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[havenesa-sera-fina]

Hidden Marks (Part 2)

Description: I wasn’t stupid.I wasn’t blind.I wasn’t ignorant.

I knew for a fact that those seven handsome people were my soulmates, and that was the very reason why I stayed away.

(Poly BTS/OT7 x Reader/OC)

College Au / Soulmate Au

Disclaimer: Bts isn't my or any real life people (obviously.) Any other characters are my though. This is my story so do not republish this anywhere or I will report.

There maybe some triggers, but I will address them within the chapters.

Sources: Wattpad

Word count: 2452

"Cutie Sera!" A voice yelled, cutting through the noise of the crowd, causing some to stare and give annoyed glances. Most importantly, causing me too nearly choke of my coffee as I looked up, to find an ever so excited Lilia.

She skipped over to me, and I looked behind the two figures following close behind her. There were always two behind her.

Jimin and the ray of sunshine that is Hoseok, with his strong jawbone, high cheekbones and his perfect cupid nose. Honestly it just wasn't fair to normal people with how handsome he looked, and to add it all up, his never wavering cheerfulness and that smile of his. It can make any girl swoon and be at his feet.

"Are you really not free next week?" Lilia whined the moment she reached me, taking one of the three empty sweets at my table, Hoseok and Jimin taking the other two, "I was gonna invite you to go to a parade with us."

"Sorry," I mumbled out, feeling very aware of Hoseoks proximity as he sat next to me. The marks on my left arm acting up, and causing me to wince slightly in pain, "Hyunnie asked me after class to go out with him next week."

Sighing in defeat, Lilia sunk into her chair, as she absentmindedly reached for Jimins hand, and they interlocked fingers. It caused a tightness in my chest, as I bit down on my lips to stop the whimper of pain, as the marks felt like acid on my skin. I forced my eyes to tear away from their hands, and to look at my notebook that was infront of me.

"I swear, you and Baek are practically soulmates. Why don't you guys just get together and date already?"

I knew Lilia didn't mean to sound mean or judgmental. I knew she only had the best of intentions with her words, and just wanted me to be happy. She always just wanted me to be happy.

But with the massive headache I've been feeling all day, the immense pain on my left arm, and the tightness of my chest, I couldn't help but get irritated, "Wouldn't it be so simple if I could just choose my soulmate?" Like Lilia didn't mean to offend me, I didn't mean to be so harsh with my tone.

It took her by surprise, as she stared at me with wide eyes, and I felt Jimin and Hoseoks cautious eyes. There gaze was a warning, and it only caused to worsen my mood as I began to gather my stuff, "I'm sorry, let's hang out another time. Okay?" I forced another smile on my lips, and I already knew I couldn't really fake it this time, because after a few seconds I let it slip off.

I was so tired of smiling.

Lilia only nodded, as she stood up with me as well, "Is everything okay Sera? You know you can always talk to me, right?"

"Everything's fine, I'm just stressed with all my classes and trying to figure out where I'm going to medical school next year."

"Wait! You're not gonna go to medical school here?" Lilia suddenly asked. I realized what I said and cursed at myself mentally. She wasn't suppose to find out that I planned on leaving, "Say psyche right now!"

"We'll talk more later okay?" I mumbled, and before Lilia could ask any more questions or try to stop me, I already turned around and quickly walked away. My eyes were burning as my chest pounded painfully on my chest, as I heard Hoseoks sweet and gentle voice directed towards Lilia, to soothe her.

It only made the pain even worst.

*****

"I'm sure Sera was planning to tell us eventually," Kimie tried to reason out with Lilia, as she paced around in the cafe, a mix of anxiety and frustration running through her.

"Are we not her friends?" Lilia snapped back angrily, running a hand through her black hair as she continued back with her pacing, "She never tells us anything anymore or even wants to hang out with us! It's always Baekhyun she's with now, does she even consider us as friends?"

"Sera's known Baekhyun since middle school Lils. Plus you know she never liked talking about soulmates and stuff."

"Atleast her soulmate has a chance if being alive! My died years ago!" It just came out of her, without thinking as her emotions got the best of her. Hazel eyes apologetically met with similar gray ones, a silent apology passing between their gazes.

Kimie finally stood up, before not so gently, forcing Lilia to sit down in her original spot, and pushed a glass of iced water into her hands. Then she glanced to the three boys who sat at the opposite end of the table, Hoseok, Taehyung and Yoongi sat there.

Yoongi was smaller in stature compared to Taehyung and Hoseok, but it didn't make him any lesser. He had an over all softer features, with beautiful piercing gray eyes, soft white hair, and pouty lips. While he maybe shorter then the other two, he was still intimidating with his blank and bored look, but if you can get past that, you'll be faced with a gummy smile Yoongi.

"You need to calm down Lilia. Whatever choice Sera decided to make, we have to cheer her on," Kimie tried to sweeten her voice, but it just wasn't like her to be soft and gentle, and it came out more rough then intended.

Lilia took a sip of the water, before placing the glass down on the table, as she slumped against her chair, "It's just that...Sera's changed so much since high school, and we use to be so close. I just miss the old Sera, and I feel like I don't even know her anymore.

"She hasn't changed if you asked me," Kimie sighed, plopping down on the chair next to Lilia, "She's the same since high school, she just doesn't have a lot of time to hangout anymore, and stopped obsessing about her soulmate."

"And I think that's the problem."

*****

I was exhausted, all I wanted to do was go home and sleep, to just allow my sore body to rest, but I couldn't.

Leaning my head against the window of the bus, I shut my eyes momentarily, listening to the soothing beats that came from my earbuds. Trying to calm down my nerves, and distress a little, as today has been nothing but stressful, having to finishing my chem homework, studying for the test at the end of the week, and my mind wandering back to when I snapped at Lilia.

I never meant to do it, but everything has just become too much, and the sight of her holding hands with Jimin...it was just too much.

These past years have just been too much, and it's only getting harder. That was why I needed an escape, and next year was an important opportunity to do so. While I may be leaving so much behind, at least I'll be leaving behind the pain of it all.

The pain of watching my best friend be in love and in such a loving and pure relationship, with my soulmates.

When I felt the bus come to a stop, I forced my eyes opened, and got off along with a few passengers. As soon as I stepped out, I was met with the bustling city air.

My feet walked on instinct, I've been here so many times, that few of the vendors I passed by greeted me. Occasionally on my way back I would stop by and get some food, and would have a chat with some of the elders running the stalls. I always enjoyed listening to their stories and whatever wisdom they had to offer me,

It only took a few minutes to reach the large hospital, as it wasn't too busy with it only being Monday, and people weren't too crazy on Mondays. As I reached the reception desk, the same lady who always sat there, busy typing away at her computer, and when we made eye contact, she smiled widely at me.

"Miss. Han," the reception lady greeted, "you can head up, and I can get you checked in alright?"

I nodded and gave her a small thank you.

I've been here so many times that even the workers came familiarized with me. When the people at the hospital recognized you, and you don't even work there, that isn't really a good thing. That's why behind the ladies smile, was sympathy, because she already knew why I was here. I absolutely hated it.

Usually I avoid taking the elevator, it was only on the third floor. I usually sit down all day, and taking the stairs would usually be some way to be more active in my sedentary life, but I felt so weak. If I were to take the stairs, then I would most likely just fall down, and end up in a hospital bed for another reason then I intended.

So I took the elevator up, and luckily no one was on it, and it did not make a stop on the second floor, and I calmly walked off and headed towards the usual spot.

Soul Therapy

A small sign hung below the section I walked into, and sat on one of the chairs. Like usual on a non busy night like Monday, no one was here. It was only me, and luckily no one from college has ever seen me seated in this area. However, just for extra precaution, I put my hoodie up, and turned towards the wall while crossing my legs. I had put away my earbuds the moment I stepped in, so I can listen for my name.

I stared blankly at the beige white wall.

They told me that beige white was better then pure white, as it's more calming and less intense.

It never mattered to me.

Who knows how long before the sound of my name snapped me out of my dozing, as I quickly stood up, and looked at the smiling nurse in front of me, "Miss. Han, how are you feeling today?" She asked me as she lead me through the doors, and into a room I was all too familiar with.

"Like crap," I spoke bluntly. There was no use to beating around the bush, I just needed them to get me better so I can go home, and sleep. I've already told Kimie that I was going to come home late.

The nurse chuckled at my response, as she sat me down in one of those chairs you would find in the dentist, and instantly began to take my vitals, "A rough day Miss. Han?" It was all routine, she took my temperature, pulse ox, blood pressure and heart beat.

"It's always the same, but my left arm has been hurting all day, and my I have this massive head ache that won't go away."

Nodding, the nurse finished with my vitals, before asking me to remove my jacket, and that she was going to unwrap my arm. I did't verbally reply, but only obliged, and when she went and began to remove the bandages, I looked away. Something in me didn't want to see the marks that I have always had since I was born. To see the black patterns I have always fantasized during my younger years. Maybe I just didn't want to be reminded of something I could never have.

"The marks seem to be more grayish then black," the nurse noted out loud, as she prodded at my hands, "On a scale of 1 to 10, how badly is the pain right now."

"A seven," if it was any other nurse they would have thought I was over exaggerating, but everyone knew that I just hid the pain well. I have learned to hide the pain well.

"I'll call the doctor so you can start your treatment as soon as possible, okay?"

She left, but eventually she returned a few minutes later, followed by my usual doctor.

"Miss. Han," The doctor greeted me, an air of confidence around her, something I no longer had. Confidence.

I only nodded tiredly back, as she looked at my charts and soon to my arm, "You already know the cause of this, you are mentally aware of who your soulmates are, and yet you are not with them, and they are with someone who are not their soulmate."

How could I reply to that?

So I didn't and just stayed quite, causing the doctor to sigh.

She then ordered the nurse to prepare the treatment, as she grabbed one of those stool chairs with wheels on them, and sat in front of me. Her stern gaze made me squirm slightly in my chair, and I already knew what she was gonna say, "We're gonna use an I.V today for your treatment, and to help with your physical health we're gonna place an oxygen mask on you, your pulse ox is low. I'm gonna keep you here for tonight okay, so we're gonna move you to a room, your stats were all extremely low today, and I want to monitor you throughout the night."

I nodded blankly, any chance of me coming home was gone and I needed to find an excuse to tell Kimie.

"This treatment is only temporarily to fix your soulmate bond, and ultimately your soul. The only true cure for this is to be with your soulmates."

"You know that I can't doc."

"You can't or you won't?"

"I won't ever break the promise I made."