her sinuses dont drain properly due to her deformed nasal cavity. So she has to take medicine for it and I often have to clean out crusties from her nose so she can breath through it. She lowkey loves it when I do these things but hates being picked up and messaed with. So every time I do either she'll wiggles and scratch me and on especially fiesty evenings bite me. When Im done I put her down and she runs off. But a minute or so later she always comes back and jumps in my lap and is super lovey dovey for a minute as if to sau "sorry I scratched thank you for helping me breath" maybe its just my interpretation.

3. Being gentle not to scratch my legs when jumping on my lap

Im an artist and I spend a lot of time sitting and drawing. Until a few months ago, I was a college student which translate to mpre sitting while reading. Our fave pass time is when Im doing work she'll sot in my lap while I do it. When I wear pants or have a blanket on my lap she has no qualms when jumping right into my lap. But when Im wear a dress or shorts and my legs are exposed, she is very cautious. She'll sit at my feet and gently paw at my shins and knees to let me know she wants on my lap and then I have to pick her up and put in my lap. Its also one of the only time she tolerates being picked up. I normally try to put a blanket on so she always has something the jump up on.

4. Getting distracted when begging for food

I feed my cat the amount reccomended on the bag. Its half a cup for her size. She baby. But she wont eat the whole thing in one setting. So I feed her a fourth cup in the morning, fourth cup in the evening. If she finishes the food really fast she try and beg for more food. How she does it is she come over, jump in my lap, and start sweet talkimg me with cuddles and rubs and kisses. But she always gets way too into the cuddles and forgets her original mission of trying to bribe me.

5. Kisses

My cat is a licker. She licks more then some dogs. Well she love just come up to me and licking my face. She tries go for my lips the most (I think because i smooch her head a lot she knows those the kisers) but I always try and redirectes to my nose. The skin's a little stronger there anyway.

6. Very cuddly

So when we first got her, my cat was not a cuddle bug at all. She was very distant at first and spent most her time wandering around and exploring. She'd occasionaly sit in a lap but not much. But then after her first or second month she got sick. Like ahe just layed in bed sleeping all day (mor then usual for a cat) sick. I was so worried she was gonna die but I also had a lot of school wprk I needed to finish. So I moved her to my lap and kept one hand on her to feel her breath while doing my work. When we got her to the vet she had a fever and ahe had basically a cold or virus. A side effect of if her sinusitus gets to bad it causes a infection and she gets sick. They put her on anibiotics ands for the next week I did the same as before. i kept her in my lap felt her breath as I did my work, so afraid Id lose her. She eventually pulled out bit because of the time I spent just keeping her warm in my lap, she started to open up and became very cuddly. She loves my lap and she loves showing her affection and its just amazing.

7. Sitting on my head when Im sleeping

She really likes to jump up into my bed, get me to roll over on my back where she will then procede to jump on my chest and back up her ass onto my face.