#see if they'll help me recognize it ig

[galaxybean]

thinking about aromanticism

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 1

chapter 1:

1. holy shit i guess we’re starting off with regulus already knowing that sirius chooses james over him.

2. i love that there’s the comment of sirius cackling like a madman on camera at being the victor. great callback to his wanted poster in canon

3. damn not effie having been a victor as well

4. oh shit oh damn. james has plans to make sure reg gets out. and james expects to not make it. this already hurts

5. “Most people don't know when they'll get to hug their parents for the last time. James does.” AHHHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK THAT HURTS

6. god, sirius having to choose which one he wants to help survive hurts. especially cause he knows it comes down to wanting to survive, not skill.

7. "The games started the moment your name was called, and they don't end until you're dead” AHHHHHH everything hurts already

8. goddd the tension between james, reg, and sirius is just SO MUCH. this is so good

9. god the fact that this time it’s sirius having to say goodbye to regulus and james instead of reg and james having to say goodbye to sirius. just fucking stab me ig

chapter 2:

1. OMG i just got it. the capital is called the hallows in this!! like the deathly hallows! clever author

2. and this reg vs james hatred is gonna turn into a relationship??? i can’t wait to see it

3. OMG IS THE HALLOW GONNA BE A CASTLE LIKE HOGWARTS????

4. OOOOOH I JUST GOT TO THE “i won’t hesitate” LINE!! I SAW ALL YALL TALKING ABOUT THIS. i can’t fucking wait

5. i recognize the name fabian from a different fic 🤔 if someone can tell me, that would be great

6. wait i’m a dumbass. it’s fabian and gideon. the prewett twins 😭😭😭

7. ☹️ he’s taking james glasses and making him wear contacts

8. not james threatening to kill fabian if he cuts his hair 😭😭

9. oh i see how the romance is gonna come in. james laid eyes on reg in his suit and fell head over heels

10. red and green suits like slytherin and gryffindor

11. the immediate reaction reg has to james not having glasses. chefs kiss

12. oh the immediate disgust i felt when realizing that riddle (voldemort) is head of the hallows

13. oh god the death eater masks. i can’t deal with this shit

14. REMUS LUPIN ALERT REMUS LUPIN ALERT OH MY GOD I LITERALLY AM LOSING MY SHIT

15. “When Sirius pours his wine, he pours a lot.” LMAO

[kawaiibunnora]

A Parents Has One Job

It is not to mold your child into the smartest/most athletic/most talented child.

It is not to make sure they end up in a stable, well paying career.

It is not to project your wants on to them.

No, the sole job of a parent is to help your child grow into the person they want to be. Not who you want them to be; not what you think they want to be; not what they used to want to be; but what they want to be right now.

I'm gonna go on a rant to help explain. If you don't care then u can stop here ig idk I don't control u.

When I was younger I was a gifted kid. I was seen as a math savant, and it helped that I loved doing it. I spent my free time making power points about multiplying binomials and the parts of the brain in 5th grade. Because of all this, my parents built an identity for me in their heads: MATH. Now, don't get me wrong, I still love math and learning, but I'm much less passionate about it now; and yet, my Dad continues to push me towards MIT and being an engineer. In his mind, I'm still the little math-loving kid; and while that is still a part of me, I've changed and grown into so much more since then.

I know it comes from a source of love, but this is an example of two parenting mistakes. 1) Pushing your child into a path that they are no longer (or never were) interested in, and 2) Refusing to recognize that your child changes as they grow up.

I now want to pursue many different paths and see where life takes me, be it music, business, math, teaching, design, etc. And, luckily, both my parents are supportive of choice to explore who I want to be (even if my Dad is more vocal about his concerns than necessary).

The point is: I've changed over the years and have my own desires and goals. Let me follow those rather than forcing me to follow yours.

Also, as a parent, you need to let your kid go though phases.

I never went through an emo phase or a punk phase or anything like that, but that doesn't mean I don't have A LOT to talk about.

CHILDREN GO THROUGH PHASES. THAT'S LIFE. Let your kids explore who they want to be, who they want to be around, how they dress, etc. As long as they aren't getting hurt or hurting anyone else what is the issue?? "They'll be seen as weird or cringy" Ok. Let them. I know it's hard to let go of that concern for them, but if your child feels happiest being "cringe", fuckin let them. "They'll start hanging around the wrong crowd" 2 things with this one. 1) Let go of your prejudice. Especially if the "wrong crowd" is a group where the defining factor is harmless (ex: punk music). 2) Educate them about the things that ARE harmful. Drugs, Alcohol, Vaping, Smoking, Sex. EDUCATE THEM. Because if you don't, the world will.

And im not talking about being like "Drugs are bad and sex is bad the end" no I mean tell them WHY. "Drugs can be addictive and can lead to extremely serious health risks. Unsafe sex can lead to the transmission of STDs, infections, and unwanted pregnancies; even oral sex can transmit diseases like Herpes. With this being said, if you still choose to do anything sexual with someone else, always use protection and clean the areas before and after to reduce the chance of disease."

This will be an EXTREMELY uncomfortable talk, but it's also EXTREMELY important.

Anyways, where was I?

OH YEA let your kid go through phases, and them hang out with people they feel happy and comfortable with. Oh and don't just allow it, but support it. Allowing it is great and is already better than a lot of parents but supporting it is even better, even if you dont understand it. Why? Because your child is growing and trying new things to see what fits and what doesnt. Especially in the beginning of a phase, your child may not have a lot of support from other people, so immediate support from you is so so so important in keeping your child from falling into a very bad mental space. It also shows them that you support them and love them no matter how they express themselves, which will make them feel more comfortable being themselves around you.

idk where else to put it, so I'll put it here. A lot of transphobic parents (like my dad) justify their transphobia by saying "it's just a phase", so they don't support it. And while, no, it is not a phase for most people, including kids, so what if it is? How is it any different from going through an emo phase?

Once, my dad saw I had a skirt in the washing machine, and he said "You're no out of that phase yet?" with very obvious shame and disappointment in his voice. That made me feel like shit, and reminded me of how he doesn't (and never will) accept me. But it also made me think "Even if it was a phase, why would you not support your own child who is struggling to find their place in the world?"

Who cares if they change their mind later on. Guess what? now they know for sure that that life wasn't for them. Allowing kids to go through phases broadens their horizons, increases their empathy, and helps them find out who THEY are.

Anyways I think I kinda lost the thread a few times in there. oh well. i doubt any parents are reading this anyways, but if you are, love and support your kid. They probably need it more than you know.

[waynedunlaptheorgandonor]

can i say a sort of pointless rambly thing i was thinking about that i can't put under the cut bc i'm on mobile?

jk, i'm not actually asking. ramble below, not edited for clarity. the following is completely unclear and i will not fix it:

i've been thinking about how part of the reason i'm so chill about caryl is bc growing up as a queer woc 99% of my main ships were like, never gonna fucking happen bc they literally couldn't. it was like, "omg, they gazed at each other from across the room, let's analyze the homosexual subtext of this one scene for the next fifty years, that's not necessarily hyperbole." i've watched all my ships fuck other ppl/have other love interests, and i knew that my thing was never gonna be canon, so to see like, one thing being like, "one half of my ship fucked another person several years ago while pining for the other half of my ship," i'm like...#nice, bc that can and likely will be used as a plot point to get them together later on, whereas in other situations i've been in i just kinda had to deal with it. so my impulse when i see ppl losing their shit is to be like

and to be slightly annoyed, tbh, bc the ship is still on track to be canon, and it's like, literally two white heterosexuals, they're prime candidates for juicy angsty pining that actually gets a resolution.

but!

that being said, i recognize that that attitude isn't necessarily fair. for one thing, i'm not the only queer woc (or some variation thereof) in this fandom, and some ppl's impulse might be exasperation instead, bc like, "wtf, even my mayohet ship has dumb fucking drama," and that's valid as hell, and i get it.

and also, i get that, even if you didn't grow up shipping impossible ships (or mulder/scully, bc that's a brand of bullshit all its own), this has been a suuuuper drawn out process where sometimes it feels like they're legit sprinkling crumbs to keep you hooked, just to play you again, and when you are invested in something, like /rly/ invested, especially if it's a form of escapism or hyperfixation or whatever, that can be e x h a u s t i n g. and i get that. i truly do, and while i make a lot of snide comments about the fandom being bonkers, i do get where the bulk of you are coming from (unless you're one of those ppl who hate on actors and esp actresses for just doing their jobs, and attack them on social media, in which case i am very much judging you and you need to get your life together).

i also realize that in the scheme of things i'm still a newbie. i've been here, what, twoish/threeish years, whereas some of you have been here since the beginning, so i'm not as worn out as y'all. but i also think that gives me a bit of objectivity that some of y'all have (understandably) lost.

my positivity is not meant as a sleight against those of you who are feeling negative, but is more of a semi-objective viewpoint (i say semi, bc lbr, i'm invested af in this, so i definitely have bias), and to me the threads of the storyline they're crafting seem sort of obvious.

like, let's look at it, yeah? they have one season left of this show that has been on for over a decade. they need to cater to everyone to give them a satisfying ending, while still hanging on to carylers bc of the spin-off. darylrreah seems like a very calculated move, bc it gives them both something to make abcers happy, while also creating tension and suspense and pining for carylers (i think they might underestimate just how fed up some carylers are tbh, and are banking on us to hang on for one last ride, which, honestly? if they play it right will probably work.)

if they end up doing a dumb love triangle thing, which, without seeing the episode and gauging the subtext i can't confidently say if i think they will or won't, it will ultimately end in our favor. it has to, bc leah isn't going to third wheel them on the bike in the spin-off. we can say with good authority that whatever that relationship ends up being (again, idk if they'll drag it out or not) it will be temporary. which leaves caryl open to ride off into the sunset and then bone down in every state in the united states and in puerto rico for good measure.

it's a lot of cheap drama, but i really and truly do not think it's anything to worry about, and i still really and truly trust kang to not make it out of character. ik ppl still don't agree with me on that point, and i'm not gonna argue, but to me it really does make perfect sense.

and i also predict that they are gonna play it up hardcore in the promotional shit and talking dead, but when that happens, remember it's bc it gets attention. regardless of where the story is ultimately going, relationship drama gets attention, which gets viewers, which gets amc and twd producers nice and comfy with full pockets

idk. to sum up ig i just wanted to clarify that i don't mean any harm with my relentless positivity. my history in fandom has just made this seem like nothing in comparison, bc while ppl are freaking out, i'm like, "oh damn, they're actually gonna get together by the end of this, aren't they? i didn't know that could happen!" and that makes me excited instead of upset

and you definitely don't have to listen to me. maybe i'm actually wrong. maybe i'm completely full of bullshit and am just good at making things sound confident. i got a lot of As on papers in college over books i never read, i know how to bs. but i also know how to analyze, and i while i will be the first to tell you i am not the best at a great many things, i do know that i am good at critically analyzing text while taking into account the context it was written in, and imho all signs point to canon caryl. when, i'm not entirely sure, but i see it happening. if it doesn't then they severely fucked up their storytelling, and that'd just be bad writing on their part.

(if you want proof that i'm good at reading writers'/producers' intentions, consider that i watched like, 8 seasons of supernatural before giving up, and said to myself, "i think they're gonna make destiel canon, but not until the very last second bc they are rly into catering to their fans but also have to consider their dumb fanboy audience so they can't do anything crazy overtly gay," and guess who hit the nail on the fucking head on that one)

none of this is important, but it was rattling around my mind grapes and i wanted to write it down into something vaguely coherent, and where else better to do it than here. i can word vomit and then send it into the ether and pretend i never said a thing. i love this horrible website, nothing can compare

i have no real conclusion to this, it was mostly stream of consciousness, but i hope it sort of helps y'all understand where i'm coming from, and why i am as chill as i am about things. not about y'all. y'all cause me so much anxiety i get physically sick and have to legit block tags, but with the actual show content i'm zen as hell

uh

the end ig?

it feels weird even signing off on this, but w/e

-diz