#saph's shitty analysis

[greatbananaboat]

jayce vs. caitlyn: unpacking prejudice

i did a thing. disclaimer: i am not an anti. i like jayce. i like caitlyn. use my post for your anti bullshit and i will be very mad. >:( <- this will be me if you use this for anti character bullshit

um anyway it's kind of long you have been warned.

initial attitudes:

caitlyn: starts with fear and misunderstanding of zaun, but evolves to see the people there as victims of their circumstances and worthy of empathy.

jayce: begins with an elitist, dismissive view of zaunites, seeing them as dangerous, and even his intentions to help zaunites are primarily because he's focused on further progressing hextech.

actions towards zaunites (unfortunately, there's a large difference in the amount of times the two interact with zaunites in meaningful ways that teach us things about the way their deep-seated prejudices affect us, but i tried my best):

caitlyn: acts as an advocate for zaunites, trying to help vi and the people of zaun by using her position to get resources, often running into resistance from piltover's elite. she seems to genuinely care about zaunites as people and not simply another talking point.

jayce: focuses on advancing piltover's technological superiority. the majority of the positive things he says about zaun or wanting things to change for zaunites are tied to his dream for hextech. he focuses more on his accomplishments with hextech than he does about the actual zaunites.

growth and change:

caitlyn: shows significant character growth as she recognizes the struggles of zaun and begins to fight for a better future for both piltover and zaun.

jayce: struggles with his growing realization that his actions have harmed zaun, but remains largely entrenched in piltover's status quo, unsure of how to change it without jeopardizing his advancements with hextech.

caitlyn gradually shifts from viewing zaunites as criminals to understanding their suffering and seeking solutions, whereas jayce's perspective, though beginning with naivety and ignorance, starts to hint at moral doubt but remains heavily influenced by his position in piltover's power structures.

overall, their prejudice against zaunites manifests itself in ways that make complete sense when compared to who they are as characters.

caitlyn is a character who cares deeply about justice and helping people. it stands to reason that she would also care about bringing justice for zaun and not just piltover. she grows to care about the suffering zaunites face and advocates for them constantly. even after her attempts at peace are denied when it comes to jinx, she still cares for all of zaun as a whole. she slips into harmful rhetoric multiple times, but her ideals remain relatively steadfast.

jayce's story doesn't have as much connection to zaun and zaunites in general, which is why he has far less interaction with them. his interactions with zaun are centered around hextech, and because hextech is his primary focus, this means he often makes decisions that will harm zaunites. after his experience in the au, where he sees that hextech will destroy piltover if allowed to advance, he returns with the sole focus of destroying hextech. at this point, his prejudice takes a backseat along with most of his other traits from season 1.

and now the evidence, because i'm obsessive like that :) also pls pls interact i manually went through and timestamped all of these

caitlyn:

says that the undercity is dangerous and should be feared

S1E2 00:00:27 --> 00:00:31 You really went to the undercity to get these? Weren't you afraid?

believes that not everyone in the undercity is violent and that recent violence can be traced back to one errant person

S1E4 00:33:22 --> 00:33:28 Listen, you know how I've suspected there is a single mind behind the undercity's violence?

goes to stillwater to ask inmates questions

S1E4 00:35:38 --> 00:35:40 I need to speak with one of the inmates.

implies that she can't trust vi because she's a zaunite and a prisoner

S1E5 00:03:51 --> 00:03:54 In what mad world would I trust someone like you?

convinces jayce to approve of her releasing vi despite just having voiced her distrust

S1E5 00:04:26 --> 00:04:27 It's for her release.

is visibly upset about the idea of the warden hurting the prisoners

S1E5 00:04:37 --> 00:04:39 How many chats have you had with her?

follows vi to the lanes instead of making her take the bathysphere the way caitlyn originally suggests (also unrelated but it's funny as hell because while she is trying and failing to parkour, the old man is taking the bathysphere, and they get down to the lanes at the same time)

S1E5 00:11:41 --> 00:13:10

despite her protests, allows vi to lead her around and trusts her to do what's been asked of her

S1E5 00:14:50 --> 00:14:54 Unbelievable. I didn't break you out of jail to eat… slop.

again, despite her initial protests, when told to pretend to be a sex worker at the brothel, she does it (although this may just be bc she's whipped)

S1E5 00:22:52 --> 00:23:01 Ah, yes. Matilda. My parents named me Matilda. After my great-grandmother Matilda, the, uh…

saves vi from being killed by sevika (this is also to ensure her ongoing investigation won't be jeopardized, but it's clear she does care about protecting vi and again, the investigation in question is to prove that the violence that's been blamed on all of zaun is actually just one perpetrator. she is showing dedication to getting justice for both zaun and piltover.)

S1E5 00:35:07 --> 00:35:08 [gunshot]

(at this point i had to stop using very many interactions between vi and caitlyn because they are also affected by caitlyn's growing feelings for vi. that said, her interactions with vi are also very telling of her growth as a person and her examination of her prejudices.)

caitlyn acknowledges that zaunites are just as capable of goodness as piltovans. vi talks about how topsiders hurt and judge zaunites and caitlyn genuinely listens to her and actively unpacks her own prejudice

S1E6 00:17:58 --> 00:18:05 It's all right. Despite it all, I can tell… you have a good heart.

while looking for some way to help vi, caitlyn runs into huck. she trusts him to help her find something to heal vi. she gives up her gun to get a potion to help vi. this is significant because it shows that she was listening to what vi said earlier about zaunites not being monsters. she gives up her only weapon and the only thing she has to defend herself

S1E6 00:20:00 --> 00:22:23

after being used by vi (who never told caitlyn that the person she's been hunting is vi's sister), she still stays back and doesn't apprehend or attack jinx, speaking gently to her

S1E6 00:34:51 --> 00:34:53 Your sister is Jinx?

offers herself up to the firelights in place of vi, not knowing anything about the firelights except that they're zaunites and that they kidnapped her and vi (cares more about vi than her fear of what will happen to her if she gives herself up: the fear of zaunites she used to have is now disappearing because she's seen they aren't the monsters she expected)

S1E7 00:19:12 --> 00:19:16 Listen, let her go. I brought her here. It's me you want.

listens to ekko's complaints about piltover's oppression, and she clearly wants to fix things between zaun and piltover. she talks about wanting to end the cycle of violence and keeping zaunites from getting hurt by enforcers. unlike other characters, when she refers to "the city", she means piltover and zaun equally

S1E7 00:22:18 --> 00:22:39 Ekko, it's wrong what's been done to you. You'd be well within your rights to keep [the Hextech gemstone]. I couldn't blame you. But… if you do, this cycle of violence will never stop. This is our best shot at setting the record straight. This city needs healing.

vouches for the zaunites as a whole to marcus, not realizing he's in silco's pocket

S1E7 00:29:22 --> 00:29:26 Sir! I have proof. Silco's behind everything.

defends zaunites to her mother, acknowledges the harm caused by piltovans, and shows interest in changing things for zaun. also refers to zaunites as piltovan citizens and equals, not like a lesser community

S1E8 00:07:27 --> 00:07:38 You know what else reflects on the Council? Its citizens living on the streets. Being poisoned. Having to choose between a kingpin who wants to exploit them and a government that doesn't give a shit.

speaks to the council to defend the majority of zaunites to the piltovan elite, telling them they shouldn't blame all of zaun for the actions of the shimmer drug lords. she also tells them that piltover has failed zaunites

S1E8 00:21:31 --> 00:21:54

when jayce suggests going to the undercity and using force, possibly triggering war, caitlyn protests, saying that there are innocents and good people in zaun

S1E8 00:22:27 --> 00:22:30 There are good people down there.

caitlyn wants to come up with alternative ideas to take down silco and free the people of zaun after the councilors (minus jayce) suggest negotiating with silco

S1E8 00:23:49 --> 00:23:51 I can fix this.

is kidnapped by jinx in a vulnerable position and forced to dress at gunpoint (also likely tortured, as she flinches when jinx gets close to her during the tea party scene and somehow jinx knows that vi calls caitlyn cupcake despite never having heard it herself)

S1E8 00:34:59 --> 00:36:22

jinx gives vi an ultimatum: kill caitlyn or lose powder

S1E9 00:28:44 --> 00:28:49 Send her on her way and-- And you can have Powder back.

watches jinx fire the rocket that ends up killing her mother

S1E9 00:35:25 --> 00:37:06

(unfortunately, i couldn't find timestamped transcripts for season two of arcane, so following citations may be quotes without timestamps, if there are timestamps, it's because i went through the episodes myself to find them)

when salo orders a show of force, caitlyn protests

S2E1 00:06:56 --> 00:06:58 Innocents will be caught in the crossfire.

wants vi to join the enforcers as a symbol that not all zaunites support jinx, later regrets it and tells vi she doesn't have to accept

S2E1 00:12:11 --> 00:12:18 The Council won't stop them. You can show that not all of Zaun supports Jinx. We can show them. Together.

witnesses the attack on the memorial, and as far as she knows, the attack is organized by zaunites

S2E1 00:23:46 --> 00:31:24

calls renni & her goons animals for attacking the memorial

S2E1 00:32:16 --> 00:32:18 What kind of animals?

instead of entering zaun with the full force of enforcers, caitlyn suggests the alternative of taking a specialized strike team into zaun to minimize the harm done to innocents

S2E1 00:35:16 --> 00:35:28 I will lead a strike team into Zaun with three objectives: Locate Jinx, dismantle Shimmer, and neutralize any agents still loyal to Silco.

gasses the hideout jinx is in so they can apprehend her (however, there is nobody in the area except the enforcers, jinx, and later smeech, sevika, and isha)

S2E2 00:22:45 --> 00:26:36

uses the grey (similar to tear gas when exposure is not extended) in targeted locations to locate and take down the chem barons and gain information from zaunites on jinx's possible whereabouts

S2E3 00:00:52 --> 00:02:01

threatens to harm heenot despite him clearly not posing a threat to them (this can also be attributed to the fact that he used to work for smeech, a chem baron, but it can be assumed that because of the circumstances, caitlyn has her guard up against zaunites in general at this point)

S2E3 00:04:13 --> 00:04:15 Tell us how you wound up here.

this one is unrelated despite some people believing it is related to caitlyn's prejudice, so i'll share my interpretation of it. when caitlyn says this line, she isn't comparing vi to zaunites in general. she's saying she thought vi was different from before (before being season 1, when vi begged her to hold her shot when she was about to kill jinx and because she listened, jinx managed to fire the rocket that killed caitlyn's mother). in this moment, vi has just made her hold her shot again, and again this has led to jinx setting off an explosion which harmed innocents in piltover. she says the line about jinx's blood being in vi's veins because she is referring to the fact that because they're sisters, vi will always choose jinx over caitlyn. jinx and caitlyn are similar in that they constantly try to make vi choose between them, sometimes without even realizing. when vi responds by asking caitlyn why she's acting like jinx, it's a response to what caitlyn is saying, but not necessarily what caitlyn MEANS.

S2E3 00:29:19 --> 00:29:26 I keep telling myself that you're different. But you're not. It's her blood in your veins.

is clearly unhappy with the violence instigated by the noxians towards innocent zaunites

S2E4 00:12:21 --> 00:12:25 Was it for my encouragement that your man Rictus was instigating violence?

doesn't want to arrest innocents for no reason and doesn't want violence

S2E4 00:12:47 --> 00:12:49 Arrests require cause.

under her leadership, the noxians and enforcers are instigating needless violence against innocents and rioters alike

S2E4 00:20:05 --> 00:20:13 Enforcers raiding our homes. Noxians down our throats. Innocents getting carted off to Stillwater.

visibly upset about the deaths of zaunites and enforcers alike caused by warwick

S2E5 00:05:03 --> 00:05:54

comments on the experiments that have come out of zaun, referring to the shimmer-fueled monsters, chem tanks, and now warwick (also, the noticeable removal of the word "blood" in her statement leads me to believe that no zaunites had been killed by the enforcers and noxians during the occupation)

S2E5 00:05:54 --> 00:06:08 Months of peacekeeping occupation. Countless operations. Oceans of sweat and tears. I'd begun to think we might finally see an end to Zaun's perverse abominations.

we learn that she outlawed the use of certain cells in stillwater because of the horrible conditions faced by prisoners who were placed in them

S2E5 00:06:30 --> 00:06:40 There are cells buried deep within this prison so devoid of light and fresh air and all basic human considerations that up till now, I have forbidden their use.

expresses regret for allowing ambessa to manipulate her

S2E8 00:11:20 --> 00:11:21 I know!

shows remorse for her actions against the zaunites

S2E8 00:13:05 --> 00:13:07 No amount of good deeds can undo our crimes.

acknowledges that in her pursuit for jinx, she's allowed the harm of innocents, and resents herself for it

S2E8 00:13:18 --> 00:13:22 Hating you, I've hated myself.

by the end, she's still dedicated to changing things for zaun and piltover

S2E9 00:44:37 --> 00:45:12 And though we are doomed to revisit the error of our ways, spark ever more conflicts, our story isn't over.

jayce:

says zaun is dangerous

S1E2 00:00:31 --> 00:00:33 A little danger is worth the risk, don't you think? (referring to going to zaun to collect tools)

shares the credit for hextech with viktor, a zaunite

S1E3 00:08:32 --> 00:08:33 Our Hextech dream.

cares about making everyone's lives easier, including zaunites

S1E4 00:26:05 --> 00:26:12 Things that will bring an end to your hardships. Whether you're the scion of our high houses or an honest laborer from the underground. (referring to new, portable hextech)

S1E5 00:08:55 --> 00:09:00 What about our pledge to improve lives, for those in need? For the undercity?

shows concern for viktor and mentions that the cause of viktor's sickness is one of the things he wants to change with hextech

S1E6 00:06:36 --> 00:06:48 I think it has something to do with gasses in the fissures where he grew up. Exactly the sort of thing we wanted to fix with Hextech. Improving lives. Solving real issues, not just trade disputes.

when viktor suggests that the hextech could be used to extend life and augment physiology, jayce cares only about the effects it will have on viktor (this one's unrelated really but look at their brotherly love /silly)

S1E6 00:15:33 --> 00:15:36 Curing you.

in order to protect hextech, he advocates for policies that will hurt zaunites

S1E6 00:23:03 --> 00:23:04 Then, that's what we'll do. (referring to searching everyone who crosses the bridges, which marcus brings up as an impossible idea)

again, in order to protect hextech, he makes fearmongering comments about zaun so he can get heimerdinger kicked off the council

S1E6 00:24:12 --> 00:24:22 Shimmer is rampant in the undercity. Attacks at the Hexgates and in the Academy Square. Enforcers fear to set foot in the Lanes. All under your watch.

continues to act like zaunites are monsters

S1E7 00:13:37 --> 00:13:40 There are people down there who seem hell-bent on destroying us.

tells viktor that zaunites are dangerous (although he apologizes when he's reminded that viktor is also a zaunite)

S1E7 00:13:51 --> 00:13:53 What diff… They're dangerous.

begins considering the creation of hextech weapons to defend piltover against zaun

S1E8 00:12:31 --> 00:12:34 Your Jayce Talis has turned his eye to Hextech weaponry.

is willing to go into the undercity with force, possibly starting a war, so he can recover the hextech gemstone. ignores protests from caitlyn and other councilors

S1E8 00:22:21 --> 00:22:27 This Jinx has the Gemstone? Then we have to go in by force.

jayce is the only councilor frustrated at the prospect of negotiating with silco instead of using force to recover the gemstone

S1E8 00:22:52 --> 00:22:54

threatens to have vi arrested for approaching him in his forge

S1E8 00:28:20 --> 00:28:22 I could have you arrested.

brings enforcers with him and vi on their mission to the undercity to take down one of silco's drug facilities, which ends up getting a child killed and dozens of child laborers arrested

S1E8 00:30:19 --> 00:38:24

after killing a child, refuses to continue with force, seems to regret harming a relatively innocent person

S1E9 00:00:47 --> 00:00:48 We're done here.

regretting his use of force but needing something to show for his time in the undercity, he negotiates with silco to get jinx and the hextech gemstone

S1E9 00:15:56 --> 00:15:59 Get me Jinx. And I'll give you your nation of Zaun.

he advocates for giving zaun sovereignty (although, in the process, he uses viktor's zaunite heritage as a talking point)

S1E9 00:23:45 --> 00:23:52 My days here are numbered, but I've come with Viktor, my partner and a Zaunite, with one final proposal.

is on the receiving end of jinx's bomb, as well as the other councilors

S1E9 00:36:58 --> 00:37:06

(unfortunately, i couldn't find timestamped transcripts for season two of arcane, so following citations may be quotes without timestamps, if there are timestamps, it's because i went through the episodes myself to find them)

is attacked by renni (the mother of the boy he killed) at the memorial for the deceased councilors, and is nearly killed

S2E1 00:23:46 --> 00:31:24

goes back on his word to viktor and creates hextech weapons for the strike team

S2E1 00:35:20 --> 00:36:15

he and ekko show clear distaste of one another

S2E2 00:20:00 --> 00:20:03

it's discovered that the firelight tree is becoming corrupted because of the overuse of hextech

S2E3 00:14:38 --> 00:14:41 Do you think this could actually be a result of overuse of Hextech?

the failsafe for the hexgates was built in the underground, such that if it were ever to explode, it would destroy the lanes due to its proximity to zaun's utility ducts. without realizing, jayce had designed it so that it would take out the water supply and ventilation systems of zaun, with no negative effects to piltover. despite his claims that hextech could improve the lives of zaunites, it seems he didn't consider them while designing the hexgates

S2E3 00:18:34 --> 00:18:38 So instead of it exploding in your neighborhood, it would blow up in ours.

S2E3 00:18:49 --> 00:18:57 You know, you say we should feel like we're all one people. But whenever it rains, we're the ones that get wet.

(after jayce goes into the au, his outlook on hextech completely changes, so his prejudice against zaunites doesn't come up further. however, it's worth mentioning that he doesn't truly understand the harm hextech can cause until he sees a destroyed piltover, despite having seen and heard of its negative effects on zaun.)

admits that it's unfair to ask the zaunites to fight with piltover after lifetimes of oppression, but still requests their aid

S2E8 00:25:35 --> 00:25:38 Now, this isn't a fair request, but it is our only hope.

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it’s not months, it’s about a couple weeks.

she’s not using the gas indiscriminately, we clearly see her tactically using the grey and the vents to target and infiltrate the chen barons’ hideouts. there’s a big difference between what caitlyn does and what we see jinx do, for example. we see that caitlyn’s strike team is specifically using the vents to target certain locations, in sharp contrast to how jinx literally DOES gas piltover indiscriminately, to the point where we see elderly and children being affected.

because of the above, your points about the deaths and diseases don’t rlly hold up here.

she didn’t get 0 repercussions, she literally lost her eye. and she also lost her family (her mother literally, her father pushed her away in his grief) and family friends. she may not have gotten physically hurt right then and there, but it doesn’t rlly make sense to me to say that she got zero repercussions.

as for the hero thing, i rlly don’t know what you mean by this tbh. clarification would be nice :)

again, not rlly prolonged, and it’s targeted, so not a high kill count.

and for that singed thing, i feel like the reason you never see anyone defending singed is because the few arguments against him are valid, and because i don’t see anybody mischaracterizing him the way they do caitlyn. caitlyn faces way too much misplaced criticism from people who seem to not understand the content. anyway lmk if i missed anything :)

I still think it's crazy that Caitlyn has been using chemical weapons on innocent civilians from Zaun for months fully knowing it will cause the death of hundreds or even thousands and cause dangerous diseases to others only to spread terror and catch one girl and in the end she not only got 0 repercussions but also got to play the role of a hero.... She has been doing it for a prolonged period of time she is bound to have a super high kill count.

She is like Singed only nobody is defending Singed.

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idk if people have alr said this, but i really love how caitlyn’s emotions are all so obvious through her eyes.

her eyes are such a central part of her character. i know people love to clown on those of us who acknowledge the microexpressions the characters display in arcane, but caitlyn especially has these. all the emotions she’s too reserved to talk about are so blatantly shown on her face.

i mean, even the shape of her eyes is interesting! she has a monolid on one eye and not the other. her eyes and face are focused on constantly or given some emphasis and yes, it’s to foreshadow the eventual loss of her eye, but i think it’s rlly interesting.

she’s such an emotional character when you look at her eyes. everything she’s feeling is. right there. i just rlly love that :)

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i keep seeing people complaining abt the blisters and bedrock letter vander wrote to silco. stuff about how it wasn't a good enough apology. it's actually rlly confusing to me bc watching it, i thought it wasn't meant to be an apology?

it kind of mirrors something my friend and i do when one of us is upset about something the other did. we don't get to see each other super often unless we're actively making time to, so we will text that we're sorry and ask to see them in person so we can actually communicate.

vander's letter reminds me of that. reading it, i thought he was trying to get silco to come see him so they could actually talk to each other and he could really apologize. a letter isn't good enough to get your emotions across.

i did a bit of a breakdown of the letter, not sure if it's very good though lol

"I’ve looked everywhere, but it’s clear you don’t want to be found."

he's been looking for silco so he can apologize personally. this isn't his plan a. this is what he has to do bc he can't find silco and he can't apologize the way he wants until silco allows himself to be found.

"God I’m shit at this. I’m sorry. When she died…I lost my head."

he acknowledges this isn't going to sound very good, because again, this wasn't how he wanted to apologize. it's still not how he wants to apologize. he tries to explain himself hoping silco can use it to see where he was coming from and calm down enough to be willing to see him in person.

"I told myself what I did to you was for the greater good, that you deserved it, but the dirt was on both our hands."

he acknowledges he was in the wrong and that his personal justification in that heated moment was flawed. he's saying that originally, he thought silco was the reason for everything that happened, the reason felicia died, but now that he's cleared his head somewhat, he knows it was just as much his fault as silco's.

"Anyways, you know where to find me. Blisters and bedrock. V."

he extends the offer to reach out, knowing he's not going to find silco unless silco wants to be found. he also adds a sentimental touch to it with the blisters and bedrock part, knowing it's symbolic of the relationship they had before what happened and hoping that relationship can be rebuilt.

and as we saw from the au, it could be rebuilt. silco just had to find the letter and decide to meet vander.

honestly i thought this was a rlly nice letter considering i didn't see it as an apology. a letter is never going to be enough to sincerely convey your emotions and really communicate with the other party. it's not like a face-to-face conversation.

i assumed from scenes with vander that he's someone who likes spending time with the people he loves. he likes being at the last drop with the people he cares for, music playing and drinks pouring. it stands to reason that he'd prefer in-person conversation over a letter.

idk maybe i'm way off base with this one lmk

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rlly confused at people who are upset about jinx walking away at the end of arcane. what else was she supposed to do?

she reconciled with vi, yes, but she’s not gonna stay with vi and caitlyn in piltover. we saw how piltovans are still incredibly prejudiced against zaunites (them looking angry with sevika’s presence on the council) and i doubt they’d be all kumbaya about jinx, a known ex-terrorist, running around topside.

she can’t return to zaun. there’s too much memory of the things she’s lost. the rebels would likely want her to be their hero and lead the revolution, and her walking away is her refusing to do that.

we know at the end it’s not all peace, let’s hold hands and sing. zaun and piltover have a long way to go. the cycle of violence between them hasn’t ended and it won’t for a while. this is jinx’s way to walk away from that.

she’ll never have peace and time to be happy if she’s still in piltover or zaun. she needs to leave that behind so she can heal. everything there is a painful reminder of everything she’s done and everything she’s lost.

idk if anyone else has alr answered this or whatever but I’m rlly wondering, what else was jinx supposed to do? the ending served both her and vi. she knew vi was never going to have the space to choose herself as long as jinx was there. vi is like that. pls lmk

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intro

hi gang! my name is saph, any pronouns, i require a medium sized enclosure and appropriate enrichment, won’t bite unless threatened.

buzzing in arcane pretty much constantly, feel free to send asks about it! i like basically everything. currently working on arcane warrior cats au :)

i write sometimes when i feel like it… greatbananaboat on ao3

i enjoy hitting characters with the deafinator! i love putting my silly characters through it.

organization for some of my more common types of posts below the cut :D

arcane warrior cats au (tag: #arcane x warrior cats au)

part 1: the piltovan council

part 2: the enforcers

part 3: the lab

part 4: the lanes kids

part 5: the canaries

deaf arcane character hcs!!! (tags: #deaf caitlyn kiramman!!! & #deaf jinx arcane!!!)

caitlyn likes vi and steb

yes queen! take out those hearing aids!

tossing caitlyn in a blender

caitlyn. drink water. and take a nap.

jinx’s bizarre adventure

#saph's shitty analysis

jinx walking away

emotions in caitlyn's eyes

blisters and bedrock

jayce vs. caitlyn: unpacking prejudice

(also if you do look up a couple of these tags don’t be shocked when i’m literally the only person posting in them. i’m a little unhinged.)