#seriously ya'll......this happens time and again and i'm getting fucking sick of it

[ladysomething]

i think you killed me with lazarus rises. i bawled my eyes out and instantly went to tell my friend (who doesn’t even watch f1) all about it because i had to share the pain with someone (she had to listen to a 10 minutes retelling of the plot made by crying and shaking me, and by the end of it she was crying too, so i think it’s safe to say she liked it too!)

i really liked the structure of the fic, the way you are swept into the action right away with little to no explanation, and there’s just this panic, frantic energy and charles already in the past, and only then details about time-travel, max’s death and their relationship get revealed slowly. it was perfect and it made everything so much more intense, i got sucked into the story and couldn’t even pause because i just felt the need to read it all in one sitting. and i did read it all in one sitting. and then i was left feeling like it was me who lost her husband. and i don’t even have one.

okay, let’s go in order. first, i got absolutely heartbroken by the young max. he’s so… SO… needs to be protected at all costs, you know? i adore every fic where max has been in love with charles for years, it always hurts so deliciously. and in this one… oh. i was really really close to tears the whole time charles and young max were talking. max seeing the actual living and breathing evidence of being loved, hearing the reassurances from charles. honestly, even just thinking about it now makes me feel so much.

Charles recognises that stupid apron. His team gave it to him on the morning of the final race last year, to bolster his spirits before it started. They’d filmed him opening it, and he laughed himself sick and told the camera he couldn’t wait to see Max’s face.

They’d never posted the video, of course.

this was ruthless btw! as ruthless as kicking a half dead body (me. my body. i was half dead at this point.) no but seriously it hurt so much but i was holding up! i wasn’t crying! and THEN. The Realisation hit me at the same time it hit charles, and from this moment i started to cry and i cried till the very end (and then some). it was devastating to realise original max was gone and even more devastating to realise no one here will remember him nor original charles. everything they went through, everything they shared, every memory — gone. never even existed.

“My Max got buried in Hasselt.” There’s no grave for him to visit, Charles realises. No place for him to mourn.

He feels like he’s forgetting something important, but he can’t quite tell what it is.

everything in this fic was heartbreaking but this absolutely destroyed me. and i naively thought that it can’t get worse. and guess what? it got worse immediately.

their fucking conversation. every time i started to calm down while reading it i would suddenly remember that technically it never happened, that these charles and max, and this version of love they have for each other, never existed, and i would break down all over again. incredible experience 10/10 would totally recommend

fun fact i promised myself i won’t read the latest wygig chapter until i write the comment about lazarus rises and i couldn’t find the words for it for more than a week. still think that all this rambling wasn’t enough because i need you to know how much i loved it. yes, i suffered and i cried, but it was beautiful and amazing and i loved every moment! i’m really glad you decided to finish and post it, it’s going to be one of those fics that stay in mind for years for me. so thank you!! 💗💗

and now i can finally read the new chapter! will report back once i finish reading 🫡

wait bc the amount of times people have told me they don't know anything about f1/lestappen but Lazarus rises (or even wygig) are their first fic for the fandom .... idk how ya'll do it fr.

anyway. I'm glad you liked the structure! it's funny bc I used to play with structure so much more, and then I kind of found my rhythm in my current style and stopped experimenting. but I love doing new things, and with wygig I don't often get the chance to do it. so branching out with style is always so fun!

I HAVE SUCH A SOFT SPOT FOR YOUNG MAX!! he was so adorable but also just so sad?? like baby max crying about Charles unfollowing him?? baby max feeling like nobody likes him?? baby max being home bc he doesn't have any friends??? my darling booyyyyyy

the apron thing was diabolical on my behalf tbh. so was the grave part. ALSO the bit where new Charles asked new Max whether old Charles was happy to see him ... I was legit sobbing. fr there's a pic in my photo album of me with tears streaking down my face wondering why the fuck I decided to do this to myself lmao.

anyway!! I'm so glad you enjoyed it!!! it was a beautiful story to write, so I'm so happy that that experience translated into the reading as well.

[kidnap-the-series]

EP 4 - Trademark Owner (Part 2)

Liar!!

Awww, he’s sad that his crush finds his brother cooler than him.

They are so cute.🥺Best buddies fr.

Fuck! We are in trouble. 😬

I get where Min is coming from tho. He came back to an empty house. He’s got a sick brother and a hostage/kidnap situation going on. He was probably thinking about all the worst possible scenarios. I get why he’d be worried sick.

But then again Mhen’s perspective is very very valid too. He is afterall a teenager who just wants to live a normal life. He’s been deprived of so many things that are normal for people of his age like going to school, going out with friends and all of that because of his heart condition and pacemaker. For once, he had someone (Q) that understands how he feels and was able to support what he actually wanted to do.

I like that we are actually going into what Mhen’s feels and thinks instead of just brushing through it and using it for the leads to have a moment. He feels restricted and almost locked up. He understands why Min is overprotective but he is a human too.

Jeen probably feels so guilty rn for letting this happen especially when Min has shown time and time again how much he trusts Mhen with her.

Oh! He looks pissed. 😬

There really is no right or wrong in this situation. It is a matter of perspectives. Honestly I love that. There are so many situations in real life where you just can't pinpoint one side to be wrong and the other to be right. It doesn't always work that way.

It's unfortunate that the day Mhen was geniunely happy had to turn out this way but there’s no one to blame here.

Again, this is not a pick sides situation. The worry and thoughts that must be going through Min’s head rn.... I can’t even imagine. He must be feeling scared but also guilty for almost losing his brother. He probably feels like he didn't do enough to keep his brother safe. 

Now Q feels guilty for causing all of this situation.

True. Nothing would have happened if only it wouldn't have rained. The motorcycle didn't cause any problems. So technically it wasn't Q’s fault. It was just that the circumstances turned out that way.

Cuteee. 😭

We’ll see about that. 😏

They really said enough of the drama bring back the unseriousness. The door just beside him is hilarious honestly. 

Seriously tho, Min’s only lingering here coz he doesn’t know how to address things with Q.

He’s knocking on his own bedroom door. 😂

Now you’ve got 2 sick people in the house to take care of.

Min, the ultimate caretaker.

Fuck I love this so much. Love love love the fact that both of them apologised. Like I’ve already said there is no definitive right or wrong in this situation but they still argued and said some harsh words to each other. Communication is the fucking key ya'll. 

These two are like a married couple who have different opinions on what's best for their child and are arguing over it. Q clearly is the chill parent lol. But ig, Q understood what Mhen was feeling which Min wasn't able to because he is so caught up in keeping him safe and healthy that he's hasn't been able to notice that Mhen is not happy.

The amount of people I've seen complain about the towel bath. But meh I neither hate nor love it. I'm ok with tropes as along they don't feel so forced to the point where it looks like they just put it for the sake of putting it.

Ooo he a 100% felt something. 🤭

He really gave him his most treasured sweatshirt. I mean Q's position has upgraded from kidnapee to potential boyfriend so that's that.

Why are you so damn sweetttt

A cuddle will help reduce the fever too?? 🤨

So good that they are behaving like actual adults and actually having a conversation. Conversations like this are not always easy but they pushed through it and are making efforts to clear things up.

Again they are BOTH apologising. I love it 🤗. Idk why I thought Min would be the only one to apologise but I love that it's both of them.

See I think Min has a lot of thoughts like this. He thinks he is not enough for his brother. Like he's sees himself less than worthy for his brother despite trying his best.