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â rules: go here and make a poll with your top 10 most listened-to artists (long term!) and let your followers choose which one they like the most.
tagged by @mt07131 thank you :3c
ok so 3 of these are composers i am unsure if they should COUNT.... if i removed the composers Interpol, TWICE and Daoko would be on the poll...... but alas i am not removing them i will always be a slave to sdv ost and lotr/hobbit ost being my top two. if anyone remembers my last years spotify wrapped it was the exact same and it is this year too. save me.
THE FUNNIEST PART IS HOWARD SHORE IS HERE BUT I SKIP MOST OF THE TRACKS CUZ I HAVE ALL THE INTENSE BATTLE TRACKS AND SHIT IN THERE TOO AND I DONT WANNA LISTEN TO THEM MOST OF THE TIME.................... i think it still counts tho cuz sometimes i just forget to press skip and i suffer through the 5 or so minutes like ough this is intense....... anyway..........
i think ghost might win. or borislav. so many of you are bg3 blogs still. if its not them its probably concernedape we love cute farming game music on tumblr dot com
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Harpy Alexios
You waited outside for Alexios and Kassandra. He wanted to introduce her to you today. He talked about her all the time, and besides, she was the only family he had left. You only knew Kassandra from photos and his stories.
You wondered if she would be similar in personality to Alexios or completely different. You haven't made a picture of her yet.
You were so lost in thought when something grabbed your hands from the air and lifted you into the air. You went out in shock and tried to get back to the ground.
However, when you were so high that you could see the roofs of the houses, you stopped trying to reach them and instead grabbed whatever carried you.
You wondered to him what was bothering you in the first place. To your surprise, it was a woman with a brown braid, eagle wings and talons holding you.
âKassandra?â you asked surprisingly since it was an exact copy of the photo Alexios was showing you. She just smiled at you before rocking you and letting you go.
You free-fall to the ground. You screamed for your life. Just above the first roof, however, Kassandra caught you and carried you up again.
"Put me down!" you screamed as she let go of you again. You only saw her laugh before she let go of you again.
You had no idea how long she had been playing with you like this because, after the third time she let you go, you started to feel so sick that you didn't know how long you could last.
"Kassandra!" you heard a familiar voice that gave you hope.
Kassandra let go of you again and you saw Alexios flying towards you. Truth be told, it didn't even seem weird at that point. You were just glad to see him and hoped he would save you.
When Alexios was close to you, Kassandra grabbed you and flew right in front of his nose. He was chasing his sister and calling her something in Greek. You only understood a malĂĄka.
This had been happening for a while and you had the impression that Kassandra was playing catch with her brother. Whenever he was close to you, she suddenly changed direction.
"Kassandra, put her down!" he yelled at her and it looked like he was finally going to catch up with you.
âAs you wish,â she shrugged before letting you go. You had no idea how long you had been freefalling to the ground. But this time, Kassandra didn't fly to you. Surely you were headed for the ground and there was a risk of impact.
You still saw Kassandra hovering in one place when someone saved you from falling. He caught you at a fast speed that almost took your breath away.
It wasn't until you recovered that it was Alexios. You breathed a sigh of relief and hugged him. You felt him lightly caress your back with one hand. Once he reduced his speed enough, he landed on the ground with you.
âYou're safe now,â he said, lowering you carefully to the ground. It was such a strange feeling after so many falls that your legs immediately gave way. That's why he preferred to hold you.
âI hate your sister,â you mumbled as you absorbed a bit of the shock. Alexios chuckled at that. Right now, he'd rather kill her himself.
âI'm glad you saved me,â you thanked him as his sister landed next to you.
"She's not bad for a human. She's fun to be with,â she said and moved closer to you. Or at least she thought so, as Alexios covered you with his wing.
âWe'd better go home,â Alexios finally said and before you could protest, he took you into his arms.
âThank you,â you said, kissing his cheek. Alexios stopped and looked at you before a faint smile appeared on his face and he kissed your forehead.
âAnytime,â he replied before kissing your lips once more.
Assassin's Creed Masterlist
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10 characters/10 fandoms/10 tags
Tagged by @missmacfire, thank you!
Okay, let's go!
1. Larissa Weems - Wednesday (2022)
Look, I'm obviously gonna pick Larissa first because I have made some genuine friends through the Larissa/Gwendoline fandom and that means she is my #1 baby girl/Menace Principal.
2. Moiraine Damodred - The Wheel of Time (2021)
It was hard to decide between Moiraine and Siuan, honestly, but Moiraine won out just because we get so much more screen time with her. She was the reason I came back to tumblr in the first place and I have such a lovely and supportive discord community thanks to her/the show. Her dedication to the mission about all else just gets me so đ«
3. Aloy - Horizon Zero Dawn (2017)/Horizon Forbidden West (2022)
Aloy best girl đđđ I think the Horizon series might be my favourite games of all time. They are so much fun to play, the story is so interesting and Aloy is a great protagonist. She is strong, independent and doesn't bother trying to fit in. She does her own thing and I really respect that.
4. Xena - Xena Warrior Princess (1995)
Xena was so special to me as a little baby gay. The thirst I experienced was unbelievable but because her relationship with Gabrielle was (barely) subtext, it was safe for me to watch in a conservative rural environment.
5. Utena Tenjou - Revolutionary Girl Utena (1997)
This prince saves herself! Utena is iconic and this anime is one of the first shows that ever got me thinking about gender roles and patriarchy. Utena doesn't always get it right but she does try her best to help her friends.
6. Astarion - Baldur's Gate 3 (2023)
Look, I just love him. I would let him devour me with no regrets. I'm still in Act 1 of the game and he has absolutely seduced me with his charm.
7. Nadja of Antipaxos - What We Do In The Shadows (2019)
I cannot get enough of Nadja. The perfect all-powerful absolute idiot. Her own worst enemy. My beloved girlfail queen đ.
8. The Captain - Ghosts (2019)
I love the Captain so very much. He's from an era when he literally would have been imprisoned for being open about his sexuality so he's so repressed and uptight but we see these little glimpses that are just wonderful and he's played with such care.
9. Kassandra - Assassin's Creed Odyssey (2018)
I still can't believe there are people out there who choose to play as Alexios when Kassandra is right there! She's amazing, such a badass and I never want to play another AC game because no other protagonist will ever be as good as her (also Ubisoft is evil).
10. Tissaia de Vries - The Witcher (2019)
Look, I just obviously have a thing for teachers who are a bit mean. Sorry not sorry to be a stereotype!
No pressure tagging @dianneking @weemssapphic @h-doodles @beaujes and anyone else who sees this and wants to do it
#tag game#larissa weems#moiraine damodred#aloy#xena#utena tenjou#astarion#nadja of antipaxos#the captain bbc ghosts#kassandra ac odyssey#tissaia de vries
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Spell your url â§Ë°.
Spell out your URL using song titles that can describe your muse/OC, then tag as many people as there are letters in your URL!
Thank you for tagging me @emahriel! đ€ This is for my current Durge Alauna and most of my songs are very babygirl and some oldies sorry lmao (some are towards Shadowheart). This is surprisingly fun and difficult.
T - True Colors - The Weeknd. "Paint me a picture with your true colors." H - Hound Dog - Big Mama Thornton. "You can wag your tail. But I ain't gonna feed you no more." E - Easy - DaniLeigh. "I love it when you touch me, touch me. Feelin' so lovely, lovely." N - Needed Me - Rihanna. "I was good on my own, that's the way it was. That's the way it was." I - ICU - Coco Jones. "You've got a feeling. A soul that I need in my life." G - Gift & A Curse - Megan Thee Stallion. "My motherfuckin' body, my choice (my choice). Ain't no lil' d*ck takin' my voice." H - Haunted - Beyoncé. "Soul not for sale. Probably won't make no money off this, oh well. Reap what you sow." T - Trust Nobody - Hippie Sabotage. "I don't trust nobody. I don't even trust my mind." S - Shirt - SZA. "Bloodstain on my shirt. New bitch on my nerves" O - On My Mama - Victoria Monét. "I just wanna live in a fantasy. I think we deserve it, right?" N - No Role Modelz - J. Cole. "Don't save her, she don't wanna be saved." G - Give Me One Reason - Tracy Chapman. "They might take away my life. I just want someone to hold me"
(If you've already done it, please ignore me) Tagging these beautiful babes: @onewingedangels, @eurodynamic, @galeofwaterdeeps, @galedekarios, @horsyunicorn, @cove-holdens, @vanoefucks, @alexios, @minthara, @ehlnofaey, @swanfey, @entreri
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ok let me talk about this still for a bit bc I'm not okay.
it kills me bc its so obvious Kassandra is so horrified by seeing who her brother has become. I bet she had at least somewhat of a hope up until this point that he might not be too far gone. but then in this moment she is confronted by the fact that he might just be pure evil? and maybe she won't get her family back?
but THEN she also looks almost apologetic as if its her fault, and I mean Alexios has already told her it *is* all her fault. and she didn't believe it, but then again, there's this doubt in her eyes that looks like she has a split second of remorse. like, is it her fault? could it have ended differently if she hadn't tried to save him that night?
and ultimately what rips my soul to shreds is that Kassandra, under all that tough exterior, is such a soft person just wishing to love and be loved, who has spent all this time missing and wondering about her family. but, she mended herself, built herself up, and found a family in Kephallonia in Markos and Phoibe.
and that's what kills me, is that she had just lost Phoibe, and now she lost her brother too.
#nobody talk to me ever again#this game is killing me :(((#my heart broke in this moment and i just had to talk about it#as a side note im still not even half way done with my first ever playthrough and im TERRIFIED at what else could go wrong#its being emo about kassandras hardships hour#ac odyssey#ac odyssey spoilers#kassandra of sparta#kassandra#assassins creed#assassins creed odyssey#assassins creed odyssey spoilers
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To Love Another - Kassidas
Chapter 1 | 2 | Ao3
Source: Assassin's Creed Odyssey
Pairing: Kassandra/Brasidas
Chapter Warnings/Tags: everyone lives/nobody dies, I'm using this to cope can you tell?, they make out in the sand, the smut stays in ch 2, it get's kinda emotional, there's a bit of hurt/comfort in there if you squint
Word Count: 1.9k
Chapter 1 - Reunions
The last thing Kassandra expected when leaving Kephalonia for the first time in years, was to get tangled in the fate of the Greek world itself. All she had wanted was to bring her family back together, saving the entire Greek empire in the process was an added side-benefit.Â
With the Cult of Kosmos wiped out of existence, she had time to focus on her family. Over the months, Alexios had been less and less troubled by what the Cult did to him, unlearning the violent reactions that were ingrained into him. Kassandra had gently encouraged him to become a misthios alongside her, to put his skills to use more than anything else, and he took to it like Ikaros to the wind.
Pheobe had been immediately fawned over by her mother and father, prompting them to take the young girl in. Pheobe was, of course, delighted to have Kassandra as her sister, and while still a little scared of Alexios, she brought out a gentleness in him that Kassandra hadn't seen in a long time, if ever.Â
Continuing her life as the most dangerous misthios in all of Greece, she maintained her title as captain of the Adrestia, occasionally leaving the ship to her brother as an escape when he needed it. The guilt he felt when he was surrounded by his family, so kind and forgiving, weighed on him in a way that Kassandra knew without him needing to say a word.
She was surprised when she found herself back in Sparta, spending months bouncing between different islands and on the open ocean. An unknown contact reaching out to her once she made port, a Spartan scout hurriedly pressing the letter into her surprised hands before running off just as quickly. It lead her to a familiar battleground in the dead of night, Phobos tied off nearby as she stepped through the trodden sand to meet whoever needed to see her so soon. This was one of the last battles she had against Alexios when he was still under the control of the Cult, and where she had killed Kleon for everything he had done. The salty breeze shifted through the light armour she wore, the shiver brought on by the cold or the memory she wasn't sure.Â
Walking closer to the shoreline, she found comfort in being alone even if only for a moment and sat in the sand that had long since lost the sun's warmth. Removing the spear from her back, she gently set the tip into the soft sand, resting her hands on the hilt as she watched the small waves come and go. So lost in the moment she barely heard the footsteps behind her until a familiar voice spoke.
"My eyes must be deceiving me, there is no way that Kassandra of Sparta is having a moment of peace." On her feet in an instant, she whipped around and offered a wide smile and gentle laughter to Brasidas. He held out an arm to her in greeting and was surprised when she launched herself at him, strong arms wrapped around him in a hug.
"We take those moments when we can, Brasidas." She answered coyly, letting go to hold him at arm's length. "It's been months! How have you been? You have to tell me everything!" The younger woman exclaimed, and he gave a hearty laugh in response. Removing himself from her grip he set his sword into the sand before sitting next to where she had been before. She took the unspoken invitation and sat comfortably next to him.Â
It was just before dawn when their conversation caught a lull like the waves before them, a still and comfortable silence. They watched each other, and Brasidas found himself gently tracing a scar etched into Kassandra's shoulder. "This one is new," he trailed off, hoping she could give him the story of how anyone could have possibly gotten close enough to hurt her.Â
"Do you know the Daughters of Artemis?" She asked, and when he nodded she continued. "Their leader, Daphnae, had tasked me with gathering the pelts of legendary beasts from all across the Greek world and returning them to her. There was this particularly nasty wolf that managed to knock me on my ass a few times. It got a good bite in before I took it down." She smiled softly, almost reverent, and Brasidas couldn't help but encourage more out of her.
"And what happened? After you finished with the task?" He asked, and Kassandra grinned in a way that sent a shiver up his spine.
"In the interest of making a long story short, I became the leader of the Daughters of Artemis." She said so simply as if discussing a meal she had made. Brasidas paused, taken aback. Yet another title to add to her already impressive collection.
"Should you not be there? Leading them?"
"It was all for the sake of propriety, it's more that I'm their leader in title only, I appointed another to take my place in my absence. But, I am free to come and go from their territory as I please."Â
"Ah." He said simply, kicking himself for the limited response. They lulled into another comfortable silence, Ikaros' calls sounding off in the distance as dawn broke over the waves.Â
"The battle here, that almost ended very differently for you." Kassandra mumbled, her knees tucked to her chest. She looked incredibly vulnerable at that moment, and Brasidas knew she was confiding in him in a way few other saw.Â
"It's because of you that I'm still alive. I owe you my life and so much more." He offered gently, and her shoulders shook in quiet laughter. "Although I hardly think you brought it up to be reminded of that." He pressed gently, and she sighed. When she looked up at him again her brow was furrowed tightly, a small line of worry in her otherwise unmarked face.
"And yet I could have lost you that day, all of Sparta could have lost you." She paused, taking a deep breath to calm the desperate notes in her voice. "I don't know what I would have done if my brother had been able to finish what he started, if I'd be able to forgive him." She offered quietly, and Brasidas felt his chest tighten with an emotion he refused to name.Â
"Then don't think about it. I'm here, your brother is safe with your family, and nothing will change that," taking a chance, he gently placed his hand on her shoulder, hoping the gesture would bring her some comfort, "I promise you." He offered, voice full of determination as she lifted her gaze to his own. Her heart was pounding, her nerves wound so tight she feared they would snap. While Kassandra was no stranger to indulging in her desires, she didnât know what to do when she was faced with wanting something more. The older man must have seen the hesitation in her face and he sighed quietly. âI was terrified whenever I saw you on the battlefield, especially when you went against your brother. Itâs not every day you meet a Spartan like you, Kassandra. Walking in a world without you in it is the last thing I want.âÂ
Kassandraâs face grew hot, cheeks stained a dusky pink at his words. âYou are very kind, Brasidas, but Iâm sure there is more to your life than just me.â She teased gently, masking the longing in her voice. There was no denying her feelings for Brasidas, although she was certain that he did not feel the same. âYouâll have a wife soon enough, the gods only know how many women would want the Great and Honourable Brasidas of Sparta.â She teased, looking back out to the shore. The sun was just starting to peek out over the horizon, painting the sky in soft pinks and yellows.Â
âThatâs just it,â he began, âIâve never wanted anyone. I was determined to live my life in service to Sparta, never settling down just continuing my life in the military.â His hand dropped down from her shoulder and Kassandra found herself missing his warmth. âAt least, I thought that was the plan. Until I met you.â
Kassandra whipped her gaze back to him, to find him closer than he had been previously, their knees brushing against each other.Â
âThe day we met, that fight in the warehouse, Iâve never felt a connection like that with anyone in my life.â He continued, his eyes warm with affection. âYouâve become very important to me, Kassandra. I would be incredibly stupid to let you go now.â He said with a boyish grin, and Kassandra only gaped at him, her eyes wide with shock. It wasnât a grand profession of love and adoration sung from the hills, but it was so overwhelmingly him that her heart ached all the same. He laughed nervously as the silence stretched on, breaking her gaze to run his hand anxiously along his braid. âOf course if you donât feel the same, there is no pressure. The last thing I want is to make-â
Kassandra cut him off with a hand on his cheek, turning his gaze back to her. âPlease, stop talking and kiss me.â She demanded gently, laughter filling her voice. He smiled in return, all boyish with glee.Â
Their lips met once, a soft, almost exploratory gesture. Twice, and it was like they both remembered that the other isnât fragile, filled with the passion and longing they had both pushed so far back it was remarkable that they had even made it this far.Â
Brasidas lifted his hands, one curling along her neck under the braid Kassandra never seemed to be without, the other cradling her jawline so gently it made her heart ache. Their lips moved together like they were meant for it, an easy slide that didnât feel uncomfortable, even as she shifted closer still. Her own hands began to wander, settling on the swell of his chest beneath the armour he still wore.Â
He coaxed her lips open with a gentle nip against her lower lip, brushing his tongue against hers that eagerly awaited him. It was so gentle, so soothing in its own way and Kassandra was grateful to not have to rush something for once, to be able to take her time. Heat burned on her cheeks as warmth pooled in her belly, the little flames of desire building in a way that was unique to Brasidas, when they fought together, any time she laid eyes on the man she had the same reaction, she certainly wasnât losing the opportunity now.Â
She tried to muffle the yelp of surprise she gave when he lifted her off the ground just enough to settle her on his lap, her thighs bracketing his own, not even breaking the kiss. Now impossibly close, Kassandra draped her arms around his shoulders, letting herself melt against him.Â
Slowly breaking the kiss, Brasidas buried his nose against the crook of her neck, inhaling deeply before pressing a gentle kiss against her skin, grinning at the shudder that ran through her.Â
âIâve wanted this for so long, wanted you.â He admitted quietly, his hands ghosting over her torso to settle on her hips again. âSince the moment we met, you stole my heart. I can't imagine being with anyone but you, if you'll have me." He murmured, lips ghosting against the side of her neck and she had to repress a shiver.
"Always, Brasidas." She answers breathlessly, pressing a kiss against his temple. They held onto each other, content in the moment of peace they found in each other.
#i hope to god it's cool i use those gifs i'm weak in the knees#kassidas#Kassandra x brasidas#kassandra of sparta#assassin's creed#assassin's creed odyssey#ac odyssey#ac odyssey fic#my writing#to love another#teen?#they make out in the sand#not beta-ed#i'd die for feedback love u all#i PROMISE i will post some content i've been talking about i've been so fuckin busy
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11, 18, 24? đ
11: Do you have specific playlists for writing fics?
Pretty much just my current vibe playlist, but if Iâm really trying to get some work done I play my Meatiest of Loafs playlist to get the creative juices flowing. I also sometimes listen to Pink Floydâs the Wall and the Rocky Horror Picture Show soundtrack.
18: Whatâs one of your favorite lines youâve written in a fic?
Okay so in the past itâs been this line from the Children of Kephallonia:
She is not Nikolaos - she will be better than Nikolaos - but there are no other words than the ones her father gave her so long ago, âYou are my greatest pride, Phoibe. Remember that.â
But coming in with a steel chair is this new line from the last chapter of Not a MalĂĄkes Ravenclaw:
Kassandra laughs again and gives Phoibe one last squeeze before finally pulling away, although she doesnât go far. Just within armâs reach, and she gently caresses Phoibeâs cheek with a soft, semi sad smile. âI donât know if I can ever truly forgive Myrrine for all she did for Alexiosâ sake,â she says quietly, âThe suffering, the pain, the burden she put on me. But then I look at you, Phoibe, and I think I must. Because I would burn the world if it meant saving you.â
As you might have noticed, thereâs a theme đ
24: Share a moodboard for (one of) your current WIP(s).
Okay fun fact about me: I absolutely hate making moodboards. I blame my graphic design classes and all the mood boards I had to make for a grade that never once helped me. No offense to people who like moodboards, they just donât do anything for me and I feel like they take away time I could be working the actual project. So no moodboards today or ever again lol đ
Instead, please take these book covers sketches I designed for my fics:
Ask me more!
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How the Adastra cast would act in competitive multiplayer games:
Amicus: Super casual, doesnât get round to it much but happily plays anything. Unabashedly partial to Fortnite. Despite not playing much, he inexplicably always wins anyway, mostly because he befriends the higher ranked players in his team who inevitably end up simping for him. This continually annoys Cassius.
Cassius: Thinks of himself as the most âserious gamerâ out of anyone present. Tends to stream his games and heâs charismatic enough to get a following online. However, this ego trip tends to back fire, as heâs not very good at them, so he tends to get reduced to gamer rage moments after long enough.
Alexios: Says he doesnât play much but thatâs a filthy lie. Heâs put several hours into League, Overwatch, Team Fortress 2, Splatoon you name it. And he plays mercilesly. He usually just sits in on Cassiusâ streams, and when the latter is too stressed out, pats his head and says âwant me to crush them for you, sweetie?â The chat always spam messages âALEXIOSSWEEPâ when this happens. When heâs playing on his own, heâs not above making a low rank alt to screw with inexperienced players on his team by backstabbing them or friendly firing, and then playing dumb. It amuses him for a while.
Neferu: Doesnât play these kinds of games at all, and will lose horribly when he does, as he barely even tries. However, he has an absurd amount of NSFW art of almost every popular character saved and ready to hand. He will whip these out during game nights as a power move.
Scipio: Doesnât like playing the games but is a huge lore buff. He wouldnât play TF2 but heâs read all the comics. He wouldnât touch League but heâd complain about lore changes and watch the hell out of Arcane. Has asked to see Neferuâs collection in private more times than heâd care to admit.
Virginia: Claims games are a childish waste of time, but when she wants Amicus or Cass to stop playing and pay attention, sheâll snatch the controller and win in 5 minutes to get them to stop. This often leads to questions about how she got so good, which she dodges without fail.
#me trying to come up with these when i play barely any battle royales#but it was fun anyway#amicus adastra#cassius adastra#virginia adastra#scipio khemia#neferu#alexios adastra#adastra vn#echo project
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i finished the entire game without romancing anyone (got the achievement for banging the horny old lady to save her husband though) hoping i'll meet someone i actually like as a character... and sure thing the one character alexios has the most fun chemistry with is unromancable đ 0/10 wouldn't recommend ubisoft hates me personally
#ac stuff#tbd#it's hades btw i want to romance him not random men and women who has no impact on the story đ
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okay i just rewatched Pacific Rim for the millionth time and, hear me out, a Modern Pacific Rim AU?
Like, the Masyaf Eagle having been originally piloted by the Al Sayf brothers but a nasty battle kills Kadar and takes Malik's arm so now Malik serves as an engineer/command center for the Eagle's new pilot Altair who is in search of a co-pilot. And the only one who can successfully drift (synchronize) with him is Desmond. (Altdes)
Ezio Auditore who inherited the Eden Assassin after his father and brother were killed in battle. Ezio who lost his co-pilot and dear friend Yusuf in a battle. Ezio who is trying to stop his sister from becoming his new co-pilot because he's so scared of losing her like he's lost everyone else.
Edward Kenway and Adewale being totally awesome troublemakers and pilots of the Jackdaw
Haytham and Shay being co-pilots of the Morrigan Revenge and having a ridiculous rivalry with Connor and Arno, pilots of the Phantom Aquila
Jacob and Evie co-piloting the Victorian Conqueror and setting records for fastest kaiju kills.
Bayek and Aya becoming pilots after losing Khemu during an attack and piloting the Hidden One.
Kassandra and Alexios being terrifying co-pilots of the Spartan Misthios
Totally out of left field co-pilots Eivor and Basim who seem so unlikely because they spend most of their free time arguing, but being badass pilots of the Raven Destroyer.
idk i just got really excited
Nooonnnnnyyyy!
You got me excited as well because I love mechas and kaijus! Pacific Rim is one of my most favorite movies ever! (Although, as a huge Del Toro fan, thatâs not really surprising XD)
Making it AltDes makes me go jshdafjkhjbhsdasadg
Okay, okay.
I think Shaun and Rebecca could be K-Science Officers focused on why these Kaijus are attacking humans in particular. Now, I was thinking we can make Al Mualim the Marshal in charge of AltaĂŻr and Desmondâs Division and we can keep him as a âgood guyâ in this setup but, if you still want him to be âevilâ, perhaps heâs secretly in charge of some kind of illegal project that uses Kaiju parts to create a new type of Jaeger.
Why are we making Al Mualim the Marshal?
Because weâll make Desmond a second generation of Jaeger Pilots. His father, William Miles, was known as the hero who saved South Dakota from total annihilation so there was a lot of pressure for him to do well.
Hell, he didnât even want to become a Jaeger Pilot and he had actually run away but he was called back after he got âvisitorsâ who insisted he needed to be escorted to a PPDC base where AltaĂŻr is trying to find a co-pilot. They spar and found out they were compatible but their first few Drifts were so bad everyone starts to doubt that they were actually compatible and, honestly, Desmond and AltaĂŻr didnât understand why theyâre being paired together.
They had nothing in common.
Thatâs when Al Mualim tells them that they have one thing in common that was clear to everyone during their Drift sessions.
They both had walls around themselves, keeping them from fully synchronizing.
And, surprisingly, it was AltaĂŻr who pushes Desmond to talk to him, to try and understand one another.
Only to be surprised when Desmond asks him, âYouâre doing this because Al Mualim told you, arenât you?â
Later on, AltaĂŻr corners him once more and asks back, âHowâd you know?â
And thatâs how Desmond realizes that their compatibility might stem from their similar upbringing because Al Mualim was AltaĂŻrâs own William Miles.
Other Unorganized Notes:
The AltDes in this one would be more in line of âreluctant alliesâ to friends to lovers⊠probably.
When they become lovers, everyone suffers because they're that kind of couple.
Masyaf Eagle mainly uses a one-hand sword but has a secret short blade on its left arm. Itâs projectile weaponry is primarily throwing knives but it will get a gun upgrade on its right arm later on.
Ezio befriends Desmond easily and has a friendly rivalry with AltaĂŻr. He also likes to joke about asking Desmond if heâd like to be his co-pilot instead which just makes Yusuf laugh. After AltaĂŻr and Desmond get together, he makes the same jokes just to get a rise out of AltaĂŻr. (Claudia is in a separate base for training and Ezio always finds the time to visit her or send her messages)
Eden Assassin is mostly known for being versatile, having both short and long-range capabilities. Itâs also known for its left hand having a hook blade attachment.
Edward and AdĂ©walĂ© are one of the oldest Jaeger pilots still on the field. Edward is also Haythamâs older brother and he worries about him a lot. Edward also likes to spoil his young nephew. A lot of people are actually curious how the two of them could be co-pilots considering their personalities but AdĂ©walĂ© and Edward never answer any of their questions. It is clear that they are loyal to one another.
The Jackdaw has a chest blaster which blasts out four shots (as a reference to how Edward usually has four flintlock pistols on his chest harness). Jackdaw is primarily a ranged Jaeger and its main weapon is a twin pair of gunblades.
Haytham transferred to be Shayâs co-pilot after a huge disagreement between Shayâs old co-pilot erupted and âcorruptedâ their Drifts too much that they could no longer operate Morrigan Revenge. Haytham usually just lets Shay lead but any time Haytham wants to take the lead, Shay backs down immediately and follows him. Haytham does not approve of RatonhnhakĂ©:ton being a Jaeger pilot.
Morrigan Revenge primarily uses a long one-handed sword and a short dagger. It also has a grenade launcher on its right shoulder. Itâs mostly known for having a head that looks like a taco. (no, Iâm not sorry, I will forever talk about Haythamâs taco hat)
RatonhnhakĂ©:ton and Arno are the youngest Jaeger pilots currently in the field. RatonhnhakĂ©:ton doesnât have a good relationship with his father but heâs cordial to his uncle. Arno is the son of Charles Dorian who died in a Kaiju Battle piloting a Jaeger. He actually became a Jaeger pilot to follow his step-sister who pilots a different Jaeger.
Phantom Aquila is an experimental Jaeger and its main experiment is if itâs possible for a Jaeger to have two forms. A humanoid form and a quadrupedal form. Itâs faster on its quadrupedal form and it usually takes that form when itâs providing support or distractions. Its humanoid form uses primarily a tomahawk-like weapon and has a crossbow on its left arm.
Victorian Conqueror has the highest record for the fastest Kaiju kills because Evie and Jacob actually cannot handle being drifted to one another for too long. Everyone is keeping it a secret and only their main engineers and support team (led by Jayadeep Mir) know about it. They believe the main reason for their low drift timeframe stems from Ethan Fryeâs death⊠not that Evie and Jacob believe them.
Victorian Conqueror has a cane sword and a kukri-like blade. It also has invincibility capabilities but theyâre still working out how to make it useable as it can only be activated if Victorian Conqueror does not move.
Aya and Bayek were actually retired Jaeger pilots. They returned to the field after their sonâs death and still uses Hidden One which is one of the oldest Jaeger still on the field.
Hidden One has a lot of possible weaponry at its disposal but they primarily use either a shield and a one hand sword or twin short blades. Supposedly, Aya prefers the short blades while Bayek prefers the sword-and-shield combo.
Alexios and Kassandra are known for having lots of friends⊠with benefits⊠Sometimes the same friends even. They also came from a family of Jaeger pilots and are very close. On their time off, they usually go off base to visit their mother. Their step brother is also a Jaeger pilot while their step father is a Marshal for another base.
Spartan Misthios uses a sword and a short blade. The short blade is special as it actually came from an older Jaeger model named the âSpartan Kingâ. Spartan King is legendary for protecting thousands of civilians against a horde of smaller but faster Kaijus, holding down the line as everyone escaped. By the time the Spartan King had been overwhelmed and both of its pilot died, everyone had managed to escape. One of the pilots was Kassandra and Alexiosâ grandfather and Spartan Misthios is considered to be the Spartan King's successor.
Eivor and Basim have⊠very soap-opera level of drama. Raven Destroyer's original pilots were meant to be Eivor and Sigurd but Sigurd was discharged after just two Kaiju battles. Rumors say that he had been dishonorably discharged due to how he acts. Basim was transferred as one of the candidates for Eivorâs co-pilot and they didnât exactly start well (Eivor punching Basim hard enough that he actually flew across the room may or may not be exaggerated). Still, they do work together whenever theyâre in their Jaeger⊠only to go back to bickering afterward.
Raven Destroyer has a shield on its left arm. It switches from a hand axe or a pair of daggers at any given time and even its fighting style changes from pure brute force to hit-and-run tactics in a blink of an eye, making it a hard opponent to fight.
All Kaijus have codenames based on gods and goddesses.
#holy crap#did i just make desmond shinji???#get in the fucking robot desmond#no usual tags because#altdes#ask and answer
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Welcome to ROUND 1!
Without further ado, I present the round 1 bracket!
To save space, all characters are listed with their first name only. Look in the Read Below to see an exact list of each poll coming!
Polls 1-8 will be posted Thursday the 30th between 4pm and 6pm EST and remain live for three days! Best of luck to all the contenders!
Poll 1: Arataki Itto from Ghenshin Impact VS Flynn from Skylanders Poll 2: Soren from The Dragon Prince VS Soldier from TF2 Poll 3: Fukuo from Kiki's Delivery Service VS Sheriff Bronson Stone from Scooby-Doo: Mystery Incorporated Poll 4: Daniel Cain from Re-Animator VS Bokuto Kotaro from Haikyuu Poll 5: Indus Tarbella from Epithet Erased VS Milo from Pokemon Sword/Shield Poll 6: Cole from Lego Ninjago VS Din Djarin from The Mandolorian Poll 7: Prince Edward from Enchanted VS Josh Chan from Crazy Ex-Girlfriend Poll 8: Knuckles from Sonic Boom VS Alexios from Assassinâs Creed: Odyssey Poll 9: Sun Wukong from RWBY VS Harry DuBois from Disco Elysium Poll 10: Magnus Burnsides from The Adventure Zone VS Kronk from The Emperor's New Groove Poll 11: Beowulf from Skullgirls VS Kaito Momota from Danganronpa V3 Poll 12: Joseph Jostar from JoJo's Bizarre Adventure VS Dick Gumshoe from Phoenix Wright: Ace Attourney Poll 13: Peter B. Parker from Into the Spiderverse VS Will Powers from Phoenix Wright: Ace Attourney Poll 14: Boucheron from Fire Emblem Engage VS Bolin from The Legend of Korra Poll 15: Raphael Kirsten from Fire Emblem Three Houses/Hopes VS Steve Harrington from Stranger Things Poll 16: Metroman from Megamind VS Gillis Soco from Smile For Me Poll 17: Launchpad McQuack from Ducktales VS Kevin from Ghostbusters (2016) Poll 18: Phoenix Wright from Phoenix Wright: Ace Attourney VS John Marston from Red dead redemption 1&2 Poll 19: Arthur Morgan from Red dead redemption 2 VS Fred from Scooby-Doo Poll 20: Grog Strongjaw from Legends of Vox Machina VS Clone JFK from Clone High Poll 21: Rodney from Total Drama VS Professor Birch from Pokemon Ruby/Sapphire Poll 22: Ash Williams from Evil Dead VS Mario from The Super Mario Bros. Series Poll 23: Brett Hand from Inside Job VS Scott Howl from Monster Prom Poll 24: Clark Kent from DC Comics VS Jason Mendoza from The Good Place Poll 25: Andy Dwyer from Parks and Rec VS Galo Thymos from Promare Poll 26: Beelzebub from Obey Me VS Finn the Human from Adventure Time Poll 27: Gonta Gokihara from Danganronpa V3 VS Andolin Kholin from The Stormlight Archive Poll 28: Thor from the MCU VS Hunk from Voltron: Legendary Defender Poll 29: George from George of the Jungle VS Alex from Stardew Valley Poll 30: Mark the Engineer from In Space with Markiplier VS Murray from the Sly Cooper Series Poll 31: Buzz Lightyear from Toy Story VS He-Man from He-Man and the Masters of the Universe Poll 32: Raphael Hamato from Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles VS Farkas from Skyrim
Good luck to all!
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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let's spread the self-love đ
Sending this right back to you, if you wanna do this again đ
I have been sitting on this for months and months - sorry @soronya! I appreciate you thinking of me all this time ago đ€
But at the back of my head I've been saving it for a moment like this, because I finally have the spoons to re-upload everything to AO3 and actually not be an ass about my own writing, so it feels like a good moment to point at a few fics that I really kinda like.
So here are five of my fics that may be worth reading if you haven't already:
Rising to the Surface. A Thaletas x Herodianos fic that I genuinely think is one of the best short stories I've written. It's complete and I enjoy the three part/three moods format. Fair warning, it's explicit in that way that isn't terribly explicit. I'd rate it as M honestly except that we're in a 'think of the children' world.
It Was Just Red. An 'Alexios is messed up' fic that is deliberately experimental and non-linear and just - wildly different to how I normally write. I had fun with it. I may still add more to it.
Shadow-Twin. Also short and experimental, I just really like where this landed. I think I would like to reduce the single line sentence structure I got into a bit of a funk with in it, but otherwise, it's pretty good.
The Good Spartan. I actually re-read this myself every so often. Yes it's very long. No I couldn't make it shorter. In happy news, it has regained all the kudos it lost when I took the first version down, so I have nothing more to hope for.
Another Life. I know it's not finished, is still very much a WIP, but it feels like I'm finally pulling all the threads I've been exploring for all these years together in this one. It's a culmination. I suspect it will be the final longfic I'll write for Odyssey. Even if I never finish it, what's there already is actually pretty good in my eyes.
There you have it. A full couple hundred words of talking nicely about my own work. What a triumph.
Thanks again for sending me this ask. Appreicate you đ€
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Just finished AC Odyssey Legacy of the First Blade. It was...ok. For as long as was it was it also seemed kind of rushed. There were several things I thought they shouldn't have done.
Spoilers Ahead
The love story between Natakas and the playable character seemed really fast and out of nowhere. I understand it was kind of necessary to be short for the game, but...eh.
My biggest aggravation was that Darius and Natakas stayed with Kassandra and just completely grew complacent, knowing the order was looking for them. They could have had a 'quiet' life, a house and baby and everything, and still been on the look out for the order looking for them. The fact that they were 'surprised' by the attack that led to Natakas dying and Elpidios being stolen was kind of dumb to me.
Especially the fact that Darius, who up till now has been nothing but a badass, suddenly needs rescuing. And the fact that Kassandra left her baby and husband to go save him, not knowing he actually needed help.
But also, where TF is Kassandra's family? No matter the ending you get, you should at least have Myrinne on your side. Why was none of Kassandra's family involved? In my playthrough she should have had the entire family, all of whom are good fighters, helping to protect her baby and husband. Are you seriously telling me that between Darius, Kassandra, and Alexios the Persian's would have been able to kill Natakas and steal Elpidios? There was literally hardly anyone there! I've singlehandedly taken down forts with more people in them!
I know this is all for the purpose of the story, but if you want to make it believable, there should have been a shit ton more Persians, a more dire situation leading to Natakas dying, a reason Kassandra's family wasn't anywhere nearby, and not make Darius suddenly a noob for no reason.
Or make Kassandra a more 'human' character so that you don't go through the whole game playing like the demi-god you are until it's plot-convenient for Kassandra to suddenly be a sub-par fighter.
Overall, the plot was fine, but I probably wouldn't ever play it again. The ending, showing how Darius takes Elpidios to Egypt and he ages and then transforms into his descendants leading to Aya was honestly cool. A+ on that part.
Holy shit, the Fate of Atlantis DLC is ANOTHER 15 hours? It's going to be July before I can play Mirage at this rate, jfc. I still need to get through Valhall and it's DLC's too. And that's not taking into account I skipped AC3 DLC because of bugs, AC 4, Rogue, and Unity to try and play Mirage on release.
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Just realised how similar the Iphigenia story is to Odysseyâs plot. You see both stories have someoneâs daughter getting sacrificed and it canât be prevented ⊠but the difference is thereâs no cult or baby brother with Iphigenia or so I think at least âŠ. Correct me if Iâm wrong Iâm not familiar with that legend (I only know about the horse)
What do you think? Do you think itâs similar to each other the storyline? I think Ubisoft might have been inspired by the myth when creating and making Odyssey.
Oh my- you started smth here. Excuse me because my thoughts are all mixed up but Iâve been thinking about motives of the Iliad in Kassandraâs Story. (Disclaimer: this talks about Assassins Creed Odyssey not THE Odyssey when I refer to Odyssey except I state itâs THE Odyssey by Homer)
So. I will have to write a whole seperate post on Kassandra and her name being shared with Kassandra of Troy/Cassandra of Troy. Because I have many thoughts on it.
For the sacrifice of a child motive I somewhat agree. Nikolaos was told to sacrifice a child and lost both in the process, leading to the family falling apart. AC Odyssey is difficult to compare because especially with the family storyline it depends on how you play the game and which of the possible endings you get but you do have the chance to play a game in which cycles of violence lead to another and it results in tragedy of Kassandra loosing everyone, which can be somewhat compared to the House of Atreus (Agamemnonâs family) and the violence and murder in the family leading their downfall. Interesting is also that Clytemnestra and Helen are from Sparta so it can be that the writers of AC Odyssey wanted to give the possibility to tell that kind of story.
In many moments AC Odyssey refers to myths especially the Odyssey by Homer and in many dialogue options Kassandra states that she has no interest partaking in some grand myth, scheme or plot but has no choice due to her family being woven into everything going on in the greek world in the time period.
There is probably many references to the Iliad in AC Odyssey and the sacrifice of children and Kassandra possibly being âan Iphigenia that survived instead of dying as a sacrificeâ might be one of them. Alexios too of course.
Still from the top of my head Iâd say that AC Odyssey references way more directly to THE Odyssey, making Kassandra wander like Odysseus (poor Odessa didnt get the chance Kassandra did lol), making Kassandra wander tge greek world specifically to save her family/fix her "home".
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for the fandoms ask: assassin's creed đ
The first character I first fell in love with:Â malik!! ac1 was baby's first actual fandom and 14yo me spent 492838923489342892348942389 hours drawing super bad fanart of him i was OBSESSED
The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:Â hytham if u know u know!!!!!
The character everyone else loves that I donât: arno. he's the human equivalent of a wet paper bag and also he's french. FUCK that guy. also maria from ac1, ur telling me a muslim-based cult took in a crusader just like that?? and everything was fine?? her entire character arc was so unearned and the romance was. cringe. it was just he was a boy she was a girl (literally the only woman in ac1)
 The character I love that everyone else hates: basim ahhahahah damn there's so many basim antis in that fandom that lack basic reading comprehension and are also incredibly racist
The character I used to love but donât any longer: ezio... he's fine and all but too many games and media ended up centering around him and it was A Bit Much
The character I would totally smooch:Â brasidas of sparta
The character Iâd want to be like:Â thats a tough one uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i genuinely don't know they all kinda suck in some ways. probably desmond. my man had a rough life and still did The Right Thing to save the world and all
The character Iâd slap:Â THIS QUESTION MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE IN ANY ONE OF THESE I WOULDNT SLAP ANYONE
A pairing that I love: so manyyy but nowadays mostly basim/eivor and alexios/brasidas
A pairing that I despise:Â altair/maria, never should have been canon (see answer above)
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YIKES lmaooo accidentally made myself cryyyyy re-reading this bit of fanfiction i have no recollection of writinggggg omfg.
tbh i feel like this is worth the read even if you dont give a fraction of a flying fuck about fanfic or about assassins creed lmao bc like. its a very expressive and eloquent exploration of how hard it is to see yourself through the eyes of someone who loves you when you fucking hate yourself đ
âMy body, it⊠itâs so weak. And soft. Iâm not strong enough to fight anyone. Iâm not fast enough to run away.âÂ
âYour mind is just as effective a self-defense tool as any sword or shield.âÂ
âIs it, though?âÂ
âYouâre here. Youâve survived things that many people wouldnât have.âÂ
âThat is true. But what Iâve had to give up? The things Iâve had to let happen to me? A man invites himself unto my body. And I donât want him there. But I canât stop him. At the end of it, Iâm uninjured. But not because I fought him off. Iâm uninjured because I negotiated. Because I figured out what he wanted most out of me. And I handed it over. So he wouldnât have to hurt me in order to steal it. I get robbed all the time. But I donât lose my most prized items because Iâve learned how to hide them. Or disguise them. Or convince my assailants that my less expensive belongings are worth more than they really are. I never win anything, Alexios. Iâm never saved by my intellect. And you should know what Iâm talking about, because you are exactly the kind of person who relishes in finding a mark like me. One who is so painfully aware of their own shortcomings that they donât even try to put up a fight. I survive. I donât triumph. And if my body were strong, then maybe I could triumph. Someday. In some way.âÂ
âNot everyone can be⊠strong, or fast. And not everyone can be brilliant. I think if I had a mind like yours, then⊠I would probably have become someone I could be a lot more proud of than I am. You think having to use wit instead of force to protect yourself is a weakness, but what I wouldnât give to know how to end a conflict without resorting to extreme violence. Iâm not saying that it doesnât make sense for you to feel how you do. Itâs been a long time since Iâve felt that kind of helplessness. Iâm just saying that the way you are⊠the body that you have⊠there is nothing wrong with you. You are beautiful. And worthy, and powerful in your own right. You, exactly the way you are, have a valuable place in the world. Especially my world. I need you. The version of you that sits before me right now. Thatâs what I need.âÂ
âI donât understand. I canât do anything for you.âÂ
He looked at me for a long time. The calculating look. The one he gets when heâs examining a rockface heâs never climbed before. Looking for footholds and handholds. Scoping out the most efficient rout. Or, perhaps, the look he gets when heâs gauging just how fast he needs to run to clear the jump from one plateau to another. Estimating how much strength heâll need to conserve to reach the top of a mountain. The only difference between Alexios and a mathematician is that Alexios never actually deals with numbers. But he calculates all the same. He solves equations in a glance that a polymath would need an abacus for. Perhaps he canât tell you in numbers exactly how far away one handhold is from the next, but heâll launch himself the precise distance, nonetheless. And itâs because of that look in his eyes that I know that the next words he said to me would be thoroughly considered and thoughtful.Â
Weâve been this close, and closer, thousands of times by now. But this time felt brand new. Breathtaking. Absolutely ethereal.Â
His hands slid to rest on my outer thighs, pressing gently so the contact between my inner thighs and his hips was solid. Then he held me by my waist, traveling again to the small of my back, then up higher, moving slow and reverent.Â
Then he told me, âI wish I had your gift for words so I could tell you what this feels like for me.âÂ
I said, âJust close your eyes and speak.âÂ
I closed my eyes, too, and then after a moment, I heard him sigh. Then he speaks. Quiet, low, and slow.
âThis⊠is the softest place Iâve ever been in my life. As long as I can remember, everything around me has been⊠sharp. Serrated. Hard. Rough. Iâm smashing metal against metal. Bone against stone. Iâm cutting, or being cut. I only touch people to hurt them. The most soothing thing I ever feel is someone elseâs blood warming my skin. But now Iâm here. Between your thighs. And the way your body âgivesâ under my touch⊠you donât even have to hold me to embrace me. Youâre so. Soft. And all I have to do to be surrounded by you is touch you. All I have to do is touch you, and now everything jagged in me gets to know what it feels like to be smoothe. Iâve always been so angry about my life. Resentful. Suffering for no good reason. But now I come home to you, and lay beside you and all I can do is thank the Gods for everything Iâve ever been through that turned me into someone who can keep a soft, precious thing like you safe.â
Oh.Â
One day, someday, maybe it will stop surprising me every time Alexios takes my breath away. Maybe Iâll stop being caught off guard every time he finds a new way to tell me he loves me.Â
Then he said, âI wish you could appreciate the balance. Appreciate that maybe, in some way, people like you and me are made for each other. Who you are brings such wonderful meaning to who I am and what Iâve been through. I wish who I am could bring similar meaning to you. I wish you could love the things about yourself that are so precious to me.âÂ
I think I left my body in that moment. Sitting there in front of Alexios. In front of this man made of solid audacity and nerve, smelted and forged. I couldnât remain in my body if I was to stand a chance at fathoming how the words he just said could be said about me by anyone at all, let alone him.Â
I know I left my body because when I heard him finally say, âWhy are you shaking?â I didnât know why heâd ask such a thing. But I looked down at my hands, and yes, they were trembling. And I felt myself slam back into my corporeal form - heavy, and unsteady, like an earthquake.Â
Indeed, I think I was shaking because my whole world had just been rattled. My entire self-concept, shifted like a fault line. That there should be any use for the utter desolation Iâve suffered through? That all the things I hate most about myself could bring any meaning at all to another personâs suffering? I was shaking with the exertion of struggling to hold my understanding together. But when I answered him, all I said was, âIâm sorry.âÂ
He held both of my hands.âYouâre sorry? What for? What did I say that made you think you should be sorry?âÂ
The grief in my throat was so thick, I could barely speak. But I forced the words out: âIâm letting you down.â And right around this moment was when tears overwhelmed my eyelids. And I think I could hear Alexiosâs heart shattering.
He gasped a little and then said, âWhat? By the Gods, no, no. Thatâs not it at all. Never.â He let go of my hands, but only to slide his arms the rest of the way around me. I felt his lips on my forehead, and then my ear against his chest. He held me just like he did that very first time. It took my breath away then, and it still takes my breath away now. âI donât ever want you to believe anything other than that Iâm so, so proud of you. Proud to be with you. Honored that youâll even look at me. I didnât say all those things in criticism. I said them to try to help you see how much you mean to me.âÂ
That only broke me even more. And racked me with even more guilt. I didnât want to disappoint him more by apologizing again, so I didnât. Not out loud, anyway. In my head, I was pleading. Praying. Iâm sorry your love is wasted on me.Â
Then he looked down at me and said, â...But you canât, can you? You really⊠you honestly just canât.âÂ
He pulled me in close again, gently swaying, rocking. And I heard him say, âIâm so, so sorry for whatâs been taken from you.
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